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"Do you..do you want to talk about it?"Elena questioned her older brother,who just happened to look as if he were a little kid by the look of distress written across his face.
Stefan bit his trembling lip and just decided on saying it. "U-Uncle Klaus..I-It was about Uncle K-Klaus."He stuttered out in a shaky breath as fresh tears resurfaced his eyes.
Elena squinted at him with a look of confusion drawn on her face. "Wait,why would you.."Elena quickly trailed off when her mind actually woke up and the realization hit her. "Oh.."She gasped. "Oh no no,Stefan..hey,it's okay."She hugged him tighter when she noticed the tears escaping his eyes.
"Y-You don't..you don't understand Elena..I-It felt so..real. It was real. And he's going to hurt me again,isn't he?!"Stefan sobbed.
"No,Stefan. Don't talk like that. Caroline and I won't let him near you,okay? I don't know how..but we will. He's not going to touch you again,do you hear me?"Elena told him,firmly. But this only upset Stefan more.
"N-No! No you aren't getting it! Uncle Klaus doesn't..he doesn't make it known.."Stefan let out a frustrated hiss when he couldn't find the right words to use. "Like..like the other night! W-We were just lucky that we were on the roof! What if I were in my room? He was going to do it again. He was going to rape me again, Elena."
Hearing those kinds of words coming out of Stefan's mouth still sent a wave of shock over Elena. Only days ago had she found out what Uncle Klaus actually did to him and it still horrified her. And the thing is,she doesn't even know where or when it happened. Elena now felt sick to her stomach when she realized that she could've actually been right next door. Now that possibility sent a shiver down her spine.
I wonder if Caroline feels this way too..Elena wondered to herself.
"I-Is that..Is that what happened last time?He came into your room?"She merely whispered,hoping to not upset him even further for asking such a question.
Stefan sat there in silence with his eyes flickering back and fourth,debating on whether or not to say anything. Elena stared at him,observing the grimace appear on his face and saw how he uncomfortably moved out of her hold on him. It took him a while,but after a few silent minutes he let out a deep breath. "Yeah."
And that was just like a punch in the stomach for Elena. Just by knowing this little information made her want to burn his whole room down so it could take the memories,Stefan had to deal with,along with it. She could clearly see how torn up he really was about it and she couldn't blame him. This is his own bedroom!He shouldn't have to be reminded of it every time he walks in here. She was scared out of her mind when Alaric molested her so she couldn't even imagine what Stefan was feeling. But she was only ten steps away. All she had to do was listen. Had he called for help but they just simply didn't hear him? Now Elena really did feel sick about all of this.
"I-I'm so sorry I wasn't there to help you,Stefan."Elena breathed. "I should've checked on you..should've heard something..I just.."
"Don't blame yourself for any of it,okay? I wasn't expecting to get help from anyone."Stefan whispered,hugging his knees to his chest. The sight sent an ache through Elena's heart. "Sure,I wanted help but Uncle Klaus made sure I kept quiet so..don't,I guess."He mumbled,staring at the wall behind her. "You don't have to feel bad for me."
"One of these days,he's going to get what's coming to him,Stefan. He had no right to even consider the thought of doing something so horrible."Elena tried to explain to him.
Silence was his response. He only stared at the wall ahead of him for a few moments before he spoke again. "You know...he had told me-that night- that it was punishment for killing mom. And that I deserved it."Stefan said with a shake of his head,followed by a humorless chuckle. "I always thought he was crazy..but..He's right,Elena. I did kill her. And don't give me that look,okay? I saw mom get hit,she had us run off because I saw what she was hiding, and now she's gone. You don't have to sit there and tell me that I'm wrong and that it wasn't the reason because I know it is.."
Elena's mouth grew dry as the words left his mouth. He was actually serious. He actually thought this?Now that made her angry."How can you possibly listen to what that bastard told you?! He's sadistic,Stefan. And nothing but a straight up liar. Now,I don't want to hear you say something like that ever again. Do you hear me?"
"I just want to tell her I'm sorry.."Stefan admitted,feeling nothing but ashamed now.
"Have you been listening at all to me?You don't need to apologize for anything."Elena stressed to him. "Look,we'll talk about this in the morning. You look exhausted so you should get some more sleep."She sighed and got up from his bed.
"What?"Stefan asked when he noticed her giving him a pointed look.
"You can't sleep sitting up like that."She mentioned,gesturing over towards him.
Stefan let out a huff and laid down. "Yeah I got it,I got it.."He told her and swatted her hands away when she tried to pull the covers up for him. "Geez,you're acting like Caroline right now."He pointed out with a roll of his eyes.
