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Chapter 13: Bad Romance

~Kelly~

"I woke up and sighed. The day had arrived. Matt was going to have to go back to his wife. I wouldn't wake up with him in my bed tomorrow.

I turned on my side and watched him sleep. He looked even more beautiful when he slept. I brushed some hair out of his eyes, tempted to kiss him. He would soon tell Naama about us at least. Soon, he would be solely mine.

His eyes slowly fluttered open, and he smiled at me. "Good morning, Beautiful. What a wonderful sight to wake up to.

I grinned. "Good morning and ditto."

He smiled, then took my face between my hands and kissed me sweetly.

We continued to kiss, and soon, our sweet kissing turned to passionate kissing. He was on top of me, his hands roaming up my body.

I moaned, and broke one of the kisses. "Mm, you have no idea how much I want to do this, but Hermés will be up soon, and we certainly can't let him see us like this."

"Do you hear him up now?" Matt asked, his hands slowly traveling up my chest.

I bit my bottom lip. He sure knew how to get what he wanted. "No, but he could be up at any moment."

"Well, there is one way to fix that." Matt got up out of bed and locked the door. I admired the view as he did so. He then climbed back into bed and took his position back on top of me. He brushed his lips against my left ear. "Now we can have our fun, and he won't be able to walk in on us."

"I don't know," I said, a little unsure.

"Come on, please?" He kissed down the side of my neck, his hand slowly trailing down my stomach. "Pretty please?"

I sighed. How could I ever say no to him? "All right, fine. But if my son wakes up and comes to the door, I don't care where we're at, we're stopping."

He started kissing between my breasts. "Deal."

"And we have to be quiet. I don't want him hearing anything he shouldn't be hearing either," I added sternly.

His mouth moved to my left breast, and then my right. I moaned, closed my eyes, and tangled my fingers in his hair.

He gently covered my mouth. "Deal, now can we please just get to it?"

I smiled, and moved his hand out of the way. "It's all on you, baby."

"Mm, I believe I'm the one that's on you," he teased.

"Are we going to talk all day or are we—"

He cut me off with his mouth on mine while entering me.

I moaned, trying to keep it as quiet as possible. It wasn't an easy feat. He was so incredible. I swear he got better every time we made love.

He placed a finger to my lips to quiet me, then placed my legs around his waist.

I gently dug my fingers into his back and tightened my legs around his waist.

He moaned into this kiss, and firmed up his thrusts.

I buried my face into his neck to try to muffle my moans. I was so close. It never took long with Matt. He always was so quick to bring me to my climax.

"I'm just about there," he murmured in my ear.

"Mm, me too," I murmured back.

Suddenly, there was a knock on the door. "Mommy? I'm hungry!"

Matt groaned against my neck.

I smiled. "Remember the rules," I said to him quietly. Then, more loudly, and to my son this time, "I'll be right there, Sweetie. Go watch some cartoons, and I'll be there in a minute."

"Okay," he said.

Matt and I were quiet while we waited for his footsteps to retreat. When they did, Matt looked at me. "I'm so close, and I know you are too. Please, can we finish?"

I sighed. Like I said, I could never say no to him. "All right, but keep it down."

"Don't you need me to keep it up?" he joked.

I laughed. "Just shut up and make me come."

His eyes got that lustful look in them again, and went about doing just that.

~Matthew~

"Mm, that was incredible! Is it just me, or does our love making get better every time we make love?" I asked, gently kissing Kelly's shoulder after our lovemaking.

She grinned. "It really does."

I kissed over her breasts. "I want more."

She moaned, her fingers gripping my hair a bit. "I do too, but you know we can't. Hermés is waiting for me."

"But it's only been five minutes, and a cartoon is generally a half hour," I said, though I knew it was pointless. Kelly wasn't going to keep her kids waiting.

She smiled at me. "I'm sorry." She took my face between her hands and kissed me hard and passionate. "I have to get Helena up and nurse her, then cook Hermés his breakfast. I want more too, but we can't. Don't worry though—we have the rest of our lives for more."

