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Chapter 13
The reality hit me hard and cold, spreading an ominous feeling of dread throughout my body. Max couldn't be with me, not properly, she couldn't fancy me, not really, she couldn't love me, not ever. My throat went dry and a vile pit in my stomach collapsed as I though it through one more time. It made sense, why it always went wrong, why she always ran, why something always got in the way. It couldn't happen. I repeated the thought over and over in my mind, each time hoping to make it seem more like reality, yet only accomplishing to crack my heart a little bit more. I didn't understand. My heart, shattering to a million pieces, was beating through my chest, barely audible as if each sound would cause it to crack more. I stayed silent, trying to work out in my head why Angel would push it so much if she knew it wasn't meant to be? Surely there must be some twist? I had to go and see her. I turned and headed for the door. "Fang?" Max muttered, her eyes closed and her face smushed into the beds pillow, "Come to bed," I sighed. There is nothing more I'd rather do than get into that bed and just be close to Max, just to touch the bare skin on her hand, her arm, her stomach, but no! I couldn't, I had to work it out first, see what was wrong. "I have to go..." and before she even had a chance to reply, I'd left the room.
I wandered to the room Angel was now sharing with Gazzy, hoping she'd still be awake. I knocked on the door once, a signal that it was me and almost immediately Angel thrust the door open, pushing me back and stepping into the hall, closing the door furiously. "What the hell are you doing Fang?" she whispered angrily. Taken aback, I stayed silent. "Do I have to repeat myself?" She warned."What do you mean what am I doing here?" I asked, truly confused."Why aren't you with Max?" She asked, adding a melodramatic eye roll into the equation."What?" I repeated, "You told me to wait!" Angel sighed heavily."Boys are idiots" She groaned, leaning back on the door. I looked her up and down. "I meant you weren't ready to go further with her! Not that you shouldn't go out with her! You're perfect for each other. But then I read your thoughts and realised you weren't goi...Fang?" I didn't hear the rest of the sentence, I'd already left to go and get Max back. I knew she'd be pissed.
I got to the room I was now sharing with Max almost breathless, I'd sprinted down the corridor, knowing the longer the time between us, the bigger the eruption. I opened the door and swiftly, silently, headed for the bed she was lying in. "You're back soon" Max almost snarled, I cringed inwardly, knowing I'd touched a raw nerve, how could I make this right? I always screw things up!"Couldn't bare to be away from you, babe." I muttered, sliding my arm around her stomach smoothly as my eyes widened, shocked at my own choice of words... Did I just call her babe? Not like me at all. Max also seemed to notice my sentence was very un-Fang-like and noticeably stiffened in my grip. I frowned, slipping my arm away from her and getting up. I ruin everything, every time. I mentally scolded myself, taking the pillow from the bed and putting it on the floor, getting ready for a nights sleep on the cold ground. "What are you doing?" Max asked, pausing slightly "Babe..." her mouth played at a taunting smirk, looking straight into my soul through her eyes. Maybe I hadn't completely messed this up?"Getting ready to sleep on the floor" I answered, laying down facing the ceiling. The room went silent. A dull throbbing entered my head at the solitude of the night, I couldn't handle this again. Why didn't she say something? "Isn't the floor cold?" She almost pondered aloud. "Just get back in the bed Fang." That sounded like an order. Doing as I was told, I got up with my pillow and sat back on the bed, laying down as far away from Max as possible, at the risk of causing more damage, I faced the wall and stayed silent. I heard Max exhale loudly.
My thoughts were clouded, I thought Max would be more openly annoyed. Maybe this means she's not. I turned over to face her and was only half shocked to see her staring intently at me. "Yes?" I smiled, bemused."Why did you leave?" She asked."Angel" I stated, not wanting to divulge the detail that our 6 year old flock member thought we might have sex. Max smiled, shuffling closer to me slightly. I grinned, gently wrapping her close to me in my arms, loving the feeling of her close to me, the embrace making me feel safe.