Chapter thirteen
The rest of work was pretty uneventful.
Well, compared to the mind blowing climax it was. Edward had his interview with the finance department, I knew straight away that he was majorly unprepared for whatever they were throwing at him. When he came out of that meeting I could have sworn that he was a walking corpse still trying to process all the information the brain washing executives had planted into his brain.
It made me feel really bad for putting Edward so behind in work, though a part of me didn't. Edward had a weekend off of not writing proposals –mainly because he was in hospital with me…- and now it seemed like he hadn't done work for the past year! He has so much pressure on his shoulders, so I couldn't help but feel like I was adding to the mix. I promised myself that tonight not only will I pay him back, but I would help him out with catching up with work.
Jessica on the other hand, didn't stop looking at me with both suspicious eyes and somewhat anger. If she still has a fan girls crush on Edward, then maybe she and Mike wouldn't be such a bad couple after all.
Like always, Jessica left almost half an hour early, leaving me with the rest of the work. I didn't complain, because that means that when Edward gets out that we could be friendly without having to have her looking at me with hateful and jealous eyes. That, and it means that we could have some time alone. I had to admit, even though it's been four hours since Edward...pleasured me, I couldn't help but loss my focus and completely blank, leaving behind a very deep pool in my panties.
Edward came out of his office, a degraded expression on his face.
"Love, you should probably go and get yourself home. I'm completely swamped with the new proposal the finance department has created. I can call and get Alice to pick you up on her way back to the building."
I shook my head, there is no way I'm ditching Edward with a neck high stack of paperwork that was highly un-necessary. I promised myself that if Edward had to stay in late for work, then so would I. "Edward, the last thing I'm going to do is leave you here suffocating under your weight in paper work. I'm your secretary and I am here to make your job simpler, not leave you because of the time."
Edward just smiled at me softly and pecked my lips sweetly, "I don't know how I ever lucked out in getting you Bella, god has truly blessed me with an angel."
My cheeks beat red at his comment, oh how I thought of him as the same thing. I stood up and took Edward's hand, walking him to his desk and sat him down.
"C'mon, if we ever want a social life and get out of this waste dump, then we better get a crack on this paper work."
"Yes ma'am." He said, pulling his hand to his forehead and solute me in a military type way. I couldn't help but laugh and shake my head, ok, maybe this might be a bit harder than I thought.
It took us three hours to finish the whole stack, I couldn't help but feel bad for Edward when I wasn't there. If it took that long to finish it off with the two of us, then just imagine if it was just him, he probably wouldn't get out until midnight or later!
"Let's eat out tonight." Edward demanded, I just nodded,
"Sure, though I don't really know where we could go, it's getting close to eight-thirty."
Edward just laughed and shook his head, "Bella, Bella, Bella, you're in Seattle now. Places here don't even start to close till ten, if not later. Plus I always go to this restaurant a few blocks down, I'm sure you'll love it, I want you to meet someone there too."
"Meet someone? Who? A second girlfriend maybe?"
"Of cause not! You're my one and only love." He leant down and kissed me lightly, "C'mon, let's go. I told her that we would be there sometime before nine."
He took my hand in his and started walking towards the elevator. My mind was swamped with questions about who this mystery 'girl' is, when I asked about Edward about the whole 'second girlfriend' thing, I was semi-wise serious. I mean, look at him! He's a god! How in god's name did he get him stuck with a plain Jane like me? God must either hate this sweet kind man, or must have definitely have a liking to me. I doubt the first, maybe God is just Jealous of Edward, you know, for being so perfect and all. It's not fare that he can be so good at everything -I blushed when I thought of EVERYTHING- and still look the way he does and not be gay!
"Love, where at the restaurant." The velvet voice intruded my thoughts.
What the hell?! When did we get here!? I can't believe that I was that into thought that I didn't notice that we already were in the car and there already. But it was probably better if I didn't get knocked out of my thoughts. As soon as I saw the restaurant, I instantly wanted to run and buy the priciest dress I could find. The restaurant made me feel more self-concuss then I was with the apartment, and we were still wearing our work clothes! Maybe it's the restaurant on the other side of the building, yep, that's probably it.
"Edward, are you sure this is the place? It looks really pricy, and we're in our work clothes..."
"I'm sure."
