I don't own Twilight
This whole week was the usual boring week. Wake up, school, homework, bed. But this week was different. Why? Because after the call with Jacob I haven't talked to him or seen him since. I missed him. I wanted to call and apologize but I'm to damn stubborn. Why should I have to apologize when he was keeping secrets from me?
Today was Saturday and I was going out with Damien. I told my mom and dad that I was hanging out with Megan and Shelby and they seemed happy that I was making human friends so they let me go. I became real good at controlling my thought around my dad so he didn't know what I was really up to.
It was five when I left. Damien told me on Wednesday that he was taking me to some fair their having in Port Angeles. I thought it was alright so I agreed to it.
I was driving for about an hour until I came to Port Angeles. I saw the lights and the Ferris wheel in the distance so I followed it. When I parked my car in the fair parking lot I saw Damien sitting on a bench in front of the entrance you have to buy your tickets at before you go in.
"I was almost worried that you wouldn't show up." Damien said to when I walked up to him.
"Well I'm here aren't I?" I said smugly.
"That you are." he said with that sly smile I become used to. He puts his arm around my shoulder and leads me to the entrance. Damien buys both our tickets despite my protests that I can buy my own.
We start to walk around for a while looking at all the games and ride. We got to one of the games were you get three darts and if you get a bulls eye you get a prize. I got a bulls eye on the first dart of course and got a giant black teddy bear. Damien went and also got a bulls eye on the first dart. He didn't pick a big stuffed animal like me, instead he got a bracelet with different animals on it. Damien gave it to me because he said he doesn't wear jewelry.
We did a couple more games and we did a couple rides to. When it was starting to get darker me and Damien decided to ride on the ferris wheel last before we leave. We get in and start to go up.
"Scared of heights?" Damien asked me.
"Not really." I answered.
Damien wrapped his arm around my shoulder and pulled me to him. I looked up at him and saw his blue eyes staring deep in my brown ones. His hand cupped my cheek and before I could protest his lips were on mine. I grabbed the hand that was on my cheek and pushed him away.
"What are you doing?" I asked shocked.
"I was kissing you." he said simply. He start moving closer to me but I pushed him away.
"Look Damien, I see you as nothing more than a friend okay?"
"Why can't we be more than friends?"
"Because I don't see you like that."
"You don't see me as attractive?" he asked with a grin.
"No...it's just that...I...ugh!" I stammered.
He laughed at me.
"It's alright if you just want to be my friend. I can deal with that." he shrugged.
I couldn't say anything after that. I couldn't even look at his face it was just to weird. I mean I just had my first kiss with a guy that I didn't even like like that.
When the ride on the ferris wheel stopped I practically jumped out of the cart and started power walking like a human to the exit.
"Hey why are you acting weird?" Damien asked power walking right next to me.
"Do you seriously have to ask? You just kissed me you dumbass." I shriek in his face.
"Come on you said it was alright." he said with his sly smile.
"I'm going home. I'll see you later." I tell him before I run in to the parking lot and get in my car.
I start it and drive home.
I can't believe that happened. Damien is my friend and I don't really feel that way about him but for some reason I feel guilty. Like something in my gut was telling me that was happened was wrong. And it was but why guilty? I don't have anybody that would be hurt by this. And nobody knows so why do I feel this?
When I pull up in the drive way I saw Jacob in his human form, shirtless with sweatpants on, sitting under a tree near my house. Both of his hands were covering his face, it almost looked like he was crying. Looking at that sent a weird pain in my chest. I didn't want to see Jacob in pain. But I did ignore him for an entire week so I guess I was the cause of why he looks like that.
He should have heard me pulling up the drive way because of his sensitive hearing but he still didn't look up. I got out of my car and walked over to Jacob slowly.
"Hey Jake." I whisper when I was in front of him.
He didn't respond, he didn't even look at me.
"Jacob, I'm sorry about what happened this week. If you have a secret that you don't want to tell me than that's fine. I just want my friend back." I said miserably.
"Is that how you see me as Ness, a friend?" he asked, uncovering his face and looking at me with blood shot eyes.
"Jacob have you sleep at all? Your eyes are so red." I reached my hand out to him to pull him up off the ground but he took my hand and intertwined our fingers together and pulled me to sit next to him and I did.
"You didn't answer my question." Jacob said with his hand still in mine.
"Well what am I supposed to see you as Jake?" I asked confused. What the hell was Jacob talking about.
"Something more as just friends maybe?" it sounded like a question. Then it clicked in my head. That was the secret Jacob couldn't tell me. Oh my god. No he couldn't could he? Jacob likes me. This must be the other level of imprinting. First the older brother, then the BFF, now a boyfriend. How the hell did this happen?
Jacob must of heard what I was thinking through our hands. Because the next thing he said was, "Ness if you don't see me as something more than a friend yet that's fine I won't push you. I'll see ya later."
He let go of my hand and got up off the ground and started walking back in the forest.
"Jacob wait!" I called.
He stopped and turned around to look at me. I got up and walked over to him.
"Jacob your a dumbass." I said to him.
He looked at me shocked. "How?"
"Because, what kind of imprinter are you? First we get into a fight and you don't even bother to come over to talk about it, instead you try calling me to apologize like a coward. Second you kept secrets lke this from me. Then you come over out of no where, telling me you like me and then walk away. Gosh you're such an idiot!"
He looks at me for a few minutes before sighing.
"You're right. I am an idiot. I'm sorry about everything that happened. But the reason we even got in that fight was because of my feelings for you. I'm sorry." he said softly.
"Don't be. I'm sorry about being a bitch this week and two minutes ago." I chuckled.
Jacob shook his head. "You had every right to be. I was—" I raise my hand to cut him off.
"Okay how about we just let it go." I laugh and he laughs with me.
"I missed you, Jake." I said to him softly when we were done laughing.
"Missed you to Nessie." He wrapped is arms around me and I wrapped mine around his waist clinging to him. He was so warm that I didn't want to let go. With Jacob I was comfortable and at ease, and didn't have to worry about anything.
After a few seconds of holding on to each other we separated.
"So I'll see you tomorrow right?" I asked Jacob while walking backwards to my house.
"Sure, sure." he said with a grin, then turned around and walked back in the forest.
When I ran straight to my room, not even bothering with my parents.
I still can't believe Jacob confessed that he liked me. I wonder what the hell I'm going to do. I have to talk to Jacob tomorrow.