Chapter Thirteen- "I Forgive You"

Kensi walked into the NCIS building and straight to Hetty's desk. She knew the first person she should talk to is Deeks, but some how she ended up here instead. She decided that she'd talk to Hetty, then Callen and Sam and then find Deeks. She had a lot to talk to him about and decided to leave that till last. Once she got to Hetty's desk she sat down in the chair in front of the desk. Hetty was looked up from her work.

"Ms. Blye," Hetty said.

"I wanted to apologize," Kensi said. "I put this team in danger and at risk. It will never happen again."

"It won't," Hetty said.

"I am working on my issues," Kensi said to her. "I have a lot to get through and I will get through it all."

"I know you will," Hetty said. "I can not have my Agents put in that kind of danger again. Until farther notice you are suspended. Until Nate tells me other wise, I don't want to see you back here. Is that clear?"

"It's clear," Kensi said. "I understand this is what you need to do and I respect it." Kensi knew this was the best choice and was going to work her way back to being a part of this team. No matter what it took.

"This team needs you Miss Blye," Hetty said.

"I know," Kensi said. Kensi then got up from the chair. "I'm not going to let any of you down again."

"I know you won't," Hetty said. Kensi gave her a small smile before walking about from her desk and into the bullpen. Callen and Sam were already at their desks. Kensi figured Deeks would be in soon, so she had to talk to them before he came in.

"Can I talk to you two?" Kensi said. Callen and Sam looked up and over at Kensi.

"Yeah Kens, what's up," Callen said.

"I wanted to apologize for the way I have been acting the last couple of months," Kensi started to say. "I was unprofessional, I put both of you at risk and I let my emotions cloud my judgment."

"Kensi…" Sam started to say.

"Let me finish," Kensi said to him. "I haven't yet figured it all out myself, but when I do I'll be sure to tell you both. I guess I never really expected to care about Deeks so much. So when he left it just really felt like he was running from me. So I pulled away and did what we do best, hide who we are. I just want you both to know how sorry I am, and to know that I never meant for any of this to happen. I just hope you both can forgive me." Kensi said as she started to cry. She tried so hard to hold back the tears, but he was just no use.

"Kensi," Sam said. He got up from his chair and walked over to her. He pulled her into a hug.

"What he said," Callen said as he got up from his chair. He walked over to Kensi and after Sam pulled away Callen pulled her into a hug. Kensi pulled away from the hug and they all let out a little laugh.

"I am so grateful to have you guys in my life," Kensi said.

"We feel the same way," Sam said to her with smile.

"Hetty's suspended me and I understand, I do," Kensi said. "But I will be back. That's a promise."

"We're going to hold you to that," Callen said.

"Plus who's going to keep shaggy in line?" Sam said jokingly.

"Speaking of Deeks, where is he?" Callen said.

"Maybe he's running late," Kensi said.

"Mr. Deeks," Hetty voice came from behind Kensi. They all turned to see Hetty standing there. Kensi heart dropped. Al she could think was Deeks was shot again, or he was gone. Everything that just happened was for nothing. "Is working a case with the LAPD. Mr. Callen, Mr. Hanna Eric will brief you." Without another word Callen and Sam headed up stairs.

"He's fine right?" Kensi said.

"He is fine Miss. Blye," Hetty said. "I wish I could tell you more…"

"I understand," Kensi said. "I should be going anyways." Kensi then walked past Hetty and headed out of the building.

Deeks paced back and forth in the living room of the safe house. He had gotten a call from Detective Alvarez about something that had gone horribly wrong. Deeks told him to meet at the safe house and he's be there. Once he got there, Alvarez was treating a wound. Alvarez then explained to him how he thinks his cover was blown and the operation might be screwed. So Deeks had talk to their boss and figured out a way to save the case.

"How stupid could you be Alvarez?" Deeks snapped at him. Alvarez was sitting on the couch, just watching Deeks.

"I cared about her," Alvarez said. "I wasn't thinking."

"You're damn right you weren't thinking," Deeks snapped at her. "It might have screwed up years of undercover work?"

"You don't think I know that?" Alvarez snapped back at him.

"Clearly you don't, or you won't have gone to her house to begin with," Deeks said. He stopped pace and just looked right at Alvarez. "Just be thankful, Bates is letting me help with this or you'd most likely be dead."

"I want to make this right," Alvarez said. "With you, Bates and with Kensi."

"I don't think you can," Deeks said. He was talking about Kensi more then the other. "By showing your hand like that, you showed her you're just another person lying to her."

"Some how I think you are talking from experience," Alvarez said to him.

"By helping you right now, I think I have screwed up my chance," Deeks said. "Just when we were trying to find out way back."

"Look man if I can do anything to help I will," Alvarez said. "I don't want this to screw things up for you."

"I will figure it out," Deeks said. "We always do," Deeks said under his breathe. "Right now we need to fix this. There is so much evidence and to many years of work put into this operation to let it blow up now."

"Where do we start?" Alvarez asked.

"Where we always do," Deeks said.

AN: Sorry took so long for a new chapter, got a lot of things going on. I said Carlos would be back and didn't mean for this but then I got this idea. This will play out the next couple of chapters. I find it interesting, in the show Kensi leaves and I wrote in my story that Deeks is the one that leaves kind of. I mean on missions. Very sad with tonight's NCISLA, but Daniela and Eric did amazing. Excited and worried to see what is to come.