"NO, NO, NO!" Sabrina continued to cry into the scratchy motel pillow. She had just seen everything she had done and couldn't hold in the pain anymore. She had just seen herself kill innocent children who could not fight to protect themselves at all. She didn't deserve to live, she was no better than those demons she hunted when she was younger.
"Sabrina." Angel was the first at her side, pulling her to him and putting Sabrina's head on his chest.
"Let me go!" Sabrina said, trying to push him away.
"I won't do that Sabrina." Angel said.
"I killed children Angel. I shouldn't be allowed to live." Sabrina cried harder.
"It was a mistake." Angel told her. "It's something you couldn't control." Everyone else in the room stood still as they watched the exchange between the two.
"Angel." Sabrina pulled back to look him in the eyes. "Kill me. Please."
"Sabrina, no." Angel shook his head.
"Please." Sabrina pleaded, looking up at him.
"I'm not going to kill you. I'll help you cope with this like I did last time." Angel promised. Sabrina pushed Angel away, grabbed a dagger off the beside table, and was behind Doyle, holding the knife to his throat in the blink of an eye.
"Kill me or I'm going to kill him." Sabrina threatened. No one in the room knew what to do. The only thing they did know was that none of them were going to kill Sabrina.
"Sabby, put the knife down." Sam said calmly.
"Don't talk to me like I'm damn child!" Sabrina yelled, pressing the blade against Doyle's throat.
"Sabrina, we know you're not a child." Dean said softly. "Just don't hurt him, you know you don't want to."
"You don't know what I want Dean! You haven't seen me in years." Sabrina said as tears slipped out of the corner of her eyes.
"I know that you wouldn't kill him Sabrina." Angel said, taking a cautious step toward them.
"Stop!" Sabrina said, pressing the blade harder, puncturing the skin. A small amount of blood escaped from the thin cut and Angel stopped in his tracks. "I've killed before, what makes you think I won't do it again?"
"Because I know you Sabz. I know you regret what you did and you would never do that again." Angel said soothingly. Sabrina looked around the room at all the occupants looking at her with sad and scared expressions. Sabrina pulled Doyle closer to her and whispered something in his ear, so softly that only Doyle could hear.
"Tell them if they come near me, I will hunt everyone down and murder them myself." Sabrina said as she moved back toward the door. When she saw close enough, she roughly kicked Doyle in the leg who let out a scream as something cracked. Sabrina threw him forward and threw the knife, catching Dean in the leg. Dean fell to the floor and Sabrina ran out of the room, into the bright sunshine. She knew then only people fast enough to catch her were Angel and Dean but she had taken care of them.
As Sabrina ran down the street, she could hear Sam call her name but from the sound of it, he was still a long way back. Sabrina didn't slow down for a second as she continued running away from her family, not wanting to have to kill them. She ducked into a dark alley about a mile away from the motel to take a breath. As she took calming breaths, a sudden pain tore threw her head, making her grab her head and bite back the screams that she wanted to make. She saw flashes of the people she had killed when she was a vampire. The last made her the sickest.
Sabrina sat in the shadows outside of a small ranch style house. Outside, two siblings, brothers, ran around and played with a ball.
"Derek, don't be so mean." The youngest boy said. He had shaggy brown hair and Sabrina could see the moss green eyes in the darkness.
"I'm not being mean Saul, you just can't catch." The boy, Derek, said to his younger brother. Derek had short blonde hair and jade eyes.
"Yes I can, you're just being mean." Saul pouted.
"Fine, here." Derek said, handing the ball to his brother who smiled happily.
"Thanks Derek. You're the bestest brother ever." Saul said, smiling up at Derek.
"We should get inside buddy, it's getting late." Derek told him.
"Nu-uh. It's nice out here. Nicer than inside." Saul said. Sabrina could tell he didn't like his home. She had been watching the boys for days and found that the boys' parents didn't really care about their sons.
"It's time for bed." Derek said.
"But I wanna play De, just for a little bit longer." Saul pleaded with puppy dog eyes.
"Alright, ten more minutes." Derek said. Saul smiled and began playing catch with Derek again. Sabrina figured it was time to make herself known.
"Hey, can I play?" Sabrina asked, stepping out of the shadows. Derek turned to look at her and stood in front of his brother.
"We're not supposed to talk to strangers." Derek said.
"My name's Sabine." Sabrina said with a smile.
"I'm Saul." The boy said, stepping out from behind his brother.
