Hi everyone.
I'm so sorry I haven't updated in such a long time. I promise I am not abandoning this story. I have just moved countries with my 2 children and started working long weeks. I have also been asked to write an article on my research for publication which is extremely time-consuming.
Anyway, I love fanfiction and I'm not going anywhere! I just need your patience and appreciate that so many people love my stories.

Warning: Slightly emotional scene with one of the kids, also a bit of sex in here (for you Elaine 😉)

Jane was startled out of her sleep and frowned, not knowing what had woken her up. Without relinquishing her possessive hold of the smaller body in her arms, she turned her neck to check the bedside clock for the time. 2:23am. She assumed a dream had woken her and she nuzzled her face in closer to the side of her wife's neck, drifting back to sleep.

She was roused again seconds later by the timid knock on their bedroom door followed by a brunette head poking inside. Light brown eyes searched the room and met her dark ones.

"Hey sweetie, you ok?" She motioned the young boy over to their bed and noted the relieved look on his face when he spotted Maura lying there next to him.

It was the doctor's first night home since their incident with Charles Hoyt three days prior. Maura had spent time in hospital to recover but also to make sure that everything checked out ok with the baby. All of their children had been anxious to have her home, but Logan had not been himself since he had found out that Maura had been hurt.

"No." He answered quietly and sat on the edge of the bed, next to the blonde. He held his hand out to touch the ends of her hair and was suddenly sobbing.

His cries scared Maura awake but she adapted quickly, pulling her son into her arms and holding him tightly. Jane wrapped around them both from behind. "Oh honey, what— what is it? Did you have a bad dream?" The doctor cooed and he nodded his head against her chest.

"Wanna tell us what it was about, buddy?" Jane reached around to rub his back.

He shook his head rigorously, not wanting to relive the nightmare. He simply clung to Maura, not wanting to let her go. She cuddled him closely until his breathing evened out signalling he was asleep.

Jane unwrapped her arms from the pair and moved to get out of bed but the doctor stopped her. "Leave him, sweetheart. He's obviously suffering from anxiety and might panic if he wakes up in his bed and not here."

"Ok, babe."

An hour later Logan's whimpering woke both women again and Maura wrapped her arms around the boy. "Shh sweetie, it's ok." She kissed his head and rubbed his back.

"Mommy." He cried into the doctor's shoulder, fistfuls of her sleep shirt clenching in his small hands. "Mommy, nooo!"

The blonde wasn't sure if he was having a bad dream about his birth mother or her. He had never called her Mommy before. "Shh, I'm here baby."

His watery dark eyes looked up at Maura with so much love and fear at the same time, it broke her heart. "Don't— don't leave me, Mommy. Please don't leave me." He sobbed desperately.

"I'm n-not going anywhere, Logan. I'm right here. Shh, sweetheart." Her own tears spilled at his frightened state. She held him closer and rubbed his back until he calmed down and drifted off to sleep again.

Logan's restlessness and whimpering kept Jane and Maura up for the rest of the morning. Both much too concerned to fall back asleep.

"Sweetheart, I need to go now." Maura spoke softly to the young boy clinging to her desperately. She looked despairingly up at Jane for some help.

The tall woman moved to her wife's aid and grasped their son by the shoulders. "Hey Logan, let's watch some cartoons?"

The seven-year-old wouldn't budge. His face pressed against Maura's protruding belly. "No." Came the muffled response, small hands clenching the doctor's dress at her hips.

Maura crouched down to look Logan in his glassy eyes. She wrapped an arm around his shoulders and caressed his face. "Darling, I need to go to work."

"No Mommy, I don't want you to." He whimpered and it broke her heart.

"I know, Logan, but I have to."

Jane tried to intervene again but the small body moved out of her grasp. "No Mama, I'm going with Mommy."

The sweet-natured little boy was uncharacteristically defiant and refused to let Maura go. The doctor bit her lip and made a decision. "Ok honey, you can come with me but Mama will need to come and get you by lunchtime, ok?"

His face brightened and he nodded against her chest. "K."

