Naomi's POV

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Its Thursday now. We've got 3 days. 3 more fucking days until Emily needs to decide whether or not she is going to follow the instructions of her dad or not. Fucking hell.

I've been spending most of my time with Emily since what happened. But it's been... weird. Like the elephant in the room. Like every moment could be the last. I don't know what she's going to do. I don't even think she knows what she's going to do. Everything's so... complicated. I don't like it.

"Hey," I greet her softly as she walks into my room. I'm laying on my bed reading and she smiles softly at me. We've had to spend most of our time together at my house, obviously. It's a bit awkward with her parents around there all the time and my mum's been very understanding. "How are you?" I ask her.

"Good." She nods and I stare at her. "No, actually..." she says sitting down on my bed. "I'm terrible. I fucking don't know what to do Naoms." She says sadly.

"It's okay..." I assure her, closing my book and throwing it on the floor and stroking her knew softly.

"Naomi we should talk about this."

"I know... I know..." I say softly, wrapping my arm around her shoulder and hugging her.

"I don't want to lose you." She cries. Oh fucking shit. She's crying. What the fuck do I do!?

"I know you don't. I don't want to lose you either. But Ems. The thing is..." I sigh. I need to get this off my chest. "I don't want this to just be a... you know." She looks up at me confused. Oh fuck. I'm actually going to have to vocalise this... "I want us to stay together after you leave." I quickly mumble.

She looks up at me and I can easily tell that I've shocked her. But in a good way. Her lips curl at the ends and she places her hand on my cheek, leaning in and kissing me softly. Jesus, I don't think I'll ever get over the way her kisses make me feel. I thought I was going to faint after I kissed her that first night at the party. Fuck sake... even thinking about it...

She pulls away after a couple of seconds. "So do I." He says in her husky voice. Fuck, I could listen to her talk all day and never get bored.

"Emily..." I say hesitantly. "You know... family... family is forever... its set in stone. You can't get rid of them. But me..."

She looks back up at me and I can see the heartbreak in her eyes. "What do you mean?" She chokes out.

"I mean... maybe you need to put your family before me."

"But I love you. I don't care what they think." She quickly says.

"Ems..." I tighten my grip on her.

"Why are you saying this?" She cries more. "What did I do?"

"Nothing Ems. You did nothing."

"Well then why don't you want me anymore?" Fucking hell. If only she could understand.

"I do Emily, you know that. The only thing I want more than I want you is for you to be happy. And your family makes you happy."

"So do you." She challenges, still in tears against my shoulder.

"I know. But. Fucking hell, Emily. It's your family. I'm just... me. I've hardly even been in a proper relationship before. I can't make you happy forever."

"You could try." She says sadly.

"But..." I try.

"Naomi. I'm gay, okay? I'm a bit fat honking dyke alright? Even If we did break up, that doesn't mean I'll just turn straight. They think you're the problem. They think you've made me like this. And you haven't! I've been thinking about this for ages, Naoms. It's not a phase, you didn't change that, you just made me realise it. I'd have other girlfriends, not boyfriends." She says, emphasising the 'girlfriends'.

"Emily I'm trying to do the right thing here." I tell her.

"I know. And thank you for that. It's sweet... in a way. But I don't want to break your heart."

"Maybe... maybe you don't have a choice."

"I can't. I can't break your heart." She tells me.

"Why not?"

"Because it'd break mine." She says simply.

I move my arm lower and over her waist, entwining our fingers. "Emily, he didn't give you a choice, remember? He told you to break up with me. That's it. No ultimatum, nothing. He wants me gone, Em."

"We do have a choice! We could talk to my dad. Or my mum. Tell them that this is for real."

I sigh.

"Why are you giving up on us, Naomi?" she says quietly, sadly.

"I'm not... I'm sorry. We'll figure it out, okay?"

"Do you promise?" She asks. Shit.

"Yeah." I say. But inside, I'm shitting myself. I don't know what's going to happen.

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Emily went home about 20 minutes ago, and I'm reading again when there's another knock on the door.

"Come in Ems."

"It's me." Its Effy.

"Oh. Come in." I smile sadly.

She smiles and shuts the door behind her and sits on my bed next to me.

"What's been up with you Naomi?" She comes straight out with it.

"I... uh... nothing." I sigh.

"It's that Emily girl isn't it? Are you seeing her?"

"Well I was. I don't even fucking know anymore." I sigh again and lay down, Effy does the same."

"What do you mean?" she asks.

"Well... we were happy. Really happy. Then her dad found out about us, and that she was gay, and now... he wants her to break up with me. By Sunday."

"Oh fuck. That's shit, Nai." She says sympathetically.

"I know. I told her that maybe she should just do what he says and be done with me. But I don't want that."

"What did she say?" She told me she wasn't going to give up on me."

She smiles. "She from London?"

"Bristol." I say sourly.

"Oh. Well, she could I was come to London on the weekends, or you could go there."

"Eff, Bristol's 2 hours away it just wouldn't work. I don't even have a car."

"You could use mine."

"Thanks, Effy. But the whole long distance thing... it never works. Besides, her dad doesn't want me to be with her, remember? Whether we're in the same fucking bed or having phone sex I don't exactly think it's going to make much difference to him."

"Jesus, he sounds like a bit of a twat, Nai. What's up his ass?"

"His wife." I tell her. "She doesn't know about me, she flipped out when she found out I was gay because Emily was supposed to be staying here that night, and I don't know. He doesn't want to have to deal with her finding out, I suppose. Fucking coward." I say angrily.

Effy nods and we lay in a comfortable silence for a few minutes.

"I love her, Effy."

"What?" She says, and laughs a bit.

"I do. What's so funny?"

"Jesus, we've been best friends for years and I never had you pinned as someone who would ever let themselves fall in love."

"Neither did I." I sigh. "I love her. And now that I've got her, I don't think I could go back to being without her."

"Yeah, I know how that feels. It was like that with Freddie after everything that happened with Cook."

"How are you and Freddie? I haven't fucking seen you in so long!" I say.

"We're good. You know... good. Katie and Cook are fucking now, too, so I'm hoping he's finally over me."

"Jesus, should've seen that coming. We'll its good that he's... you know... moving on. He went through so much."

"Yeah. And even though it's like, weird between us now, I don't know... his happiness means a lot to me, and I'm glad he's found someone else."

"Effy what am I going to do about her?" I say quickly, hoping she won't mind me changing the subject back to me.

"Tell her that you love her. And that you'll be there for her, no matter what. Let her know that she can rely on you when it gets rough. Like right now. Don't just mope around here and hope that she'll miss you enough and come back." She laughs softly.

"How do I do that?" I ask.

"You have to figure that out on your own, I'm afraid."

I sigh again and Effy gets up and sits on the bed.

"Fight her her, Naomi! You need to fight for the one you love, they don't always fucking come crawling back you know!" she screams. Not in an angry way. In fact, she's smiling.

I get up and make for the door but stop when I hear Effy say something.

"Pardon?"

"I said... 'that's what I wish someone had told me to do.'" She says blankly.

"Okay... I've got to go," I say while quickly putting on a jumper. "But we'll talk about that soon, Effy Stonem!"

"Go on, go and get her!" She laughs as I run out the door.

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I am back! Hope you are all having a brilliant week! Once again thanks for the reviews, it was really quite weird writing this chapter, it being in Naomi's POV and everything, so I'd especially really appreciate any feedback!