I kissed her to hide my uncertainty. She seemed to be under the impression that I was going to leave my wife for her, when, in reality, I wasn't quite sure what I wanted to do yet. I didn't want to get rid of either of them.

"Until then, I suggest you go take a cold shower." She smirked at me, then gave me one more kiss. "I'll cook you something too. I don't want Hermés to know you stayed the night. You never know what he might mention to Daniel, then I'll have to deal with Daniel's B.S. even more. So, if you would, when you're done with your shower, please pretend like you just got here?"

I nodded. "Will do." I kissed her.

She smiled, and kissed me one more time before getting out of bed and putting on some underwear and a nightgown. "I love you."

"I love you too," I said.

I watched her unlock the door, then leave the room, shutting the door behind her.

I sighed, then lay back in bed, my head propped up on my hands. "What are you going to do, Matt? Hm?" I asked myself out loud.

I guess, all I could think of to do for now was to continue being with both of them, and try my best to hide my affair from my wife. I know Penn wouldn't approve, but, as mature as he was, he was just a kid. He didn't have the experience yet to know about these kind of things.

I got out of bed and grabbed some clean clothes. I then headed into the bathroom to take my shower.

Moment later, as the warm water rushed down over my body, I tipped my face to the water. It felt good against my skin. Something about water always made me feel better. I knew what I was doing to my wife was more than wrong. It was a sin, plain and simple. But I just couldn't get myself to give up Kelly! I loved her so much, and the past week had been so incredible. I wished we had another week together. Yet, I couldn't imagine leaving my wife. We had a beautiful daughter together after all. Naama was such a beautiful, sweet person. She didn't deserve to be cheated on. She had such a good heart. She was funny, she got my jokes... She was always there to support me when I needed her to. The truth was, I didn't deserve either of them. Unfortunately for me, the truth also was that I couldn't give either of them up. I would go on with this charade for as long as I had to. Why choose between then two if I didn't have to?

It was a messed up way of thinking, but that can I say? I was a man in love, and a man in love doesn't always think clearly, or in my case, sanely.

~Kelly~

"This place is a mad house," I said as Matt, the kids, and I walked into Chuck E. Cheese's.

Matt grinned. "Lucky for us, we love kids."

I nodded and smiled. "True."

"We got up to the counter, and I looked at the menu. "They don't have much organic food here. They have salads, and that is about as organic as they get." I was only slightly complaining. On the inside, I was happy that Matt loved my son enough to want to take him somewhere he knew Hermés would love.

"Ah, come on, Kel. Let's just order a pepperoni pizza. It has meat, dairy, vegetables, and bread. It's healthy! You're only missing the fruit, but you can order the kids fruit punch, and there you go—all four food groups!" Matt said with a smile.

I rolled my eyes. "Tomatoes are a fruit, so we're missing the vegetable."

"We can get some shredded carrots from the salad bar," Matt said with an amused grin.

I laughed, and shook my head. "Fine, order the pepperoni."

Matt grinned even wider, then did just that.

I supposed I didn't have to be a total stickler. It wasn't going to kill me or the kids to have a couple slices of pizza. Well, Helena was just drinking her bottle anyway, so I didn't even have to worry about her yet. Besides, pizza did sound good, as much as I hated to admit it.

After we ordered, we got our drinks, then found a seat.

"Mommy, can I go play games?" Hermés asked, the little cup of tokens in his tiny hand.

"I have to feed your sister first," I said.

"I can take him if you don't mind," Matt offered.

"Yah! New Daddy can take me!" Hermés said excitedly.

I laughed. "Well, I can't turn down such an excited little boy. Go ahead! Remember not to cut people in line!" I said to my son.

"Aw, but that's the best part!" Matt joked.

I laughed. "Behave!"

Matt gave me a meaningful look, then took my son's hand and let Hermés lead him over to the ski ball game.

I took out Helena's pre-prepared bottle, and began to feed her. I smiled as I watched Matt and my son head over to the game. Matt was the only man I trusted with my son besides my brother. I didn't even trust Daniel as much as I trusted Matt.

