Okay, so the songs Karma is singing, is of course Cory Lee's.
Masons, are of course Nick Rose, Patsy's are Lindsay Robins.
And the SME's are Sweet Thing, I wanted to do Tyler Kytes, but don't think will fit, and Jude's Heavily Broken, In Another Life, Did Ya Think, Revenge Is Sweeter (Than You Ever Were) and Hollywood all belong to The Veronicas.
Just So You Know and Perfect Song- belongs to me
Why-Avril Lavigne.
Perfect Consequences
"Tommy." She breathed out; trying to act calm, when inside she was anything but.
"Just thought you should know rehearsals start in half an hour" he said, not looking at them, closing the door on the way out.
"Oh my god" she whispered to herself, but Speed overheard her, he ignored the urge to roll his eyes, "Go after him" he couldn't believe he just said that, did he really just say it.
"Speed, no, it's fine"
"Jude-"he started, but Jude cut him off "No why should I? We haven't done anything wrong, I don't owe him anything, and I don't need to explain anything to him. We kissed, as in me and you, us, not him; it doesn't have anything to do with him." She finished, trying to convince herself more than him. "Because you're still in love with him" he blurted out, "No. I-"
"Jude it's no point in denying it, I know you do, I was there remember? I still see the connection between you, which come in between us." He was right, there was no point in denying it, she did still love him, and she hated it, she didn't want to, but she couldn't help it, she did, and she don't know how to stop.
"When we were together the first time, I know you never felt that way about me, and I don't know about last time…"
"Don't. Don't even think for a second I didn't love you. How can you think that? The first time, I was still hung up on Tommy, that's why we didn't work, but I did love you, just not that way. But last time, I started to get over him, and I fell for you hard and fast and I didn't know I could feel like that again, but I did. So don't think for a second, because I did-"
"And now?" she looked down, "Honestly?" he nodded, "I don't know. I have mixed feelings, and I don't know which to trust. Before Tommy came back, I felt us again, and now he's back, the feelings I had for him came back too. Even though I didn't want to see him, or talk to him, but when I saw him at the meeting, they came back, I didn't want it to, but it did. It feels like I have no control, and I hate it. This is the one thing I thought I had control over, but it's ended up controlling me and I don't want to hurt anyone."
He didn't like seeing her this way, so he tried to give her the easy way out "Jude, it don't have to mean anything, we just got caught up in the moment, end of story." She grabbed his hand "No, it wasn't and we weren't, and you know it, so stop trying to make this easy okay?"
"I don't want to feel like I'm losing my best friend, and I love you too much to lose you, as anything." He said not looking at her "and we can't be anything if you don't get things sorted out, you have control over this Jude, it's not controlling you, clear things up with him, and see were things go from there, but you need to go after him, even if you don't want to." Right then, she finally understood what he meant to her, what they been through, she gave everything she got, and she was finally starting to deal with what went on, and she knew he was too. They needed to talk about it more, and they will, when everything's a little more not complicated.
"I don't want to lose you either" she kissed him lightly on the lips, a friendly peace offering, for now, and left to go and find Tommy.
"You'll never lose me" he whispered into the air.
She ran out the hotel room looking around everywhere, searching for Tommy. She checked everywhere she could think, the lounge, the hall, the dining room, even the pool area, and she was nowhere to be seen.
Twenty minutes left until rehearsals and she couldn't find him, and she didn't want to get into the whole thing while rehearsing, or after, it needed to be sorted now. She thought of one last place he might be, and if he was there, she wouldn't have wasted fifteen minutes acting like an idiot running around the hotel. She waited for the elevator to open, and pressed the up button five times, trying to hurry up the process. Back where she started, right next door, she banged on the door, not at all quiet, she knew he was in there and wasn't going to answer; she banged on the door again.
"Tommy, I know you're in there" she banged again. "So you might as well open up." Still no answer. "I'm not leaving" she kicked the door, trying to make a statement but ended up on the floor, grabbing her foot.
Then he chose to open the door, couldn't he have opened up like thirty seconds again. He looked down at her, with a slight spark of sympathy in his eyes.
"Need help?"
"No." she said, attempting to get up but falling back down again, her foot throbbing. "Yes." He held his hand out for her to grab, and pulled her up on her good foot.
