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BPOV

Chapter 13

It was Monday and I was having a bad day. It seemed like every time I turned around I'd see Jason around the corner. He was never looking directly at me, but he was just there. The question is did I just not notice this before or is this a new behavior?

As I was contemplating that I ran right into Mr. Greene. "Oh Mr. Greene I'm sorry I wasn't paying attention to where I was going." I gave him an apologetic smile. "Quite all right Miss Swan, I needed to speak with you anyway. "It appears that Mr. Newton has done quite well since you began tutoring him and he has managed to bring his grades up so your tutoring assignment is over."

I had to say I was glad; I was starting to get a little concerned about his behavior. "I am glad that I was able to help." I smiled again "Good afternoon Miss Swan." I smiled as I continued onto my locker.

I was reaching for my bag when I felt Edward wrap his arms around my waist as he kissed my neck. "Hi beautiful." I smiled and turned around in his arms. "Hi yourself." I murmured against his lips. He began kissing my neck and jaw. "Slut" my eyes flew open to see Jessica walking by.

"Alright, that's it." I walked away from Edward and started for Jessica. This was going to stop. "Oh no you don't." Edward had grabbed me by the waist again and held on to me so I couldn't walk any further. "Edward let me go, I'm tired of this I let it go on much too long and I'm going to put a stop to it."

"What's been going on too long? You mean Jessica?" I realized then that he might not know what exactly my problem was. "I know she has been coming on a little strong but honestly she hasn't really approached me since we got together." Wait What??

"What are you talking about Edward?" The look on his face must have been similar to mine. "What are you talking about?" I realized that this was not the time or place so I asked him to go to explain first.

"Okay, last year we went out on a couple of dates." I wondered what my face looked like because he looked nervous all of the sudden and began again quickly. "Nothing happened, I mean we never even kissed or anything, I only went out with her because I was new here and she asked me out. After the second time I realized that I had no desire to do it again."

That made me feel a little better but still UGH! "So anyway she had been trying to flirt with me and get me to go out with her again but I of course told her I wasn't interested. She was pretty persistent until I just started to ignore her. The last time she even bothered to try was before we started dating so it never occurred to me to mention it to you."

"So she hasn't tried talking to you since then?" I had to ask even though I was feeling pretty uncomfortable. "No she hasn't, though I have noticed her around a lot more lately. It seems like every time I turn around there she is."

"I know the feeling" I said quietly to myself. Luckily Emmett walked up to us at that point and he didn't press me for any information.

Tuesday went by pretty quickly as well and I was glad to be free of tutoring. I was on my way to meet Edward when I heard my name being called. "Bella" I turned around to see Jason standing there. "Where are you going?" Maybe he didn't know our sessions were over.

"Didn't Mr. Greene tell you? You've improved so much that you don't need me anymore." He didn't seem to like that as his face fell into an immediate frown. I heard him mumble "Yes I do" but I don't think I was meant to hear that.

I was getting tired of all the strange things going on between him and seemingly Jessica so I called him on it, just to get it out in the open.

"What did you say?" I asked with an irritated tone. "Nothing" he said back looking past me. "Jason why did you really stop by my house the other day? I get the feeling there was more to it."

He signed and looked to the ground. "You're right Bella there was another reason." He paused "then I saw that Emmett Cullen was there and to be honest that guy scares me and I chickened out."

Hmmmm I just looked at him for a minute. "Well he's not here now, what did you want?"

"Um, well we're having our first basketball game soon and I was really hoping you could go, ya know." Was that was this was about. Still a little suspicious that he felt the need to come over instead of wait for school.

He reached into his pocket and pulled out a ticket. "I got this for you" he tried to hand it to me. "You didn't have to do that" I told him. "Well, I just really wanted you to go." He looked embarrassed. I kind of started to feel sorry for him.

"Oh, well okay but I can buy my own ticket." There was no way I was going to take one from him. "No really everyone on the team gets one free one and I want you to have mine." He tried handing it to me again.

"I don't think that Edward would like that very much and besides I would feel better if we just got our own but thanks anyway."

He just stared at me. "We?" I sighed. "Yes Jason we, as in me and Edward. I've told you before that he is my boyfriend it shouldn't come as a surprise that I would be going with him." The look on his face was clear that he wasn't happy.

"That won't be a problem will it?" I smirked. "No, no not at all." He said with a fake smile. With that I turned around and went to find Edward. As soon as I found him I told him everything that was said.

"We don't have to go you know." He said as he grabbed my hand as we walked to the parking lot. "I know but I kind of feel bad. I mean maybe he really is just trying to be friends." Edward just shook his head. "Okay sweetheart, if you want to go we can, even though I really don't think 'just friends' is what is on his mind. Maybe we can get everyone else to go too."

The rest of the week flew by and the weekend was finally here and it was girls night. I had been looking forward to it because I knew Alice and Rosalie would be able to help me.

We decided on a night in at my house with pedicures, facials, movies and homemade guacamole. Of course the conversation always seems to drift back to the guys.

"Sooooo, Bellaaaaaa how are things with Edward?"

"What do you mean?" I faked innocence even though I knew based on the previous topic of Rosalie and Emmett's sex life what they were getting at.

"You know what I mean" Alice said. "How far have you guys gone?" This is what I wanted to talk about but that didn't keep the blush off my cheeks.