"Maur, are you sure?"

They both stood up and Logan kept his eyes trained on Maura between tying his shoelaces from only a metre away.

"What choice do we have, Jay? I can take him to see Dr Munroe, our psychologist, while she's there this morning. I think he is suffering from anxiety after— well, you know?" The smaller woman gestured to her neck.

Jane moved to take the blonde into her arms and kissed her softly. "Ok, Maur. If you think that's best?"

"I do. I love you." Maura gave her another kiss and picked up her purse.

"Love you too. Love you, Logan. Have fun with Mommy." Jane followed the pair to the door and waved as they got into the car.

The young boy smiled at Jane as he settled into the backseat and buckled up. "Bye Mama, love you too."

Over the following month Jane and Maura had become increasingly aware of the separation anxiety and the fear of loss Logan was struggling with. They understood that after the death of two parents in his young life and the recent scare of losing Maura, he was coping the only way he knew how. He believed that if he didn't let Maura out of his range of vision that nothing would happen to her.

After several visits with the clinic's psychologist, the young boy was able to let Maura out of his sight without having a panic attack and the whole family were aware of how to help him to overcome his fear and how to navigate through it if it struck at any point.

It had been exhausting and Maura had reduced her hours at work to accommodate their son. A new case had caused Jane to put off her resignation and she still hadn't spoken with her wife about it, but the recent month solidified her decision and she was determined to be more available for her family.

"Are you sure about this, Jane?" Harold asked for the last time.

The FBI agent took a deep breath and nodded, unclipping her badge and unholstering her service weapon, handing both over to him. "Yes, sir."

His blue eyes were sad but he smiled proudly at her. "Make sure you come to the awards night next month, ok?" He watched as she signed the last piece of paperwork necessary to make everything official.

"I will. You guys need to make sure you still come over for dinner Sundays whenever you can make it." She smirked at him when he rolled his eyes. He had promised Maura that he would do his best to bring his husband, Jack, several times but work had him unable to follow through.

"We'll get there eventually… All the best, Jane."

"Thanks, Harold." One final glance over his office and she left the room.

She was met with a lot of noise and cheering, confetti sprayed in her face, and balloons were everywhere. A sign above the group of faces read 'Don't leave us, Jane!' She laughed at the appreciation being shown.

Lucy and Finn wrapped her up in a hug, Barry joined them from behind. "We know we'll see you on Sundays, but it wont be the same without you here."

Jane broke away before they made her cry. "You guys suck." She joked and gave Finn a punch to the shoulder. "I'll see you tomorrow night for the farewell."

The brunette moved to say goodbye to the rest of the team and a few others that she worked with. Sad that she was leaving an incredible workplace, but so excited for the next chapter of her life.

Jane entered the house and breathed a sigh of relief. The smell of her wife's cooking made her smile. So did the sound of Stevie Nicks' smoky voice singing 'Rhiannon'.

Maura loved Fleetwood Mac. She knew when she rounded the corner, she would find her swaying sexily to it, unaware of anything else but the music and the food on the stove top.

She hurriedly took off her boots and jacket, then moved to unstrap her gun and badge.

Almost alarmed when her hands came up empty, she calmed her racing heart and gave herself a crooked grin when she remembered why the items weren't there. It was like a massive weight off her shoulders.

Jane rounded the corner to the living room and wasn't disappointed. She snuck up behind her sashaying wife and wrapped her hands around her hips.

"Oh! Honey, you scared me!" Maura laughed along with the brunette and turned in her arms to face her.

Jane's eyes automatically travelled to her neck and her jaw clenched tightly at the scar. She lowered her face closer to it, placing her lips over the thin white line. Her hands slid between them, over the tiny bump, and she opened her mouth wider, sucking soft flesh into her mouth.

Maura pulled the long arms back around her waist and looped hers tightly around Jane's neck. "Mmm, dance with me, baby." She moved her hips into her wife's and shifted them from side to side.

Allowing the smaller woman to move them easily, she ran her hands underneath the untucked silk shirt to caress warm skin, and received a tender kiss.