I sighed as I couldn't help but think again how much more perfect life would be if Hermés and Helena were Matt's instead of Daniel's. Lord knows he'd be a much better father for them. Don't get me wrong, Daniel was good to my kids, but there was more to being a father than just being good with the kids. You had to be a good man in general, and I just didn't see Daniel as a good man anymore. He was so unlike Matt. Matt was such a good man and then some.

Of course one could argue that he wasn't a good man because he was cheating on his wife—especially when his wife had done nothing to deserve being cheated on.

But, I was the one he was cheating with, so all I saw was the perfect man that I was undeniably, irrevocably in love with.

~Matthew~

A half hour later, Hermés and I came back to the table with a regular sized Chuck E. Cheese stuffed animal and a pint sized Chuck E. Cheese stuffed animal.

Kelly smiled when she saw us arrive. "I was starting to worry. The pizza cam five minutes ago, and you guys were still gone."

"It takes a while to earn enough tickets for a decent prize," I said, sliding in the booth across from Kelly.

"Look what we won!" Hermés said to her excitedly. He held up his Chuck E. Cheese.

I gave Helena (who was sitting in her high chair) her smaller Chuck. E. Cheese.

Helena smiled, and put one of its ears into her mouth.

Kelly smiled. "Wow, those are cool! I didn't think those tokens could get you that many tickets though." She got out to let Hermés slide into the booth, then she sat down beside him.

I smiled guiltily. "Well, I kind of bought him some more tokens. I'm sorry. I should have asked you first if it was okay." I knew how some mothers didn't want their kids excessively spoiled. I couldn't help it though. I was used to spoiling kids—I spoiled my daughter way more than I should.

Kelly grinned. "It's okay. I think its sweet how good you take care of my kids. At least let me pay you back for the extra tokens."

I shook my head, and took two slices of pizza. "Don't you dare. They are a gift."

She shook her head, but continued smiling. "Well, thank you." She turned to her son. "Tell Matthew thank you."

Hermés grinned. "Thank you, Matthew."

I grinned back at him. "You're very welcome, Hermés."

Kelly helped Hermés get a slice of pizza, then she grinned at me.

I grinned back at her, and inconspicuously put my hand over hers.

She squeezed my hand meaningfully, then went back to helping Hermés.

I was torn yet again, for I could never imagine giving her up. Yet, I could never imagine giving my wife up. I wished I could just make up my darn mind. Maybe when my wife came back things would be more clear.

A man could hope.

~Kelly~

"Well, this is it, I guess," I said to Matt as we stood in the kitchen.

We were back from lunch, and it was time for him to go pick up his wife and daughter.

"I'm going to miss having you around," I said, my arms around him.

He kissed me. "It won't be forever. I'll be back before you know it. And we go back to work tomorrow, so we'll see each other then, right?" He smiled. I figured to try to make me feel better.

I smiled too, even though I didn't feel much like smiling. "True."

He kissed me again. "Don't worry, baby—we'll be together soon. I promise."

This made me feel a little bit better. He would leave his wife soon, and then I'd never have to share him again.

I wrapped my arms around him, and we kissed passionately for a few minutes before he gently pulled away. "I have to go now or I'll be late."

I nodded. "All right."

We kissed again, then we headed into the family room, where Hermés and Helena were watching cartoons.

"I have to go now, but I'll see you guys later, okay?" Matt said to them.

Hermés held out is arms. "I'll miss you."

Matt walked over and hugged him. "I'll miss you too." He kissed his cheek. I'll see you soon, I promise!"

Hermés smiled. "Okay."

Matt then kissed Helena's cheek. "See you later, Sweetie Pie."

He stood back up and kissed my cheek before hugging me tight. "I love you."

"I love you too," I said, gently rubbing his back and never wanting to let him go.

He looked at me, then, with a sigh, he turned and headed for the door. "I'll see you tomorrow."

I nodded, and held the door open for him. "Tomorrow," I agreed.

He then left, and I sighed as I watched him disappear. If only seeing him tomorrow meant something other than just as work. I shut the door, then sat down on the couch with my son to watch cartoons with him and Helena, and to try to cheer myself up. I could suddenly hear that guy Mr. Moseby from the show Suite Life On Deck saying his trademark words. "Good luck with that!"