"Well, we do stuff but we haven't ya know, had sex or anything." I said looking at the bag of chips. "hmmmm" Rosalie looked at me while tilting her head. "Do you want to?" she asked.

"Ummm I don't know…. I mean I know that I want to go farther but i'm not sure if I'm ready to go all the way. We've only been together for a couple of months." Neither of them said anything as they were waiting for me to continue.

"Isn't there some sort of 9 month rule or something?"

"What?!?!?" Rosalie started laughing as Alice said "What 9 month rule?"

"You know, aren't you suppose to wait to make sure that the guy really likes you instead of just trying to hook up with you?"

Alice spoke up mostly because Rosalie was still laughing.

"Okay first of all you really don't believe that Edward is just with you for sex, do you?

And second there isn't a standard rule for this sort of thing."

Rosalie went next. "The real questions that you should be asking are:

1. Do you love him? 2. If you do, do you want to go to the next step because you want to or because you think that he wants to? 3. Have you discussed it with him?"

"Well since I've never been in love before I have no idea if I am now or not. And yes I want to go to the next step but I keep hearing the message my mother drilled into my head about waiting until I am an adult. And as far as discussing it, kind of. Edward told me that he'll go at any pace I want and to let him know when I'm ready for more and we haven't talked abut it since."

"Okay" Alice said

"As far as the discussion goes you have only had half of it. I will say I admire him for what he told you; clearly I didn't give him enough credit. But you also need to have the 'responsible' talk."

I didnt say anything so they kept going. "You know the whole 'past sexual relationship going to get tested first talk?' As well as birth control."

"As far as your mom's 'talk' you are an adult Bella, you 18 and you will be in college in less than a year." Rosalie said.

"And as for being in love, I can only tell you what I see." It was back to Alice's turn now.

"I can tell you that Edward loves you, but you need to figure out how you feel about him for yourself."

"How do I do that? I mean how does anyone know for sure?"

"Let's make this easy, tell us how Edward makes you feel and what are your favorite things about him."

"He makes me feel: happy, special, cared for, loved. I think about him all the time. When I'm not with him my heart actually aches. I have a hard time concentrating on anything else. He is the most selfless person I have ever met. He always puts me first. He is respectful, considerate, and absolutely gorgeous."

"I love the little things he does too like when he kisses my forehead. He lets me fall asleep on his chest when we watch movies. He calls me all the time, He shows me off to everyone even when I'm in sweat pants. Alice cringed at the one.

He calls me beautiful. He sings romantic songs to me. He is very protective of me."

I let that sink in and then it hit me, I'm in love with Edward.

I looked up at the girls. "Wow" was all that either one of them could say. "I know, I'm in love with Edward." They both gave me a knowing smile.

"Do you really think that Edward loves me?" "Yes" they both said at the same time.

I was a little dazed. But I managed to hear Alice ask "when are you going to tell him?"

Wow that is a whole new issue, I mean what if he doesn't feel the same and Alice and Rosalie are wrong?

"Um I would rather have him say it first." They both laughed. "Yeah that does make it a lot easier. How about the sex talk?"

"How do I go about even bringing that up?"

"I'm sure the opportunity will present itself. But you do have to bring it up!"

We started eating again and then put in our movie. I had no idea what was happening since my mind was too busy elsewhere. My phone buzzed, I grabbed it and saw a text from Edward. Goodnight sweetheart, I miss you, call me tomorrow"

I didn't waste any time replying. "I miss you too, more than you know."

Ever since the sleep over with the girls I had been in the best mood. I was excited with my new knowledge but also a little nervous. I wanted to tell Edward how I felt but I knew I wouldn't be able to say it first, at least not yet.

The opportunity for the sex talk hadn't come up either, it seemed like we weren't getting that much alone time lately. But I knew that the two topics went hand in hand so I was putting that off too. But I knew it was only a matter of time.

Even though I never have had sex before I knew that the Dr. Appointment I had to make needed to be done with Edward. It was only fair that we both got tested together. But I also had contemplated making an appointment for myself for the birth control aspect of it.

I knew I could do that part alone but it was also a little scary. Edwards dad is a Dr. after all and how embarrassing would it be if he found out. But I also knew that if I was to start on the pill it takes a little while to kick in so after school I made an appointment.

I hadn't seen Jason or Jessica around in the last week which I enjoyed but even they wouldn't have been able to take away my good mood anyway. But tomorrow night was the game and so I knew I would hear from Jason today or tomorrow. As if on queue he called my name.

"Bella, hey um so are you coming to the game tomorrow?" he looked so hopeful. "Yes Jason we will be there."

"Great see you tomorrow." And he turned around and left. All too soon it was time for the game. The six of us went out to dinner first and then headed over to the gym. I had to admit that Jason was pretty good. We were crushing the other team by half time.

I had to go to the bathroom and I put it off long enough. I didn't want to wait until the end of the game because the lines would be long and I knew I wasn't going to miss anything since we were so far ahead with only a few minutes to go. Edward gave me the usual kiss with a hurry back. I finished up in the restroom but of course the paper towels were out so I was wiping my hands on my jeans and not looking where I was going. I crashed right into someone.

I was about to apologize when I saw who it was. "Hello, Bella long time no see." He smirked. "Mike" was all I could say.