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Chapter 13

To say Skye got sleep was a lie, she tossed and turned all night. She didn't want to relive those thoughts, she could still feel herself being pulled out with the staff. She could feel the blood of Steve on her hands, her wanting to kill Bucky. Felt the anger toward May when she fought her. She could feel Ward's hands on her being possessive, seeing Brock with such pain in his eyes. She knew Brock would never hurt her, knew he was the one who kept her safe while she was in Hydra's control. It was the thought of killing Bucky, of hurting Steve, and May that was haunting her. She hurt the ones she ever considered family. They got hurt by her hands, no matter if she could control it or not. Now they would all be at risk with her changing, with her becoming a monster. A monster Hydra wanted to create.

She shuttered as she felt Bucky tighten his grip on her, silently telling her it is okay. She looked up to him to see his eyes still closed, but was sure he was awake.

"Did you get any sleep?" he asked softly still not opening his eyes.

"No, I can't" she said quietly, he opened his eyes and looked at her intensely.

"Skye, none of what you did is your fault. You weren't in control you don't need to feel so bad about it" he told her brushing her cheek softly.

"It isn't just that, well it is and it isn't" Skye looked down at her hands, she felt different.

"Is this about what happened last night?" he shifted a little to get a better look at her face.

"Yes" she whispered,

"Skye what happened in that temple?" she just shook her head though,

"I'm not sure." She took a deep breathe.

"I remember the obelisk floating and opening up to see crystals, blue crystals. A mist shot out and I was covered in stone. I thought I was going to die but I didn't, I broke out of it. Now I can't help but think I'm different, something happened to me but I don't know what. I think it had to do with the shaking last night. They wanted to create a monster and they did." She finally got it all out.

"We can get through this Skye, we will get through this together, but there is one thing I know for sure." he told her softly making her look at him.

"You are not a monster, you are not in their control. If you developed some sort of powers we can help you control them. Hydra may have wanted you to go down there, but they aren't controlling you anymore. You are safe with us" Bucky kissed her forehead softly. He knew they did something but just like with him, Skye would get through it.

"Thank you Bucky, for everything"

They turned to see the door creak open with Natasha and Clint smiling at them.

"I see you two are up already" Natasha smiled leaning down and hugging Skye tightly, shifting her eyes to Bucky she mouthed "thank you" to him, he nodded. Leaning back Natasha heard Clint walk into the room Skye got up and hugged him tightly,

"Don't you ever do something like that again, I can't lose you a second time" Clint told her and she nodded into his shoulder.

"Well should we talk about what happened last night?" Natasha stated looking between Bucky and Skye. Bucky gave her and encouraging nod, she told them about the temple and how she knew she felt different.

"We can figure it out, if it is something different we can always ask Thor" Clint offered, Skye just looked at him playing with the sheet.

"You mean if I am alien" she said softly, Clint went to say something but Bucky glared and cut him off.

"Skye just because something happened to you doesn't mean you are alien, look at Steve and me. We both had something done to us to make us have advanced strength that doesn't make us any different. This doesn't mean you are different either, if you did somehow gain powers, it still means you are still our Skye." He smiled gently, he just nodded not trusting her own voice to say anything.

"I don't want anyone to know yet, I don't want them to think I am some freak." Skye finally explained.

Natasha, Clint, and Bucky just looked at each other worried but agreed. Skye left the three of them and went into the bathroom to clean herself up. After she cleaned up and dressed she looked into the mirror but couldn't help but see herself differently, something had happened yet she can't explain it herself. So many thoughts ran through her head, she just needed some time to think. She needed time to herself to sort everything out, the thoughts replayed in her head what happened in the tunnels. She felt the sink shake slightly, her eyes went wide but she took one breath, then another, just like May taught her. It only grew stronger, she backed away in fear of herself. The bathroom door swung open but she couldn't turn around, the mirror shattered and she felt someone hold her.

"Skye it is going to be okay just breathe, you can control this" it was Clint that was holding her but she couldn't stop it she knew this was only going to get worse.

"I can't" she told him, she knew she had to get out of the tower or she would bring it down. She turned to Clint not saying anything as he released her, she silently told him she is sorry before she ran. Bucky tried to go after her but Natasha held him back, Natasha knew better than anyone that she needed time to herself.

"Why did you let her go, she needs us now more than ever" Bucky roared, but Clint just shook his head.

"She needs time Bucky, I know it hard that you just got her back but what you need to understand is Skye will always risk herself before she risks the lives of others. It is how she has always been." Clint said sadly. He remember time after time she would put herself in front of a fight to stand up for someone else. He knew if they tried to hold her here it would be worse for her. Bucky looked from Natasha to Clint, but he was clearly out matched. He sat back on the bed and hoped Skye would return to them soon.