Chapter 13- Think

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I feel like I failed Kyo somehow. Then he does something I can't ever forget. He hugs me and says "its ok, I forgive you." This moment is so….uh…special to me, because he is the cat and I'm the rat, he has always said it was my fault but he just said he forgave me. Maybe it wasn't for the reason I hope for but at least he said it to me, me, the one possessed by the rat. He's hugging me so tight I can barley breathe. Like holding on to me will stop him from falling off a cliff. "I can't let you get hurt." Great, my sleeve is soaked. Stupid moment making me cry to and everything- wait what? He cares that much? I hug him back finally. I will never forget this hug but anyway. ………………..

I'm speechless. I'm barley able to say, "You really do care? That much?" He pulls away. "What makes you think I don't?"

Kyo POV

"I can't let you get hurt."

I have been trying to put off the thought off Yuki and Tohru getting hurt. And what Akito expects Yuki to do to me and me to him. Haru (seeming) to want to kill Tohru. Us being Alone. Haru getting hurt. What Akito will do to Yuki when he finds out I'm not dead.

But, standing here, holding Yuki, it all comes out. All the tears I have been suppressing spill out and on to Yuki's shoulder. Which I don't think he enjoys but, oh well. I just need this. And I really need to feel close to someone right now. To feel loved.

"You really do care? That much?" I pull away and look into those beautiful eyes. "What makes you think I don't?" I say. I softly kiss him on his smooth lips. Before I have time to pull away his hand is on the back of my head. Soon my kiss goes from a chaste kiss to a make-out session. Best one I've ever experienced by the way. I get tired of standing so I push Yuki down onto my bed. Before I attack his mouth again I see the glint of lust starting to cloud his eyes.

His tongue slides over my lips asking for entrance which I gladly grant. I almost let a moan slip out. I can't let him feel dominant, I can't. Don't ask why. Ha, I'm telling myself not to ask. Damn writer making my narrate my life and talk to myself.

My hands are all over him. From his arms to his chest. In his hair (which smells very good by the way, like, cherry……Yum.) Then I get to his shirt. Hey, wait a minute, why the hell is there a shirt here? And why the hell are there BUTTONS AGAIN!?!?! "You…really need….to wear clothes…with- without….buttons." I say between gasps and pants. I move from his mouth to his jaw. Then is neck. And, DAMN THE SHIRT! Now I get mad. I sit up and unbutton his shirt. The last button is rebelling. We can't have that now can we? I rip it off. Heh heh heh…. I go back to yuki's sweet, smooth neck. He lets out a surprised/ pleasured moan. I completely take his shirt off now. His hands are working on taking off mine as well. I help him with it.

While he's taking off my shirt I can feel the hesitation in him. He wants this but is afraid of it somehow. I try to comfort him by grabbing his hands and stopping him. He looks me in the eyes a little surprised. I go up to his face so my lips are by his ear. I whisper very lovingly to him. "I love you Yuki." He shivers and brings me down for a kiss. He stops in the middle of it! How dare- "love you to kyo." I feel more tears coming. I'm just so happy. Ok I am so getting softer. I need to get macho again. I feel like a bride just getting married to some rich guy I've been crushing on since high school. I need to stop thinking such things. I'm really starting t scare myself.

"Ah!" He flips us over so he's on top. I'm starting to think I was wrong about him hesitating. He kisses down my neck and gets to this spot between my collar bone and…..I guess neck. When he gets there I lose control of my voice. He pauses for a moment. And kisses there again. I moan again and call out his name. He whispers into my ear. "I love it when you say my name." Now I shiver in pleasure. He gently bites down on the spot. "Yuki!" He just smirks at me. Apart from my panting, there is a silence between us before he again goes to that spot. Damn him!

He removes my shirt and I feel just how cold the air in my room really is. But the further down yuki goes with his mouth, the warmer my body heats up. This isn't fair! I love this attention, especially from him but I want to pleasure Yuki to. Besides he found…uh….a turn on spot on me and so now I must do the same for him.

I grab his arms and pull him to me for another mind blowing kiss. Then I flip us over so fast it takes him a minute for realize I'm on top. Oh crap. Crap. Crap. Crap. Crap. Ah, I'm falling. (Off the bed) AH! I fall off and hit my head on the, very hard, floor. "Ow." Yuki is looking over the bed and laughing at me. Laughing "I thought cats always landed on there feet." I smirk. "Shut up smart ass." That's when I get a real detailed look at yuki's chest. Holy shit, he's sexy! But then again how in world could he beat me? He looks so fragile. I know that's not the case.

