A/N I would have had this in earlier but my friend had a slight crisis so I had to save the day! I've been listening to Daughter pretty much every time I write for this story... if you haven't heard of her she's amazing!

Derek POV

I stood in stunned silence as Beks slipped out of the room and went to take a shower. I sunk to my knees as her confession sunk in. "I'm so stupid!" I growled as I rested my back against the bed. "You got that right!" Peter said from the living room. "Shut up Peter! I killed you once and I can do it again." I growled as he laughed. I felt years of pint up tears threatening to fall. "You were right Laura… like always." I said softly to myself as a memory pulled me under.

It was the day after Beks and I had our fight. I was going to apologize when I saw her at school but she never showed up. I sent her a text when I got home saying we need to talk. I had just gotten to my room when Laura burst through the door. "What did you do?" She growled glaring at me. "What do you mean?" I asked confused by her anger. "Tess just called me and said that Rebekah went to live Anna. She claims she wanted to go because of the better schools, but I heard you guys arguing last night! What did you do?" She asked sharply. Fear had settled in my stomach and I prayed that she didn't hear anything about Kate… That would ruin everything, besides she isn't as bad as Beks made her sound. "I didn't do anything Laura… besides if she really left she would have come by to say goodbye." I said knowing Beks wouldn't just leave without as much as a goodbye. "She's really gone! I think Tess would know considering she lives with her!" My sister said still glaring. "If she left why would it be my fault?" I growled feeling annoyed. "She did leave dog food breath! You told her you hated her and you never wanted to see her again!" Laura roared. Guilt washed over me when I heard my words thrown back at me. I instantly stood and headed for the door. "Where are you going?" Laura roared following me. "I'm going to find her… I'm going to tell her I'm sorry…" I stammered walking out of the house.

I felt my tears running hot down my cheeks. "I won't let myself make the same mistake again…" I whispered as I stood. "I can't lose her again…" I said to myself as I walked to the bathroom across the hall. I knocked once and then walked into the stem filled bathroom shutting the door behind me. "What do you want Derek?" Beks asked sharply. Her words cut through to me like a knife. I took a deep breath in trying to gather my courage. The air was perfumed by her shampoo and salty tears that I knew she was trying to hide. I felt my own tears falling again as I realized I caused her to cry. "Rebekah…" I said hoarsely. I cleared my throat and tried again. "Rebekah… I'm sorry…" I stammered as she opened the siding door of the shower. She stuck her head out and I couldn't contain my smile. Her shoulder length honey colored hair was covered in soap and piled on the top of her head. Her bright blue eyes searched mine for a moment. "I'm sorry for everything…" I said sitting down on the floor letting my back rest against the sink. I looked up to see her silhouette rinsing the shampoo out of her hair and then she sat down and just stared at me as the warm water ran down her body. "I'm sorry about everything I said when you were trying to tell me about Kate…" "I was trying to tell you how I felt that night before we got into that fight…" She said in a small voice. "Then when you left I was a wreck but I kept denying how I felt about you… then the fire happened…" I choked as a sob rolled through my body. She reached out a dripping wet hand and wiped away my tears as they fell. "I wanted to find you and tell you that you were right and that I was sorry… but then I was scared that if I found you I'd lose you again or you would get hurt because of me like my family did…" "You can't keep blaming yourself for their deaths Derek… you were young… and she used you…" Rebekah stammered as she intertwined her fingers with mine. "So I pushed everyone away… even Laura and then she… died…" I choked as a fresh wave of sobs over took me. "Then I came back here and now my packs in trouble because the Argents want revenge and then out of nowhere you showed up… I honestly didn't think you were real… I thought it was some trick… that's why I was late to the coffee shop. Then I saw you and it felt like those six years of distance and hurtful words never happened and for the first time in a long time I was happy…" she gave my hand a loving squeeze and I looked up to meet her eyes. "Then the Argents took you to hurt me… that was the worst feeling in the world. When you asked me if I would stay with you I was actually so I happy that I couldn't sleep…" I admitted as a blush burned my cheeks. "Everything was amazing and you were back and you gave us this amazing house to call a home… I started to pull away because I don't want you to get hurt because of me… I have a knack for bring destruction where ever I go…" I said looking into her blue eyes again. She was crying and my heart began to ache.

"What's wrong?" I asked cupping her delicate face in my hands. "I'm fine." She sniffled. "Why are you crying?" I asked as I wiped away her tears. "They're happy tears you silly pup." She laughed and the sound warmed my heart. "I just don't want to lose you… again… because of something I did." I stammered. She shook her head and rolled her eyes at me. "I'm not going anywhere. You're stuck with me Derek… I mean as long as you'll have me…" She said adding the last part awkwardly. I brought my face so close to hers that our foreheads and noses were touching. "I'll always want you. I love you Rebekah… I always have even when I was too young and foolish to realize it. So if you'll have me I'd like to love you and be by your side until the sun, moon, and all of the stars burn out." I said softly never letting my eyes leave hers as I prayed that she would say yes.

She reached out and grabbed the collar of my shirt and pulled me half way into the shower as her lips met mine. The kiss was soft and gentle as I made my way full clothes into the shower. I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her closer to me. She tasted lie vanilla soap and her lavender shampoo. I pulled away from the kiss and met her eyes as she smile. "Is that a yes?" I asked as she wrapped her arms around my neck. "I've been waiting to hear you say that for almost 12 years… I wouldn't want to spend the rest of my days any other way." She said kissing me again. This time her kiss held a hungry fire that was ready to consume us both. She quickly helped me out of my soaking wet shirt as I turned the now cold water off. I picked her up and cradled her against my chest and carried her back to her room.

I laid her down on the bed and she quickly pulled me to her for another heat filled kiss. "Are you sure you want to do this?" I asked looking into her eager eyes. "I love you and I have for a long time… I'm 100% sure I want this… Are you? It can't be reversed.." She stammered nervously. I kissed her softly and smiled. "I have never been so sure of something in my life." I breathed as she smiled.

A/N (again cause I feel like asking you guys things and stuff!) Ok would you guys mind if there was like two chapters of cheesy pack/Derek and Beks ness? Sadly the end is coming and I don't want to end it to quick sooo if you guys don't mind I might write a couple cheesy bonding chapters because I enjoy writing this story and all the awesome feed back from everyone! Oh and to explain what Isaac meant he was referring to the nightmare he told Beks about. And one last question because I love new music do an of you have a song that reminds you of Beks and Derek? Sorry for being a chatty Kathy I'll shut up now :D

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