I'm sorry that I didn't updated in a while guys, but I kinda had my own personal crisis. But anyway here is the new chapter. Please let me know what you think by reviewing!

Seth's POV.

This was just a dream. And when I woke up AJ was lying next to me, snuggeld against me, breathing without a machine. With no drip- feeding stuck in her both arms. I would grab her and pull her against my chest so I could feel her strong heartbeat against mine. She would open her eyes and smile at me with those sleepy eyes. Then I would kiss her good morning and she would push me away and begged me for an other 5 minutes. Yeah that was how it was going to be, I just needed to wake up..

But this wasn't a bad dream. This was reality.

- And my worst nightmare.

Oh god what did I do to her, why couldn't I just keep my big mouth shut. Why did I had to tell her that she wasn't worth it?, it was the most terrible thing that I could have said. and I did. Stupid stupid idiot! I thought by myself for the hundred time. What the hell was I thinking?. GODDAMMIT I cursed but swallowed the rest when I heard Sam walk in the small room.

"Any changes?" He asked. I shook my head, no changes. She still laid there linked to a breathing machine, and drip feeding in both arms. One filled with blood, the other with transparent liquid. Sometimes her eyes fluttered a little bit, but she never opened them. I wished she did, and I wished she didn't. I didn't know what to say, what could I say?. Jeez AJ I'm sorry for ruining your life, ripping your heart out and threw it away?. I sighted deep, sucking my lungs full of clean air. We were at the Cullens house now, because Carlisle needed to be there in seconds if something went wrong. I glanced over to sam, He looked tired. He had big black rings under his eyes. He got so much older this last few weeks.

"I just don't understand Seth" He sighted deep, while rubbing his temples.

"I told her she wasn't worth it"

"YOU DID WHAT?"

"I told her she wasn't worth it"

"Why the hell would you do that?, what were you thinking!" Sam screamed while he grabbed my jacket and slammed me into the wall.

"So this is all your fault?, it's your fault that she is lying here?"

I bit my tongue.

I heard how my jaw snapped when his fist hit it, I fell on the floor but didn't even tried to fight back. I think the only reason why he didn't beat me dead was because Emmet en Jasper grabbed him.

"GET OUT!" he screamed, and numb I walked out of the room. He was right, it was my fault. My own stupid fault. I if hadn't been me I would have killed myself already. slowly I walked home where mom was waiting for me. Mom was getting much better by the day, she already was baking cookies and doing the household again.

"Hi mom"

"Hi hunny, how is she?" She asked smiling while turning out the tv. I but my lip and stared at the ceiling.

"The same" I mumbled

"Still no improvement?" She said while she walked towards me and wrapped her arms around me. I shook my head and laid my head against her shoulder.

"I can do this anymore mom" I said while I forced my tears back, I never cried. But now I totally broke down. I was hopeless, I was scared for what was coming. I didn't wanted to loose her, I didn't want to loose my AJ. She was my everything, my sunshine on a rainy day, just my everything.. I stared at the christmas tree, which date was it anyway? I completly lost sense off time the last few weeks

"Mom which day is it?"

"28 december hunny"

almost new year.. Well this was gonna be one heck of a start for the new year. Damn. I hoped I could celebrate that day with her, counting off the seconds and then when the firework started I would have taken her outside, got down on one knee and asked her to marry me. I already got it figured out in my head weeks ago, I even bought a ring. Even though she was only 16, almost 17, and I was 18. I just wanted to do something that would tell her how much I loved her and how bad I wanted that she would be mine for always. But I guessed it was too late now.

AJ's POV.

Slowly I opened my eyes. A horrible feeling made master of me, I was feeling so sick to my stomach and my head felt like it was slammed against the wall for at least thousand times. Then there was the burning pain in my back and shoulders.

"Aj.. can you hear me?" A voice asked way to loud, It hurt in my head and I shook my head in protest. I tried to sit up while I scanned the room. Carlisle was bend over me and shined with a flashlight in my eyes. I blinked in protest and tried to tell him that he needed to fuck off, but there just came no sound out of my throat. Great just great. I also noticed Sam and Emily sitting next to the bed watching me. No Seth.. He wasn't here. I closed my eyes again. Guess I just really wasn't worth it.

Seth's POV.

