The Right Kind of Wrong

Chapter 13: In Disguise Part II

Perspectives in Bold.

Time changes and lyrics in Italics.

Well here it is. Promised it'd be fast. Thanks for reading and reviewing everyone.

Music: Angel of Mine by Evanescence

Disclaimer: I don't own MGLN or the songs.

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"Hey there. Mind if I join you?" Nanoha said walking towards Fate.

The blonde sat with her legs up on the front porch swing. The blue-eyed girl settled between Fate's parted legs, relaxing her back against Fate's front. It wasn't an awkward position as both girls visibly relaxed into each other's warmth.

"Eventful day." Nanoha commented.

"Just a little bit. I told Amy and Hayate everything they needed to know. Amy said Lindy and Shamal are still out on emergency calls." Fate took a deep breath while her head lulled back against one of chains supporting the swing. Her arms tightened around the beautiful brunette. "Correct me if I'm wrong, but I believe the day started with a rejected proposal. Secret revealing."

"Yours and mine." Nanoha cut in.

"Yep. Then, an interrogation. I just can't wait to see what's next. I mean it's only four in the afternoon. So much time." Both shared an exhausted laugh.

Each remained silent, savoring everything about the small moment they were granted.

Fate knew Nanoha was trying her best to hide her pain, but the blonde could feel it. "I don't know how to make it better. I'm sorry that he did he what did."

"Don't apologize for him. It's not like he was the only liar in our relationship." Nanoha shifted and began inspecting her hands.

"He did love you though. It wasn't... all a lie. He did what he thought was right because he loved you."

"Don't have to defend his actions. I understand. It's just..." Nanoha search her hands for the right words.

Clasping her hands around Nanoha's, Fate spoke for her, "As his friend you hoped he would have placed more faith in you. More trust. Rather than trust the word of an outsider."

"Yeah." Nanoha paused, "It's over now. He has his life and I have mine." She swallowed back her tears.

"I'm sorry you lost a friend."

"It'll be okay." Fate hugged her tightly as the brunette turned her head cried silently into Fate's shirt. Usually she never allowed herself to breakdown in front of anyone, but this was different. It was Fate. Her guardian angel.

"I'm here for you. I'll always be here for you." Fate spoke softly into her ear. Nanoha lifted her tear-stricken face and she was met with a resolute gaze and knew the words to be true.

"And I for you." Nanoha whispered back. Meaning every word. Nanoha could feel gravity pulling her closer, pulling her into Fate. Her head tilted to the side as she leaned closer. Fate could feel Nanoha's warm breath hitting her lips causing them to tingle as she leaned in. Their lips met softly at first. Enjoying the other's silken caress. Both memorized the feeling of being connected, being filled with warmth. They hadn't known they were incomplete, but at that moment they were made whole.

Finally at peace... finally home.

Fate ran her tongue along Nanoha's bottom lip, asking for permission which she granted. Tongues explored and tasted. The blonde's hands tangled in silky brunette locks. Nanoha with held tightly onto Fate's shoulders, afraid the woman would vanish and the kiss would be nothing more than a dream.

Eyes closed they lost themselves in the embrace.

The passion, the electricity lingered on their lips after they parted for air. Breathing heavily and staring into each other souls they knew that this was right. Both had been unknowingly waiting for each other.

Fate rested her forehead against Nanoha's, "Wow."

"Wow." Nanoha whispered back. She placed a soft peck to Fate's lips, then cuddled against her.

"Cuddle bug." Fate smiled at the cute pink blush that graced the woman's cheeks. The blonde placed a featherlight kiss to her forehead, then tightly wrapped her tanned arms around the brunette. "So... what now?"

Nanoha played with strands of golden hair, twinning them around her finger, "I don't know. But I like not knowing. It's exciting."

"Very." They sat on the bench in silence, basking in the tranquility of the other's presence.

"There's still one remaining explanation." Fate appraised the brunette. She soon realized the direction of the conversation. "I believe you didn't have your big reveal."

"Good memory." Nanoha took one of Fate's hand and began gently tracing the lines of Fate's palm.

"The best." Nanoha claimed with a teasing smile. However Nanoha could sense the woman's unease about the topic as she tensed just slightly. "You don't have to tell me." She had said that, but part of her was depressed by the thought of Fate being unable to reveal more about herself.

After a momentary pause Fate explained.

"I don't know where to start." She paused to think of the best explanation.

"Okay you remember Cassius right?" Nanoha responded by nodding. "You remember how he was special because his mother was given the blood of a wolf."

"Yeah I remember the super abilities and whatever."

"Right. Well, his mother ingested the blood and it was a small amount yet it produced amazing results." Fate continued, "I'm like him."

Nanoha's eyes opened and closed slowly as she tried to process, "What?"

"I'm like him except more." Fate hardened her features, "I was suppose to be born with some type of heart defect. It was only the first month and a half of my mother's pregnancy. The doctors were afraid I wouldn't even make it." Burgundy eyes turned sad, "When my mom found out. She cried for days. Locked herself away. Aunty Lindy told me."

Nanoha squeezed Fate's hands in encouragement, "Then after three days she came out of her room and Aunty Lindy said she'd never seen her more determined in her life. She said she wouldn't give up on me. She would do everything in her power for me. She remembered the story about Cassius and wolf blood."

Fate paused, taking a deep breath, "Hoping it would make me better she decided to inject the blood intravenously for more... potent results. She did an injection every week. Only taking so much blood from my father's wolf, so he wouldn't notice."

"Oh my god." Nanoha couldn't even fathom such an action.