"Aren't you supposed to break things after the concert, not before?"
"Aren't you supposed to answer the door when someone knocks?" she spat back, they were bantering, like old times, and she didn't want to, yet.
"I've been looking for you"
"Wouldn't have guessed" he said, while started to limp into the room.
She didn't know how to go about this, didn't know how to say it.
"Me and Speed… Are complicated" she began "Like us…"
"Jude- don't get into this now"
She looked up at him, "No" she started, she was sick of this "No, were getting into it now. I'm sick and tired of doing what you want, I'm sick and tired of shoving everything back into a corner." He looked at her shocked, and something clicked in her head, he was the drug she didn't want to get addicted to, and now she is, she needed the fix. But, why was she always the one coming to him, explaining to him, she wasn't his, she didn't need to. She wasn't.
"What you saw…" he waited for her explanation "Was none of anyone's business, and why was I even going to explain it to you." She asked herself, more than her, even though she knew the answer, she couldn't stand him looking at her the way he did when things didn't go his way.
"So what was last night? Guilty conscience?" she visibly blushed, remembering her little comment. "That I needed to get out, that I wanted to tell you, this, not so much. Me and Speed, aren't nothing new, we kissed, so what?"
"So you're not together?"
"No… I don't know, and If we were, what're you gonna do about it?" she spat out, "Oh right, what you always do, One- Leave. Two-Ignore it or my personal favourite "It never happened, your pick."
"Jude" he warned, not wanting to get fired up or regret something that might come out.
"But, for once, I do not care. There's more than you know, I may of told you what happened, but you know nothing about me and Speed." She tried to get through his head "You know nothing."
"You can be so… seventeen." He quoted from before.
"Yeah, well take A good look" she said standing up "Because I'm not seventeen anymore." And walked out, slamming the door behind her.
She felt good, two to Nil for her, and it felt good to have a hold over Tommy, instead of the other way around, like before. Five minutes until rehearsals, and she couldn't be bothered waiting for the elevator to come up, so she walked down the stairs, it was only three flights anyway.
She opened the entrance door to the hall, and noticed SME were already there, setting there equipment up and some guys she didn't know all the names up, setting all the technical stuff up. She walked over to Jamie, who was by the stage "Hey"
"Hey"
"So where's Pats?" she asked, looking at him "Backstage, getting ready."
"That's where I should be." She stated, walking onto the stage and going behind the curtains. She saw four different Dressing Rooms with names on, hers, Mason's, Karma & Patsy and SME. She wondered why Patsy & Karma were sharing.
"Hey" she jumped at the voice coming from behind her, and relaxed when she saw it was Mason, "Mase, seriously, stop doing that."
"Will do, Harrison" he said, not really meaning it "Sadie told me to get everyone, going over the set list and everything."
"Okay, meet you out there." She saw Tommy leaning against the stage as she walked out.
They were all on stage, listening to Sadie tell them the set list. "Okay, Karma will be first, five songs- What A Difference A Day Makes, No Friend, You Wish, As I Cry and Simple Not Enough and two encores, Never Get Over You and Cold December. Then one SME song, Change Of Seasons.
Patsy, three songs, as requested, What Would You Do, Freaks, Possessionsand one encore I Can't Forget Your Face.
Mason, five songs Light At Dawn, Summer Dress, Knock On Wood, Winter Song , Lay Me Downand one encore, your choice.
Then SME again, Kite Fight and Jude six songs- Heavily Broken, Just So You Know, When You're Gone, Hollywood, Did Ya Think, In Another Life and two encores- Revenge Is Sweeter (Than You Ever Were) and the other your pick." She was going to do Perfect Song.
"So everyone places." Sadie finished, watching everyone go backstage and Karma walk onto the stage, with the microphone, beginning to sing.
6:55. five minutes before the first concert of the tour, and everyone was getting hyped up backstage. They wished eachother good luck and Karma walked onto the stage. The place was packed, it was only a small hall, so everyone was standing, and the preferred smaller gigs because it's more personal.
Jude was listening to her, singing her first song of the night, What a Difference a Day Makes.
