Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note, if I did L would still be alive.
Warnings: Angst, character death.
Pairings: L/Raito
Summary: The one night, L was meant to die but he didn't. Why is L still alive? What will happen to Raito since L is still alive?
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Chapter Eleven:
The kiss was heavenly but he knew that it was to distract him from something. Pulling back, L stared into the most beautiful eyes he has ever laid his eyes on. He caressed Raito's face softly and whispered, "You saw Aito-san again. His scent is on you."
"I saw him at the park." Raito explained. He didn't want his lover thinking the worst of him. Leaning forward, felt he needed to get L distracted. He had no choice to hide the truth. L swore to end his life if he returned as Kira. Well, he had no plan of using the death note, but he wasn't sure if that meant regaining his memories. Would L kill him? Was that his fate? Was Aito really telling the truth? He felt L's arms wrap around his waist and he whispered, "Turn me."
"Raito, I have already told you, I cannot do that." L answered. He couldn't bring himself to turn Raito. Death by his hands was going to be painful.
Raito stared at his lover with sadness in his eyes. He wanted to stay with L forever. He knew that would never happen. As he sighed loudly, he pulled away and claimed, "I need some rest."
"Raito."
"Plus I have to put these things away." Raito replied. He watched his lover walk out the room. What could he say? He wasn't ready to open himself up completely to L. He was always alone. People were by his side but they never knew him. They only wanted to be friends with the smartest guy in school or the girls would want him for his looks. He bent down and began to put his things away all the while staring at the cursed notebook. If he never became Kira, he would have never met L.
"Are you going to do it again?" Ryuk asked.
"Do what?" Raito answered with his own question.
"Get rid of the criminals."
"No. Kira is dead."
"Are you sure?"
"Of course I am."
"Then why didn't you tell L the truth?"
Raito was about to say something but shut his mouth. He wasn't about to tell the shinigami his fears. He was afraid L would push him away or worse kill him. He didn't want to die. He didn't want L to push him away. For the first time in his life, he had a true friend even though they were more. He wanted to stay with L as long as he could. Hopefully one day, L would change him.
Ryuk howled in laughter at the human. He was having fun again. He didn't really think that he would be drawn back to the human world. Since he was here, he must have some fun. He looked above Raito's head and laughed again. He would have never thought. The last time he saw Raito's life span, it was strong and long. Now, it was shortened. What could have made it shorten?
Raito looked at Ryuk and wondered why the shinigami was laughing. He didn't find anything funny. Then again, Ryuk was always that way. He ignored the shinigami and began putting his things away. When he touched the death note again, he wondered what he would do. He couldn't hide the truth from L forever. He had to tell the older man that he remembered everything. Would L end his life? Would L push him away?
Outside, a storm was approaching. The wind was picking up. Rain started to fall. One lone man stood in the middle of it, welcoming the storm. He knew it was almost time to strike. He glanced upwards, wondering how he will win the battle. Kira returned like he thought. He knew it was time to strike before it was too late. He had no choice but to end Kira's life. Could he stand a match against two vampires though? Could he get them away from the human first? His hands clenched into fists, digging his finger nails into his skin. He felt the blood dripping down. He glared at the building that stood tall and whispered, "I will win. I will end Kira's life."
Inside the building, L stared out the window, watching the storm approaching. He didn't understand why he enjoyed such weather. It calmed his mind down. He was worried about his lover. Something was different. He felt it but couldn't figure out what it was. It almost felt like the first time they met. He hoped that wasn't the case. The first time they met, Raito was Kira. He didn't want to be reminded of that time.
Raito walked into the room to see L looking out the window. His heart was pounding. His body felt a chill. He didn't want to lie anymore. He didn't want to lose L because he kept the truth from the older man. He heard Ryuk laughing loudly. He needed to find a way to make L turn him. He wanted to stay by L's side forever. He never felt like this for anyone. He always felt distant towards everyone. L was different. L knew what he was and still stood by his side. He took a step forward, hearing Ryuk howl in laughter. He wanted to turn around and ask the shinigami what was so funny.
Ryuk could not contain his laughter. It was amusing to see a human so in love with a vampire. He heard stories about a vampire suffering true pain if they fell in love with a human. He still could not believe L would fall in love. He always did wonder why L's life force seemed different. He floated to the window and made a face. He knew L would not see him. He was doing it to annoy Raito. He howled in laughter once again, "This is too much fun, Raito. You always did know how to give me some fun."