Jane's heart pounded when she thought about what she needed to tell Maura. Now was as good of a time as any though.

"Uh, babe?" The taller woman pulled back to look at the beautiful face that stared adoringly at her.

"Mmm?"

"Today was my last day at work."

It took a moment for the words to register and the honey blonde stopped moving, looking up at Jane in confusion. She had been informed so matter-of-factly, she wasn't sure if she had heard correctly. "I'm sorry, what?"

"I quit. I'm not going back." The ex FBI agent grinned joyfully.

Their movement stopped, Maura gaping at the news. "Oh— Oh my god… You're serious?!"

"Uh huh."

Maura's laughter bubbled up and erupted, bringing tears of relief with it.

Their celebratory kiss was interrupted by their five children getting home all at once.

"Mama!" Logan launched himself at her and she caught him in her strong arms. The now eight-year-old had recently returned to his more relaxed and easy going nature.

"Hi, sweetie. How was school?" Jane wrapped her arms tightly around his skinny body.

The young boy gave her a huge grin. "It was great! Hi Mommy!" He twisted and dropped out of the embrace and clutched Maura tightly, giving her an adoring look before racing outside to play.

Alex frowned, missing being able to jump into his Mama's arms. Being almost fourteen was a bummer. He didn't say hi, he just pushed past everyone grumpily and stomped upstairs, locking himself in his room.

Jane and Maura observed the behaviour but knew it would have to wait until later. Especially with three girls fighting for their Mama's attention.

"Hi Mama." Eli, in a rush to call Peyton, gave Jane a one-armed hug and ran upstairs, not even acknowledging her Mom.

"Hi Ma!"

"Lu, I was going to say hi first!" Maddie whined and shoved her twin.

The doctor intervened before it turned into a brawl as it had so frequently over the last few months. "Madeleine Sarah! Please do not put your hands on your sister like that."

"Sorry, Mommy." Maddie apologised quickly and moved to have her turn at cuddling her Mama.

Maura frowned at the attention Jane was receiving. It wasn't that she was jealous. Her children had always adored her wife, that hadn't changed, but they had always greeted her just as enthusiastically. She wondered if the baby had anything to do with it.

Lost in her pondering, she missed the girls retreating upstairs and Jane had to call her name a few times before she realised she had zoned out.

"Maur?" Dark eyes were in front of her, full of concern. Warm hands were at her hips, rubbing softly up and down.

"Sorry, darling. I- Have you noticed that, besides Logan, our children aren't as physically affectionate with me as they usually are?"

Jane frowned. "No, I haven't noticed. Um, is that how you're feeling?" She snuggled close before the tears started.

"Y-yes. Eli didn't even say hello to me!" It was too late. Maura began crying into her wife's chest, hating the emotional outburst. It was valid to be upset by it but at almost nineteen weeks pregnant, her hormones were running rampant and she was sobbing over the most tiny of hurts.

"Aw, baby. They love you so much." Jane rubbed up and down the blonde's back, holding her close. "C'mon, let's finish up dinner together and then we can talk to the kids after, alright?"

Unable to find her voice yet, Maura just nodded against the taller woman's neck and allowed her wife to lead her back into the kitchen.

"Shit!" The brunette's hand twitched at the strange sensation under her scarred palm.

"Jane!" Maura scolded her wife but couldn't help the chuckle at the childlike expression on the beautiful face.

"I felt that! I finally felt it move!"

"Our baby is not an 'it', JJ." Came the expected correction but without any anger. Maura gave her an adorable smile, loving the wonder on Jane's face. She never got this with Garrett. She had gone to every single ultrasound by herself and he didn't care whether the baby was moving or what sex they were. She couldn't help but think how lucky she was to have someone so devoted and in love with her.

Jane gave her a goofy grin and looked impatiently at the blank screen again, her hand still on Maura's bump. She was beyond excited, they were about to find out the sex of their baby.

Vanessa entered the room and gave the couple a big grin. "Ok ladies, let's have a look at your little one." The Australian got the necessary items ready to begin and raised an eyebrow at Jane.

