Standing Up For Myself

Abuse Reactions Chapter 13

Short diary entry format

Wednesday November 4th 11:40pm

Feeling sorry for myself? Completely over. Time get back on the right track emotionally. I can't let this drag me down anymore. In order to be a good role model for my sisters I need to stand up to Orin and break the relationship up. There is no love between us at all so there's really no point in staying together with him. We are having a date night tomorrow night. That's when I will drop the bombshell.

Friday morning November 6th

Last night I had a talk with Orin about our realationship. It did not go as well as I had planned but I managed to escape the date with a small bruise on my arm… much better in opposition to all the bigger bruises he has given me over time.

Here's how the conversation went

"Orin, we need to talk."

"About?"

"Our relationship."

"What's the problem I treat you well enough don't I?"

I sighed

"Honestly, Orin you really don't"

"I love you though Audrey."

"You have an odd way of showing it."

His cheeks flame

"There's not another guy is there?"

I intentionally choose not to bring up the fact I have feelings for Seymour.

"No, Orin.. there's no one else."

"Dirty slut, you're lying to me."

"No I'm not."

He brings out his fist

SLAP

"Orin, stop!"

"I'll stop when I want"

Slap Slap Slap

I jump up from the couch. He chases me around the room lunging at me. I dodge his hands as they try to reach for me. He corners me against a wall.

"Why are you gonna leave me?"

"Can you give me any reasons to stay?" I counter.

He is silent. He slaps me again instead.

I run into the kitchen and lock the door behind me… who knew that kitchen doors came with locks. They actually work really well in an emergency.

"Audrey let me in"

Shaking, I pick up the phone and dial 911. The dispatcher answers. I tell him Orin's address and report domestic abuse. I unlock the door and Orin is standing there sneering at me. "Who was on the phone?"

"No one."

Theree minutes later the cops arrive to aresst Orin. He takes off down the driveway and the cop chase him until Orin finally gives up and lets them arrest him. He says nothing but shoots me a stony glare as he is put into the squad car.

I go back into the house and check the damages. Then I call Chiffon.

"Can you come to Orin's?"

"Did you have another bad night?"

"No, actually quite the opposite. Orin's in jail. I broke up with him."

There is silence for a bit then I hold the phone away from my ear as she screams.

" I'm so happy for you. I'll be over to pick you in a little bit."

The phone goes dead.

I hang up feeling the happiest I have ever felt as well as vindicated for finally overcoming this vicious cycle of abuse.