babynurse06: Actually, I wasn't really thinking a/b stopping, I like this fic too much, god knows why.

mclionmuch: I am sooo used to being told you hate me lol, but if I wasn't here, you couldn't read this, so cherish my excistence (joking, even I am not that much in love with myself). Addek... hmmm can't promise anything

PhoebeHasABadPenname: Well, not a bad penname, but surely a long one. I am shocked you think I'm gonna make it that easy for Derek lol. He has to fight for Addie, fight a lot actually. I've got it planned out, a little.

Zoe: That you hate me, actually really hurt me! And after you told me you hate me you now want me to propose to you? well, already did that but never mind xD Love ya hun!

4 updates?! Come on! You know better than that!

A/N: Woop I updated, ya happy? I really hope so, because I was like supposed to be cleaning, it's 4 at night (muhaha) and I have tutoring soon, meaning have to get up in... erm, lemme think... 3 hours. YAY I rock lol. Off to cleaning now! Happy Hols!

Disclaimer: I don't own them -cries- and if I did... hmm I don't think it would be like in my story, but never mind me, I'm just a girl with ideas ;-)

ohhhhh guys!! b4 i 4get! I might NOT update in like... a month, b/c i was supposed to be cleaning up and I didn't wish me luck with mom

Moving on, McNightmares and Dirty Secrets

A few months later peace and routine had settled over Addison Forbes-Montgomery. She was fine and in LA, it made her all huggily happy. Actually it did, LA had changed her. Miss once so feisty and ambitioned neo-natal surgeon was now happy with delivering babies and just being a normal doctor without cutting. Of course she missed it, but not thinking about all she had loved so much had helped Addison to move on, start a new life. Without Derek, Seattle, rain, Meredith Grey, Mark and all she didn't miss. Okay, another lie, she did miss it, well, she missed Derek, a lot actually but there was no way she was ever going to admit this. Because there was one thing about Dr. Addison Montgomery that not even LA and all the Gandhi lines could change, appearances were important. They were her everything.

Back in New York everyone had thought she and Derek were the perfect couple, the couple that would survive everything, the couple that always smiles and sticks to each other no matter what. But it had all looked so different behind the facade Addison had so desperately tried to hold together.

Anyway, moving on, this was the past and she was no longer going to live in the past with all ist lies and cheating. This was happy Addison, not bright and shiney, because that was not her thing, she was sceptic, always had been.

LA had brought a lot of changes. A new house, a beach, tanned legs, cute surfer guys and well, it was just a new life. And she was dating. Yes Addison+Derek equals Love was still on, for her anyway, but yes Addison was dating. She had tried to date Pete, a colleague, but that didn't exactly work out, they never even had a real date. But then she met Kevin Nelson, a young and quite handsome police officer. And he made her skin tingle again, like Derek had once. She loved him, well, she thought so, but time would show that. He was the perfect gentleman and adored her.

Addison was feeling loved again, a feeling she had missed so much. Getting roses, compliments, dating the same guy, someone being interested in her day and not just nodding along, secretly thinking about how cool it would be to be a super hero who could fly and be invisible at the same time.

She liked Kevin, a lot. He made her happy, he made her huggily happy. When Callie had visited Addison the first thing she had told her friend was that LA wasn't good for her. Callie missed the old Addison, the Addison who loved surgery and her career. To her she was just … different. Happy, too happy, well, for Seattle standards. She was like Sidney Heron. No, okay, fine, not quite as bad, but pretty damn close. Addison had laughed about her back then, said that there was no way she was ever going from the wicked witch of the east to cheery hugging Sidney Heron. And Callie believed her, a little. But she was still too cheery.