"It's nice to meet you." Sabrina said, crouching down so she was level with him. She then turned to look at Derek who sighed.
"Derek." He told her.
"So we're not strangers anymore." Sabrina told him.
"I guess not." Derek shrugged.
"You wanna play catch?" Saul asked.
"Sure." Sabrina nodded as Saul picked up the ball and threw it to her. Sabrina caught it before tossing it back, making him laugh.
"You know, you two remind me of my brothers." Sabrina said, lost in thought.
"Really?" Saul asked.
"Yeah, but I haven't seen them in a long time." Sabrina nodded as she caught the ball again before tossing it to Derek.
"Why not?" Derek asked as he caught it and threw it back.
"I don't know." Sabrina shrugged. "They move around a lot and our paths never really cross."
"Do you miss them?" Saul asked, catching the ball and tossing it to his brother.
"Sometimes." Sabrina shrugged. "But I get over it." She looked at the two boys before smiling mischievously. "So are you two hungry?"
"Yeah." Saul said instantly but then looked down. "But mommy and daddy said we couldn't eat tonight."
"Why not?" Sabrina asked.
"B-Because we broke Mommy's vase." Derek told her.
"We didn't mean to. Me and Derek were playing tag and it kinda fell off the table." Saul said sadly.
"Then they left and told us they'd be back late and that we better be in bed by the time they get home." Derek said.
"They lockded the fridge and everything." Saul told her.
"That's not very nice." Sabrina said, putting her finger on her chin in thought. "How about I go in and make something for you guys."
"Yes!" Saul said, hugging the mysterious girl. Sabrina hugged the boy back, trying to push back the bloodlust. For now.
"Then lets go inside." Sabrina said. The boys both smiled at how kind she was and led her to the back door.
"Can I come in? It's kind of a habit of mine." Sabrina said. "I don't like going into people's houses unless I'm invited."
"You can come in." Saul said, so trusting. Sabrina smirked as she walked into the house and into the kitchen with them.
"See, they locked the fridge and took the key with them." Derek said. Sabrina smiled at the small chain around the fridge and grabbed it, pulling it off.
"Wow, you're strong." Saul said.
"Eat your green vegetables and you can be as strong as me someday." Sabrina told him as she opened the fridge and looked through the contents. Not much. She turned to the cupboard which was also chained and locked. She quickly broke the chain and opened it, pulling out bread, peanut butter, and jelly. She quickly made the boys Peanut butter and Jelly sandwiches and put them on the table. They devoured the sandwiches in seconds and turned to her with smiles.
"You're a nice lady." Saul said.
"Some people would disagree." Sabrina told him. "Hey, would you two want to get back at your parents?"
"Why?" Saul asked, tilting his head to the side. 'So much like Sam.' Sabrina thought.
"For starving you. Being mean to you." Sabrina said.
"What do we have to do?" Derek asked. Sabrina just smirked before her game face came out and she bit into the young boy's neck. Derek gasped in pain and Saul screamed for his brother. Sabrina drained the boy quickly before turning and biting the youngest of the two, draining him as well. When both the boys were close to death, Sabrina slit her wrists and held them to the boys' mouths, letting her blood flow freely. They both drank greedily before they passed out. Sabrina smirked as she walked out of the house, waiting to check up on them in a few days and see how they dealt with their parents.
Sabrina let out a cry as the pain started to subside. She remembered what happened after that. She had checked up on the boys to find that they killed their parents, torturing them for hours before finally slitting their throats. She had smiled at what the boys had picked up, just from drinking her blood. A few days after she was turned, she learned that new vampires can receive their sire's memories and learn their killing techniques. She had been very proud of her children.
"No." Sabrina cried, punching the wall behind her. Her fist started bleeding but she didn't care. She deserved to feel some pain for what she did.
"Do you want the pain to stop?" Sabrina snapped to the side and gasped at what she saw.
"What do you want? Haven't you done enough?" Sabrina asked, glaring at the new arrival.
"I can make it all stop. Do you want it to?" The guest asked.
"Yes."
OOOHH, who is it? lol. I decided to write this since we didn't have school today. Gotta love when it's like 20 below outside so the buses won't run. lol. I might have another update up this weekend so yeah.
Also, i need advice. You see, this Saturday, my friend who I'm crushing on and who I haven't seen since like October is finally coming back out to see me and my other friends but it's also the day when my friend Nelle is having her B-day thingy at the bowling Alley but most of her friends, I don't really click with and the ones I do click with will be with the guy I like. Where do I go?????