~Matthew~

I saw my wife grin wider than I'd ever seen her grin before as she ran to me, pushing my daughter's stroller with my daughter inside it as she did so.

I grinned, and ran toward her as well.

She stopped pushing the stroller and ran into my arms.

I took her into my arms and we kissed.

"Oo, I missed you so much!" she said to me.

"I missed you too, Sweetie." I kissed her again. "So, how was your flight?"

"It was fine. We didn't even have any turbulence. Ugh! I'm just so happy to be back in your arms! Chicago was a blast, and I enjoyed seeing Ashley again, but there is no place like being back in your arms." She hugged me tighter for emphasis.

"Mm, and there's no place like being in your arms," I said, ignoring the images in my head of being in Kelly's arms.

"You'll have to come to Chicago with me next time. I know you'd love it there. Now that I've been there, I can show you around!" Naama grinned at me.

I grinned as well. "Sounds like a plan!" I winked at her. I then remembered our daughter, and knelt down in front of her stroller. "And how is my beautiful daughter? Were you good for your mother?"

Aven smiled, and reached her arms out to me. "Dada!"

I laughed, and picked her up. "Mm, I don't even care if you were bad. I'm just glad to have you back!" I kissed her cheek, and she smiled again.

Naama smiled too as she watched us. "She was a gem. We have such a good little girl! Most kids her age would be fussy or whiny on the trip, but she was only fussy when she was hungry or tired. Even then, it wasn't often."

I kissed Aven's cheek. "You are a good girl! You're my sweet baby girl though, and I wouldn't expect anything less!"

Naama smiled, and put her arm around my waist. "Do you want to go home and celebrate me being back? Aven's due for her nap, so..." she trailed off.

I grinned. "Let's go!"

She grinned too, and grabbed the stroller. We then headed to find her's and Aven's bags so we could get home and "celebrate", just as she wanted.

Again, I was forced to ignore my thoughts as visions of all the times I had "celebrated" with Kelly tried to fill my mind. I forced thoughts of my wife into my head instead. That was the way it should be. Or at least the way it needed to be for now.

~Kelly~

I was so happy to be going to work the next day. The night before had been torturous. Matt hadn't even called me. I knew he must be busty making love to his wife and welcoming her back home. It was so hard to sleep at night with Matt not beside me, and knowing that he was with his wife, more than likely making love to her as I thought about him.

Now that it was morning, however, I had a new outlook. He was gong to break up with her. I just had to put up with it a little bit longer, then he would be all mine again—this time for good.

When I arrived at work, I looked for Matt. It was sure going to be good to hold him in my arms again—even if it could only be as Lily and Rufus. Even so, I was sure we could manage to sneak a little time in to hug or even kiss as Kelly and Matt. Lunchtime would be a great time for that. I smiled at the thought.

My smile quickly turned to a frown, however, when I saw Matt standing on the set of Lily's apartment with Naama. They were laughing together, and looking like a perfectly happy couple.

Jessica and Ed were nearby, cooing over Aven, who was lying in her stroller.

My heart instantly sank. So much for my time alone with Matt. Well, Naama couldn't be on set while we were taping at least. I was hoping she was soon leaving. It would be too awkward for Matt and I to kiss even in character with his wife watching us the whole time.

I took a deep breath and slowly let it out as I walked over to them.

"Hello, Matthew," I said, trying to make my tone sound nonchalant enough so that Naama didn't suspect that he and I had just spend a hot, passionate week together while she and Aven were gone.

Matt gave me a smile, but it wasn't the genuine smile I had been used to getting from him. "Hey, Kelly. Did you enjoy your day off yesterday?"

I nodded, feeling weird. "Yeah, I took the kids to Chuck E. Cheese's for lunch. They really enjoyed it." I figured Matt hadn't told his wife that he had went with us. He was acting like he hadn't even seen me yesterday.

"That's nice. Naama and I will have to take Aven sometime. I'm sure she'd enjoy it."