Compared to Addison Derek was doing badly. He went from McDreamy to McNightmare. Not that he didn't still look amazing, no, it was his personality that had changed. He barely talked to people, worked a lot and shut everyone out. He missed Addison, he missed her so much it hurt. Every night before he went to bed Derek prayed to every god there was that he would get another chance with her. But he had had his chance and he blew it. Or the aneurysm blew it. Derek Christopher Shepherd was not a man who gave 

up, but in this case he didn't have any other chance and it made him sick in his stomach. Addison had been there for him for over fifteen years, she was the love of his life, his constant. But not anymore, now she was in LA, in another state, probably happy with some guy. Derek was even sure she never thought about him anymore. Which he couldn't blame her for. He had treated her like crap when she came to Seattle and wanted to make everything work. He had ignored her back in New York, he had stood her up too many times and then sent Mark so she wouldn't be alone all the time. That of course was a mistake, but again, he couldn't blame her. Derek had hated Addison for cheating, but he wasn't any better. He had slept with Meredith when his wife, well, ex-wife by now, was in the next room. He had made mistakes and yes, he had paid for it. Hell, he was still paying.

There was no way he would ever get another chance. A chance to be happy.

Xxx

"Hey Callie, I really gotta go now." Addison said, putting on her earring and smoothed down her dress.

"You so aren't blowing me off for McLoverboy again, aren't you?"

"I told you, no Mcing anything anymore." She laughed "Besides we have been talking for over three hours! Do something for your money Doctor Torres."

"Would you please shut up?"

"Then there's no reason why I couldn't go out with Christopher now." Addison teased, she knew Callie hadn't meant it like that but who cared?

"Addison!" She whined. "And FYI I work a lot more for my money, not like you."

"I work a lot!" Addison hissed.

"Yeah right, I saw that when I visited you the last time." Addison could literally see her friend grinning right now.

"Shut up and go to Mark." She rolled her eyes. Yes, Callie was dating Mark now. The manwhore, well, ex-manwhore had even proposed to her.

"He's in surgery." Callie sighed, she actually missed Mark Sloan, there was something not right about that.

"Sorry for you, but I really have to go now." Addison opened the door and smiled at Christopher.

"Okay, okay. Oh, before I forget the chief wanted to call you."

"Richard?" Addison furrowed her eyebrows together "Why would he call me?"

"Duh, he loves you! But I don't know, he said something about very important."

"What is important Callie?" She stressed. Addison really wanted to go.

"I don't know, I was reading instyle. Say hi to McLoverboy and no, I won't stop calling him that."

"Callie says hi." Christopher laughed and leaned against the door frame. "Anyway, I'm leaving now Callie."

"Okay, do it save."

Addison rolled her eyes "Bye."

"Bye, call me soon!"



"I will, bye." Addison hung up. "I'm sorry." She gave him an apologizing look.

"No problem." Of course it wasn't, it never was for him. And this was what she loved so much, he was patient. Christopher quickly kissed her, before pulling her outside "Now, dinner."

Xxx

"Torres." Callie spun around, it was the chief. Needless to say it was him, who else called her 'Torres', like she didn't have another name. Sometimes that was kinda cool, like Madonna, but not 'Torres'.

"Did you talk to Addison?" Richard Webber asked.

"Yeah I did." She confirmed with a nod.

His eyes lit up "Any way she'll come back?"

"Nope, sorry, Miss happy hugging quotes Gandhi and lost her heart to LA." And Callie hated it, she missed her best friend, well her only friend, except from Mark, but that didn't count.

Richard sighed, he wanted her back.

"Yeah, I miss her too."

He nodded "Did you tell her I need to talk to her?"

"I did."

"You told hr what about?"

"No, because then she wouldn't pick up the phone anymore."

"Hmm, she would most likely change her number." They laughed "Well, thank you Callie." Callie, the chief had called her Callie! YAY!

"Not a problem sir."

"You can call me Richard, after all we share secrets."

"A dirty little secret." Again they laughed, before Richard walked away with a smile.

"What was that?" Mark looked at his fiancé strangely, pointing at Richard, well, Richard's back.

"What was what?" Callie tried to play dumb.

"You and the chief, sharing dirty jokes." He was shocked, a little and Callie had to laugh at his behaviour. "Won't tell ya."

"Come on!"

"No, no way." She shook her head and walked away.

xxxx

So, what's the secret? Won't tell ya guys either

GIMME