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Chapter Thirteen - Telephone calls about the future
BPOV
"Sam called me yesterday. He wants to talk to me about something so I need to go back to La Push. Would you like me to drop you off at Billy's or do you want to stay here?" Jared asked me unsure. We were both sat in the kitchen eating breakfast.
I thought for a minute. Billy's or here?
"I'll stay here. Are you coming back?" I asked hoping he was.
He looked at me and smiled. "Only if you want me to"
I nodded. "If you don't want to though, it doesn't matter" I back tracked because I didn't want to seem pushy. I didn't want him to feel like he had to be here.
"I want nothing more than to be here with you. If I could I wouldn't even bother to meet Sam and just stay here but I don't think the pack would be too pleased about that." He laughed.
We sat in silence until we had finished breakfast which consists of pancakes and blueberries. I stood up and started to collect the dishes but a hand stopped me.
"Bella I'll do that" Jared whispered in my ear. I turned around and collided with a rock hard chest. I looked up and met Jared eyes. "Let me do this, you already made breakfast." I nodded and smiled. What have I done to deserve Jared. Sigh. I sat down at the table and watched him washed and dry the dishes. After he had done that he went round the kitchen and straightened everything up so that it looked tidy. I carried on starring at him getting lost as I thought about how Jared has changed my life.
When he had finished he knelt down in front of me and kissed me on the forehead. "I need to go now baby. Will you be okay by your self?" He asked me concerned. Love flooded through me.
"I'll be fine. Don't worry about me. I will miss you though."
"Ill miss you too" he whispered and pressed his lips to mine.
I waved him off as he drove back to La Push. The house looked so different compared to juts days ago. It no longer looked dark and dim.
I picked up my phone from the kitchen side. Next to it was Jared phone. Damn he had left it.
I strolled through my contacts. Who to call first?
I stopped strolling when I reached Logan's name. A sigh escaped me when I thought about how he was there for me and has been for three years and now I have just thrown it back in his face. What a good…….friend I am!
My finger placed pressure on the call button and the number started to dial. In no time at all he picked up.
"Bella?" he asked.
"Hey Logan" I said strongly. I wanted him to know I was okay now.
"How are you?" He seemed to be careful with what he was saying, not wanting to upset me.
"I'm fine Logan. I'm through the worst of it. I'm just calling to say thanks for what you have done for me"
There was a silence.
"That's what friends are for Bella. We are friends, right?" He asked.
"Of course Logan" I said.
"When are you going back to Florida?" He asked. I sighed as I thought of that. Will I be returning? How do I tell Logan that? How do I tell him that I have meet some one else?
"Logan, I don't think I'm going to come back to Florida. I want to stay here"
I heard him sigh on the other end of the phone. "You have forgiven your ex haven't you? Don't hold back on telling me these things Bella. I told you to forgive them, so that it makes you happy. I know that me and you would never work, the love we share is more of best friends. I want you to be happy"
"I'm not staying because of Edward. I have forgiven him in a way but I don't want a relationship with him." I paused, thinking about whether I should tell him. "I've met someone though"
There was silence at the other end of the phone. "I really like him. We have this connection. I know its to early to say but I know we have a future together." What if he hates me now? I shouldn't have told him.
"All that matters is that your happy. I will always be just a phone call away though Bella. Remember that." He was sincere.
"I know Logan. You're my best friend you aren't getting rid of me that easy." I laughed trying to break the seriousness of the conversation. He laughed too.
"What about collage, are you going to come back after the summer?" He asked. I wanted to go back but I couldn't be away from Jared for a full year. I mean, I feel lost without him now. So could I really go back?
"I just don't know yet Logan. I feel like I need to stay here. Life feels different here than what it did three years ago. I feel like I need to be here to be happy"
"It wont be the same with out you Bella, but I support you in what ever you do"
"Thanks, I best be going Logan. I'll call you again soon."
"Okay Bella. I miss you. Bye"
"Miss you too" The phone went dead. I sighed as I placed my phone on the side.
"You cant give up your life for me Bella. If going back to collage is what you want then do it don't let me get in your way" I turned around and Jared was stood in the doorway. How long had he been stood there? "You have been at Collage for three years one more is not going to hurt. I'll still be here when you get back" His face was emotionless. Did he want me to leave?
"No I want to stay with you. I don't want to be away from you" I said calmly as I walked to the sink for a drink of water. My mouth was suddenly dry.
"Bella, I don't want to hold you back." he mumbled. I looked at him confused.
"Your not holding me back. I want to be here with you. If that means I drop out of collage, then so be it. I'm happier with you. Yes I have enjoyed collage but that was before I met you. You are my life now"
His expression changed to anger. "I want you to live your life normally. I don't want you to regret this decision in ten years time. It will be all my fault for holding you back. I don't want to hold you back. I want you to do what you think is best."
"I will not regret this decision ever. I'll always what to be with you. What will there be to regret when I have you?"
He sighed and ran his hand through his hair. "You need time to think about this. Dropping out of collage is a big step." He walked out of the kitchen. I ran to the front door hoping to catch up with him.
"What? NO I-" But he had already gone.
My breath hitched in my throat. What was that all about? Was it over? When was he coming back?
I think I have just wasted my heart on another Edward Cullen.
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