Edward came around and grabbed my hand in his, walking towards the restaurant. The doorman stood near the front entrance inside, he smiled warmly to us and greeted, "Hello, I'm Tyler Cawley, do you have a reservation?" Edwards hand removed from mine and went around my waist tightly, almost protectively.
He cleared his throat and said, "Hello Cawley, the usual table tonight. Can you please send Esme to our table." He made it bluntly obvious when he said 'our'. Tyler looked horrified for some reason, but still, did as he asked directing us to the table.
"The usual table Mr. Cullen, it's nice to see you have company tonight." Tyler tried to make small take.
"Yes it is." Edward said, kissing my cheek.
"I'll just go and grab Mrs. Cullen." Tyler said, faced down and almost ran out of sight.
"Mrs. Cullen? Your married?!" My mind ran miles a second. How could he do this to me? How could he do this to his wife! That's despicable!
Edward just laughed, "Mrs. Cullen is referring to my aunty, Esme. She owns this restaurant, you remember me talking about her right? She's married to Carlisle, the doctor that helped you."
My face turned beat red, god this is embarrassing. I just accused my boyfriend of having a wife and it turned out that the 'Mrs' is not his Mrs., but his Aunty! If it was possible to die of embarrassment, I'd be in China by now. Edward leant over and kisses me on the forehead.
"There is only you Bella, and there is ever going to be you. No one else. Never doubt that." He whispered in my ear, sending chills down my spine. His words echoed through my mind, no one else? That is what he said right? I know that since Edward came into my life, that if he'd ever leave, that there would never be anyone else but this sweet and adorable man in my life. No one could ever compare to him, never.
I turned my head and looked into his eyes, them filled with so much love that it almost overwhelmed me. I leant in a kissed him lightly, but enough to know that there was so much love in it. I pressed my forehead on his and we just stared into each other's eyes, oh how I wish that we could have stayed like that forever. But we are talking about us here, so it didn't last too long.
"Edward, dear." A feminine voice said, interrupting our staring lesion. The lady standing in front of us was beyond beautiful. Her caramel brown hair flowed over her slender shoulders, her lips in such a lively smile, her deep blue eyes filled with so much love and happiness that it nearly bowled me over. Yep, Edward is definitely related to her.
"Hi Esme, how's the restaurant?"
"It's doing just fine, excellent really, we just got reviewed in time's magazine!" She said excitedly, a bit of Alice in her no doubt.
"That's great Esme, you deserve it." Edward complimented.
"You really do, you have a very beautiful place here ma'am." I said, she looked at me with such happiness.
"Why hello child, now how might you be?"
Before I could answer her Edward spoke, "Esme, this is Bella, my girlfriend. Bella, this is my Aunty Esme."
Esme's eyes light as soon as he mentioned 'girlfriend', "Oh your Bella? Carlisle had mentioned you, you're as beautiful as he mentioned," She bent down and gave me a loving huge, one that only a mother could give and kissed me on the cheek, "Welcome to the family dear."
I blushed and smiled up to her, "Thank you."
"So dears, what would you want for dinner tonight? I hope that you haven't been spending all your time in the office again Edward, it's really not healthy."
"No Esme, I haven't. Plus I have this angel now," He said, an arm around my arms and squeezed making me blush at the contact in front of his family, "She's been willingly helping me after hours and shrinking my work load. You wouldn't believe how much thing changed since she's moved in."
"Moved in?" Esme looked a bit confused though still happy, right, I don't think she knows yet.
"Oh, right, Bella is the one that Alice chose to be my roommate."
"Oh! Right, that slipped my mind. Alice always had a sharp eye."
Edward grinned, "That she does."
"Well, I personally thank you Bella. Edward, ever since he got the company, he swamped himself with work. This is probably the first time I seen him in months!" Esme spoke.
"It's no problem at all Mrs. Cullen."
"Please, call me Esme dear." She said, grabbing my hand.
"Esme." I said, smiling.
A stomach grumbled loudly, Edward's to be exact. He blushed and grinned embarrassed, "I think it's time for dinner!"
Esme and I laughed, "Ok dears, what would you like?"
"Just the usual for me, Bella?"
I looked at the menu in front of me, a few were in different languages, so I stuck with something simple, "Just the stake and vegetables with a coke please." Funny, even after the whole 'coke' accident, I can still look at coke and wanna drink it.