"Make me." What? Shit, while I was thinking of how sexy he is I…wait what. Forget it. Oh yeah! I told him to shut it. Ok now I get it. "With much pleasure." I say back. He smiles and clumsy me trips. Yes I tripped. But I fell on yuki so it's ok. He's laughing at me again. I love his smile. It's so pure but not like a little kids annoying smile of pureness. I go up to his mouth and shut him up.

RING Damn phone. "Let it ring." I say. Yuki and I keep making out but I can't handle much annoyance. So I sigh along with Yuki and I get up to answer the phone. He follows me, incase it's for him. I pick it up.

"Hello?" "Kyo, I have some horrible news." For some reason his voice doesn't seem all that serious like he's making it whatever up. "What is it?" I ask in an annoyed tone. Yuki asks me who it is and I tell him it's Shigure. "I'm in the hospital." Like I care. "So?" "I'm not here for me. I'm here in the waiting room. It seems Tohru got hit by a car."

Yuki POV

Kyo drops the phone and stares at the wall. He doesn't blink, doesn't breathe, doesn't do anything. I look at him worryingly and pick up the phone. I hear laughing, Shigure's laughing. Now I'm like seriously confused. Why would kyo be in this severe of shock and Shigure laughing?

"Hello?" The laughing slows down but doesn't stop. "Shigure what the hell, why are you laughing?" The phone is snatched from me before I have even a millisecond to hear his response. "Why the hell are you laughing at something so serious?" ookk….. "YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!" Kyo yells really loud. Um… I'm assuming that maybe Shigure played a horrible joke on him or something.

Kyo continues to yell at Shigure. "I think I should take the phone before you hurl it across the room." I say to Kyo. He's about to throw it at me but I lay a hand on his. He calms down and sits on the couch. Now to deal with the dog. "What the hell did you tell kyo?" I ask in a very annoyed tone. "I told him Tohru got hit by a car but it's not true. So how are my two dearest cousins?" I grind my teeth. How the hell could he think something like that is funny? "We were just fine until you had to tell him something like that." "You know what I noticed? You haven't once called Kyo stupid cat or baka or anything. What's been going on?" Yeah, now I'm really pissed. "We've put our past behind so we can work together to finally rid this world of you." "Aw, that's so mean Yuki." "Don't even start. So what did you call for?" "I called to check up and you two." If he was right in front off me, he would see my rolling my eyes. "Hatori said you to have become friends so I wanted to check for sure…..And he told me you're supposed to kill Kyo and him the same." Now I'm the one who is frozen. Does everybody know? "So, you know about Haru?" "Yes I do. I'm here with her. Hatsuharu wouldn't do anything to her anyway so don't worry. Shit, my editor is here. What the hell?!?!? Does she stalk me?!?!? Well I got to go bye young one!" He is so annoying.

I hang up and look over at kyo. He has his head in his hands and I can hear him, crying. But this time I know he isn't crying about me. Or about the fear of someone getting hurt, I can just tell. I can't tell though, what he is crying about. So I walk over and sit next to him. He looks up and wipes the tears away real quick. But I can still see he was crying. "What's wrong?" He stands up. "Nothing." "What the hell do you mean nothing? It was something, you don't cry just to cry." Or maybe he does. I doubt it. He makes fists at his side and looks at the floor real hard like he is trying not to tell me something. "I can't tell you. But I will tell you it has something to do with Tohru…..and her mom."

Kyo POV

What I did to Tohru, I can never ever forgive myself. But why did Shigure have to pick of all things to pretend tohru was in the hospital for, why that? Why her getting hit by a car? Does he know what I did to her mom, or rather what I didn't do? Oh god I can bear to have anyone but me know that. If tohru knew, she would never accept me. In anything. I can't lose a friend that so close to me.

Yuki is still staring at me. He is about to say or ask me something but I go up onto the roof. I can't talk to him about it. Can't tell anyone. I look out into the horizon. It's beautiful. I love coming out here, and hate it at the same time. I love that I can just be lost out here, can forget all my problems. I hate that I always have so much time to think about those problems. I remember when Yuki and I kissed up here. I sigh, this sucks. If only I knew I would be meeting with Tohru and actually living with her. Even so, I probably still would've let her mother die.

I can barley breathe. Those eyes, I've never seen such sadness and hatred. Those eyes could kill. Why? Why didn't I save her? And, what she said. Her words. "I will never forgive you." I break down and cry. Why the hell did I let her die like that?

AUTHOR'S NOTE! Ok well I have decided to stop forcing people to review. But just so you know then end part with kyo and Tohru's mom, yeah that's a spoiler for I'm thinking the 16 or like the 17th book. HA HA HA HA HA! So evil. Ok well once again I will not force you to review. talking quietly to self maybe this will get them to finally tell me what they think about my story. really loud MUHAHAHAHAHA! So evil.