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Title : Fade Into You

Genre : Drama, Romance.

Beta Reader : auntjilly

Disclaimer : I don't own the characters unfortunately. They are the property of HBO and Charlaine Harris ! I only own my OC, Scarlett Lockhart.

Chapter 12:

The only things I felt were disappointment, sadness and anger as I sat there, in Eric Northman's office. There was nothing else I could do except dwell on my own stupidity and hopelessness. It was driving me crazy because his words were still inside my head, no matter how hard I tried to get rid of the memory of last night's conversation. Sure it could have been worse but the pain I felt wasn't erased so easily.

I was very disappointed because I didn't get the answer I expected from Godric when I opened up to him. He didn't exactly reject me, but his nonchalance pained me nonetheless. He kept repeating that he needed more time but I wasn't blind, there was something else. His constant attempts to push me away in order to make me give up or disappear were getting on my nerves. Even if I wanted to leave, I couldn't. There was no going back, I had lost my fins when I chose to go on land. I didn't know if I could ever get them back. I knew that I would be allowed to go back to the sea once a year but that was all I had. I couldn't go back home. My life was now meant to be on land. Would Godric truly push me away every time for eternity? Would he be so cruel?

Godric's behavior towards me was now having only one effect: hurting me deeply. I felt like I was all alone in this world while I should have someone to rely on, while I should have him. Sure, he was there, welcoming me into his child's bar, he was allowing me to stay with him while he rested but he wasn't truly there with me the way he should. Staying with him was supposed to bring me happiness but it was only bringing me pain. His mood was having a bad effect on me, it seemed. I tried to argue with him on all those points but he was too stubborn for his own good. The vampire was frustrating. Any other vampire or man was have taken advantage of the situation and I wished Godric would do the same thing. Sure I enjoyed the fact that he was so respectful, that I wasn't a simple object for him but taking things slow could work. A simple gesture of affection could be just enough for me. I wasn't asking for the moon or for us to truly get together, just closeness and affection. It seemed to be too much for him. It was also nearly impossible to have a real conversation with him about me, about us. The vampire was too convinced that the chance he was given wasn't deserved.

I was angry with myself for not being able to prevent him from thinking that way. Then I was mad at him for being such a stupid vampire. It seemed like he didn't learn anything during his two thousand years of existence. I didn't know about his past actions and honestly I could care less. I didn't even want to know about his old self. The only thing that interested me was the person he was right now. I was chosen for the man he was at that very moment. He just couldn't see that I accepted him the way he was.

I wished there was a way to make him realize what he was missing. Surely he had needs whether it was blood or sex and I would gladly give him everything he wanted. I just had to make him want me, crave me. Hopefully he didn't have enough self-control to resist me. After all, it wasn't like he was feeding very much and even if he did, he only drank True Blood which surely wasn't like real blood. As for sex, I hadn't seen him with any females while I watched him. I honestly thought that he was gay at some point but then I noticed he was usually not with anyone at all. He never had any contact other than professional or friendly. I could only hope that what I had planned for him would be enough.

I had everything in my mind and I was more than ready. Yet, this vampire bar called Fangtasia wasn't the best place for it. There were too many vampires there and there was no intimacy. I needed to be all alone with Godric if I wanted anything to happen with him. Some mermaids were exhibitionist but not me. I behaved properly, or rather as properly as I could. I didn't even know where the two thousand years old vampire was. He just came to tell me he was awake, made sure I was alright and then left. I didn't dare come out of the office, because I did not feel that comfortable in the bar. I didn't want to have any contact with the vampires out there. I knew that some of them would try to talk to me like they would if I was just human.

So I just sat there with nothing to do. I could only think about Godric and about us. That was just boring and annoying until the door suddenly opened revealing a very tall and blond vampire. It seemed like Eric was back though I could care less. Only his maker mattered but he wasn't there. At least, the fact that he was back meant that he knew something about the creepy woman in Bon Temps. That could keep me busy until Godric was back.

"Hi Eric."

He glanced at me and then looked around the room. "Where's Godric?"

I chuckled but not because the vampire seemed to have mysteriously vanished but because not even Eric had heard something from him. Sure it could have made me worry but I could feel that he was fine. There was no reason for him to be in danger right?

"Not here, unfortunately." I answered. "He left earlier tonight, I don't know where he went. Is he alright?"

"He is. I just thought he wouldn't leave you here, alone."

So did I, I thought to myself. "Well, I guess we're both surprised. How was your little trip to whoever you went to see for the Bon Temps issue?"

Eric and I were not friends but we were okay. It felt perfectly normal to speak with him. It was also a necessity if I wanted to be someone for Godric. Having a good relationship with his progeny was essential. Plus, despite his arrogance, his attitude and many other things, Eric was probably great otherwise the two thousand years old vampire wouldn't have chosen him as his child.

