*peeks from behind my armchair at the crowd of angry readers* hey guys, so...um...I know it's been a while but things have been super duper busy. Uni has been kicking my arse (semester 2 has only just began and I'm already ready to be done) and placement and work have been a nightmare...and on top of all that...I BECAME AN AUNT THIS WEEK! His name is Junior, he was born on Tuesday morning at 1:27 GMT and weighed 6 pound 2. He is honestly the cutest baby in the world (and no I'm not bias haha). Him and my sister are living with us atm so I get cuddles whenever I want :D

Anyway, enough about my cray-cray life, I won't delay you from the next chapter any longer. I just hope it was worth the wait :)

Enjoy

Disclaimer: Twilight and all characters, except for Cali, Grammy and the kids, belong to the amazing Stephenie Meyer

But once you've learnt to be lonely

And lonely is the only thing you've ever known

It begins to feel like home

It becomes your comfort zone

Once you've learnt to be without someone

And settle for the silence of an empty room

Oh, it changes you

There's a lot you have to undo

Once you've learnt to be lonely

(Once You've Learnt to be Lonely by Reba McEntire)

"Hey, Bella," I slurred as the two of us made our way to the house. We paused at the front door and Bella turned to face me. "Thanks for inviting us. It's been so nice spending the day with Cali, and meeting your grams, and getting to spend time with you."

She smiled and leaned against the open doorframe. "You're welcome." We were silent and, like last time, found ourselves leaning forward. "I've enjoyed spending time with you, too."

"Really?" I whispered.

She nodded. "I feel like I'm seventeen again," she whispered before my lips touched hers.

I didn't waste time in deepening the kiss and wrapped my arms around her small waist, pulling her closer. I moved her so that her back was against the wall of the house.

"Hey, are you guys ok…" Alice trailed off. "Oh my," she said as we pulled apart and looked at her.

I looked at Bella and saw her wide eyes, pink cheeks and red lips, all of which just made me want to kiss her again. But Bella pushed me away.

"Um, I'm gonna go to bed." She walked past Alice without saying a word and I heard her footsteps going up the stairs.

I looked at Alice and saw her standing with her hand on her hip and she had an eyebrow raised. "You wanna explain?" I shook my head and she rolled her eyes. "Let's get you to bed, Edward."

I woke up in the morning with a banging headache.

I dragged myself into the kitchen to get some painkillers and ran into Bella, who seemed to have the same idea as I did. She handed me the pack and I grunted in thanks. I swallowed the pills with some water and then stood against the counter looking at Bella, who looked uncomfortable.

"Um, we should talk about last night," she said quietly. I nodded. "Once again, we were both drunk and I think we should forget it."

I stared at her in disbelief. "Bella, that's the second time we've kissed in a week. Once I can pretend it never happened, but when something happens twice, it means something."

"Yeah, it means we should not be allowed to drink."

"So that's it? Every time we get a bit tipsy we'll make out, as long as we forget about it come morning?"

She shook her head. "Not every time we get tipsy."

"Bella, I can't just forget it again."

"Well you're gonna have to."

"Do you think Alice will forget it?" I asked. Bella glared at me. "You know she's probably told Jasper by now. And probably Rose, too."

"Just shut up, Edward. Don't say a word. Just forget about the whole thing."

"Why? Why can't you just admit that there is something between us? What are you so afraid of?"

"Morning," my parents said as they walked in the room. They stopped short when they noticed the tension between Bella and I. "Everything okay?" mom asked.

Bella put on a fake smile and nodded. "Everything's great. Is everyone awake? I'm gonna start breakfast."

I rolled my eyes. "This conversation isn't over, Bella," I told her as I walked out of the room.

Shortly after breakfast, Helen and Bella disappeared, leaving the rest of us outside while the kids were playing. They returned shortly after and Bella's face was red. She smiled when she came outside but I could tell that it was fake, and that she had been crying.

"Um, Edward, can I talk to you?"

I nodded and followed her inside. "What's wrong?"

"I just wanted to let you know that Cali and I are gonna be staying in Pescadero for the rest of summer."

My face dropped. "What?"

"We're gonna stay and spend time with grams. Cali's barely seen her over the last year."

I frowned. "So? She had ten years with her before I even knew about her!" I knew it was a cheap shot, but I was pissed off.

"Fuck you," she told me.

"I don't understand. Last week you were fine with coming for the week and then going back to Seattle. What changed?" She didn't answer and I knew. "Is this about last night? You're gonna make me go a month without seeing my daughter because of a kiss?"

"I just need space, Edward."

"Fine. You need space? Fine. But I'm taking Cali with me."

"Over my dead body."

"You let me have her last month."

"That was on my terms."

"Oh right, so I can only look after my daughter when it suits you. Why do you get to decide when I have her, but I can't decide when you have her."

"She's my daughter."

"She's mine, too. Or did you forget we made her together?"

"She's both of yours daughter who is outside wondering why mommy and daddy are arguing," Helen said from the doorway. We turned to her. "Edward, I know you're angry but Bella has made up her mind. She and Cali are staying here and you will see them next month."

"This takes the piss," I said angrily. "What gives you the right to take her off of me for the whole summer? I was meant to have her every weekend. What am I supposed to do now?" I asked Bella.

"What gives me the right? I'm her mother!"