Red eyes glazed over searching the past, "A month and half passed and she had another check up. My mother knew there would be a difference. She could feel it. Aunty Lindy said she never saw a pregnant woman in better condition. Always moving, never really exhausted and in control of her emotions."

Fate shook her head, trying to swallow back the lump in her throat.

"I was developing just as I was suppose to. The doctors were amazed. My father thought it was a miracle."

"Nobody knew?" Nanoha questioned.

"No."

"Huh..."

"Fearing I would regress she continued her dosages. Aunty Lindy said that in the sixth month she increased the dosages to daily." Breathing deeply she continued, "In the eighth month, it was too late. My father caught her and convinced her to stop. But she knew... she knew she was addicted. She tried though. For the same reason she started, she stopped. She loved me and tried to fight the desire."

"Fate..." Nanoha whispered as she turned around to find two tears rolling down the angel's cheek. After wiping away her tears, Nanoha left her hand resting on her cheek. "You don't have to..." Fate reached up and took the hand into her own.

"I want to."

Nanoha nodded.

Fate continued to hold her hand as she started, "The doctors were amazed by my birth. My heart wasn't just completely healthy, it was strong, stronger than most. My whole body even as a baby was... more... more than just a normal healthy infant."

"How does Lindy know all of this?"

"When my mom got caught she told my father everything and Lindy." Fate confessed.

"I see."

The husky voice began again after a short pause, "You know about the intellectual difference I have. But there's a physical difference as well."

"I noticed that one. Besides looking like a goddess, I mean you run like a race horse and you're fast enough to catch me before I hit a wall." Nanoha looked at Fate as though she knew everything.

Fate smiled, but burgundy eyes told her there was more, "When I was ten I had an incident... Everything was still fresh... I wasn't anywhere near healed... emotionally. I got angry for some reason and I broke a table."

"So?" Nanoha didn't quite understand.

"It was a long, rectangular, wooden dining room table and I broke it in half."

"Oh..."

"Yeah, from then I made it a point to control the strength and the speed. Everything I am is enhanced. I restricted myself to only using what would be acceptable. Small traits here and there I can't really help. I can't restrain my sense of smell or hearing, but I do act like the part of a regular human. The strength and speed though I..."

"You could have easily defeated me in any of our fights." Nanoha shook her head in disbelief.

"Not really..."

"What?"

"I don't use my abilities. You see I've become accustom to the limited speed and strength I use everyday... I can't consciously use the full extent. My limits are so ingrained that I can't even force myself to use it."

"I think I understand."

"It's a lot to take in."

"You've work so hard for control that breaking it while conscious is impossible." Nanoha clarified and received a nod of agreement. She continued, "You say conscious, so..."

"I don't mean when I'm sleeping I can use it." She ruffled the brunette hair and smiled at the blushing woman in her arms. "Sometimes it'll just come on instinct. But usually it's when I lose control of my emotions. Primarily anger. I work hard at controlling my anger."

Nanoha could see the pain in those burgundy eyes and so she encouraged, "It's okay. You can tell me."

"When I was eighteen someone tried coming after the spring. He took Lindy and taunted us about killing her if we didn't give up the spring to him. I lost it." Fate's voice cracked, but she held back the tears.

"I moved so fast he didn't know what hit him. I didn't even know what happened until I woke up the next morning. I could smell blood. My clothes were stained with it and my hands dyed crimson. Pieces of skin were stuck under my nails, which were much longer than I remembered them being." Fate shivered.

Nanoha pressed closer to her. She wasn't afraid of Fate. She was no saint, she had committed her own sins and knew how heavy such burdens were to shoulder.

"Memories flashed through my mind. But everything such blur of darkness and blood... I puked. I couldn't stand thinking about it."

Nanoha could feel the anguish from the tortured voice Fate used.

"Signum's father told me what happened. I stood in the shower with steaming hot water, trying to... scrub off the stench. I scrubbed until my skin raw almost bleeding. Finally, I went to see Chrono. You see he had tried to pull me off of the man."

Nanoha knew the memories were playing behind Fate's closed eyes.

"But I was like a dog in blind rage. You never try to stop two dogs who are fighting because they will most likely attack you as well. And that's just what I did. With my claws I slashed him twice across his abdomen. He has the scars. He'll always say that it makes him look hot, but I know he just tries to ease the guilt. Even tells stories of how he narrowly escaped the claws of a bear."

Fate closed her eyes trying rid the images from her mind.

"The man? What happened?" Nanoha spoke softly and feared the answer.

"He was a black market dealer. But it didn't justify what I did. I ripped at him so badly. He didn't stand a chance and he bled to death after Signum's father managed to knock me out." Overwhelming sadness and regret flooded her red eyes. "Signum said... I took chunks of flesh out of his back as he tried to crawl away from me. I just kept tearing away at him."

"Fate you didn't mean to..."

"That's just it. I'm so terrified I'll do the same to someone I care about the next time I lose control." Fate looked away from Nanoha trying to stop the tears.

"It's not the same you know. When you have a gun and the other person does as well. The fight is fair. But when you have nuke and they have a knife it's not so fair."

Nanoha nodded trying to understand.

"That's what's like when I fall into a rage. Even carrying a gun, my opponent won't even get the chance to use it. There's no fair fight with me... when I turn into monster."

Nanoha's heart ached for the tormented woman, "Fate..." She hugged Fate tightly as the sobs the fallen angel had been holding for so long broke free. "It's okay. It's not your fault. It's not your fault. Shhh..."

Finally, someone had allowed her to release of all the guilt and sadness she had carried alone throughout the years. No longer was loneliness her solace. Now, her comfort was a warm body that held her tightly trying to absorb all the pain and send it away.

God had given her an angel and she'd never let go.