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Edwards Pov...

I couldn't quite comprehend the task ahead of me; to say it was going to be difficult was a complete understatement. Although I was certain it was what I wanted, Charisma was what I wanted, it still didn't ease the deep fear that continued to pull at me.
It wasn't a fear of telling her, of admitting what I did and didn't want, I was afraid of the lack of control I had over myself. I had struggled my whole life to maintain my solid composure, battled everyday with the temptations that attempted in luring me, and now I couldn't rely on myself anymore, there was no longer that want and need to be human, to be...normal or as close to normal as I could possibly get.

I had managed to avoid my family since getting home, or perhaps they had avoided me, either way I was nothing but grateful for the space. I'd text Bella, asking her to come round and see me. I figured here would be the best place for me to see her now, that way if I did lose control at least my family would be here to deal with the situation. I wish I could say honestly that it were Bella's safety I were concerned for. It wasn't though, Charlie was the chief of police and if anything happened to his precious daughter He wouldn't let it go until the culprit had been brought to justice. I didn't fear Charlie, or the police but it would cause me no end of trouble and inconvenience.

I'd showered and changed into black jeans, and black tee shirt, now all there was left to do was wait for Bella. I had already prepared myself for leaving. We had no need for passports, although identity documents may be required, depending on where Charisma wanted to go. I had packed enough money to pay for the human requirements we couldn't avoid, I could always make more if needed, and money was never something I would have to worry myself over.
It was times like this that I detested the constraints of my house, I needed to run, needed freedom. My whole body felt as though it were being forced into submission as I paced back and forth, from one side of my room to the other. As I felt the floor beneath me wearing away my phone vibrated from its place in my pocket. Pulling it out I opened the waiting message from Bella.
"I'm leaving home now, be with you soon. I love you xx"

A feeling of relief and satisfaction swept over me instantly, the sooner I got this over and done with, the sooner I could leave. I didn't have to do this though, I could have just gone, not said a word to anyone. Something sick and twisted inside me wanted this though, wanted to watch her fall apart. It was almost as if the monster inside blamed Bella for her love and understanding, it blamed her for not allowing my release sooner.
I watched as She stepped out of the truck, her hair free and wild, her appearance more relaxed from the last time I'd seen her as she pulled up the zipper to her light grey sweatshirt. The delicate smell of her swept up and through my window, biting down against my hunger I waited, her footsteps echoing up the solid marble stairs, until they stopped outside my door. I listened intently to the shallow breaths she took, her heartbeat increasing, a wild uncontrollable pounding rhythm. Her soft voice sounded cautiously through the solid barrier of my door.
"Edward it's me. Can I uh come in?"
Keeping my stance, back facing the door I struggled out a reply, my voice deep and rough.
"Of course"
I felt the atmosphere change, everything in the room was instantly affected by her scent, and her very presence lingered over me. The air tinged with static and warmth and there it was again, that

urgent and desperate need to drain every last fluid drop of her. Where would that get me though! My family would surely hear her screams, I'd be outcast before I were ready, now was a time to think about myself, what I wanted. The sound of her light footsteps ceased as she took in a deep rugged breath. She was nervous, afraid even but she didn't quite know why. I might not be able to read Bella's thoughts, but I could feel them through every breath she took, hear them with each beat of her heart.
"Bella thank you for coming, I have something to tell you, it shouldn't take long"
She interrupted me, suddenly, her voice no longer soft, the calmness had been replaced by a frantic desperation.
"No! I uh have something I need to say to you first Edward, just please hear me out"
I nodded lightly, my back still turned against her.
"Edward would you please face me! I don't want to talk to your back; I need to look into your eyes"

Bella obviously couldn't read me quite as well as I could her, if she could then she'd realise my whole being was tense and on edge. Squaring my shoulders I turned slowly until my burning eyes caught her saddened gaze. Her dejected pose causing me no feeling of remorse as to what I was about to do. He had almost taken over completely now, there wasn't much of her Edward left, my system was frantically rejecting him.
"Ok Bella say what it is you need to say"

Her eyes averted to the floor as she shuffled uneasily, her bottom lip gripped between her teeth, as the words fell from her in a panicked stutter.
"Everything has changed Edward, your different, I don't know...maybe I am too, I know that me being away isn't easy. But we're meant to be forever no matter what, our love can overcome anything"
Her face steadily rising as the warmth in her hazel eyes drifted searchingly across my face.
"We can still overcome anything...can't we?"

It was time to deliver my cruel blow, and I couldn't help but display the wicked grin that crept over my mouth.
"No Isabella we can't overcome anything at all. Honestly I'm not quite sure on what we based this relationship, but it wasn't something that could last. You were a project Bella, I saw a challenge and I succeeded. You no longer hold any interest for me and its time for me to move on...without you holding me back"
I watched as silent tears tumbled freely from her sullen eyes, every muscle in her face displayed a devastated angle, I watched her very being fall apart, collapse before me. After what seemed to be an eternity she regained composure long enough to whisper faintly.
"What! Why? I don't understand why you're doing this Edward. Is it me being away? I can change that, we...we can be together, I'll come back. Edward I'll do anything for you...anything"
Stepping closer I reached out, watching the glimmer of hope shine in her eyes as I took a strand of her hair between my fingers.

"Oh Bella, my sweet, sweet Bella. You just don't get it do you? I don't want you. And as for you being away, that's only made me realise how little you mean to me. I was wrong Bella. My feelings were never real, this was never real. Now you should go."
Turning my back once more I clenched my jaw tightly, her desperation only made the hunger stronger and I couldn't hold myself together much longer. Her sobbing echoed about the room, and I sensed Carlisle's thoughts, he had heard her anguish and was ashamed for Alice's vision. Little did he realise that wasn't the reason for my actions.
"Edward please...don't do this to me, I can't breathe without you"

She wasn't planning on leaving anytime soon and if I didn't escape the intensity of the situation, I'd maim her this very second. Roughly throwing open the door before me I growled my response before fleeing into the freedom of the woods.

"Bella go home"