(A/N at end of story)

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The days passed by slowly and Maura tried to survive, she knew, and understood, that Jane was mad at her for confronting her in such a cruel- and not called for matter. She simply had made a fool of her self and maybe lost her best friend through her own careless actions.

'Jane is mad at me, it has to be...'

Maura tried her best to function, to do what she did best, 'At least my work I can do without..' Her train of thoughts was interrupted by someone entering the office of morgue...

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Jane...

'Whatever you did to that fine human being..' those words bounced and swirled through Jane's brain as she stood in the elevator who went downstairs to Maura's office in the morgue.

If you didn't know better you saw a tough woman with a badge, swaggering her way in a confident manner, but the ones who knew Jane Rizzoli saw a woman pretending to be cool, composed and confident.

Now that Jane was on a mission a lot of things swirled around in her brain. She knew that she messed up the best thing that could have happened to her, maybe she even lost the trust and friendship she harbored for Maura.

After the confrontation with Frankie she felt even more ashamed of her crude behavior towards her ma, but mostly the way she acted towards Maura. As her emotions got the best of her, she left Maura behind without even a word of explanation and acted like an uncontrollable bushfire, confronting her mother plain angry for putting her in this painful situation.

All the build up anger for interfering in her private business again accumulated as she thought of how her mother even her sweet and innocent Maura dragged into her everlasting game to get her grand-kids.

Jane didn't think or even consider Maura's feelings in this matter, and the fact she left her behind in a very cruel and rash way. She felt as if her mother humiliated and stripped her more naked than the sexy light-blue lingerie Maura wore that fateful evening. But in fact she, Jane did that to Maura.

So yes, she was on a mission tonight, a very important one, and she didn't know how to unravel the mess she had made with her cruel and rude actions. She felt like she could never make it up to the love of her life again and maybe all she could do at this moment was begging for Maura to forgive her, forgive her walking away, forgive her that not for one single second she had thought about Maura's feeling, blindsided as she was in her unfounded anger.

She had hurt the woman she loved, the woman who already was hurt so badly in the past. Who was hurt, neglected, exploited and spit out like an old chewing gum, and now? Her suppose to be best friend, her LLBFF did the same, hurting her, mortify her and spitting her out.

Jane could thank God on her bare knees if Maura did even want to work with her again, or ever being just friends!

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In the morgue...

"Oh hello Angela," Maura said to the unexpected guest who walked slowly and uncertain inside her office at the morgue, "can I help you?"

"I hope I don't interrupt, dear!" Angela Rizzoli said timidly.

"No no, just the usual boring loads of paperwork at the moment.." Maura said, "Please take a seat. Would you like a cup of coffee?"

"No, thank you. I actually came here to talk to you about.." Angela's words were interrupted when someone firmly knocked on the door.

The office's door opened a split and Maura could see the wild manes of the one and only Jane Rizzoli. Her heart cringed and missed almost a beat as she felt a sharp pain stabbing through her heart. Doing her best to compose herself and keep the wild feelings of pain, uneasiness, and shame in control, she almost missed that Angela Rizzoli stood up from her chair.

"I'll better go. She," Angela pointed at Jane's direction, "has a lot explaining to do." Angela said as she looked with an angry and burden-filled gaze at Jane. She looked back at Maura and her gaze instantly softened again.

"No!' Maura said vehemently, "No, please stay, Angela. Whatever Jane and I will discuss it concerns you too, and I also need your support. I love you and trust you, as you are like a mother to me!" Angela just nodded and took her seat at Maura's desk again.

"Jane." Maura said as she tried to look into Jane's eyes but failed miserably.

"Maura." Jane said while looking at the defeated woman. She felt ashamed of herself as she saw that Maura had lost a lot of weight in the days she had failed to contact her. Deep circles around her eyes could even be seen through the layer of make-up Maura had used to conceal them. Maura looked so small and uncertain of herself. Jane felt that moment like she got swallowed into the ground of shame. Her heart pounded and felt as if a hammer slammed with a force of 9G into it.

"Please take a seat." came the small voice of her best friend.

'Were they even friends now?' Jane thought as she took a seat next to her mother.

It took a few minutes before someone finally spoke out loud, as in fact the deafening silence said more than any words could ever do anyway. The tension in the air was suffocating and loaded and suffocating.

"I think," Angela Rizzoli said, and her voice was firm and cold, "Maura thinks it's her fault you've left without as much as a word, don't you dear?" She looked up at Maura who stood behind her desk, partly hiding her body from Angela and Jane.

"Yes.." came Maura's small voice, "Yes, I do."

"Maur'..." was all Jane could say because Maura turned around and faced Jane for the first time since Jane came into her office. "I cornered you into something you weren't prepared for, something you clearly not wanted. I..I..I approached you in an inappropriate way, and I don't expect you to forgive me right away," Maura took a deep breath and her voice filled with tears matched the tears that filled her eyes as she looked at the woman she truly and deeply loves. "but you should know I love you dearly and respect you. I got carried away by my desire for you.."

Angela interrupted the distressed woman, "It was all my fault. I came up with this ridiculous idea to conquer you and got carried away. I had the best intentions, I still have, Jane! I have this romantic and stupid idea of you and Maura...and yes, maybe in the future having some grandkids, but you have to believe me, most important was- and still is the happiness of you and Maura!" Angela looked at Jane who stared at her hands, which lay folded in her lap.