What a difference a day makes
all alone as the day breaks
suddenly there's just a cold space
and some heartache here for me
x-
What a difference a day makes
yesterday we were ok
in a moment my whole world changed
loves a cruel game my baby
x-
She changed her mind about Karma the past couple of days, yeah she could be annoying and getting in her face like when she first met her, but now she's matured she guessed. It felt like all of them had matured, they weren't the silly trying to make it kids anymore, they were committed to the fans, and their music. Karma's music changed a lot too, more personal, and she even started writing her own stuff, and it was pretty damn good, if she said so herself. She never thought she would ever think this, but Karma was good, and now she saw why she won the third Instant Star contest, our form the others. She was good, the music was amazing now, about different stuff that's happened to her and they were catchy tunes. Not the bubble gum crap she thought she would have produced. It was weird, knowing they were grown ups, making a living and this was one hell of a living.
Its funny how the sun
can leave you cryin
its funny how a little rain
can change your life
x-
Its funny how the tables can turn
lessons to learn, bridges to burn (oh baby, baby)
It only takes a second to say goodbye
ohh
x-
What a difference a day makes
all alone as the day breaks
suddenly there's just a cold space
and some heartache here for me
x-
What a difference a day makes
yesterday we were ok
in a moment my whole world changed
loves a cruel game my baby
x-
Its easier to take
a love for granted
when everything
is were its suppose to be
x-
But when my shelter fell to the ground
pain came around, breakin me down (oh baby, baby)
Now my lonely heart can only bleed
im tryin to understand
x-
Why, why, why (x3) baby
o baby wont you tell me
why, why, why (x2) tryin to understand
why, why, why baby, baby
x-
What a difference a day makes
all alone as the day breaks
suddenly theres just a cold space
and some heartache here for me
x-
What a difference a day makes
yesterday we were ok
in a moment my whole world changed
loves a cruel game my baby
x-
Im tryin to understand
why, why, why (x3) baby
o baby wont you tell me
why, why, why (x3) baby, baby
x-
The rest of the songs went by great, and she was on her second encore Cold December, this was one of all their favourites, the best she had recorded so far, and she wrote it by herself, which made it even more personal and an amazing song.
Tell me where did we go wrong
Tell me where did we get lost
Never thought that we could get so heated
Can't see my life without you in it
I wish that I could full turn
But I just got to let it burn
Theres nothing I can do about it
Makes me wanna scream and shout it
And I know cant go back
Gotta let it go
As a matter of fact , wanna let you know
Wanna let u know that
I'm so alone
And I cant take it
x-
Wanna miss sun shining through the rain
April showers fell
And washed all the tears away
Summers come and gone
Watch the colors change
This cold December
Now the sky is grey
Snow is on the ground
All those sunny days
Now no where to be found
When I need you the most
Where are you know ?
This cold December
x-
If it was something I said
If it was something I did
Whatever I broke I'll fix it
Whatever you want I'll give it
And I know i cant go back
Gotta let it go
As a matter of fact , wanna let you know
Wanna let u know that ...
I'm so alone
And I cant take it ,no
x-
Wanna miss sun shining through the rain
Aprils showers fell
And washed all the tears away
Summers come and gone
Watch the colors change
This cold december
This cold december
Now the sky is grey
Snow is on the ground
All those sunny days
Now no where to be found
When I need you the most
Where are you now ?
This cold December
x-
Boy I miss you in my arms
And I tried with all my heart
To make you stay
Make you stay ...
Now your memory is faint too gray
Like the coldest winter day
Help me please
Help me please
x-
Oh baby
Wanna miss sun shining through the rain
Aprils showers fell
And washed all the tears away
Summers come and gone
Watch the colours change
This cold December...
Cold December
Now the sky is grey
Snow is on the ground
All those sunny days
Now no where to be found
When I need you the most
Where are you now ?
This cold December
x-
Wanna miss sun shining through the rain
Aprils showers fell
And washed all the tears away
Summers come and gone
Watch the colors change
This cold December...
Cold December
Now the sky is grey
Snow is on the ground
All those sunny days
Now no where to be found
When I need you the most
Where are you now ?
This cold December
x-
The crowd were on frenzy and become worse when SME entered the stage after Karma. Backstage everyone was hyped up by the energy the fans were bringing to the room, this was one hell of a good way to start of the tour, and it's only just begun.
I totally love Cory Lee's songs, there so catchy, I love them, especially Cold December, my personal favourite.
Please Review.
Kirsty.