Raito ignored the shinigami and walked closer to his lover. When he was looking at L through the reflection, he asked, "Why won't you turn me?" He needed to know the answer. He needed to be with L. If his life was short like Aito said, then he knew L would suffer greatly. Why did he care what others felt?
L turned around to face his lover. Being made by a vampire brings pain. He didn't want to give Raito that pain. He took Raito into his arms, making sure he still had his lover. He knew something was different within Raito but he couldn't figure out what. He whispered into Raito's ear, "Turning you will cause you pain."
"I do not care."
"It is very painful."
"L, I don't care. All I want is to be with you."
"Are you sure?"
"Of course, I am."
L looked into Raito's eyes, seeing the truth. He ran his hand over Raito's face having the young man lean into his touch. He couldn't bring that kind of pain to his lover. Pulling Raito closer to him, he whispered, "I am sorry, but I cannot do it. Do not ask that of me."
Outside the building, Aito sat on the edge of a roof, staring off into space. He didn't care for the weather. He didn't care that he was soaking. He turned his head when he sensed the other vampire. Staring at Kan, he asked, "What brings you here?"
"Help me save Raito's life."
"I do not care whether a human lives or dies."
"I beg you to help me. I do not want to see my child in pain."
"I will not help you."
"Why not?"
"Because I could care less what happens to that human. Humans live and die. Your child should have kept his distance from that human."
"It would seem Raito was right about you. You wish them apart."
"Yes I do. It would spare your child pain." Aito replied as he turned around to face the world. It was lonely. No vampire should love a human. It only causes problems and pain.
Kan stared at Aito for a moment and turned away. He had to find a way to protect Raito. He would not let his child suffer through that kind of pain. He would stop at nothing to keep Raito alive.
Inside the building, Raito tilted his head, accessing his neck to L. He whispered, "Please L."
"I cannot harm you."
"I'm afraid. I'm afraid of leaving you alone." Raito told the truth. He didn't want to leave L ever. He felt L lean forward and tease him with his fangs. He would do anything to stay by L's side. Shaking softly, he muttered, "L, I have something to tell you."
L pulled back, thanking for the interruption or he would have done what Raito asked. He pulled the younger man to the couch, sitting down. Raito sat on his lap and he was surprised the other was being so cuddly with him. Raising an eyebrow, he asked, "What is it?"
"You going to tell him, Raito?" Ryuk howled. "He might leave you."
Raito froze when he heard those words. He didn't want to lose L. But he would lose him either way if he doesn't tell the older man the truth. He gulped down a lump in his throat. How does he tell his lover? Watching L's eyes on him, he leaned forward toward L's ear, whispering, "I remember."
"Remember what?"
"Kira."
L froze in his seat. His arms fell away from Raito. He stared at his lover. No, Kira, his enemy. He pushed Raito back a little and asked in a cold voice, "How?"
Raito shook at L's tone. He didn't want his lover acting like a detective again. He wanted the man who made love to him. He wanted L back to being caring and protective of him. He answered in a shaking voice, "I never gave you my death note before I forfeit it. I found it."
"Where is it?"
"I hid it in the drawer in my room."
"You were going to act as Kira again!"
"No!" Raito replied quickly. He didn't want his lover mad at him. He didn't want L to kill him. He whispered, "I was afraid."
"Afraid?" L asked as he pushed Raito off his lap and stood up to his full height. He growled, "That was what you were distracting me from earlier. You kissed me to stop me from finding out you had possession of the death note again."
Raito stood there frozen. He was afraid. He didn't want his lover to leave him. He didn't want L to kill him. He was pulled by L to his bedroom. He stood there watching L tore through his drawers and finding the death note. When L looked at him, he took a step back afraid. He wasn't going to use it again. He had to find a way to explain himself to L. He whispered, "L. I… I…"
"Tell me what you were going to do!"
"I wasn't going to use it again. I swear. I was afraid that you would kill me or worse leave me." Raito answered taking a step toward L. He needed L to understand. He needed L to stop being mad at him. He reached out. L slapped his hand aside, looking at him coldly. He bit his lip to stop the tears from coming.
"I think it is best that your father takes you home for a while."
"L, please. I swear…"
"Raito, this is amusing." Ryuk howled.
"You will be leaving Yagami-kun." L said as he walked out the bedroom. His heart was clinching. He was suffering from the pain for loving a human. He knew pushing Raito away now would cause him pain but he never imagined this much.