"What?" The brunette looked at her hand and pulled it away reluctantly. "Ha, sorry doc."

Vanessa chuckled as she lifted Maura's shirt and squirted the warmed up gel on her belly. They all looked to the screen and assessed what they were seeing. "I'm going to do measurements first and then we'll reveal what you're having, ok?"

"Sure."

"Wha— No! I wanna know now!" Jane whined and glared at the doctors. They both laughed at her immature reaction and continued on as though she hadn't spoken. Resigned to waiting patiently, she zoned out at their technical talk and tried to figure out the sex of their baby herself. It was no use. She had no idea what she was looking at.

"Well, there it is." Vanessa exclaimed and Maura smiled as she recognised the important parts that indicated what they were having.

Jane was beyond annoyed. "That's great!" She stated sarcastically. "What is it that I'm lookin' at?!"

Maura's warm hand slipped into hers and she squeezed softly. "We're having a boy, darling."

Anger dissipating almost instantly, Jane's eyebrows hiked up and she gave the screen a huge grin. She looked more intently to try and see what Vanessa was pointing at, indicating that they would have another son. It looked like an alien to her and she couldn't tell between fingers, a nose, or a penis, no matter how hard she tried. "I'll uh, take your word for it." She turned to Maura and kissed her tenderly. "Another boy!" Visions of roughhousing and basketball games floating through her mind.

When they got home, they shared the news with their children, all of them happy about the addition except for Alex.

The teenager grumbled for a moment and then excused himself from the lounge room to go to his room.

"I'm gonna go talk to him." Jane whispered to Maura and followed their son upstairs. She knocked softly on the door and poked her head inside. The long, skinny body was splayed out on the queen sized bed that they had bought him to accommodate his most recent growth spurt. "Hey bud, can I come in?"

Alex looked across the room to the doorway and nodded at his Ma.

She sat next to him and ran her hand through his scraggly honey blonde locks, his hair colour almost identical to Maura's. "What's wrong, Alex?"

His eyes closed involuntarily at the affection and he sighed. "I dunno."

The non-verbal cue was enough for Jane to figure out the gist of his problem but she wasn't going to say anything and embarrass him about it. Her son was craving attention. She assumed it was hers but probably Maura's as well. They had been through a lot over the last six months and with the addition of a baby in the near future, they were doing their best to make sure the kids were having their needs met, but it was difficult to assess the needs of a teenager.

"Do you wanna go to the movies tomorrow, just you and me?" Her thoughts were confirmed when his light brown eyes it up at the suggestion.

"Really?"

"Yeah, of course, sweetie." She ruffled his hair and stood up. "Have a look at what's on and let me know what we're gonna see."

"K, Mama." He was already up and on his laptop, looking at what they could go and see.

Maura bit her bottom lip as she watched her wife sleep. She had been laying wide awake for at least fifteen minutes now, staring at the beautiful brunette, her need growing to the point of painfulness.

The doctor had been aware that her libido would kick in a little more aggressively in her third trimester. She had no idea just how much though, never experiencing it to this level before.

"Jane?" The blonde whispered softly into the taller woman's ear, pressing herself as closely as her thirty one week old bump would allow. "Baby?" She raised her voice a little and ran her hand down Jane's t shirt clad front.

The brunette groaned with pleasure and smiled softly in her sleep. A small gasp left her mouth as Maura's hand trailed down to softly stroke between her legs, over the top of her underwear. "Mmm, yeah." Jane breathed out and blinked her sleepy eyes open. She was delightedly surprised to be woken up to Maura kissing her collarbone and running her fingers back and forth over her most intimate area. "Fuck, babe."

"Yes, please. I need you." Maura moaned into Jane's neck and sucked hard at the pulse point. Her fingers sped up and Jane's hips moved to their rhythm.

"What— what do you need, baby?" Jane's husky, sleep-laden voice spurred Maura to push herself onto all fours and retrieve their toy from the top drawer of her bedside table.

