"Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to you own"
Robert Heinlein
He didn't come home, she had sat up for hours, in her one of a kind designer dress, waiting for him, totally pointless, cause the door never opened, and the only person in the apartment apart from her, was Dorota and after an hour she went home with Coco, after Blair's suggestion. She didn't want anyone to be there but him, and he didn't come. She fell asleep on the couch where she was waiting, still wearing the tight dress with lace on the side, thinking about him.
She didn't dream and woke up early, getting up quickly, hoping to find him in the apartment. She needed him, they needed to talk and fix this mess.
But he hadn't come home, the apartment was completely empty, she was alone.
Guessing he might have stayed with Nate, she grabbed her phone and called Nate, because Chuck's phone had been turned off.
It didn't take Nate long to answer;
"Good Morning Blair" he said into the phone.
"Morning, is he there?" Blair asked hurriedly, while working hard on getting out of the dress.
"he was, he's not anymore" Nate told her.
"where is he?" Blair questioned frustrated, finally getting a hold of the zipper of the dress pulling it down harshly. Not really caring if she broke it.
"he went to see your mother and Cyrus" Nate explained.
"he did what?" Blair asked weirdly, walking into the closet, grabbing a pair of jeans, she hardly ever wore jeans and only owned two pairs but today wasn't like the others days and she wanted to wear jeans.
"he wanted to explain to Cyrus" Nate simply said, sounding quiet annoyed at having to explain all of this to Blair again.
"oh right, I guess that makes sense" Blair said, having a hard time getting into the jeans with only one hand free.
"yea well I was actually sleeping, so if you don't mind" Nate said, hanging up before he got an answer.
Blair didn't even think twice about her hanging up on him; she was finally able to get into her jeans, she then grabbed a simply white t-shirt and black cardigan, pulling it on in a hurry.
And then it overcame her, a wave of sickness, and she just wanted to throw up. She hurried her way to the bathroom, emptying her stomach into the toilet. But once she had thrown up, she was feeling quiet okay again, so she wiped her mouth. Guessing she had probably just eaten something bad.
On the way to the door she pulled her hair, that was still curly from last night, into a ponytail. Deciding make-up would take too long and she needed to get going. In the hall she grabbed a pair of Christian Louboutin boots and her Chloé jacket, pulling it on quickly. She grabbed her Chanel bag off the table and threw her keys into it, opening the door and practically running to the elevator.
People greeter her on the way out but she just ran past them, towards her Aston Martin, getting into it and starting it and she was on her way to her mother's park avenue apartment.
"Charles, what a surprise" Cyrus said as Chuck stepped into the living room the maid had led him too.
"yes well I do believe I owe you an explanation" Chuck said formally, a side effect of being nervous for him.
"ah I see, well I'm willing to listen, have a seat" Cyrus told him, gesturing to the chair opposite the one he was seated in.
"Thanks" Chuck said before sitting down, he had spent the whole night planning this out, he needed this to run smoothly.
"now tell me what happened yesterday" Cyrus said, leaning back into the chair, waiting.
"Well it didn't really start yesterday, it actually started on Thursday when Blair first started meeting with this Alex person. I was under the understanding that Alex was a girl and therefore saw no problem in them meeting at all but then Nate saw them and told me that Alex was a guy, a fact Blair had completely left out. And me being a complete fool of course was too jealous to even go home that day, so I stayed with Nate" Chuck explained, stopping to take a deep breath;
"but then I realized I was being a jerk and went home, only to find him there with her in our living room" Chuck looked down, he feared the next part but he had to be honest; "to be honest, I don't remember what went through my head then but I stormed into the living room and told Alex to fuck off" Chuck explained, seeing Cyrus eyes widen a little.
"and he did. But it didn't help much, Blair and I started fighting and the next day, I went for a walk and saw them together which only made it worse, I told him off again and Blair and me had another fight and then you saw what happened at the ball" Chuck explained, slowly looking up at Cyrus. He could see that the small man understood perfectly.
"no, don't announce my arrival, just let me hear what they're talking about" Blair told the maid, before walking slowly and soundless to the half open door into the living room.
"Cyrus, I truly am sorry for the problems, I've caused but I beg of you. Blair is my everything and I don't want to be this insane jealous monster but if she works with Alex I don't see a way how I won't be that person, and I truly don't want to be but please I beg you, don't have them work together. I would not be able to stand it" Chuck pleaded, he was actually pleading. It shocked Blair but warmed her heart, he said she was his everything.
"I see your dilemma Charles and I will do my best to get Alex removed to another department, I wouldn't want my stepdaughter to be unhappy and she is when you're fighting. I could see it in her eyes yesterday, she's not the same when things are not well between the two of you" Cyrus explained Chuck.
