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Darkest Passion

Chapter 13 - Sex Education

Tohru had questioned approaching him about...wanting her, but she was simply too nervous. What if she asked and he said, no? She felt disappointed in herself. She was thinking dirty, and it was wrong, right? Good girls didn't think that way.

The next day, while Shigure had left yet again to meet with the guys, Tohru decided to stop by the local library. Wanting to learn about her own anatomy, she had gone into the Sex ED section of the Library. She felt so lost and embarrassed at the same time. "Can I help you?" The librarian had asked.

"Oh!" Tohru had never actually visited the local library. She had always used the school library, but feeling her friends might spot her, she decided the local one would be her best bet. "I'm looking for a book on female anatomy and...changes."

"Changes?" She took her glasses off and eyed Tohru.

"Yeah..." She knew she was going through changes, she just didn't know what they were called.

"What kind of changes?" Well if I knew that I wouldn't need your help! Tohru snapped in her mind. Cooling herself, she tried to get her composer back. "Physical, sexual-"

"Sexual?" At least that's what she thought it was.

"Physical?" The woman continued to stare. Feeling uncomfortable, Tohru felt coming here was a waste of time. She thought librarians were suppose to help, not pester. "What exact changes are you experiencing, sweet heart?"

"I get..." she looked around making sure nobody could hear. She began to whisper. "This weird liquid discharge when I'm around my boy-" she paused for a moment, "when I'm around my friend that's a boy."

The older woman smiled then continued to chuckle to herself. She knew exactly what Tohru was talking about, but was obviously not going to let her down. "You're horny?"

"What?" She yelped. "Excuse me?" She lowered her voice.

"Sweetheart." She placed her glasses into her sweater pocket. "What you're going through is normal."

"If it's normal, why is it only happening now?"

"What you're feeling is not only a physical attraction, " she smiled at Tohru, "but also a sexual attraction to your so called 'friend that's a boy.'" Adding quotations at the end. Placing her glasses back on the bridge of her nose, she began to look around. Following her like a lost puppy, Tohru peeked at the many different titles. 'Why the Clitoris drools', 'Why the Neko purs when the Inu growls', 'The Pickle and the Donut'? What kind of titles were these? She felt so dirty. These books were just too explicit for her.

"Ah!" She had found the book. "Here it is."

Tohru took the book and read the title, "How to love your Triangle?" She was confused. "This is going to help me?" She looked up at the librarian, who smiled brightly down at her.

Nodding away, she spoke. "This will help you understand your changers. I suggest you start at Chapter 7." Refusing to speak about it again, she checked out the book and headed home. Heading straight to her room she began where the librarian had suggested, Chapter 7. It took her a few hours to reach the final chapter. The book was beyond detailed, even the illustration had her feeling qeezy.

Not only did it talk about how to love your triangle, but how to get him to love it too. She never knew it could be so difficult to get close to one another. She really liked Shigure, and if she were to lose her virginity to someone, it was either him or Kyo. But who did she feel most comfortable with.

"Tohru!" Shigure was home. Leaping to her feet, she dashed down the stairs and jumped into his arms. The impact from her body slamming into him caused his feet to lose balance, forcing them both to tumble to the ground. "Excited to see me?" She hadn't even realized the sun had already set. Had the book taken that long to read? There were only ten chapters, and she had skipped all the way to seven.

"It get's lonely here." She kissed him on the lips. A sweet passionate kiss, something they had never shared. She had no idea where it came from. He studied her for a few seconds, he never knew how he could last all those hours listening to Ayame whine without having Tohru by his side. He kissed her this time, pulling her into a tight embrace, he had forgotten they were still on the kitchen floor.

After dinner, they had gone into Shigure's study. He continued to write his story, while she read a few papers she had gotten from the library. She had copied different pages of books that she found rather interesting. How to arouse your man, she knew what arouse meant, but she thought she'd learn a little more. As she began to read the next page she began to blush. The word penis was literally in every other sentence. Couldn't they have used a less explicit word to describe the mans private areas. As she moved to the last sentence her question was answered, in bold letters the word, testicles burned into her eyes. Crunching the papers into a ball she felt embarrassed with herself.

Women shouldn't feel embarrassed when reading about how to get comfortable with their man, but she just wasn't use to this. She never had a talk with her mom about this stuff, and she couldn't ask Arisa or Saki. They'd eventually catch on to Tohru's curiousity. Shigure looked over at her, watching her and her frustration, he laughed to himself.