Chapter 12:
Sepi:
When I woke up, I couldn't remember anything. I couldn't remember how I got to Tom's apartment. I couldn't remember why I was naked in his apartment. Most of all, I couldn't remember whose tie was on the bed. I looked around, the room was a mess. I couldn't figure out anything though. I couldn't remember and…oh God, no. I felt sick. I ran to the restroom and threw up. I took a shower slowly and got dressed. I walked out to see Tom in the living room. He chuckled,
"Well, you sure had fun last night. Someone forgot that I was going to be home soon because man- were you two busy! I didn't think you had it in you, Sepi!"
Poor Lilith looked confused, but that hasn't stopped Tom before. He kept talking,
"But may I say- good choice. He left not long ago, by the way. He said sorry but he needed to get home. I don't blame him- poor guy needed some new clothes since the two of you practically tore each other apart."
I had the tie in my hoodie's pocket. I recognized the tie and suddenly the memories flooded me.
"Oh," I moaned. Nathaniel grunted….
I felt so happy and blissful. Nathaniel might have been a virgin, but man, he sure knew how to please a girl.
I shivered and suddenly Tom tossed me something.
"Thought you might need this. I mean, you guys might have used protection, but better safe than sorry."
I thought I was going to barf again. It was a pregnancy test.
Nathaniel:
I walked into school. I couldn't believe I did that…I couldn't remember, but when I woke up with a sleeping naked Sepi beside me, I knew what happened. I just…I couldn't believe that I did that to Sepi…I sighed, I hated to leave like that. She probably won't remember it, and frankly, she was probably scared. I sighed. School was going to start soon and I had a headache. I was still a bit clumsy. I only remember one thing from last night, when I actually told Sepi that I love her,
"I love you."
"I think I love you too."
The door to the student council room opened and Sepi stepped through. She glared mildly and tossed me something. I caught it. It was my tie. She sighed,
"Nathaniel…."
"Sepi, I can explain. I didn't want to leave."
It was true. I didn't want to leave. I saw the cuts on her arms and legs, the fresh cuts. I'm not an idiot. I'm just…I don't know what hurt her that much. I hope it wasn't me though. I wouldn't be able to forgive myself. I looked at the tie and the memories flooded back.
Sepi tasted sweet and delicious. It was a taste I wouldn't mind tasting again.
Sepi kissed me in a way that made me groan.
"Sepi," I groaned out, "you're so tight…"
I shook my head, I can't think about those memories now. Sepi sat down and I hugged her.
"Sepi, I'm sorry. I had to leave. You know that my parents, my father isn't exactly the most understanding."
She looked at me,
"I understand that Nathaniel. You didn't want your father to hurt you. I know that feeling too well."
I felt selfish all of a sudden, and guilty. Sepi cried into my shoulder.
"Nathaniel…I need to tell you something."
I felt myself freeze, but I had to stay together. If anything, for Sepi.
"What is it?"
"Nathaniel….I…I'm pregnant."
I sighed, I knew she was going to say that. I didn't want her to. Who knows how people will react? Who knows how my father will react?
"Sepi," I said gently, "You know what this means, don't you?"
She looked at me with watery eyes and I continued,
"Sepi…I am talking about…abortion."
Sepi's eyes widened. She got up,
"What," she screeched and I winced.
"Sepi think about it! Neither of us can care for a baby! And how do you think other people will react!"
She came up to me and she shocked me. She slapped me.
"How dare you," she sobbed out, "I don't care if we- if I can care for the baby! Adoption is always an option. I refuse to end any life. And you…you were the last person I was to think that would care about what other people thought…you disgust me…"
She ran out crying. I felt numb. What was I thinking? How could I do that to her? I hated it…but she was right. I didn't want her to leave. I…I love her…I should be there for her…and the baby…no matter what anyone thinks…she was right…
Armin:
I was happy to hear that Sepi was back at school. I ran into Castiel. He scowled,
"Well, she's okay," he snarled, "so our temporary truce, or whatever, is gone."
He walked away with Lysander. I didn't care though. I smiled at my brother,
"She's back!"
"I know!"
We laughed. Then we heard crying. I felt my heart break and I went over to see Sepi under the tree in the courtyard. I sat beside her. Alexy nodded to me then left.
"Sepi, what's wrong?"
I rubbed her back gently and she tensed.
"Don't," she whispered, "don't touch me right now…please…just go…leave…please…"
I felt angry.
"What," I practically screamed, "I was so worried about you! Do you have any idea?! I looked everywhere for you! You…AH! I can't believe you!"
I felt my fists clench. But it was true. How could she just brush me off like that after being gone for a week! I left.
Castiel:
I heard Armin's little 'fit.' And I felt myself get angry at him. Couldn't he see that Sepi was upset? I sighed, now I have to play nice guy…again… Damn it. I went over and sat next to Sepi.
"Look, I don't know what happened or what's up or anything. But be careful."
I looked at her and then left. There. My advice of the day is given. Sepi didn't answer, but she sang quietly to herself,
"London bridge is falling down…"
Then she muttered to herself, unaware that I could hear her.
"It's better for everyone if I just die…"