"I know and I'm going to fix this but I have to go to my father's grave first, I need to solve some issues with myself and then I'll fix this whole mess" Chuck explained, feeling relieved that part of his plan had worked perfectly. Alex wouldn't be a problem anymore.
"sounds good Charles" Cyrus said, getting up; "make her happy, I know you're the only one who can".
While they said goodbye Blair sneaked into the kitchen, waiting for Chuck too leave, he didn't have to see her there.
After a while the door opened and Cyrus stepped in, looking surprised at her; "Blair?" he exclaimed.
"Hey Cyrus, sorry I'm sneaking around" She said with a smile, she knew they would work it out so everything was good, she could be happy.
"did you hear our little conversation?" Cyrus questioned, pouring himself a cup of coffee.
"only the end" Blair revealed.
"ah okay, well you know what to do then right?" Cyrus asked, taking a sip of the coffee.
"not really?" Blair questioned, she was planning on just waiting for Chuck.
"ah Blair, you need to go after him, help him with the issues. Be there for him" Cyrus told her with a knowing smile.
"of course" Blair exclaimed, jumping down from the kitchen counter, kissing Cyrus on the cheek for good bye before running off.
He was there, head down and shoulder slumped, looking at his father's grave. It was hard for her to see him like that, he was always the strong one, the one who supported her, and it rarely happened that she had to support him, but now she had too and she would.
Carefully, not to surprise him, she walked up to him and placed her arm around him, making him look up, clearly surprised to see her.
"Blair?" he questioned, looking up surprised.
"I thought you might need a shoulder to cry on" Blair explained, holding him close to her.
"I'm sorry" he blurted out, leaning in to her, holding her close as well.
"I know, I'm sorry too, so sorry" Blair whispered into his hair, trying to hug him tighter.
"I did something horrible" Chuck blurted out, not looking up at her.
"shhh we'll talk later" Blair told him; "just let it out now" she continued, moving her hands in soothing circles on his back.
They stood in silence for a long time, just holding each other. Blair enjoying the fact she could actually comfort him. After a while, she got them moved to the bench that stood besides the grave and sat down. Still holding Chuck in her arms, he cried a little and just let it all out.
Luckily the grave was in the back of the graveyard and they weren't disturbed by anyone, and for the first hour no one came near the grave, but after about an hour, someone came nearer the grave. Chuck was laying with his head in Blair's lap and didn't see anything, but Blair did. As the person came closer she was able to tell it was a woman, and once she came a little closer, Blair was able to guess her age, mid forties or early fifties. She was beautiful and she looked familiar but Blair wasn't able to place the face anywhere, but waited for the woman to come closer but she didn't. Once she caught sight of Chuck and Blair, she stopped and turned around, walking away.
Blair was beyond confused, trying very hard to find out why she knew the face and why the person would be here.
"Blair" Chuck interrupted her thought, she quickly pushed the worried aside, she would figure this one out later. She looked down, hoping he hadn't seen anything. She didn't answer, she just nodded her head.
"can we go home now?" he questioned, sounding like a little boy.
"Sure" Blair said softly, getting up and grabbing his hand.
They walked to the limo in silence and drove home in silence. Blair trying to figure out who the mysterious woman was and Chuck worrying about how long the peace would stay when he told Blair what he'd done.
"Blair, we should probably talk now" Chuck suggested, while turning on the fireplace.
"that's probably a good idea" Blair agreed, sitting down on the floor in front of the fire, handing him a cup of hot chocolate Dorota had just made, they had gotten quiet cold while sitting on the graveyard for so long.
"I'm going to start with saying how incredible sorry I am" Chuck started, taking a sip of the hot liquid, enjoying how it warmed him up; "I was a jerk" he said, looking down at his hands.
"yea well I was no angle either" Blair admitted; "I should have just told you Alex was a man from the beginning" just hearing her say his name made him wince.
"Please don't be mad at me for this but I asked, well rather begged, Cyrus to remove Alex" Chuck said ashamed, looking into the fire, everywhere but her eyes.
"I know" Blair revealed, "I talked to him" she explained, looking at him, waiting for him to look her in the eye.
"you're not mad at me?" he asked, surprised looking up at her.
"no, I value your sanity much more than that idiot" Blair said with a smile; "he is a jerk, he said some really nasty things yesterday" Blair told him, trying to keep his eyes on her.
"well that's a relief" Chuck said, breathing out for emphasis.
"Chuck I love you, I will do anything to make you happy, I'll even quit the job and find something else" Blair told him honestly, smiling as Coco ran up to her, she scoped up the poppy, holding it close.
