Morgana's POV
I have so many questions, but how do I ask them?
Like; why was I the only Smith pulled across when there are five kids?
What is the power that I now posses?
What do I do now?
In a way I'm scared. What if I can't control the freaky, amazing power of mine? What if I get angry at Sarah-Jane or Luke and they get vaporised like the Caleriswith? I wouldn't be able to live with myself.
I'm a murderer.
And that's how I know that I will go with the Doctor.
I may hate him, and I may need to learn to stand on my own two feet without his help. But I really do think that he will be able to help. Maybe he can get rid of it for me, so I'm safe again. So I'm safe to live like a normal human being with a normal human life.
I'll have to go...
I don't want to go... do I?
Maybe that's why I was the only one pulled across, to take my place in the universe, like mum did when she was 19 years old and the Doctor blew up her job. I could travel the stars and learn the ways of other species. A small price to pay would be travelling with the Doctor instead of Dad. A huge price to pay is leaving Luke and Sarah-Jane and normality.
A price I have to pay.
I'll go with him, and make his life hell.
...
Morgana let herself quietly into the attic as the first rays of dawn shone through the window. She pulled her cardi tight around her and stared at the TARDIS, anxiously chewing her lip. She made up her mind, and strode the few steps to the doors in only a few seconds.
The door swung open as she approached, and she could see the Doctor stood looking at her through the door. She was nervous about going in there again.
"Coming in?" The Doctor called. Morgana took a step inside and gazed at the interior with the interested look of an artist admiring a Van Gough, intently and knowledgably. She wasn't phased by the size within, she knew it was just another dimension crammed inside a small wooden box, but she fell in love with the decour instantly. You don't have much time for admiring when you are running as if your life depends on it.
"Morning," she muttered.
The Doctor nodded in return and turned back to the console.
"Don't you ever smile," she criticized after studying the Doctor's serious face for a few seconds. She knew that look, it was the I-Don't-want-to-tell-you-this-but-Jackie-has-forced-me-to look. She shivered and realised it was icy in the room. "and quite frankly you could turn the heating up a bit."
The Doctor jumped as if scalded and looked at Morgana intently.
What the hell... she thought, I know Dad sometimes reacts funny, but he has never jumped that badly...
"Right, yes of course," he muttered frantically, turning away. Suddenly he whipped back around and began speaking at ninety miles per hour as if he wanted to get something horrible over with "Morgana, when I leave, you have to come with me, you're not-"
"Safe?" Morgana finished. The Doctor stopped short in surprise. Morgana felt a bubble of anger well up inside her; he didn't think she was clever enough to work it out? "You can't leave me here, I'm a danger, unpredicatable, you don't know when I'll next explode. Like a cone volcano."
"Are you alright with that?"
"No," Now it came down to it, Morgana had no desire to leave. She wanted to stay here, with people she loved. Tears prickled her eyes. "But I haven't much choice. I know I'll come with you, but I want you to tell me you can get rid of it, or at least teach me how to control it. I don't want to hurt anyone." Her voice was thick.
"I can teach you how to control it, I promise Morgana."
"Anna."
"I beg your pardon?"
"I don't have to like you, but I need to be safe again, so I don't want you calling me Morgana, Anna."
"ok then."
"I want to stay," the words slipped quietly and unbidden from Morgana's lips. "They're my family now, my world. I want to stay here. Doctor, why am I always being taken away from my home?"
The Doctor surveyed her sadly, a sympathetic look on his face, like he understood her. Morgana caught herself wondering what he was thinking, wishing it was as easy to read the Doctor's thoughts as it was to read her father's.
Had she been able to, Morgana would have found the Doctor's thoughts a complex and tangled mess.
She is so much like me, always wanting to go home. But the way she speaks, looks, feels, is Rose. When she is annoyed or angry, upset, she is all Donna. My eyes. No, his eyes. I have to realise that now. It will hurt too much to have her here in the TARDIS without accepting that. Maybe it would be better if she stayed here; she obviously has a soft for Sarah's lad. No, she's not safe, she lied to me when I asked her about the energy. She is more powerful than Rose. And she doesn't know it. I'll teach her what it means to travel the stars, I'll be able to show her the inheritance that my kids were not allowed... I'll take her to...
Followed by a list of all the planets that the Doctor wanted to take her too and all the people he wanted her to meet.
Morgana left. She practically ran out of the attic and down the stairs, cursing the tears that were welling up behind her eyes. Again.
"Now stop it Morgana, there really is no need to cry," she scolded herself audibly, not noticing Luke open his door and watch her "What is it with you at the moment? Blubbering away at the slightest little thing like a proper girl. You have four brothers and an Uncle for crying out loud! What on earth would they all say? Humm..."
"He wants you to go with him doesn't he, Luke asked quietly. Morgana looked at him and nodded. Luke looked away. SO that was what his nightmare had meant, not Morgana going home, but the Doctor taking her away in his magical blue box.
"I have too Luke, I'm dangerous. You saw what happened to the Caleriswith at the warehouse. That could happen to you, or Sarah-Jane. I can't let that happen till I know how to control it. I'm not safe enough to be left down here on Earth," She whispered, reassuring herself as much as him. "If I could stay here I would."
Morgana succumbed to her tears again, berating herself for letting her wall fall. Luke settled he down on the stairs and went to fetch him mum. Defiantly a girl thing.
... ...