Edward however looked at me a bit concerned, "Um, Esme, can you change Bella's drink order? I don't think she should be drinking coke anytime soon."
Esme looked confused, but I decided to lighten the mood, "What Edward? Think I'll get fat?"
Edward's face turned to stone serious, "Bella, I think you're perfect, you know that. But I just don't think I can handle you drinking that stuff again anytime soon."
I rolled my eyes, "Fine, fine. Then can I just get water please?"
"That's fine dear, I'll be back with the orders in a few minutes." Esme said, walking off.
Edward eyed me I sighed, "Yes Edward?"
He just shook his head, staying silent. When we got our meals we stayed silent, it nearly killed me. I'm not the type to try and make useless small talk, but the fact that we haven't talked, i-it scared me. I didn't want to lose Edward, I couldn't take the thought let alone reality. I just don't want to be on bad terms.
After we finished we said our thank you's and good bye's and left the restaurant, not after Edward promised that we would go to Esme and Carlisle's home for dinner Sunday night. Well that was a good sign, he's making plans for the both of us, that means that he's going to keep me around, right? Could it be that Edward has gotten sick of me already? Was it something that I did that made him cross with me? Maybe I said something to offend him in the restaurant, or did something inappropriate or said something wrong in front of Esme...
Before I knew it we were up in the apartment, I sitting on the cough, Edward sitting a few feet beside me. My eyes filled with tears, he doesn't want me, does he. I always knew I never deserved him. I guess that reality has finally court up with me. Edward's way too good for me anyway, why would he ever want me anyway. I pulled my knees up to my face, bearing my head in my knees, letting the unshed tears roll down my cheeks like fountains.
"Bella?" Edward said, panic in his voice.
He moved up close to me and wrapped his arms around my shoulder, but I flinched away. I couldn't handle him being that close, I know that he's going to leave me. I'm going to miss his touch so much, if he does now, I know that I would completely lose it, begging him not to leave. I don't want him to have to stay with me out of pity, just so he doesn't hurt my feelings. A one sided relationship.
"Bella...What did I do...?" Edward's voice shocked me. It sounded so sincere and sad, it sounded like he was crying! It took all my energy to look up at him, to my realization he was crying. He's not suppose to cry! He's breaking up with me! Not the other way around!
"What are you talking about?! You're the one breaking up with me!" I yelled, my tears still streaming down my face. It's not fare! I will willingly go if he found someone else, but to go and ask me why I'm crying and do it while cries! There is only so much I can take, and this is the last straw!
"What...?" Edward said, looked confused.
"Oh don't play dumb Edward. We both know that you're going to break up with me. Just do me a favor and don't try making it seem like it's my fault." I said bitterly.
Edward got up from the cough, his pained expression turning to anger, standing over me. "I'm not breaking up with you! You're the one that's breaking up with me!" He yelled, I flinched back. He never yelled at me, and it scared me.
I looked down at my shoes, "Don't say it like I did something wrong. If I did then tell me, I can change. But don't you dear say that I was ever going to break up with you." I said with so much venom that I almost felt like I got bitten by a spider.
Edward's fingers caught my chin in his fingers, forcing me to look up, "Bella, what the hell are you thinking?! I would never leave you! How could you ever doubt me?!" He said to me, with the same amount of bitter and anger in both voice and eyes.
"Gee, where can I start? Let's go with the start shall we. First, I'm not good for you. I'm ugly, I'm pretty much poor, and I'm never going to fit your self standard! Second, What the hell!? I'm you secretary! The only thing that they are used for in offices are for being common sluts! Now you're saying how I could doubt you when you clearly weren't talking to me all night because I either said something to offend you or you don't have the back bone to tell me! Just tell me and it'll be over, don't make me suffer anymore then I already am!"
Anger left a bitter after taste on Edward's face, "What!? First of all don't you ever tell me how I feel! I know what I feel and how I feel for you. And it's nowhere near how you describe! You're beautiful, you're selfless, but you treat yourself like shit! Look in the mirror Bella! You're perfect! You've never been a common slut and you're never going to be, not now not ever! I don't deserve you! You shouldn't have to lose your social life to help me with MY work! You shouldn't doubt yourself! So don't you dear doubt how I feel about you!" He yelled back.
"I'm not." I said simply. I couldn't possibly believe what he said. I know personally that I'm not, and I'm never going to be. That's what pains me the most, I'm never going to be good enough, I'm never going to ever be good enough!
