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Chapter 13
Making Clarifications
Edward's POV
Bella pushed away from me and ran out of the house.
How could she believe that it would be her fault if something happened to us? Bella is so important to us, to me, and I would do anything for, including giving my life to keep her alive.
I made my way to the door when I felt a hand on my shoulder, it was Jacob.
'Wait Edward, I'll go with you!' he thought to me.
I turned my head slightly and nodded.
"Be careful with her, she's very sensitive right now in all this turmoil. Bella really cares for other and she believes that everything that's been happening right now is all because of her. She needs someone there to comfort her right now," Alex informed us.
"Don't worry, she'll be okay with us," Jacob told everyone and we headed out the door to find Bella.
As soon as we made it out the door, Jacob began to talk, "Do you think she's okay?"
I didn't answer right away. I wasn't really sure if Bella was okay right now, she seemed so hurt, especially when she mentioned that Maria.
"I'm not sure Jacob, she seems very fragile right now. I've never seen Bella in this behaviour before. She used to be so lively, so bright, but now, through this whole ordeal, she's changed, practically traumatized to what she is now.
"We really do need to be there for her, to help her out through everything."
"Yeah,"
It was silent while we searched for Bella. I tried to smell her, but it was hard to find her in this place where it smelled almost completely of Bella everywhere.
"Look! She's over there by the lake!" Jacob exclaimed.
And there she was, floating above the lake, was Bella sitting cross legged over the lake, on top of a geyser, holding an open lighter in one hand and Bella holding her other hand out while she played with tiny fireballs, making it float around her head in various directions.
Jacob and I ran towards the beach which our actions remained unnoticed by Bella.
"HEY BELLA!" Jacob shouted.
That caught her attention because she stared at us in surprise and her fireballs and water geyser disappeared and she fell backwards into the water with a small scream.
"BELLA!" I shouted out for her, also inwardly chuckle at her actions, they were very, Bella-like. Her antics were one of the reason I fell in love with her.
She immerged from the waters moments later. Wiping away the water from her eyes she glared at us.
"Whoops…" Jacob muttered.
Bella lifted herself so that she was now standing on top of the water. She was soaking wet, from head to toe, water dripping from her hair and clothes.
I had to really try to hold in my laugh at the sight of her.
Bella used the wind to dry herself off and once she was dry, she looked over at us again, staring malovently at us, and walked over to us at a agonizingly slow pace, making the yelling we were about to receive so much more worse.
She stopped at the shore, right in front of me and Jacob.
"I did NOT care for that!" she shouted at us, enunciating every word in that sentence. I winced at the anger and bitterness in her voice.
Bella took in a deep breathe and she sat down on the sandy beach, facing towards the lake.
"I'm sorry," she whispered to us, "I didn't mean to break down like that. This is all just so…complicated,"
We sat down on both side of Bella, each taking one of her hands in ours.
"You don't have to apologize loves, it's not your fault," I said, kissing her fingers, then our ring.
"Yeah, I mean, I figure in the situation we're in right now, it can get a little overbearing,"
Bella sighed again, "I guess this is just so much, but I mean I can't put you in danger like that. You've done so much for me, and I'm just making things so much worse for you. I don't deserve you guys, I'm not worth it,"
I moved closer to Bella, wrapping my arm around her waist. I kissed her temple and whispered into her ear, "Bella you are worth so much more,"
I placed my free hand on her chin to have her look at me, "Bella, you were in so much more danger when you stayed with the vampires or the wolves. When you tried to stay human, well in that sense, you risked your life with us everyday and we've put you in near-death situations,"
I kissed her fully on the lips, smiling when I felt her lean into it.
I moved back a bit to let her breathe, "You are worth so much to all of us Bella, and that we love you so much and we'll always be there for you!"
"Yeah Bella!"
She smiled at us, her beautiful smile that I wouldn't trade for anything in the world.
Bella leaned into me and I hugged her closer, while she still held on to Jacob's hand, "Thank you," she whispered to us.
Jacob kissed her palms while I gave her a gentle peck on her head.
We all sat there in silence, reveling in the presence of each other.
Having Jacob here was actually all that bad. He was a great friend to have, especially for Bella when she needs light humor to comfort her whenever I'm not around.
Bella's POV
The sun was soon high over us as we sat at the shore of the lake.
Eventually the silence was broken.