I nodded. "Yes, I'm sure she would." I turned to Naama, so as not to be rude. "Hello, Naama. How was Chicago?"

Naama smiled. "Hello, Kelly. It was great! Thank you for asking. It's a really beautiful city. Aven and I had a lot of fun. Even so, we were both happy to be back with Matthew. I missed my husband, and she missed her father." Naama placed her hand over Matt's chest and gently rubbed his chest before kissing him passionately on the mouth.

I looked away. It felt like a dagger to my heart seeing her kissing him like that. I know she was his wife, but still it hurt. I'm not going to lie.

"So," I said, once Naama had finally broken the kiss, "are you just stopping by for a visit before taping starts?"

Naama shook her head and grinned. "No, I'm staying for the whole thing. I just spend a week away from my husband, so I don't want to spend another moment without him!"

I put on a grin, as much as it pained me to do so. I looked at Matt, but he looked away. I felt another stab to the heart.

"All right, everyone, off to wardrobe!" Josh called out.

"I'll be waiting here. I have to feed Aven now anyway," Naama said to Matt.

Matt nodded. "All right." He kissed his wife's lips, then his daughter's cheek. "Daddy will be right back," he said to Aven.

Aven smiled.

He and I then headed to wardrobe.

"I thought you were gonna call me last night," I said.

"I'm sorry. I got wrapped up with Naama," Matt said.

My stomach suddenly felt sick. I could only imagine how he got "wrapped up" with her. "So, are you going to tell her about us?" I asked.

Matt looked at me, looking a little confused. "Why would I do that?"

I paused for a moment. "I just thought you were going to tell her so that we could be together."

Matt sighed. "Kel, I haven't made that decision yet. I love you, but she is still my wife. I need more time to think. Please, just give me the time I need, all right?"

I nodded, more than a little hurt. "All right. Sure. I completely understand." It wasn't a hundred percent the truth, but I knew I had no choice but to understand.

He sighed, and looked in my eyes. "I'll find away to be with you again. I promise."

I nodded. "All right."

He walked on ahead of me then.

I sighed. The words were nice, but I was suddenly getting a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach that he wasn't going to follow through with them. I couldn't lose him though, I just couldn't! I had to do something to ensure that he was stayed mine. The question was, what. I'd think of something. I had to. I knew I had to do it fast, or I'd lose him, and losing him just wasn't an option for me.

~Matthew~

I felt horrible. I saw the hurt look on Kelly's face when I told her I hadn't made up my mind yet. I just wanted to kick myself! I wasn't being fair to her. I knew that. It was hard though. When Naama had told me she wanted to come to work with me today because she had missed me too much when she was in Chicago, I certainly couldn't tell her no. But, now, I had no idea how I was going to find a way to be alone with Kelly. Well, I could if I told Naama the truth, but that certainly wasn't an option. I could lose Naama if I told her that. I knew I should be honest with her, and I had thought about telling her. But, when it came down to it, I knew that telling her would be stupid. Why should I tell her something that was just going to hurt her? I just couldn't!

I'd have to think of another way to be alone with Kelly. Maybe I could tell my wife that Penn wanted me to come over for a little man-to-man talk. Yes, that might work. Good ol' Penn. He had worked as an excuse before, and he could work as an excuse now.

Work had been a little awkward to say the least that day. Every time Rufus and Lily had to kiss, it was awkward. With my wife watching us, I suddenly felt like I was cheating right in front of her.

Needless to say, I was more than glad for the work day to be done.

I didn't even say goodbye to Kelly when I left because I kept getting paranoid that my wife would figure things out. I didn't even want to look at Kelly even more, for fear of my wife seeing how I looked at Kelly and figuring out about the affair.

On the way home from work, Naama and I stopped at the grocery store. Ashley had given her a recipe for Mango chicken, and she was eager to make it for me.

"You're going to love it I'm sure!" she said later, as she cooked it for me in our kitchen.

I came up behind her and hugged her. "I'm sure I'll love anything you make for me."

She turned her head to face me. "Aw! You're too good to me." She kissed me.

