Author's note: I'm about 20 reviews way from 100! This is the most reviews per chapter I've gotten from this story and the most reviews I've ever gotten from a story!! Thank you all!! And because you have all waited oh-so patiently, I think I'll let the cat out of the bag in this chapter meaning (dun, dun, dun) EVERYTHING WILL BE REVEALED!! [Insert fan girl squeal here] I can't help but find it a little funny that no one commented on my lateness in reviews…instead a few of you yelled at me for taking away Mika-chan. I did feel kinda bad actually, but…anyway, this is my update! I got back from Chicago the other night =]
FrozenDragon- Don't worry! The secret is discovered in this chapter. That's what it's going to be based around. You're in luck my friend.
PurebloodPrincess97- I made you cry? I'm sorry!! Will I give Mika-chan back? Maybe…you'll just have to wait and find out.
Devil's Child 2090- I'M SORRY!! I'M SORRY!! I'M SORRY!! I'm a very bad person for causing so much pain for poor Rima…here's my update.
ShuUreI814- Why would anyone take her? Because the writer is a meanie head, that's why.
kAtiE-lUvs-mcr- I'm pretty sure everyone is a little pissed with Shiki's mother at this point. All that grring made it much more impressive though.
shikixxrima- Where is Mikazuki indeed? Time for Nancy Drew! Or for the author to be a lot nicer….
babyviolin- congratulations on being number 70!! Yes, very sad chapter…I wonder when they'll start to get happy
Chibi Kitt- Awww now I feel kinda bad about ruining Rima's life
CocoxLadybat- nice…face?
xxdarkvampireangelxx- you don't have to wait long I promise :)
RimaTouyaXxSenrixX- Yeah, Shizuka is usually pretty awesome…but then again, everyone is pretty OOC in this fic. I would never kill Mikazuki…no, no. Poor Yuuki indeed…and everyone hates Shiki's mom. I'm surprised people haven't come after me with pitch forks for not only being so late, but for making everyone's lives so miserable in this story…ah I'm such a bad person.
RosesAndStripes- It was very mean of me to end there I suppose. I'm sorry. I'll try to make up for it =)
Yuki: I'm updating! Jeez, I sure hope this story is getting good…thanks for reassuring me.
Disclaimer: I don't own Vampire Knight. Not even the idea. Or anything.
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SARA'S POV:
I sat with Zero, Ichiru and Takuma in the kitchen of Takuma's house—now my house—in utter silence. Yuuki and Maria were both hospitalized, with Yuuki looking like a human pincushion with all those needles stuck inside of her. I winced. I have a phobia of needles. I looked at the flowers outside the kitchen window.
The heat was too much for them and they were drying out. Poor flowers.
The sudden silence was broken by the ringing of my phone I yanked it out and saw that it was Rima calling.
"What is it, Rima?" I asked quietly as the boys all stared.
"It's not Rima," an older woman said. "It's her mother."
My breath caught in my throat and my eyes widened.
"Is she okay?" I asked worriedly. There was a dry sob from the other line. I took that as a no.
"No. Mikazuki is gone. Rima told me to call you. She needs help and I can't do anything for her," the older woman said sadly and my heart clenched. The feeling of losing your baby is something I'd experienced once, only not quite like what Rima must be going through. After all, mine didn't even count as a baby when I lost it.
"Where is she?" I asked hurriedly I jumped up and motioned to the boys that I would answer their questioning looks later.
"Rima? In her—"
"I mean Mikazuki!" I snapped, immediately regretting that I had been so harsh but I was losing control. Takuma and Ichiru's eyes widened in alarm while Zero stared bewildered.
"Who the hell is—ouch!" he began but I was close enough to be able to kick his shin and shut him up.
"Oh. Mika-chan's father's mother took her. I take it you know who—"
"I'm on my way," I said and grabbed my coat just as I snapped my phone shut. Before I could all but run out the door, Takuma grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer till I hit his chest. I struggled to move so he wrapped his other arm around my waist until I stopped moving. Even then, he didn't remove it.