In the bedroom, Raito fell to his knees wrapping his arms around his body. Why did it hurt so much? He was never like this. He was always in control of his own emotions. Ryuk was howling in the back round and he wanted to tell the shinigami to get lost. He didn't know what to do. L was going to make him stay at home. Was it for good? Was their relationship over? He shook his head, hair hitting against his face. He refused to lose L like this. L was just angry. He looked up and knew that he would do anything to get his lover back.
In the other room, L grabbed his chest in pain. He smiled bitterly, knowing he was feeling the pain from being hurt by the human who squeezed into his heart. He already called Yagami to come to pick up Raito. He needed to think. Was Raito ready to go back to being Kira? Was Raito telling him the truth? Why hide the death note? Was Raito that afraid? He fought back against the tears threatening to fall. He couldn't afford to be this weak. He turned around in his chair to stare at the new comer.
"A bond with a human means pain." Aito whispered as he took a step forward out of the shadows. He stared at L and asked, "Why do you continue to bond with a monster?"
"A monster is what we are."
"Some would say Kira was a true monster."
"How do you know about Kira?"
"Kira was a threat to our kind. Of course I knew."
L stood up, ready to fight against one of his own to protect his lover. Yes, Raito was still his lover. He just needed time alone. He growled, "You will not harm him." He turned quickly when he sensed his lover walk into the room. He stared at Raito and felt the distress. He felt the sadness, the regret, and the refusal to give up.
Raito glanced at his lover and at Aito. He took a step toward L. He wanted to stay. He desired it. He didn't want to leave L alone. For some odd reason, he felt L's pain. He wasn't sure how or why, but he felt it. As he reached out, he whispered, "Don't send me away."
Aito stared at the two and remembered his past. He didn't want to be reminded of that time. He took a step forward, having L step in his way. He growled as he power flared, "You protect a murderer!" He didn't understand how could one of his kind protect a murderer who almost showed the light to their kind. He was tired of it. He refused to let this continued. With lightening speed, he stood next to the human and grabbed Raito tightly as he whispered, "Kira."
Raito froze. He couldn't move. That voice. He remembered it. How could it have been Aito all this time? Ryuk continued to howl in laughter. He wanted to be with L. He felt his demise waiting. He was trapped against a powerful vampire. He watched afraid as L tried to get him. He watched in horror as Aito threw him into a wall causing forming a large hole.
Kan ran into the room with Yagami following him. What he saw shocked him to the core. Raito was being held by Aito and L was trying to stand up. He asked, "What is the meaning of this!?"
"I told you that the human would die. I promised you his life was short. It is time to end the threat for all times. You should have stayed away from this human, Lawliet." Aito spoke coldly.
Yagami yelled, "Raito!" He watched as horror as a vampire bit into his son's neck, taking his son's life. He took a couple of steps forward, trying to get to his son. Kan stopped him and he yelled, "I have to save my son!"
L stood back up and moved quickly. He threw Aito off of his lover. As Raito fell to the floor, he realized he was too late. Aito drained him. Kan quickly moved in front of Aito. He kneeled down beside his lover. His pain was unbearable. His heart was breaking and bleeding. He couldn't stop the scream that he let lose. He grabbed his lover into his embrace. Why didn't he see it coming? Why couldn't he get to Raito sooner?
Raito was losing his sight. He looked up at his lover, the only one that meant anything to him. He realized his father was screaming for him too. He chocked, "I… I… I am sorry. I… I… wish… wish I… I could stay with you… you."
L buried his face into Raito's neck. He couldn't lose his lover. It was too soon. He couldn't bear losing Raito now. He pulled away and bit his wrist.
Aito seeing this yelled, "What are you doing!? He is Kira! You fool!" Before he could stop it, Kan stepped in his way, growling at him. He knew he would not win.
As blood started to spill from his wound, L held it to Raito's mouth and ordered, "Drink and awaken."
Raito couldn't refuse the blood even if he wanted to. It was dripping down his throat, making him feel pain all over his body. As his eyes closed, he released a scream. His body was shaking as he tried to calm down. The pain was unbelievable. He arched his back and screamed. He felt L's wrist pushed against his mouth and he continued to drink. His screams were muffled by L's wrist. He went limp.
"What is happening?" Yagami asked worried for his son. He wanted to stop L but for some reason he couldn't move to stop the vampire. He looked over to see Kan holding Aito back.