13. It hurts.
Freddie's P.O.V
I dropped my smoothie mid slurp and it crashed to the table creating a sticky mess on the surface, my mom would now say 'wet and sticky is very icky, sticky and wet makes mommy upset' but I don't care.
I ran towards the bright sneakers, not wanting Sam to escape before I had a chance to talk to her.
I skidded to a stop at the corner and fell to my knees before her.
"Sam don't run, don't even move" Her eyes were red and blood shot from crying but the piercing disc of sapphire in the middle glistened brightly. Her curls were tangled from when she passed out and her perfect pale white skin shone around her light pink cheeks, lips and the tiny bump on her forehead.
She's beautiful.
"Stop staring at me nub!" she growled at me and her body stiffened, fierceness bounded of her and reminded me of the fear she had continuously marinated me in.
I looked down at my knees on the ground and decided that sitting may be comfier than kneeling. I'm planning on being here with Sam for awhile.
"Sam, I-." I looked her in the eyes. She cut me off.
Sam's P.O.V
"Benson" I cut him off, I don't want to hear his words. "Don't make this hard" Pain seared through me and attacked my eyes. Something inside me wanted him to see the pain but I snapped my eyes shut and pleaded for relief.
He put his hand on my arm giving me that relief but also making the situation hard.
"Sam, you don't have to act tough or try to be strong in front of me, I don't and never will judge you." He knew me too well, he knew the me that I don't let people see.
When everyone thinks of Sam they think of strong, greedy, mean, insensitive, funny, crazy girl. But That's just my exterior, thats strong Sam and strong Sam doesn't let anyone in to see fragile Sam who is locked inside.
Freddie somehow cracked the code and broke the lock. I opened my eyes and slowly raised my head to see him.
"Ok" I choked the simple half word before breaking down into tears. Freddie eased me into a sitting hug. I let my head rest on his chest and fragile Sam had a chance to show herself.
I tried to speak but more wailing escaped my lips, Freddie stroked my head and hummed running away by AM.
"shhh it's ok, you can cry all you want, you're not alone Freddie's got you." His comforting words melted back to the soft melody of the song we kissed to.
After ten minutes the tears stopped flowing and fragile me was ready to talk.
"It hurts so much" My throat ached dry as I spoke words he couldn't possibly understand.
"I know, I feel it too" I look into his eyes trying to figure out if he was being kind or if he really did know what I was talking about. Chocolate truth stared back at me.
"I don't know how to make the hurt go" I buried my face into his chest desperately craving his safe embrace.
He tightened his hold on me and kissed the top of my head.
Staying away from Freddie and ignoring the love that ached to be given to him hurt too much for my small body to handle.
On the other hand the fear of having Freddie and losing him haunted me and created a twin pain. I hurt so much. Does he understand?
"So much hurt Freddie, so much hurt." He stands up and lifts me up with him. He holds the back of my head and guides it to his shoulder, then continues to hold me in a hug. My hands meet each other behind his back as I wrap them around his strong safe body.
"I don't want you to hurt, it breaks my heart. I could never live with myself if I hurt you. Please trust me." Weight flew off my shoulders Power and electricity ran through my veins the choice from now on was clear.
"Freddie, I trust you, I don't want to hurt you, I'm not trustworthy you shouldn't trust me because I'll let you down and that hurts me" I took my head of his shoulder and gazed into his eyes.
He bent his head down and kissed me passionately. I raised my arms and clutched his neck, making the kiss deeper. He placed his hands on my waist and pulled my body to his and sparks exploded from the intensity.
I heightened myself on tiptoes trying to get closer to him if even possible. His tongue glided across my lips and I hungrily let him in.
Nothing ever felt so right, my mouth burnt as his cool breath flowed into my mouth.
His fingers glided up my spine creating tingling sensations across my back. I curved my back into him instinctively. This felt so natural it was like my life depended on this kiss. And it just might.
A/N updating twice in one day! aren't you guys lucky! well if you like this story you are lol. I know its short but this chapter opens the next window of this story. their relationship has been up and down in my fanfic so far but now i promise to stay put and keep it steady. hope you like the kiss, next chapter will be Freddie's P.O.V that should be enjoyable. thanks for everyone who has stuck by me and reviewed it means alot. R&R xxxx