Edward's hand came to my cheek, creasing it. My body moved on its on accord, leaning into his hand, which I knew was the worst thing I could do. Give up. But I couldn't help it, I loved him so much. Tears leaked out, one after another, and I knew that they wouldn't stop anytime soon. He rested his forehead on mine, my eyes closed firmly, I couldn't look at him now, if I did, I would be too tempted to kiss him.
"Look at me Bella." He said, I denied.
"Bella, look at Me." still didn't.
"God damnit Bella, look at me!" He almost yelled, I opened my eyes, only to wish I hadn't.
His eyes were now red and puffed from crying, tears still leaking out. All anger had left his face, leaving behind a sad and heartbreaking expression. "You are." He said, quick and simple. His lips painfully slowly inched towards each other, until they touched. It was slow and very sweet, it was like all our doubts all our fears disappeared. It was so filled with love that it overwhelmed me.
My arms went around his neck, his on the side of my hips. I trailed my tongue around the bottom of his lip, needing to get closer, when he did it was his tongue that entered my mouth. Every other kiss had nothing on this one, it wasn't heated but its more mind blowing, it wasn't passionate it was loving, and it wasn't great it was world shaking. I never wanted to stop, and it was then that I knew what I wanted.
I broke out of the kiss, both gasping. I let my hands trail down until I got to the first button of his shirt, undoing them one by one. "What are you-" I cut him off with one finger, he lightly pressed his lips on my finger, I blushed and went back to work. Once I got to the pants I un-tucked the shirt and finished it off, I trailed my hands from the bottom of his abs and up slowly, I could feel his skin erupt in goose bumps the high I got. My hands got to his shoulders and I curved my hands and trailed down his arms, bringing the shirt with me.
Once the shirt was off and my hands got to his hands I entwined mine with his, slowly bringing them up past our heads and back down, knowing that I was in full control, not just the whole heat of the moment. I let go of his hands and slowly went down to his belt, Edward then stopped me, "It's only fear that this goes as well..." He whispered into my ear, his hands on my shirt and unbuttoning it with the same slow paste as I did his. It made me think twice next time with the paste.
He got it all unbuttoned and did the same as what I did, trailing his hands torturously slowly over my skirt covered stomach and over my mounts until he got to my shoulders, bringing my shirt down. His hands got down to the back of my skirt and slowly unzipping the zipper, his eyes on mine, looking for any regret, he would never find any. Once it was unzipped Edward slowly bent down, bringing the skirt with him. It got down to my ankles and I stepped out of it, Edwards hands on my ankles and took off my shoes, he was done and started to slowly kiss his way up my leg.
His lips were so warm on my ice cold skin, his lips leaving behind a burning hot trail, going up my leg, thigh, stomach, shoulder, and now neck. I lightly moaned, Edward's hands got to the back of my thigh and hoisted me up to his waist. I could feel his stone hard erection digging into my thigh, Edward still kissing my neck but started to walk us to the bedroom.
I knew that no matter what would happen I'd have no regrets. My first time doesn't need to be like in movies with candles, romantic music and fancy destination. All I needed was the special someone, Edward, and if I had him, then the rest doesn't matter. Nothing matters.
His kisses went to my ear lop and lightly nibbled, making me moan and arch my back. We got into Edward's room and he slowly but very carefully laid us down on the bed, his lips now traveling up to mine, kissing me just as sweetly.
My hands traveled down to his belt once again, it's only fare that he his pants off too. This time unlike the last, he didn't stop me, I undid the button and zipped down the zipper, this time I rolled us over so that I was on top. He bent his hips up so I could pull his pants down his legs and off his body completely, he kicked off his shoes and socks. The only thing that was left on the both of us was our underwear, just thin cloth. I crawled back up Edward's body, when I got to his chest I started trailing smudged kisses up to his neck and ear, nibbling on it like he did mine.
He moaned loudly, arching his back, his two giant hands clamped down on my hips, flipping us over. His lips attacking mine, not as sweetly as before, this one filled with want and passion, but I liked it all the same. Edward's hands lifted my back up a bight to unclip my bra and take it off. Oh god. I quickly pulled back and covered my breasts with my hands, trying to hide my shame. Edward grabbed my hands, trying to move them, I didn't let him.