"Yeah well,I'm tired so deal with it."Elena smirked,before turning away from him.
"Wait."Stefan spoke and sat up once more,making her glance back at him. "Um..do you think..do you think you could lock my door..please?"He asked,fidgeting with the sheets on his bed,giving him an excuse to avoid her look.
Elena stared at him in confusion since he's never really locked his door at night. But the flicker of fear in his eyes made her wonder if this had to do with what Stefan's nightmare was about.
"Yeah sure."She responded and made her way over to his door before locking it for him.
"Thanks."
"Night."
"Hey,Elena?"
"Yes,Stefan?"She sighed and crossed her arms over her chest.
"...Are you mad at me?"
"I will be if you don't lay down and go back to sleep."She said,arching her eyebrow at him. Stefan looked at her with a serious expression. "Do you still believe what that psycho says about you killing mom?"
Stefan remained silent and Elena shrugged her shoulders in annoyance. "Well,there's your answer then. Now sleep."She told,narrowing her eyes at him.
Once she disappeared,by shutting the bathroom door behind her, Stefan sank back into his pillows once more. Truthfully,he did feel exhausted-well at least his mind did-but his body was still shaking with fear from that God awful nightmare. The repressed memory was now fresh in his mind once more and it scared him. He shut down that memory a long time ago and usually the medication helped it stay buried. But this one dream brought it all back,making him feel like he were his stupid fifteen year old self that couldn't tell what a red flag was,even if it hit him in the face.
Bottom line,Stefan didn't get one ounce of sleep the rest of the horrible night.
~~~~~~tvd~~~~~~ The next morning:
~Elena's POV~
"He actually said that to you?"Caroline asked me. Her eyes filled with concern as we both sat at the dining room table.
I had to get up early just so I could talk to Caroline about this before Stefan could wake up.
"Yeah. It was horrible. Hearing some of the awful things he said..I just don't know why he would be thinking these things."
"This really worries me,Elena."She spoke,casting an upset glance at me. "Truth is,this isn't the first time he's had a nightmare like this. Usually I would hear him and go make sure he was okay. But..he never really talked about it. Although it takes no genius to know what he dreamt about. But I thought he had gotten over the nightmares. The last time he's had one like that was,maybe six to seven months ago."Caroline sighed. "I thought he was getting better.."
"I think this might be something new though. I don't think he believed that he killed mom until recently. Maybe he just..wants to finally have an answer as to why Uncle Klaus did..that to him. Either way though,I don't care because this needs to stop-Now. He's starting to scare me again.."
"See,I don't know what to do now since dad got rid of his meds. I guess we'll have to try our best to keep him in line."Caroline suggested with a shrug.
"Keep who in line?"Our heads snapped over towards the groggy voice that belonged to Stefan,who was now standing in the doorway. "Wait nevermind,you're talking about me."He sighed before slumping down in the seat next to Caroline,and his face was instantly buried in his arms that were crossed on the table. It wasn't hard to miss the bags underneath his eyes though.
"Let me guess,you didn't go back to sleep did you?"I pointed out,sinking further back into my chair,taking in the state he was in.
Stefan nodded his head in his arms,along with an exasperated 'Nope.'
I honestly didn't know what to do with him sometimes.
"I heard about last night.."Caroline stated,cutting off any chances of me scolding him further on his lack of sleep.
"I swear I don't remember a thing.."He tiredly mumbled to her.
"Nice try."I spoke. "I think we need to talk about this."
"Look Elena,I'm sorry. I was..pretty freaked out last night. I shouldn't have said anything really,especially because I knew you wouldn't agree with me. But now probably isn't the best time to talk since I'm seriously dead right now.."He replied,picking his head up from the table and staring at me with squinted eyes.
I opened my mouth to protest but once again Caroline cut me off.
"Go lay down on the couch. And we'll make sure you don't have any nightmares,okay?We'll talk about this later."
Stefan nodded his head in response,but the sound of a door opening caught all of our attention.
The slight scent of cigarette smoke wafted through the air along with fits of giggles. A laugh we all knew too well. Andie was here. Great. She was what our dad referred to as a "one night stand that never ended". I don't know if you would call it dating or not but every few weeks or so,she just drops herself here for a few days. Whether she's welcome by us or not.
"Oh whoops!"She laughed and wrapped her robe tighter around herself when she stumbled into the room and noticed all of us.
"You kids sure get up early."
"Um,yeah it's ten a.m."Caroline sharply pointed out to her.
"Sorry,I was a little busy."Andie smirked at her,causing Caroline's nose to wrinkle in disgust. These two definitely didn't like each other.