"Ness, I need to talk to you!" I screamed while I stormed into her room. If i had payed more attention to the sounds that were coming from the room, I probably first knocked. I quickly closed my eyes and tried to get the picture of Jacob and Renesmee making love out of my head.

"never mind" I mumbled while I turned around and closed the door. I walked downstairs where I caught up with Carlisle.

"Seth, I was just planning to call you can you please come with me for a second?"

I nodded and followed him to his office. When I walked in I noticed an other vampire. His eyes were the first thing that I noticed. They were bloody red, like with all the humanblood sucking vampires. His face was perfectly shaped, even though his nose was a little bit too long. His brown hairs were long, longer then AJ's. He wasn't really broad shouldered but that meant nothing.

"Seth this is Jack Krüser" Carlisle introduced me, I offered him a hand and with unexpected calmness he shook it.

"Jack this is Seth Clearwater"

"The imprint?"

"Yes the imprint"

"Seth please sit down" carlisle gestured to one of the chairs, and I sat down. Somehow I knew I didn't liked what was coming.

"Jack isn't here for just a friendly visit" Carlisle started.

"I asked him to come because Jack had a rather interesting gift"

I nodded, waiting for what was coming.

"Jack can erase memories"

That was great news!, but I knew this couldn't be so great as it sounded. That was just impossible, I was to big for fairytales.

"AJ is get worse Seth, she woke up once but she slipped back in her coma right away, and well I don't really know how to put this, but she isn't going to make it this way. She won't even last a week. Our only hope is when she changes in a werewolf the healing proces would go 64% quicker. But like you and I both know. AJ doesn't want to change, and to be honest I don't think that there is someone who could convince her now. She doesn't want to live anymore, and who can blame her?,the poor child has been through so much already, and she is only 16. So if we let Jack erase her memory she won't remember anything Seth, she would be easy to persuade and she would change in a minute. she'll live. Only there is a catch.. Like I already said she won't remember anything. That means she won't remember you, but that isn't the worst thing. Because she can't remember anything she won't remember who she is, The events that created her personality. There is a chance that she won't be the AJ you know anymore. She could act real different, like different things.."

"But she will get a whole new fresh start right?" I asked. Carlisle nodded, and I bit my lip. She deserved this, a fresh start. And besides I would love her anyway, she would always be my imprint.

"But there is a really big chance she won't be your imprint anymore Seth, Or you won't be hers anymore. That is something you need to consider. We already talked to sam and he agreed. But do you?"

There was a chance that I wouldn't be her imprint anymore, or she wouldn't be mine anymore?. I bit my lips even harder and it started to bleed,. I shook my head, I already hurt her so much, she was so damaged from the inside. If she could start all over, have a fresh start.. that was just a great chance for her. I shouldn't be so selfish and ignore that voice in my head that screamed NO. She wouldn't remember me, wouldn't remember our moments together.. but she wouldn't be hurt anymore. I loved her so much there was only one option. I needed to grant her this, even if I wouldn't be her imprint anymore. I would slowly let go off her and let her live her new life. She deserved that.

"Yes"

But before Carlisle or Jack could reply Sam stormed into the room.

"carlisle she's awake again"

everyone jumped up and ran to the emergency room where she was lying. I was there first, I saw her stare at me with cold eyes. I could see that carlisle was right, the rings under her eyes were gettin' bigger and bigger. Her gaunted body was shaking and the bruises weren't decreased for even a millimeter. Her eyes which used to be the eyes of a fighter were hollow and hopeless. She still needed help from that stupid machine to breath, and the drip feeding to stay hydrated. I couldn't wait to see her smile again.. It was all going to be okay now.. for her then. I knew if I wouldn't be her imprint anymore I would shrivel up, but that didn't matter. I just wanted her to be happy.

"AJ can you hear me?" Carlisle asked while he checked her. She nodded, it was barely noticeable. But she nodded.

"Okay, listen AJ I'll get to the point quickly before you'll slip away again. Aj this is Jack." Carlisle pointed to the vampire.

"Jack has the ability to erase memories and we decited that it would be better for you to erase yours, so you can start all over again"

"You'll can start all over AJ, what do you think, wouldn't that be great?" Carlisle asked. AJ slowly lifted her hand.. She took the mouth cap and pulled it off. When she spoke her voice was raspy and squeeky. But still everyone could hear her clearly.

"No"

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