The brunette smirked at the forward behaviour and allowed her focussed wife to put the harness onto her. Maura easily slipped one end into Jane, giving a smug smile at the gasp it elicited, and she fit the other end through the ring of the harness. She crawled back up Jane's body and rubbed herself shamelessly over the dildo. "God, I can't—" She placed the toy against her opening and slid on top. "Ohh, sorry baby, I can't wait. I need—" She rocked her hips wantonly, very close to climax already.

"What do you need?" Jane repeated her earlier words, hoping to aid her wife's release.

"Touch me." Was the soft command.

Jane obeyed. Her right hand reached to palm an aroused nipple and her left slid over a wet clit, purposefully but gently circling the sensitive, hard bud. Her hips pushed up to meet Maura's thrusts and she groaned at the tightening in her belly. "Shit, Maur. I'm close."

Maura's response was to lean forward and rock them harder and claim her wife's lips in a possessive, passionate kiss. They came together, groaning into each other's mouths, panting from the exertion.

The doctor slumped forward and kissed the sweaty neck. "Oh god. That— was so good, my love."

"Uh huh. You can wake me up for that anytime, honey."

Once she had recovered, Maura climbed off the long body with another groan of satisfaction and removed the toy and harness. Jane's hands reached for her belly and looked at her with some concern.

She had come a long way since her paranoia over hurting the baby in the early stages of the pregnancy but still had the occasional worry that they were too rough during sex and the little one wouldn't be able to withstand it.

"He's fine, sweetheart." Maura assured her, knowing the look on her face. She laid back down, facing away from Jane and sighed happily when a strong arm wrapped around her.

"Maura! Put that down!" Vanessa practically yelled at the heavily pregnant blonde who was currently trying to lift a small box of files.

The doctor rolled her eyes at her friend and colleague and let the cardboard hit the desk with a thump. "Not you too?!" She groaned in frustration.

The dark haired woman shook her head at her best friend and snatched up the box, feeling a little embarrassed when she realised it was quite light. "Uh, yes, me too! Damn it!" She broke out into a grin at her mistake. Maura was an intelligent woman who loved her unborn baby and knew exactly how to take care of him. "Sorry, Maur."

"It's fine, Vanessa. I'm just so tired of Jane fussing over every single thing I do." Maura frowned at the thought of going home to her overbearing wife.

"At least she cares. Hopefully only a few more days."

"Gosh, I really hope so!" Maura rubbed her stomach and couldn't help but smile at the thought.

"Does Jane really know what she's in for with a newborn?" The Australian gave a smirk at the thought.

"No." Maura smirked back. "She thinks teenagers are exhausting. This is going to be quite the experience for her but… Oh, you should see how cute she is, reading all of the baby books and learning about the developmental stages of a newborn."

Vanessa laughed. She could imagine Jane doing all of that with all of her sudden spare time. "How is she handling not working?"

Maura's eyes lit up. "She's loving it and the kids haven't been this happy in such a long time." The blonde could almost cry at how incredible the last few months had been with Jane home.

"Is she going to get another job?"

"I don't know. We've both agreed that she will be the at home carer for the baby after my few months off. I'll pump and she can bring him in for feeds."

Vanessa gave her friend a genuine smile and rubbed her arm affectionately. "You guys are fuckin' crazy." She joked and got another eye roll.

"6 children is a lot but they are all so wonderful. I could easily have a few more."

The taller woman scoffed in disbelief. "Tell that to your vagina in a few days."

They both laughed knowingly and then a look of horror crossed Maura's face and she grabbed her belly.

A set of hazel eyes and a set of blue eyes looked to the ground where a trickle of fluid was steadily dripping on the floor.

"Oh shit!" Vanessa exclaimed. "No need to wait a few days to talk to your vagina. Better call Jane." She grinned at the stunned woman, grasped her arm to move her away from the mess she had created, and motioned for one of the passing nurses to get a janitor to clean it up.

I hope you all enjoyed the update. There is probably only another chapter or 2 left in me for this. I want to focus on my other story, Témoignage. If you haven't started reading it, please do so! It's my favourite so far ️

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