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The leather shoes creaked against the tiled floor as he closed the door behind him. Xanxus heavily turned to face the balcony railing gripping the wine glass tightly within the curve of his fingers.
A gust of wind blew past him as the rain poured down in heavy streaks clouding the sky with gloominess and despair.
He stared at the glass despicably as he scoffed lifting it to his lips.
Today was the day he had met the worst and annoying piece of trash ever; the only one who had caused him so much trouble and confusion.
He met someone who he could never even try to forget no matter how much he wanted to.
That someone was you.
A sharp bright light invaded his mind causing him to wince involuntarily. Xanxus held the bridge of his nose lightly with his free hand as he sighed under his breath.
He didn't want to remember.
The corner of your lips tucked into a gentle smile flashed into his head. He remembered how he felt when you would smile at him.
Trash.
He didn't want to succumb to the million feelings that engulfed him; feeling breathless and overly powerful all of a sudden.
He still remembered.
He felt power, possession, and over-confidence.
Your smiling face appeared, your [h/c] locks cascading on your shoulder while a few strands jotted imperfectly on the front.
His eyes closed tightly, his lips emitting a growl. You were something he didn't want to forget.
Xanxus growled under his breath in frustration cursing the fact that he actually still remembered the colour of your hair, your eyes and how he still felt.
How could he forget?
Xanxus shrugged of his thoughts as he gulped down the wine regretfully. He wiped his mouth harshly from the back of his hand while he staggered heavily towards the wine bottle.
He leaned against the side table for support as he lifted his gaze droopily towards the lightning smeared sky.
He held the bottle within the curve of his fingers as he slugged it down quickly. He approached the balcony letting the heavy rain cool his head down.
Your [e/c] orbs stared back at him mercilessly making the situation even worse.
You were pathetic and weak. None of this would've happened if you weren't so weak.
You were a trouble from the start. He couldn't even understand why he even let you stay in the Varia in the first place.
You were weak compared to the others even though you always tried hard to put up a fight; the only reason why he allowed you to stay.
Or so it seemed to everyone else.
There was one more reason that no one knew and neither did you.
He was too proud to admit it but then one day too late he did.
It was your fault. He blamed it on you. It wouldn't have happened if you weren't so stupid.
Xanxus thrashed the empty wine bottle in his hand against the cold wet tile breaking it in to a million shards.
He still remembered how you felt against him.
How he felt when your hands brushed together with his, the warmth that he felt when he wrapped his arms around your waist.
What he felt when his lips crashed against your lips for the first time.
He felt wanted for the first time in his life. He felt wanted.
He felt love.
He loved you even though he never told it to your face; not even once even though you mentioned that you loved him.
It was the only thing that Xanxus regretted.
He held you in his arms that day. He arrived too late. You were already unconscious when he arrived with an unbeatable amount of rage in his heart.
They hurt you.
He didn't feel the same warmth in his hands that day. The warmth he always felt was gone.
You died that day in his arms muttering the words ' I love you Xanxus..'.
You closed your eyes not hearing the words that he muttered under his breath.
Xanxus slammed his fists against the wall as he tried to forget the memories that were replaying over again.
He didn't want to admit it. His mind didn't want to admit even though his heart ached with realization.
He missed you.
He wanted you.
He loved you.
He knew what love could do to a person at the end.
He finally cared and see what happened. You left him forever.
'I love you [Name]…' He muttered bitterly under his breath.