"No, Nate told me something yesterday. There will always be an Alex, I just need to accept that. That's the downside of being engaged to the most beautiful girl in the world" Chuck said, smiling at her. "Nate told me some stories about how he had to deal with all the guys starring at Serena and she doesn't hold anything to you so of course it will be harder for me" Chuck laughed, making Blair blush.
"im not the most beautiful…" she started but he stopped her.
"yes you are, you're the most beautiful thing in my world" he told her, looking deeply into her eyes to prove he was speaking the truth.
She smiled hugely at him, happy to hear him talk about her that way again.
"But I have to tell you something" Chuck said, looking away again, she would most probably hate him for this, but he had to tell her.
"sure, you can tel…." she started but once again the sickness overcame her, so she held up a finger for him to wait, pushed Coco out of her arms and ran towards the toilet, she managed to reach the toilet in time and once again threw up. Chuck who had followed her, went to her side and held her hair (A/N; okay I know its cliché but whatever) until she finished.
"Blair?" he whispered as she took a piece of toilet paper and cleaned her mouth.
"don't worry, I think it's just food poising or something" she waved it off and stood up, followed by chuck, and lead the way back to the fire, where she took Coco into her arms and apologized, before sitting down on the floor once again.
"so what did you have to tell me?" She questioned, as he sat down across from her again with a worried expression.
"it can wait if you need to go to the doctor" he said, grabbing her hand in his, looking at it shocked. There was a dark bruise on her wrist that he hadn't noticed before now.
"What happened?" he demanded, gesturing to the bruise.
Blair looked almost ashamed, "well Friday when you uhmm well when we …." She said, her cheeks a bright red. He would hate himself for this and he didn't need that right now.
"I did that?" he asked in shock, and she could hear it in his voice. He already hated himself for it.
"yea well…" Blair stated but didn't know what to say.
"did I harm you?" he demanded, his eyes locking to hers.
"no, I enjoyed it but well… you know how weak I am" Blair said, trying to make it better.
"yes I know and therefore I should've never done something like that" Chuck said angrily, not to her more to himself.
"Chuck don't stress it, you didn't hurt me. Nothing's wrong with me" Blair stated, saying each word slowly to make it clear for him.
"you don't know that" Chuck whispered, burying his head in his hands.
"what are you talking about?" Blair questioned confused.
"I did something horrible" Chuck said, still not looking at her.
"Chuck, what did you do?" She asked scared of what he could have possibly done.
"that day, Friday, I wasn't thinking clear, and well when we had sex I didn't use any protection" he whispered into his hands, his voice filled with self hatred.
Blair was shocked, not mad or anything, simply just shocked. He never did anything like that, and she had never expected him to do it and therefore she wasn't that good at taking her pill and had actually not taken it most of December.
And then it hit her, she could be pregnant. She wasn't sure if morning sickness would come already but perhaps she had gotten pregnant one of the other times they had done it this month. The condom could have easily broken or something.
What would happen if she was pregnant, could they handle that now. Did he want that.
"Blair please say something" Chuck begged, holding her hand in his, covering the bruise, he couldn't stand to look at it, he felt disgusted with himself.
"I love you" she whispered, confusing Chuck, but she had to tell him that because he wasn't sure how he would react if she actually was pregnant. "I'm not mad at you, you made a mistake, it's okay" Blair whispered, "we need to forget everything that happened in the past 3 days and move on" she told him. In particular if they were to have a child. She wouldn't tell him about her worried, he didn't need that today, no she would wait for tomorrow where she would go to the doctor and find out and she wouldn't say anything to Chuck before she was sure.
"Okay, let's forget about it all" Chuck agreed. "you know I owe you 3 presents" he smirked at her.
"oh that's right" Blair said, faking a smile. She was too worried to be truly excited about this.
"Do you want them now or….?" Chuck questioned, sensing her mood.
"you know what Chuck, I want to go to bed. I want you to make love to me and then I want to sleep in your arms, I haven't gotten any real sleep the past days" Blair told him; "and you can give me the presents tomorrow" she told him, getting up, pulling him with her.
"I don't have a problem with that" Chuck agreed, following her. Erasing everything that had gone by the past days. He would just concentrate on loving Blair now.
She however was more worried than she had been yesterday; for one she needed to find out who the mysterious lady was and then she needed to find out if she was expecting a Bass.
But Chuck managed to make her forgot about that, at least for a while….
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A/N: okay I know, its kinda lame, but I wanted them back together. I cant stand them being apart. :D Anyway, I was kinda sad, cause I was so proud of yesterdays chapter and I only got like 7 or 8 reviews. Well anyway, thanks to the people who actually reviewed. Hope you like them back together and im having a poll. Do you want Blair to be pregnant or not??? Write me a review with the answer and who do you think the mysterious woman was??? I know its lame. Anyway tell me if you want a baby bass or not and well that's it. Until tomorrow….