I realised I hadn't put in the disclaimer so better late than never - I only own those you don't recognise - the other are owned by PAX
One other thing I didn't mention is that in this fic Jack and Sue are married and Sue is pregnant - it doesn't really relate to the story but it does explain things between them -
This chapter is mainly a flashback from Lucy which is why there is a repete at the end from the last chapter -
It may take me a few days between posts I'm am so stretched at the moment, uni, work, 2 kids, wifely duties I am bringing multi tasking to a whole new level at the mo
Lucy sat up slightly, thanks to her doctor, in her hospital bed thinking, she finally had chance to come to terms with everything that she had been told by the doctor and her friends. She had woken up a little over twelve hours ago and was greeted by the face of her doctor Caroline Adams and now she had the chance to really think about what she had learned over the last few hours.
"Miss Dotson, I'm Caroline Adams, your doctor, can you remember anything?"
"I remember being in the car and then there was a van, the next thing I know I'm waking up here"
"Ok I see" She replied in a soft gentle tone and took a seat in the chair by the side of Lucy's bed "Lucy you were involved in car accident, a bad car accident, when you arrived in the ER you were unconscious and have been until now. I took you straight into surgery where I operated on you,I have pinned the bones in your leg and ankle which will help the bone breaks heal, you had damage to your spleen which I have managed to repair for now, but it may have to be removed in the future we need to keep an eye on it. I removed a piece of glass which had punctured your lung which will explain the problems you are having breathing. You had intensive pressure on your brain but a colleague of mine operated and we have managed to ease that."
"My brain is that going to lead to any problems in the future; I heard that can cause strokes"
"You will be more high risk than other people but with medication we should be able to delay any problems. Lucy there are some other things we need discuss" she replied placing a gentle arm on Lucy
"What?" she asked slowly
"A few days ago you developed very heavy bleeding and we had to rush you back into theatre, Lucy a gynaecologist colleague of mine operated and discovered a tear in your womb, Lucy I am very sorry to have to tell you but she had to perform a hysterectomy in order to save your life."
"A hysterectomy" Lucy gasped in shock "does that mean I want be able to have children?" she asked as the tears fell
"I'm sorry Lucy, but I'm afraid it does. Lucy I have to ask but did you have any underlying problems that could have caused the tear, a form of female cancer for example, we have been having problems obtaining your medical history but, don't worry, if you haven't the tear could have just as easily occurred in the accident"
"No well nothing that I know of anyway"
"That's fine now you are awake I'll run some tests to double check. Now there is one more thing that we need to discuss. It is a little more serious than your other injuries. You have damage to your nervous system in particular her spinal cord which may have caused spinal paralysis. I have to conduct a number of tests in order to determine the amount of damaged you have sustained. I'll carry out the tests in the next few hours once I make sure you are recovering well and your breathing is more controlled."
"Ok" Lucy replied not really able to say much else, she had so many things to get her head around right now, she couldn't have children, she may not be able to walk, the accident, she couldn't really remember anything about the accident only that she wasn't alone
"Caroline, I wasn't alone in the accident, who was with me? I can't remember" She said sadly
"I'll leave that to your colleagues, I know there are some things they need to discuss with you. Sue and Jack Hudson are outside waiting to talk to you. I'll do run some tests and send them in" the doctor replied, she decided that the death of her family would be better coming from those who loved her and not a stranger in a hospital room.
The doctor run some test on Lucy, checked her breathing, took some blood and left the room indicating for Jack and Sue to enter and talk to her
"How is she?" Sue asked before entering
"She's in shock and trying to process all the information I have just told her about her condition. She doesn't know anything about the accident or what happened to her family" Caroline answered
"Good, I'd rather tell her myself" Sue answered, before following Jack into the room where her best friend lay, her tears staining her face
"Hi Lucy" Sue said kissing her cheek "How are you feeling?"
"A little sore, scared about what the test are going to reveal and trying to remember what happened" she answered sadly
"Well being sore is understandable, the tests are going to come back fine and you are going to be fine. If you're not then Jack and I will be with you all the way, as will the rest of the team" Sue answered causing a nod from Jack "As for the accident I can tell you what happened or at least what we know from Metro" Sue replied placing a hand on hers and the other on Jack leg, the three of them were going to need each other's strength to do this
"Then please tell me Sue, I need to know what happened, how all this happened"
"We'll tell you all we know" Jack reassured "But you do need to prepare yourself Luce, there are some details and events that will be hard to hear" he continued placing one hand on hers, just above Sue's and his other on top of Sue's hand that was on his leg
"You ready?" Sue asked, earning a small nod from Lucy "ok, what do you remember about the day of the accident?" she asked softly
"Not much, I remember being sat in the office doing paperwork, Randy and I had argued all morning over something, Myles came in and we argued over something I can't remember what, I remember I was going for Lunch with someone, maybe I was on my way to pick them up I don't really know. I remember a van. I remember seeing someone's face. Oh my GOD Sue, Jack who was in the car?" she asked fighting back the scared feeling welling inside her as she got agitated
"It's ok Luce calm down" Sue said "Shhh calm down Luce" she continued stroking her hand
"Please I need to know, who was in the car?"