My heart sank a little. If only she knew.

Dinner had been delicious, and the chocolate raspberry cake she had made for dessert was even better.

She nursed Aven after dinner, then she got her ready for bed.

Once Aven was in bed, I sang to her a lullaby I had written for her.

Aven smiled, and hugged her little teddybear as I sang.

Her eyes were slowly fluttering closed by the time I finished the song.

I pulled the covers up over her and kissed her cheek. "Goodnight my princess."

Naama kissed her too, then turned her night light on.

As we headed out of the room with our arms around each other, I flicked on the monitor, and Naama flicked off the lights.

I gently closed the door behind us.

"Do you want to walk the dogs? They should be done eating by now. I have a surprise for you when you get back," Naama said to me with a sly smile.

I grinned. "All right."

I leashed the dogs then went out to walk them. I wondered what Naama's surprise for me would be. No matter what it was, I was sure it would be good. I also knew I didn't deserve it, yet I would accept it like I did. I was a jerk and I didn't even care.

My cell phone rang, and I saw that it was Kelly. I answered as soon as I saw it was her. "Hey, Baby." I couldn't help but smile.

Kelly's tone was dripping with seduction. "Hey. I was just calling to tell you that, I'm going to be taking a bubble bath in a bit, and could sure use someone to wash my back, or even other parts of my body. Even if you can get out for just a short while, I promise to make it worth your while. Or, we could skip the bubble bath, and I could put on one of those whipped cream bikinis. You know where nothing but whipped cream is covering my breasts and my...lower region. You up for it?"

I moaned. The though of her in a whipped cream bikini like the girl in Varsity Blues was getting me beyond turned on. "I'll see what I can do," I said. I could use the Penn excuse. Naama would believe it.

Kelly sounded satisfied with herself. "I'll be waiting." She hung up before I had a chance to say anything more, so I hung up as well.

As soon as the dogs were finished doing their business, I went back into the apartment and unleashed them.

"Naama?" I asked, looking for her. I was going to tell her Penn had called me on my cell when I was walking the dogs and needed to see me right away.

"I'm in here, honey!"

I followed the sound of my wife's voice to the bedroom. She was sitting on the bed in a black neglige, holding a present.

I smiled. "Wow, you look amazing!" She did. She looked so incredibly sexy.

She handed me the present. "It's from Aven and I. We got it for you in Chicago. I forgot to give it to you last night."

I sat down next to her on the bed, and, with a smile, took the gift from her.

I opened it up and saw that it was a light blue T-shirt that had World's Greatest Husband and Father written on it. It had Aven's handprints on it in red paint inside a heart. It also had my wife's lip prints inside the heart around Aven's handprints.

She grinned at me. "Do you like it?"

I looked at her. "Like it? Baby, I love it! Come here!" I pulled her in for a deep and passionate kiss. I was touched. World's greatest husband and father? How could I go to be with Kelly after that? I needed to stay with my wife tonight.

I broke the kiss. "I have to go to the bathroom, but you wait right here. I'll be right back, then I'm going to give you a proper thank you."

Naama lay back on the bed and grinned. She propped herself up on her elbows. Don't be long. I'll be waiting."

I licked my lips. "I'll be quick!"

I then slipped into the bathroom and dialed Kelly's number.

"You on your way?" she purred into the phone.

I kept my voice low so that my wife couldn't overhear. "I'm sorry, Kel, but I can't make it tonight. Maybe tomorrow."

"Dare I ask why?" Kelly asked.

I hesitated. "I think it's best I don't tell you."

There was no denying the disappointment in Kelly's voice. "I get it." She sighed. "I'll see you tomorrow then I guess."

"I'm sorry, Kel," I said, honestly meaning it.

"Me too," Kelly replied, before hanging up.

I sighed, then hung up as well. I really was sorry. I hated hurting Kelly. It was torture. But, right now, my wife needed me. Naama was still my wife, after all, and as long as I was still with her, she needed to be my top priority.

I turned off my phone, then flushed the toilet and ran the water for show before heading out to enjoy the rest of the night with my wife.