Jane looked up from her lap and faced Angela first and then Maura as she said, "I want to say something to both of you, and please don't interrupt me." Jane's gaze held Maura's, who had wiped away the straying tears from her cheeks. She just nodded at Jane's words, because she didn't trust her vocal cords to produce any sound anyway at this moment.

"I'm not and never was mad at you, Maura. You see, as you mentioned my mother interfering again, my mind went blank. I just walked off and left you behind without as much as an explanation. I first acted and then thought..." Jane shook her head, "No, even after I left you I didn't think at all. I went to the guest-house to confront ma and said things -, and acted in a way that a daughter shouldn't act towards her mother, even not to her always nagging- and meddling mother." Jane looked at Angela, "I'm so so so sorry ma, for the way I behaved. You were so right when you said that I should be ashamed of myself. You never were disrespectful towards me, meddling, nagging, but never disrespectful. I'm so sorry for my behavior ma, I love you, please forgive me!"

Angela sat on the chair before Maura's desk and tears trickled down her cheeks, "Always, Janie. I will always forgive you, I love you too!"

Jane looked at Maura. Maura looked at Jane.

"I'm an ass, an idiot, I don't deserve such a wonderful woman like you, Maura. You are the best champagne of the world and I'm a little can filled with some cheap soda. Your approach wasn't inappropriate. I was a little bit perplex and felt trapped somehow, and I didn't know what was going on, that's why I ask you -What's happening here-, and if I had listened to you, and hadn't left you after you mentioned my mother..."

Jane paused for a second to compose herself, "I just would have told you that my feelings are mutual." Jane swallowed her tears back and continued, "I love you so much that I even make poems inside my head about your beauty and your charming personality."

Jane shook her head surely the tenth time that day, "I walked out on you, left you without an explanation, so no Maura, I'm not and never was mad at you, I feel ashamed of myself. And instead of talking with you the minute I realized my mistake, I avoided you! I will never forgive myself for hurting you that much!"

After Jane's words it became very quiet in Maura's office. Maura didn't say a word and turned her back towards Jane and Angela, she just closed her eyes, and her hands under her chin made it look as if she prayed, although Jana knew better. These were the minutes that would decide the fate Jane had to endure because of her brainless and selfish behavior.

Minutes passed like hours, nobody said a word...

Then as if stung by a bee, Maura turned around, her face was like a mask, the ruined make-up from crying and washing the tears away did nothing to her beauty. Played-out but not defeated. The woman that now looked at Jane was on her own mission now and Jane could only hope that Maura would at least want to work with her again.

"I don't know if I can do it anymore, putting my heart on the line, Jane. Maybe it's not worth it, maybe I am not worthy to be loved. You made me believe that I was the stupidest human on earth, and I did do everything wrong. Me, just me, the social awkward fool. And now you tell me you walked away just because you were angry at Angela for meddling again and left me with this staggering pain and the doubts!"

Maura shook her head softly. "That day something broke inside of me and hearing you say that it wasn't my fault and that you were, in fact, angry at your mother for interfering again, doesn't make it any better, Jane. "

Maura took a deep breath and continued, always looking in Jane's eyes while talking to her "I need time to digest this, and I can't tell you if I ever want to be in love again, or loved again. I am such of a fool for believing that I finally had found someone who belongs to me and stands by me. The person who I can trust enough to be within what I hoped was the rest of our natural life.

Maura looked intensely into Jane's eyes and said, "Prove it to me, Jane. Prove to me you can be that person. One chance I will give you, one chance Jane, even I can't tell you the outcome of my decision or if I will have courage enough to be more than friends with you. "

Maura turned around and took something from the shelf, with her back towards Jane she said to her "If you love me as much as you just told me, it's your time now to show me your intentions and you can be trusted with my heart." Maura turned around again and faced Jane, compost and with a determent look in her eyes.

"Okay," Jane said simply, "your terms, your condition. I expect nothing but will hope that you not only to forgive me, but also trust me enough to give me your heart. If needed I even woo you the old fashion way, just wait and see!"

"Goodbye, Jane..."

"Goodbye, Maura..."

Jane opened the door of Maura's office to leave, as she passed the threshold Maura called her, "Jane?"

Jane turned around without entering the office again, "You will always have my friendship..."

"I know, Maur', I know...", Jane turned around again and left before Maura and her ma could see the tears that fell from her cheeks.

"Do you give her a chance my Janie, Maura?" Angela asked uncertain, as soon as Jane closed the door to the office.

"Of course I will give her a chance, I'm social awkward not stupid, Angela". Maura said as she looked at the door of her office, where Jane just had disappeared. "I love her, I want her and I will get her, but she has to sweat for all the tears I have shed because of her."

"You are the right woman for my Janie, love!"

"I know Angela, I know..."

fin for now...

From a Guest 8chapter 12): That chapter seemed repetitive and didn't really add much to the narrative...go forward, not back.

A/N 1... guest - I agree! This story was already published on my other fanfiction-site + chapter 12 was a request from a tumblr follower. She wanted to read Maura's thoughts etc in that 'seduce' moment and at that time I didn't have enough experience to write it in the previous chapter.

A/N 2... This story was originally a collection of one-shots. I had to make adjustments to make it 1 multi-chapter story.

A/N 3... I'm not cruel, the story gets a sequel you just have to be patient! ;)

Love Resi :D