"Is she giving you trouble?"Elijah growled as he appeared behind her,along with buttoning up the rest of his shirt.
"I'll let you be the judge of that."She said to him,sending a twisted smile towards Caroline as she went to go pour herself a glass of bourbon.
So you can see why we hate her. Andie was just one of those women who sat back and watched abuse happen. And she certainly didn't mind it happening to us,in fact it amused her.
"Sorry."Caroline quickly stated before Elijah had the chance to get a word in. He surprisingly ignored her and took a seat on the couch,that was a few feet away.
Maybe having Andie around to distract him or..at least make him somewhat decent towards us,wasn't such a bad thing. But ever since we first met her we didn't like her. Elijah likes to always rub her in our faces it seemed,that was after he had told us that 'she can be our new mommy'. And he told us that about two months after our mom died.
I don't think he was serious but he was just wanting to be cruel to the kids who just lost their mom. I never understood how he could move on so fast but now I could probably guess she was his fuck buddy even when our mom was still alive. Bastard.
"Someone looks a little tired."Andie mentioned,standing in front of Stefan now.
My eyes narrowed on her hand that lingered across his shoulder,giving him a slight squeeze. See,whenever she comes over she always gets so touchy with him and it's annoying. Although,last time we saw her I probably would've blown it off like I always did,but not this time. Not with everything I just found out about. "Uhm,yeah. I didn't get much sleep last night.."Stefan said and tried to awkwardly shrug her hand off him,but failed when her hold stayed. "You know I thought I heard shouting last night. I could've sworn I heard Klaus' name being said multiple times. Although,it could've just been my imagination."She smirked at him. Her hand ran through his hair,causing Stefan to shudder,before brushing past him to sit in Elijah's lap.
Caroline and I stared at each other,speechless of what she just said.
Andie simply shrugged at us before pulling out a cigarette from her pocket and lighting it. I swear after she leaves,this house still smells like smoke for a week."Or maybe Niklaus came to visit you again last night? Considering the bruises on your face..I'd say he was pretty rough."She taunted him after taking a drag from the cancer stick.
"Can you stop?!"Caroline fumed at her.
Andie only blew a puff of smoke at her in response.
"I think you need to watch your mouth,brat."Elijah warned her,the tone of his voice making Caroline snap her mouth shut.
"So,tell me Stefan. How did you get those bruises?"She smiled at him.
"...I-I..I got caught doing drugs. Dad had to punish me for it."Stefan spoke while staring at his hands.
"And?"Elijah pushed.
"I deserved it.."He breathed. I could tell he was embarrassed having to say it in front of Andie. Especially since it was none of her damn business.
"A lesson well learned then."She smirked.
Should I kill her now or later?
"Get off."Elijah told her. Andie let out a huff of annoyance and slid off his lap and over onto the other side of the couch.
"You know,back to the whole Klaus thing..he's coming back here on Saturday."He mentioned,while walking over to us.
"So?"I said. I didn't like where this was going..
"So,he'd like to see you,Stefan. Since he didn't get a chance to at the hospital and the other night. He's missed you."
Stefan just sat there motionless,staring at the table with a frown etched on his face. For a moment,it was almost like he didn't hear what our dad just told him. But then his bottom lip began to quiver.
"Dad,homecoming is this Saturday. And if he doesn't show,all of our friends are going to get..suspicious."Caroline informed him quickly.
"And he...um,he already has a date! So he can't just cancel on her last minute. That would be rude and you raised us to be polite."I improvised with a tight smile.
"Is that so? And who is this 'date'?"Elijah questioned.
"Rebekah Mason of course."Caroline answered with a forced laugh.
Elijah glanced down at Stefan,who still hadn't moved at all,and arched his eyebrow at him. "Is this true,boy?"
Stefan blinked up at our dad's piercing gaze and finally learned how his mouth worked. "Yes,sir."
"Next time,tell me further in advance. That way no nosy brats become 'suspicious' of anything. Got it?"
"Yes,sir."
"Glad we have an understanding."He scoffed before turning away from us.
Stefan let out a shaky breath of relief and I rubbed his hand from across the table,reassuringly. 'It's okay',I mouthed to him.
"You know,it's such a pity that Saturday couldn't work out. I was really looking forward to hearing you scream Niklaus' name. But no worries,you can still have plenty of fun with me,you know."Andie whispered to him when she appeared beside him again.
Stefan didn't think twice before quickly scrambling to his feet and quickly moving behind Caroline and I.
"Over my fucking dead body."I seethed at her with a clenched jaw.
"Excuse me? Looks like someone can't take a joke."She laughed.
"No,I know you Andie. You can't even keep your dirty hands off of him!"I told her,getting up and standing in front of her now.