"Mikazuki was taken. Rima…she's in a sort of a shock. her mother called me for help," I explained bleakly. "I need to help her."
For my own sake as much as her own. I need closure for my own loss...please.
"Hm. I see," Takuma said quietly and let me go. It was like he knew how I felt. Maybe he could see it in my eyes. I didn't know. Takuma handed me the keys to his car and smiled slightly. "Go work your magic."
I nodded and darted out the door.
As I drove, a million thoughts roamed through my head, most being along the lines of "that evil bitch I'm going to rip out her throat" and other violent threats to the woman who took Mikazuki that I probably wouldn't go through with.
I got to Rima's house after what seemed like hours and flung open the door, giving her poor mother a fright. The woman stared at me for a second before guiding me towards Rima's room. I opened the door and what I saw was the worst thing I'd ever seen. Rima was lying on her bed in the fetal position, her hair a mess, muttering to herself and sobbing. I couldn't hear what she was saying until she screamed.
"I don't know!" she cried and then broke down. Looking at her was like looking like an abused puppy. She looked like a broke porcelain doll who could never been fixed. I walked over to her bed and fought back my own tears as Rima's mother closed the door.
KANAME'S POV:
It was hard for me to decide whether I had done a good deed or made the worst mistake of my life that would continuously come back to haunt me by giving the letters to their rightful owners. At least until I got the slap in the face. My dearest aunt found the letters to be missing and slapped me because who else knew where the letters were?
"This is a betrayal!" she shrieked and I almost laughed. But that would ruin my image as the dark, thoughtful type and that wouldn't work at all.
"The betrayal is what you've been keeping from your son," I said quietly. She froze and I almost felt guilty because she looked about ready to fall to her knees. I wondered what had happened to the once beautiful actress who had been loved by so many.
"Rido…no. Senri...can't ever know," she half-sobbed. This crazy bitch was starting to get on my nerves but I kept all expression away from my face.
"Why not?" I demanded.
"Because I don't want him to hate himself," she explained. "Think of all the people he's hurt!"
That was the first thing I'd heard from her mouth that made any sense at all.
"If you don't tell him someone will," I warned her.
"Who?"
"Touya."
"She wouldn't!"
I eyed the crib where the baby was laying. "You took the one thing that was keeping her loyal to you," I pointed out.
"She needs to suffer," my deranged aunt replied and I shook my head in disgust.
"You're hopeless," I told her and left the room, silently praying that she would be much saner around her granddaughter than she was around anyone else or god forbid what would happen to that baby.
"Hey," someone said quietly and I turned to see Senri staring with blank eyes. I took a quick glance at them to make sure they were the same.
"I think it's time to learn what's wrong with you," I said softly, hoping against hope that what I was doing wasn't a mistake. His eyes widened and I grimaced. Yes, I was making a mistake.
"Tell me!" he said loudly and I motioned him to be quieter, pointing at his mother's room. He nodded, though his eyes darkened considerably. The betrayal of the woman who carried you in her womb for nine months hurts more than anything else.
"Have you had black outs? Something happens and other people around you are hurt and you don't remember anything at all?" I asked him, even thought I knew the answer was yes.
"Yes," he whispered.
Kaname, you must be the biggest idiot out there! And I was so sure it was Kiryuu for a while…
"You have somewhat of a split personality," I said quietly. "We aren't sure exactly what's wrong with you, but I believe it has something to do with your father." I watched, my cousin as he soaked in all the information that had been kept from him all his life. To my surprise—not that I showed it—he laughed darkly.
"So because my dad is a total asshole, I'm a mix of him and my own personality?"
"Actually, I had another thought," I said wondering how much I should tell him.
"What is it?"