"It's a Maenad, do you know anything about that kind of creature?"

I frowned. I had already heard rumors about Maenads, but never truly paid attention to it. The only thing that I remembered were that they were extremely old. I could care less about the other supernatural creatures in the world as long as they left me alone and as long as they were not dangerous for me. As for vampires, every single mermaid knew about their dangerousness and how easily they could kill us.

"No, I don't know much. So are you going to do something about it?"

Eric let out a small laugh and walked towards his desk, leaning against it so that he was facing me. "Compton's already working on it. I'm not going to interfere."

"You're so brave, Eric." I teased him. "Aren't you the sheriff of this area? Shouldn't you be dealing with issues like that?"

"I only take care of vampire's issues, Scarlett but you already know it. You spied on my maker for too long to not know that."

Touché, I thought to myself. During my time in Dallas, I learned many things on vampire hierarchy. It was easy to notice every single detail from the place I was. Plus, it wasn't like I had anything else to do while I watched Godric.

"But aren't you worried for Sookie? Oh no, I forgot you tricked her into drinking your blood so you're perfectly know is she's alright or not. I'm sure that if she isn't, you'll be her knight in shining armor."

"What can I say? Her little power is useful. You can't blame me for wanting a telepath."

As if he only wanted her for what she could do. He wouldn't spend so much energy if he only wanted her to use her telepathy for him. There was something else. Sookie intrigued him and more than anything else resisted him, and that was surely something he wasn't used to. I could imagine him on his throne with dozens of girls at his feet, begging for him to fuck them or feed from them. I would never deny that Eric was handsome, but those kind of reactions seemed excessive. If the vampire wanted someone, he would have that person except for Sookie.

"Sure if that's the only thing you want from her."

"Don't try to analyze me, Scarlett." He snapped back at me though I wasn't sure he was angry.

He just didn't want to talk about that, perhaps afraid of admitting that a part of him was attracted to the telepath more than just for her ability. Yet, it wasn't my place to judge. I shouldn't even have that conversation with him, it wasn't my business.

"I was just curious. You're fascinating Eric." I chuckled.

"But I'm not the only one then. You're quite a specimen too, Scarlett. Should I call you little mermaid now?"

"Very funny, Eric really. You know that I could beat you hollow if I wanted to."

Honestly, that wasn't right. Eric was too powerful for me. Sure I could incapacitate him for a few minutes perhaps an hour if I was very focused but that was all I could do. I was strong but not strong enough to defeat a vampire all by myself, except if he was a young one of course. I could protect myself at least.

"You wish you could. Aren't you bored, here alone without my maker?" Eric asked, a large smirk on his face.

"You know I am." I answered since there was no point arguing with him. It was evident that I wanted Godric to be there with me. It was probably written all over my face. Was I that desperate for him? I guessed so. "I wish that I could be alone with Godric. By the way, don't you have a place where I could stay? I'm sorry if I'm being rude and if I'm imposing but I need some time alone with your maker, somewhere private and not this place. I mean, your bar is okay but it's not the right place."

If I didn't look desperate before, now I did. I was unfortunately acting like the girls I blamed before. It was pathetic but in my defense, I wasn't in the same situation as them. I had a connection with the vampire, my life and his were one. Surely that explains my attitude, I tried to convince myself.

"The right place for what? I'm pretty sure that Fangtasia offers many entertainments to its customers, aren't they enough for you? Also for some special guests such as you and my maker, I'll make sure the basement is at your disposal. It provides unique service that I'm sure you will enjoy or rather my maker will enjoy."

I didn't even want to imagine what kind of things were hidden in that basement. Eric had a filthy and perverted mind, I didn't want to learn about that. I wasn't innocent but I wasn't into kinky things either. I was okay with many things.

"I was thinking about something more traditional."

"Traditional really? I never thought you were that kind of woman. Aren't sirens supposed to be wild creatures when it comes to sex?"

"They are and I am but I'm not sure your maker would love that side of me right now. I mean, have you seen him lately? He's not very receptive. I'm not even sure he's looking at me."

He did look at me but not the way I wanted him to. I wanted him to watch my every moves, to desire me the way I desired him. Yet right now, I was just a friend or the mermaid he was connected to. I wanted to prove to him that I could be more than that. He just had to let himself go, to let the beast inside of him take over. I was ready for everything he had.

"Oh trust me, he is definitely looking at you, we all are."

I stared at him, not believing him at all. His teasing was funny but I wanted to have a serious conversation with him about his maker. As for Eric, I was just a piece of meat for him, nothing else. I wasn't arousing his curiosity like Sookie.

"You're such a prick, you know it?"

"Don't be such a real tight-ass, Scarlett. I was merely pointing out that you were perfectly fine for my maker who is sexually frustrated these days." He answered, the same large smirk playing on his face.

