Note #13: The Mark.
The mark has always seemed to me to be a uniqueness, something to be proud of. It was as if I were so special I was branded to be, as if I were destined to change the course of human events.
Alas I see now that that very mark is what held me back from achieving. I felt so special that I didn't strive to preserve and give back, only take as if I were entitled to it all. But now I see that I was branded as a circus animal to dance through hoops and amuze the outsider. I am not special, I am just a toy for him, a rat to run through his maze so to speak.
But he has a new favorite, many new favorites. Uhh, he branded Corvo today. I had 6 arc enhancers on, so I felt it when he got his mark. Corvo's now another rat in the system that I too run through. But maybe I can make-up for lost time and transcend this system, I too becoming like the outsider. I know he'll watch me as I do so, he'll be amused, but I don't care, my mission is now to give back in my old age and prove I was worthy to receive the mark.
Maybe it's a childish waste of time, but it's all I have left to drive me. I will follow it with purpose, wherever the trail leads. It's all I have to keep me from falling like the great whales of the sea; I must keep going.
-Shadow.