"You have no personality of your own. You have this cross between your father and the Touya girl," I said. She had changed him. Before he met her he was more like his father than he knew. But then he met her and the darker side of him rarely appeared. The only problem was that if it did, it was worse than ever.
"Is this even possible?" he demanded.
"It seems so," I said. "Maybe you're just weak and easily influenced."
"And mother wouldn't tell me because she can't accept the fact that my dad is a sick twisted bastard," he noted. I nodded although I couldn't say I approved of his choice of words.
"If you feel like putting it like that," I said and then I noticed the horrorstruck look on his face. I didn't ask what was wrong. That just wasn't in my personality in general. I waited for him to speak.
"What did I do to Rima?" Senri asked in a low voice. Damn it all. Why that question? I really didn't want to be the one to answer that question.
"Try to remember," I told him. Then I realized how bad of an idea that was considering it just might trigger his Rido-ish side to appear. But before I could warn him against it, he closed his eyes and lost himself in his thoughts. He didn't seem to be going into an episode, but all the same, what I was telling him was probably going to ruin his life. Or fix it forever.
How long can someone live a lie? All the same…
Kaname, you are an idiot for sure.
RIMA'S POV:
My baby. My baby. My baby. My life. My suffering. My joy. My hate. My love. My everything. Gone. My baby. My baby. My baby.
As I laid on my bed and cried alone, thoughts ran through my head. Her smiling face. What would happen when that awful bitch found out Mikazuki was too smart for a normal baby her age? What would she do? display her to the world like a freak? Maybe. Or maybe…or maybe….
"I don't know!" I screamed suddenly and hysterical sobs racked my body. "I just don't know," I repeated only this time is came out as a strangled whisper.
"Rima, you can't keep doing this to yourself," a familiar voice said.
"Sara," I said softly. A new weight pressed down on my bed and I felt delicate arms wrap around me, trying to hold me together.
"I can't say I know how you feel," she said quietly, "but I know what it's like to lose a part of you to a monster." I remembered her saying she had an abortion.
As if her words were magic, thoughts became normal and my mind began to think rationally again. At least as rational as I'd ever been.
"But I had her for over a year," I whimpered.
"And you weren't the monster who took her away," Sara said quietly. "I will never know what my baby might have looked like. I don't even know if it was a boy or a girl. I will never know."
"Her hair color had just finished changing," I said. "It was turned a dark reddish color, you know? She was starting to look more like her daddy than me. She was starting to look like Senri."
"Hm. Shiki did have some sort of feminine features didn't he," Sara said thoughtfully and I let out a sound that was a mix of a laugh and a sob.
"Maybe a couple," I said weakly.
"Why didn't you tell him?" Sara asked me. I closed my eyes and told the truth that I hadn't been able to accept myself.
"Because he would hate himself for something that wasn't his fault and that would hurt him even more," I said. "And I love him. I could never hurt him like that."
And I love him. The words that were my undoing rang around my head.
"But wasn't he hurting by not knowing?" Sara objected.
"You're making me feel worse," I told her grumpily.
"I'm showing you what you did wrong so when we fix this, it doesn't happen again," Sara said gently.
"This can't be fixed," I said flatly. "The bitch always wins."
I could tell Sara rolled her eyes at this.
"Tell him. See if he can help you," she said.
"I'm not telling Senri that he's a father. Besides, if his mother is the one who had Mikazuki, then he'll probably figure it out already," I said sorrowfully, feeling like crap at the reminder that my baby was no longer mine. I bit my lip.
"She was beyond the point of a genius you know," I said quietly. "I don't know why, but I've been thinking on it, and I'm starting to wonder if the whole thing of her being so smart is sort of like the way Senri is half himself half his father."
"How?" Sara asked.
"Mikazuki had to grow up faster than she should've," I said, trying to put my ridiculous hypothesis into words. "Maybe her brain moved faster, too?"
"Is that even possible?" Sara wondered aloud.
"Is what happened to Senri even possible?" I replied.
