13. "Don't Think of Me" (song by Dido) Faith, BTVS
Faith knew damn well that Buffy wanted her. Hell, she wanted to BE her. She could see it in the way she watched her and tried to act like she wasn't, the way she danced with her, touching her so hesitantly at first before giving in and letting go entirely. She had seen it in the sparking of Buffy's eyes, the slow smile on her face as she had taken her around town, showing her the way it should be for them… the way Buffy really wanted it to be for them, even if she didn't know it. Faith could tell how excited the blonde was during their misdemeanors, as she danced with her, how she was just waiting for permission from Faith to give in and go her way…
She knew Buffy wanted Faith's life…she knew Buffy wanted Faith. But no…just when Faith thought she finally had her, that Buffy was finally giving in, she had backed away, scrambling back to Soulboy and his broody, guilt ridden morality, telling herself that it was he she wanted. She was scared… that was the only reason Buffy did it, the only reason she would have. Pretty damn sad that she found it safer to be with a guy who had fangs and a strict liquid diet than Faith, who was her sister Slayer…her EQUAL. And she was her only equal, whether or not Buffy would admit it. Everyone else in the world was lesser than the Slayers, the Chosen Two.
Well, whatever. If B didn't need her, Faith certainly didn't need her either. Let her have Angel- that was better punishment than anything Faith could do to her. And when she was snuggling up to his cold dead ass, totally frustrated from the no sex so he could keep his stupid soul, well, Buffy just better not think about Faith, is all. She could call her all she wanted, Faith wasn't gonna come running.
She just better damn well not call.