"Bella, is it okay if we can ask a few questions?" Jacob asked,
"That's one, and yes," I said. Edward chuckled.
"Sure, of course," I replied, a bit curious at what more they still wanted to know.
"Well the first thing is your whole vampire, wolf, human thing," Jacob started, "I mean it's so complicated, could you sort of clarify things up for me?" he asked, waving his hands in the air to emphasize his confusion.
I giggled, "Yeah it really is complicated. Uh, let's see how I can explain things properly…" I muttered to myself.
"Ok, well you know about the whole three part soul thing. Well my vampire part requires blood, you know what all vampires require, so I hunt every once or twice a month. My wolf and human parts require food to survive, because well it's food is our energy source.
"I have a beating heart, and a small amount of blood that'll keep my human and blood form alive, but I have a different scent that well alert a vampire or wolf that I am one of them as well.
"I am immortal now, I don't age after I had turned 18 because of the whole soul merging thing,"
"What happened if you didn't use your powers? I mean what would happen to the other souls?" Edward asked me,
"Well I guess they would just sort of fade away. Now that I think about it, it would be so horrible if they did go, because then I would be losing my identity almost.
"Ok so continuning on, I would die like a real vampire, being ripped into pieces and burned, but my heart also needs to stop beating for sure as well, or I'll just heal again. Uh I think that's it."
"HEY GUYS" we heard someone shout.
I turned my head to see everyone else just standing a few feet away from us.
I waved my hand and shouted hi back to them.
"ARE YOU DONE YET!" Emmett shouted,
"NOT YET! COME JOIN US!" I shouted back to them and made their way over to us, creating a little circle on the beach.
Although I didn't understand why we shouted, I'm pretty sure we could've heard each other if we were even whispering…oh well.
"We are just asking Bella here some questions if you would like to join us? If Bella's okay with that," Edward added to the end,
I nodded, "Yeah, no problem. Technically the questions were supposed to happen earlier but I sort of ran out…" I trailed off.
"Think nothing of it Bella," Emily comforted, "We don't blame you,"
"Yes Bella, it wasn't your fault, but we would like to be there with you, to help you fight!" Esme agreed,
I sighed and looked down on the ground, using my hand not in Jacob's grasp, to make little a number eight in the sand.
"I know you want to be there with me, and I really appreciate that. In fact, I'd so happy that I have someone there to help me,"
"But what?" Jared asked,
"But if something ever happened to one of you, I couldn't live with myself,"
I felt a hand grasp my chin and tilt my head up that I was now staring into Edward's beatuiful golden orbs.
"Bella, no matter what happens, we will always be there for you whatever the situation is!" he told me, staring at me with gentle eyes.
I smiled, and he kissed my forehead.
I turned to look at everyone else, "So any other questions?"
"Oh I've got one!" Emmett said, raising his hand in the air.
I gave a quiet laugh, "Yes Emmett, what is it?"
"If you get bit by a vampire, does anything happen?"
"Well if I get bit, I feel the sting of the venom, but since I'm already vampire, nothing should happen to me,"
"Ooh ok,"
"What happened during you're transformation? Do you feel the same pain that vampires feel or that uncomfortable sensation that the wolves get?" Quil asked,
"Well when I was beginning my merging, what it actually is, I was unconsious for a couple of days, but I did manage to make it here safely before I passed. I guess during that time I was asleep, that's when my changes began to take place, the growth and all that. Although if I ever change into a wolf, I don't know how that would feel, I guess it would be the same as you guys, sort of poofing into a wolf form,"
"Bella, you said that even though you weren't completely merged, you still could use a small amount of your power, like the telekinesis thing and all that?" Edward asked me.
I nodded in answer.
"Well how come that in certain near death situations I guess you would call them," he said, and I laughed. Edward smiled at me and continued on, "How come you never use your powers to save yourself, but you broke you vow to yourself to use your powers to save us?"
Of course Edward would be the one to ask this. I smiled up at him and took his hand that wasn't wrapped around my waist.
"Well I didn't use it to save myself because I guess that I didn't think my life wasn't all the important. Don't get wrong, it's not that I didn't want to live anymore, but I figured that it was better to die then to use my powers and let myself fall into the hands of James and the others and act as their key. But when I saw you in danger, I completely forgot about your whole vampire durability and all that, and you're life is so much more important to me than mine," I answered him, gazing into his eyes.