"Luce, you are right there was someone in the car, there were two people, your grandmother was with you she had come to the bullpen to take you to lunch and also your mother was with you. I guess you picked her up on the way" Sue answered gently
"Are they ok?" she asked the tears forming once again
Sue and Jack looked at each and Jack nodded as if to agree with Sue that she should be the one to tell her
"Luce, honey I really don't know how to put this" Sue spoke gently trying to stem her own emotions "Luce, I'm really sorry but the accident was bad, you were lucky to survive it, I'm sorry Lucy but your grandmother and your mother both died in the accident. I'm sorry Luce" She continued as she moved to hold the woman who she considered her sister as she broke down in tears clinging to Sue, while Jack moved to hold both his wife and the woman he came to think of as his sister-in-law as the two of them grieved.
A few moments passed and Lucy had managed to control her tears long enough to ask "What happened? How did this all happen? How did one accident kill my family?"
Jack looked at her, "This is what we know from Metro Luce, I don't know how accurate the details are"
"Ok, but I don't care I need an explanation for all this. Please Jack just tell me"
"You left for lunch with your grandmother and I guess picked up your mom somewhere. A driver of a grey van had carried out an attempted robbery at Eddie's, the electronic place on Monument street, anyway a Metro car was parked around the corner on Lincoln Ave when he heard the alarms go off, so he chased the guy when he tried to escape, they rounded the corner on K street at high speed you went into the side of him, the sudden impact caused the transport lorry behind to go into the back of you. That's all we know Luce."
"Did grams or mom suffer? Were they in pain?"
"Your mom was killed outright Luce but your Grams did suffer a brain bleed which caused a stroke, she died about five maybe ten minutes after the accident" Jack continued
"No" Lucy sobbed as she placed her hand on mouth "Poor Grams, poor Mom how am I going to cope alone and without them?" she cried as Sue moved once again to hug her
"It's ok Luce, we're here and we're not going to let you do this alone. Jack and I will be with you all the time."
As Lucy sobbed she remembered something "The phone"
"What phone?" Jack questioned
"My phone, my phone was ringing it was Myles... this is all his fault...we argued and I was angry and upset while driving...he was calling me and I took my eyes off the road for a few seconds to cancel and turn off my phone... this is all his fault" she said her voice getting angrier "Where is he? Is he here?" she demanded
"No Luce he's not here. He is currently being treated by a doctor he passed out a little while ago. He has been with you ever since it happened. He hasn't left your side Luce"
"Good, I don't want him here and I don't want him anywhere near me. I don't want to see him or speak to him Jack, tell him to stay away"
"Lucy" Jack said sadly yet softly
"No Jack I mean it I don't want him here this is all is fault if he hadn't called I wouldn't have got distracted and my mother and grandmother would be alive. I don't want to see him I mean it" she said her voice more determined
"Ok, I don't want to agree to it but I will, but please reconsider Luce" Jack pleaded
"Thank you, now if you will excuse me I really need some sleep" she replied turning over avoiding their gaze, while Jack and Sue slowly moved out of the room
Lucy slept for a few hours before she heard the raised voices of her friends outside, opening her eyes she saw the face of the man who had filled her dreams, who she wanted to see but who she also knew deserved better, deserved someone who could give him a family so as much as it hurt her she had to push him away it was for the best
"Get out" she said in the angriest way her voice would allow
"NO"
"Leave Myles, this, this is all your fault, you killed them, if you hadn't have called I would have seen the van and I would be with my grandmother and mother right now not getting ready to plan their funerals, now get out"
"No Lucy please let me explain"
"I don't want to hear it Myles, I'm sick of your lies and explanations, Bobby get him out of here I don't want to see him"
"Lucy please, I love you" he begged "Let me explain"
"More lies, thanks Myles just what I need, now get out" she practically yelled
She watched as Bobby took his friend by the shoulder and was leading him out of the door while Tara tried to calm her but before she knew it Myles placed a gentle but passion filled kiss on Lucy lips
"Please believe me Luce I'm sorry and I love you" he had whispered to her before leaving the room
Lucy sat on bed and cried as she remembered her day, all the emotions of the past few hours were suddenly released and she cried, she cried over the death of two of the most important and heroic people in her life, she cried over never being able to have children, she cried over the fact that she couldn't really feel any sensations in her legs or feet but most of all she cried that she had pushed away the one man she cared about, the one man she needed more than anything, the one man she fought to come back to, the one man who had given her the strength to fight, but more importantly he was the man she loved.
A noise at the door startled her and she turned her head to see a figure standing in the door way, she didn't want to speak to anyone but right now she needed a distraction so signalled for him to come in
So then who is visiting Lucy
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