"You're right,you're right."She nodded at me. "I could never have Stefan. But that's only because he already belongs to Niklaus. It must suck knowing that your brother is your uncles little bitch."
"SHUT UP! OH MY GOD JUST SHUT UP!"Caroline suddenly yelled out and stood up.
Andie simply ignored her and took advantage of Stefan and I's speechless state.
I caught a glimpse of Stefan stuffing something in his hoodie but my attention was snapped back towards Andie when she spoke again. "Niklaus told me all about it,Stef. How you begged him not to hurt you."She snickered. "I should've been there. I would've loved to have..watched."She smirked,tauntingly at him.
Stefan's tight grip on the counter top was now gone and he pushed himself past us,running straight for his room. Once I heard his door slam shut,I just completely lost it.
"You cold-hearted bitch! How could you talk to him like that?! How can you possibly live with yourself?"I spat in her face.
"Okay,now that's enough."Elijah snarled and grabbed a tight hold around my arm,pulling me away from the psycho.
"NO! YOU'RE ALL SICK AND TWISTED-"A sharp sting shot across my face,snapping my face to the side. If he hadn't been holding onto me,I probably would've been thrown to the floor with a slap like that.
"FUCK YOU."I screamed at him and actually did spit in his face. I don't know where this courage was coming from,because trust me it definitely didn't happen often,but I was too far deep in this one to turn back. All I know,is that I was pissed the fuck off.
Before I even realized what was happening though,Elijah retrieved Andie's discarded cigarette from her fingertips and pressed it against my wrist. I let out a bloodcurdling scream as the sizzling pain shot through my arm. I thrashed and struggled in his hold on me that wouldn't budge. Tears leaked from my eyes and he finally shoved me to the ground after a few seconds of agonizing pain.
"Don't ever talk to me that way again. Because you'll lose little girl."He hissed at me with such venom,it made me shudder on the spot.
"God,you're so fucking hot when you get like this."Andie smirked.
I would've laughed at how ridiculous she sounded if my wrist wasn't blistering from the burn.
A minute later,both of them were gone and honestly I did not even want to know where they went,leaving Caroline and I alone.
"Oh God,Elena are you okay?Where does it hurt?!"Caroline frantically asked me as she helped me back onto my feet.
"J-Just my wrist. It hurts so bad!"I cried out and Caroline led me over to the sink,before turning it on.
"W-Wait..is this going to hur—Ow ow OW!"I hissed out as the water ran over the injury. Now I really hate Andie..
After a few seconds passed,the pain settled down to just a minor sting.
"That was the first time you stood up to him."Caroline quietly spoke.
"And I'm never doing it again."
"I know it's definitely hard 'Lena..but with him you need to be extra careful.."
"I know I just..."I trailed off in mid sentence when my eyes locked onto the block that held all of the kitchen knives on the counter top.
One..One of them was fucking missing. I was just using them yesterday when I was helping Caroline cook dinner and now one of them is gone.
Stefan.
I saw Stefan shove something into his jacket earlier.
"Oh my God,NO."I turned off the water and bolted out of the kitchen as quick as I could.
"STEFAN!"I shouted through the house and ran up the staircase. "CAROLINE HELP ME!"I called for her.
"What's going on?!"She replied and I heard her running footsteps from below.
I cut through my room and noticed the bathroom light on. "STEFAN!"I yelled again and banged on the door with my good hand. I twisted the doorknob and thankfully found it unlocked.
I kicked open the door and saw nothing but blood smeared on the tile floor. Stefan was standing there with the knife firmly pressed against his stomach,the tip of it just barely grazing him,and he was crying. But his wrists..no no,they were cut. Badly.
"Drop that fucking knife right now,Stefan."
Guys I feel horrible. I'm so sorry for making you all wait this long for the new chapter. I was having a lot of internet problems and actually had to start over a few times because of it. I hope you all forgive me! Trust me,I've worked on this chapter like every day so don't think I'm giving up on the story or anything lol. But I do have another story idea in mind for TVD but it won't come for a while. ASDFJKFKDF TVD SEASON 5. HOLY BEJEEZUS CAN WE ALL JUST GIVE A ROUND OF APPLAUSE FOR ALL THE ACTORS? STEFAN'S. MEMORY. IS. GONE. WHAT IS THIS NONSENSE? But I loveee this season so far! :D ~PLEASE REVIEW YOU GUYS! It seriously motivates me like ten times more XD ~O.O WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO STEFANNN?~ LUV YOU GUYS! P.S ignore any spelling/grammar mistakes! You know how I always screw up haha!
~Harmony! (;