Edward smiled at me, freeing his hand from my hold to place it on my cheek.
"You're life is worth so much more than that, and I would gladly give mine away for yours," he said softly to me, leaning closer to me.
"Well let's hope that you don't lose yours anytime soon," I whispered back, closing the gap inbetween us into a searing kiss.
In the background, I could hear everyone around us, say 'aww'.
It was a passionate moment, even though I felt a bit awkward with everyone else staring, and at that moment, my stomach growled loudly for everyone to hear.
I leaned back, my cheeks firing up immeadiately.
Everyone laughed, "Come on Bella, let's get some food in you!" Alice said, standing up quickly and was by my side in an instance to help me up.
I took the offered hand and she lifted me onto my feet.
When I stood up, a gleam from the sun bounced off my ring into my eye and the engagement reminded me of someone I needed to talk to.
"I've been wanting to learn how to cook! Esme could teach me, she knows how to, and then I could feed it to you!" Alice rambled on, but I was to busy thinking about Jacob to really listen to what she was saying.
"Bella are you listening to me?"
"Hmm, yeah, cooking. Uh Alice, why don't you go ahead, and I'll be there in a second, I just wanted to talk to Jacob for a second,"
Edward and Jacob both turned their heads at me, and I just smiled innocently while Alice gave me a scrutinzing glare, "Don't worry Alice, I'll still eat your cooking, this will only take a moment, I promise. And depending on what you make, who knows how long it could take," I said.
Alice thought about it for a moment, and smiled.
"Ooh I just saw the perfect thing I was going to cook for you and you're going to love it! I need to call Esme! ESME!" Alice shouted, running over towards Esme.
I noticed that Edward's arm was still around my waist and I felt his hold tightened when I was about to walk over to Jacob.
I turned to look at him and gave him a quick kiss, "I'll be fine, I just need to talk to Jacob for a second. If by chance I happen to burn to death in the sun or something, which is unlikely seeing you in all your sparkling glory, and I'm still fine," Because of my human self, I didn't glow like a real vampire, but if you look closely, it was slightly glimmering in the sunlight, but it just looked like I had on body sparkle gel or something.
"Are you sure you'll be alright?" Edward asked, worried.
"Yes Edward, nothing can hurt me here. If I'm gone for longer than fifteen minutes, then you can come for me okay?"
Edward was thoughtful for a moment before he nodded, gave me a swift peck on my lips and walked back towards the house.
I turned around to see Jacob staring out towards the lake.
"Hey" I said to him, placing my left hand on his shoulder.
He reached up to place his hand on top of mine, and when he felt the ring, he turned around to look at me, still holding on to my hand.
His thumb brushed across my ring. His eyes were looking down at it, but I could see the look in his eyes, how they held grief and pain.
"It's Edward, isn't it?" he whispered.
"Yeah," I choked, "it is."
Jacob sighed and let go of my hand, sitting down on the ground.
I kneeled down so that I was face to face with, even though he was looking down at the ground.
I sat down across from him, not exactly looking at him either, "I'm really sorry Jacob. I know you have these feelings for me, but I love Edward and you haven't imprinted on me.
"It may not be a complete myth, it's happened to Sam with Emily, and Jared with Kim, yes I know of Kim, Jared told me a few days ago, but I mean that there's still that someone out there for you Jake!"
I lifted his chin to have him look at me, it was slightly irking me that he was always looking down, "Jake, you're one of the best friends I could ask for, you've always been there for me whenever I needed it. I may not love you in that way, but I still love you, as the big, protective brother and friend I need."
I could feel tears flowing down my cheeks, but I paid them no heed, keeping my attention solely on Jacob.
Jacob looked less pained then before, and I smiled softly at him, "I'm would really love you there at the wedding Jake. Please?"
Jacob smiled back at me, "Of course Bella! I would love to be there!" he replied, engulfing me in a hug.
I hugged him back as tight as I could, "Glad to have you back Jake!"
"Glad to be back Bella. And I'm sorry for acting like that,"
I leaned back to look at him, also wiping away my tears, "It's not your fault Jake, I understand. Now come on, I'm starving," I said, standing up.
Jacob stood up and looked at me, "Since your all vampire-y/wolf-y, how about a race?"
"You're on! Prepare to lose!"
Jacob scoffed at my warning, "Yeah right. Ok, 1, 2, 3, go!"
And we sprinted straight to the house.
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