"Well then if you want me to do something about it, you should tell me if there's a place where Godric and I could be all alone. Fangtasia is clearly not the right place for what I have in my mind."

"I probably shouldn't trust you that much but Pam will accompany you to my house where you'll be able to do whatever you want to. There will be clothes you can borrow."

I was speechless because his proposal was more than surprising.

"Why are you suddenly being so nice towards me? If I remember correctly, you didn't want me around you and in your house. What has changed?"

"Godric strangely needs you and I'm starting to like you." The vampire answered with a chuckle.

Eric's house was lovely. The furniture, the place, everything looked so beautiful. I didn't even want to move around as I was afraid I would break something. The windows were also sun proofed so that the vampires didn't risk anything. What else could I say? Oh yes, it was huge like nothing I had ever seen before but it wasn't like I had seen many houses during my life. Life on land was still something very new to me. I had still many discoveries to make but that would have to wait. Now, I was completely focused on Godric. Now was the right time to make an appearance in his room. Pamela, Eric's child, was kind enough to tell me exactly where it was. Though it wasn't kindness, it was just what her maker asked her to do. She didn't talk very much and when she did, she only made crude joke. It didn't bother me, I was kind of used to those comments. My brothers always teased me or each other when it came to sex or everything.

However now, my mind shouldn't wander off to my brothers or anyone else but Godric. I was ready to show him exactly what he was missing. I was going to get him where I wanted him. I made sure to look as appealing as I could as I slowly made my way upstairs where the two thousand years old vampire. As I arrived in front of the door, I gently knocked and waited for Godric to allow me to enter. He did and I came in.

My heart was pounding in my chest like the beat of a drums. What I was about to do didn't scare me at all, it was just that I was afraid of the vampire's reaction. What if I offended him? Surely he wouldn't be furious at me for being so bold.

Godric was standing in the middle of the large room, staring straight at me, his expression unreadable. I closed the door behind me and clenched the bathrobe I was wearing. No, I wasn't getting out of the shower or planning to do so. It was just the easiest thing I could remove and that was exactly what I did. I took the robe off my body, letting it fall to the floor. So now, there I stood in front of the vampire, naked as the day I was born just without the fins. That was my plan, showing Godric what he was definitely missing. I was convinced that seeing me that way would provoke something inside of him. The solution was drastic, I admitted it but it was necessary.

"Scarlett..." Godric muttered under his breath while his eyes roamed over my body.

"Am I not good enough for you Godric? Why are you always pushing me away? Why can't you just accept what we have? I am here for you." I asked as I stared at him. I hoped to finally get a reaction from him, I just wanted him. Was it really too much to ask for from a vampire, from the one I was connected to?

The vampire sighed and shook his head. "You're mistaken, Scarlett. It has nothing to do with you but I do believe that these things need time. We must create something good. A few years ago, I wouldn't have hesitated a second but now things are different, I am different." Godric took a few step forward so that he was close enough to touch. One of his fingers went to gently caress my cheek. "You love the idea of being in love. You love the story of your uncle and you want the same thing but you can't. You are not him, you are you, Scarlett."

I frowned. I just didn't understand what he was saying. Of course, I wanted to live the same thing my uncle did. He had lived such a wonderful live, who wouldn't ask for the same thing? I was given the chance to do so, I wanted nothing else but that. Why should it be complicated?

"You should give us time." He said and knelt to pick up my robe. "Now please, put your clothes back on. We should probably have a real conversation."

I didn't move an inch as I stood there frozen. He had rejected me once again but that time despite all the sadness I felt, I was more furious than anything else. I felt so humiliated. I just couldn't stay there longer so I snatched the bath robe from his hands and put it on, turning around so that I could leave. Yet the vampire was quick enough to grab my wrist.

"Scarlett we-"

"-Don't, just don't." I snapped at him. It was just too much for me and I was holding back the tears that were threatening to fall from my eyes. I couldn't cry, I wouldn't cry for him because my tears were too precious. A mermaid couldn't cry so easily but the more time I spent on land, the more I behaved emotionally like a human.

Godric let go of my wrist and I did not waste time and got out of the room, bumping into someone in the process. I looked up to see Eric whose face wasn't showing anything though I half expected him to make fun of me. Instead, he moved out of my way and I ran downstairs where I could find a place to be alone.

I hope you all enjoyed this new chapter. It's honestly one of my favourite so far. Also just to reassure you all, don't worry it will get better and Godric will stop being such a stubborn vampire soon. Now about the bad news : as I've said before, I'm preparing a competitive exam and the preparation has started. Let's say that now I don't have much free time (I have lectures everyday from 8 am to 6 pm with work to do and exams on saturdays). I will try to do my best to write but I can't promise anything. I'll try to write a chapter per month or something like that but I'm sorry if there's delay between chapters. Anyway I promise I'll continue this story!

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