"Why?" Luke was angry "Why are you taking her away from me. She doesn't want to go."
The Doctor didn't want to see another angry person for another year. He'd set the TARDIS to holiday flight mode and lock himself in his room so he didn't even have to face Anna. First the girl, then Sarah-Jane for making said girl cry, then Rani and Clyde – couple in the making – and now Luke. Who had the most to lose.
"You can't expect me to leave her after what happened in the warehouse," he said patiently for the billionth time.
"Yeah, 'coz we can look after her, mum and me. You can't force her to go with you. It's against her statuary rights as a human 16 year old under human law." Luke insisted, quoting from his little law book.
"What about Time Lord, hmm? That makes her my responsibility. She is still just a child!" the Doctor argued. Luke banged his fist down on the table.
"It's not fair," Luke roared. The Doctor started. He hadn't heard that argument before. Or any argument said with that much venom. "Why her? Why do you have to take her away?" he continued in a deadly whisper. "I always lose them, Maria to America, and now Morgana to the stars. I need her Doctor."
The Doctor could feel the waves of desperacy rolling off Luke as he made his last ditch attempt to secure Morgana. He also felt he could connect to Luke's feelings. After all, he had experienced the very same with Rose, Morgana's own mother. What is it with the Tyler women...
"I know how you're feeling Luke," the Doctor started. Luke roared again in anger, knowing his case was lost. "Truly I do, but if it happens again, she or any of you, might not be so lucky."
"I hate you."
Luke left. The Doctor remained seated, shell-shocked at how venomously Luke had uttered the three words he had heard so often.
...
Morgana was packing her bag when she found her school bag, still containing her books and the battered Sense and Sensibility that Nana and Grandad had gotten her. She turned the cover to read the inscription on the inside : Our shining star, never stop burning brightly. All our Love, Nana and Grandad.
A picture fell from the internal pages. It was her family. Morgana was stood in the middle, laughing, with her arms around a pair of identical, lanky boys. On one side was a bookish, skinny young man with a pair of thick glasses, grinning manically. The other side had a redhead tall man. A small brunette woman was behind Morgana with her arms around a tall lanky man with grey streaked hair. Alex, Mickey, Morgana, Will and Jonny. Behind were Rose and John Smith. All of the faces were radiant and happy; the picture of the perfect, big happy family.
Morgana clutched the picture to her chest like a lifeline. It was all she had left. The only evidence that they existed at all. It was a good thing she had cried herself to death, for if she had any tears left, they would be pouring like Victoria Falls. Or was it Niagara here? She didn't know.
"Do you want some help Morgana?" Luke asked softly from the doorway. Morgana started, she hadn't heard him come in at all. She shook her head.
"no, almost done now, I didn't have much stuff to pack," she attempted a bright breezy tone that didn't bode well with her red rimmed eyes. She also had her entire wardrobe splayed across her bed with very little in the suitcase. Luke looked at the stuff, then back at Morgana.
"Love some help, thanks Luke," she sighed and laid her picture down on the bed.
"Is that your family?"
"Yup, latest photo I have of them," Morgana said lightly, folding a light sundress. She didn't want to make everyone else unhappy because she was. That was unfair.
Luke was startled by how upbeat Morgana was being, she had been a sobbing wreck only a few hours ago. He thought that she was excited about going now that she had gotten over the shock.
They stood there in silence, packing Morgana's life into a medium sized floral suitcase; the lonely boy and the homesick girl. Neither one knowing if she would ever reside in that room again.
...
"Sarah-Jane, I don't want fussy goodbyes. I've given Rani and Clyde a hug apiece, and Luke," Morgana whispered "I only need to say see ya to you."
Sarah-Jane smile and gave Morgana a quick hug.
"Be back by the end of the weekend, you have school on Monday!"
Morgana smiled, a little brighter than before "I forgot he had a time machine."
"Well, don't forget it again. I'll keep everyone downstairs. Go now," Sarah-Jane smiled and pressed a kiss to Morgana's forehead.
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Morgana's POV
I don't want to go. Why would I want to leave my home? Most people would kill for my chance. The chance to travel in a blue 1960's Police Box with a madman, through time and space. He's a madman in a box.
Chance of a lifetime. A trip to the stars.
I don't know what is hardest, leaving, or knowing that, fundamentally I have a choice. I could stay behind if I really wanted too, but I am forcing myself to go. I would prefer it if he would come back at a later date, so I could prove that I'm not a simple little girl who needs someone else to look after her. Once I have worked out how to control whatever it is that happened to me, I will be back.
Determination runs in my family. Mum walked across universes to find the Doctor. The Doctor burned up a sun, just to say goodbye. Donna waited and investigated every alien sighting to try and find the impossible Doctor again. The Doctor kept travelling and cloned himself to stop himself from regenerating. He left my mum to make my dad a better person. Never too much determination Nana always said. She waited 20 years for Grandad, even though she knew he was dead. Now that's loyalty.
I think I can enjoy myself and make the most of my experience, it would be stupid not to. Maybe I should give him the cold shoulder for a few days, make him feel guilty.
Two opposing forces cause friction. I get the feeling there will be a lot of friction in the TARDIS from now on.
I stepped into the TARDIS and into an entirely alien world. The engines whirred and took me away from my old life.
Ohh and with a man I seriously dislike. Did I mention that?
A/N This chapter is very long, but I wanted to get it all over with in one go rather than having lots of individual chapters. Please review.