"Bella, you are beautiful, never think otherwise." He whispered, my hands started to loosen.
His hands got hold of mine and pulled them to either side of my head, even though I was practically bare, his eyes didn't wander, they stayed locked with mine never looking away for a single second.
"Are you sure this is what you want love?"
"I'm sure that this is what I want." I whispered back, nodding.
Edward bent back down and kissed me once again, the sweet and innocent kisses again. His hands slowly left mine, starting to trail down my rip cage, lightly grazing my breasts and down to my panties -which are completely soaked- and starting to slide them down my legs until they were off, never leaving our lip lock, and throwing the soaked cloth over to our growing pile of underwear.
He brought himself back up, I grabbing a hold of his boxers, and doing the same with his underwear as he did mine. We laid back in the middle of the bed, completely bare, nothing separating us. My legs wrapped around his waist, him positioning himself on top of me, I could feel his tip on my heated core. He looked at me questionably, wanting to know if I truly wanted to. I nodded, there is nothing I want more then for this to happen, and it's not about a twenty-one year old that wants to lose her v-card.
Edward slowly moved into me, I gasped, pain shot through my pelvic region. Edward was about to pull out, but I pulled him in more, the pain might hurt, but since I finally got this close to Edward, there was no way in hell I was letting him remove himself no matter how much it pained. "Don't." I said simply, he looked worried but still nodded. He slowly entered the rest of him into me, and god he was huge!
It took a few moments for the pain to leave and for the rest of my body to adjust to his size. The pain completely left, leaving behind a massive amount of pleasure. I signaled Edward to start moving, my hips moving at the same past as his. Our thrusts always meeting at the right moment for our flesh to meet each other, like a perfect harmony.
I moaned, the thrust getting faster as the moments passing by, Edward lightly moaning every once in a while. His eyes always open, watching my face twist in pleasure and delight, his eyes darken with lust as the time flew by. One of his hands on my hips to help my thrust better and to get himself in more, his other wondering up higher, my skin shivered, my organ extremely sensitive to his touch. His hand got up to my breast, lightly squeezing and pinching the sensitive skin.
"Edward!" I squealed in pleasure, oh god, I could feel my body getting closer with each thrust. I bucked my hips into his member harder and faster, needing him so much that it was almost impossible. Edward moaned my name out loudly, but got the message about going faster.
I attacked his lips animalisticly, wanting him so much more then I have, though I don't think it's possible. There was nothing but him, there was no bed, there were no sounds of the heavy pouring rain on the building, and there sure as hell wasn't anything that could ever replace that. It wasn't just pleasure for me. It was being whole, ever since Charlie died I felt like a part of me died, that I wasn't whole. And being with Edward right now, I finally was a part of a whole, I wasn't alone I was complete.
A tear spilt from my eye, oh god I've never been this happy and complete in my whole life. Edward removed his lips from mine and kissed away my tear, his hand removed from my breast, making my nipple painfully hard from the sudden loss of warmth, and placed it on the side of my face and creased my cheek.
I looked into his lust and love filled eyes, we were both so close, we both knew, and we both wanted to let go together. He lightly pecked my lips and rested his forehead on mine, our thrusts getting faster and harder. "Cum with me love..." He managed to speak out.
His words sent me over the edge, "Edward!" I screamed his name in pleasure, it echoed around the room. After about six more thrusts Edward came violently inside me, riding the waves of pure pleasure together. Edward collapsed on top of me, then rolled over with me on top, not removing himself from me.
We both gasped for air, it felt like there wasn't enough air in the world to intake. "Th-that was a-ama-amazing love..." Edward gasped out. I just nodded, I couldn't speak, if I did, I'd probably faint from lack of oxygen.
After a few moments of none stop heavy breathing, I whispered, "I love you, you know that right?" Edward's arms went around my back, hugging me close to him, my arms around went around his neck, holding each other in a tight embrace.
"I know love...Just remember, that you are the only one I love, and the only one I'll ever love...Never doubt me, or that." He whispered into my ear.
At that moment I believed him. He truly does love me, and I truly am his one and only. I don't know how or why he chose me, but there was no way in hell that I was giving him up willingly. Ever. He's my everything. He's my sun, my center on the universe, and I his. Nothing was going to change that. Nothing can keep us apart.
Nothing.
Never.