"Apart from ten extra years with her, what do you have that I don't?" I shouted.

"That's enough!" Helen shouted before Bella could reply. "Bella and Calissa are staying and that is final. If you don't like it, Edward, you can leave."

I looked at Bella, who was looking out the window, looking like she was about to cry. "I want her the night you get back," I told her angrily before going to pack.

Once my bags were by the door, I said goodbye to my family and then knelt down in front of Calissa.

"Why are you going already, daddy?"

"I have to get back to Seattle. But I'll see you when you get back. You're gonna come and stay with me the night you get back, okay?" She nodded and hugged me.

Bella was standing in the hall and looked ready to say something but I ignored her and walked out of the door.

When I got back to Seattle, I dropped my things off at home and headed to a bar. I headed to my local Irish bar. I sat on a stool and the bartender approached me.

"Hey, Edward. What can I getcha?"

"I'll have a whiskey, please Aiden."

He poured it out and put it on a coaster. "Rough day?"

I finished my drink in one and slammed it on the counter. "You could say that."

"Wanna talk about it, baby?" a voice from beside me said.

I turned and found myself looking into the familiar eyes of Tanya. "What are you doing here, Tanya?"

"I just happened to be here and saw you. You look stressed. What's wrong?"

"Nothing that concerns you," I told her as I downed another drink.

"Edward, come on. Talk to me." I rolled my eyes as Aiden poured me another drink. "Look, I know we're not together, right now, but I still care."

"Really? Because you compared my daughter to an STD."

Aiden gasped and then turned around when we both looked at him.

"Look, I'm sorry about that; I was just upset that night. I adore Calissa. And even if I didn't, we were together a long time, and we were friends before that. I would like to think we're still friends."

I looked at her for a minute and sighed. "Bella's in California this week and she was supposed to be bringing Cali back on Friday but she's decided to stay until the end of August which means I have to go a month without seeing my daughter."

Tanya frowned. "Didn't she even talk to you about it?"

I downed my drink and shook my head. "Nope. She didn't asked. She just told me that this is what was gonna happen and if I didn't like it, tough."

"That's not right, Edward. She's acting as if Calissa is only her daughter."

"That's what I said."

Tanya looked sad. "I'm sorry, Edward."

I didn't reply, not quite sure what she was apologizing for, and downed my third…or was it fourth…drink. Aiden, being the good man he was, appeared right away and topped it up.

I woke up the next day with a familiar banging in my head. I frowned, realizing I was naked in bed and tried to remember what happened. I sat up urgently, remembering who I had spent the previous night with. Luckily, as I looked around my room, it appeared that I had ended the night alone and I laid back in bed, thankful that I hadn't done anything stupid.

That feeling didn't last.

"Morning, baby. Do you want some breakfast?" a voice called from the doorway. I looked up and saw Tanya standing there in one of my shirts. "How about some coffee?"

It took me a minute to find my voice. "What are you doing here?"

She frowned. "You invited me. Don't you remember?" I shook my head. "I'm not surprised. You drank a lot." I shook my head, trying to remember the end of the night. "Anyway, I've made waffles."

She left the room and I ran after her – after putting clothes on, of course.

"Tanya, I don't want waffles."

She paused. "Oh, I can make toast? How about eggs?"

I shook my head. "No, Tanya. I meant that I don't want what you've made."

She frowned. "I don't understand."

I took a minute to think about how to word it, not wanting to hurt her more than what was necessary. "Just because we slept together, it doesn't mean I wanna get back together."

"What?"

"I know you think last night meant something, but I was angry at Bella, and drunk off my ass. All of our arguments that led to us breaking up still stand though. Cali is still the most important thing and you still don't understand that. We would never work. I'm sorry."

She shook her head as tears filled her blue eyes. Silently, she walked past me and closed the door to the room we used to share. She returned minutes later in last nights closed and walked downstairs. I head the front door open and close behind her and I leaned against the wall, thinking about the mess my life had become.

Should I hide again? So, what did we think of Bella and Edward's little argument? Are we Team Bella, or Team Edward? Let me know.

I wanna make some book recs because I've been trying to read more (I used to read all the time but kinda stopped when I studied English lit at college) and I've read some amazing books so...

1. I finished reading Life and Death (Twilight re-imagined) by Stephenie Meyer, and it was really good. Pretty identical to Twilight but I actually preferred the ending of L&D, even though I LOVE Renesmee! It's just super cool to think of Bella as a guy and Edward as a girl haha

2. Still Alice by Lisa Genova. I fell in love with the story when I watched the movie version (how amazing were Julianne and Kristen in that movie?!) and bought the book months ago but only started reading it Monday. I'm halfway through and I can't put it down (except for when I'm holding my beautiful nephew haha) so everyone should definitely go read it.

3. Finally, My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult. I first read this book back in the summer of '09 (I finished it the night before I read Twilight for the first time) and it stayed with me ever since. It is definitely my favourite book of all time and I recommend it to anyone and everyone. There is a film version but it's not as good as the book and they changed the ending (don't you HATE when they do that) so definitely read the book because it's amazing. Warning though...wear waterproof mascara while reading it and keep some tissue near because you will cry!

Anyway, that's enough from me for now. I promise I will post the next chapter soon. I love you all

xoxo

RKandCarrieFan