"It makes more sense than anything else," Sara admitted.
Then I thought about where Mikazuki was and started to cry again. Sara pulled me up and help me carefully. As she held me, she cried with me and I knew she wasn't crying for me; she was crying for the chance at motherhood that she'd lost before it even happened.
SHIKI'S POV:
It was awful. Remembering everything. I wasn't even sure how I did it. I tried focusing on the vase that I'd supposedly run into and remembered what happened. Well, sort of. Everything was in quick flashes that I had to put together. It was like a movie where everything was frame by frame and the frames lasted just long enough to see what was going on. Nothing was crystal clear but it was better than nothing.
I'd found Rima. I'd picked up something sharp. I'd cut her. She hit me over the head with the vase. Guilt hit me but then I realize I had been right!
"I knew she hit me with that vase!" I said aloud. By the look on Kaname's face, he obviously thought I was only a little idiotic.
"What did you remember?" he asked me.
"Uh, Rima hitting me over the vase when I attacked—oh!" I sunk to my knees when a memory hit me like a fist to the stomach. It was just like the vase incident: my brain was hazy and I was completely out of control. It was like something or someone else was there, only it was me. The whole split personality thing was starting to make sense to me.
It was dark. Rima was there. She was wearing a low cut shirt. I held her against the wall. I kissed her. She screamed. She bled. I didn't—
"Fucking son of a bitch!" I shouted. A few more colorful streams of words escaped me before I regained any sort of self-control.
Did I seriously get my best friend knocked up?
Yes, yes I did.
"Congratulations baby daddy," Kaname said with the sarcasm I rarely saw in him. But hell, there's a first time for everything.
"I hate myself," I said decisively. "Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go jump off a cliff."
"Damn it you idiot," Kaname growled and he threw me against the wall. My head exploded in pain and I didn't care. I deserved it.
"But if you feel like beating me to death, I'm fine with that," I said darkly. Kaname approached me looking furious. He picked me up by my shirt and stared at me.
"Your mother has your baby," he said.
"What?"
"She took her away from Touya. That was what she was holding against her and because you insisted on being around Touya so much, your mother decided she should take the baby away. The girl is heart broken and your mother is too powerful for her to win," he said quickly. "Only you can help her at this point."
I felt like fainting. I felt like even more of an asshole now.
"What can I do?" I asked weakly. Kaname scowled.
"Idiot. Mikazuki is your daughter, too! You can get her back, along with your grandfather's house and everything else that belongs to you," he said impatiently and let me go.
"You know, it's not very much like you to be so violent yet helpful. You usually favor my mother," I noted pleasantly.
"Well it's quite like you to be a complete coward," Kaname said darkly. Not only did that sting a little bit—as true as it was—it was also a very Kaname-ish comment to make.
He was always so dark and mysterious...damn. I wondered if that was really what went through his head or if he just kept up the image. Then I felt like an asshole for being distracted.
"That's more like you," I said rolling my eyes. I pushed myself off the wall and made my way to the book shelf. I tried pulling on a book that was a bit too high for me and successfully knocked over about twenty books. I jumped back in time and heard Kaname mutter something that sounded a lot like "idiot."
As I started to pick up the books, a piece of paper fell out from a copy of a cook book. It was my grandfather's will leaving me with everything. Me. Not my mother. Me.
That. Lying. Bitch!
Alright, I'm so going to hell for calling my mother a bitch...
"Maybe I'm not such an idiot after all," I said triumphantly after showing Kaname the will that I'd found.
"Considering you had to make this much of a mess, I think you still are," he objected. I frowned.
"Senri! What a mess you've made!" mother said loudly as she appeared at the stairs. I froze. And as angry at my mother as I was, I barely saw her because in her arms was a little girl, struggling to get away...with Rima's cerulean eyes and a head of hair just like mine.
"Mother," I said quietly.
"Yes, dear."
"You buried a lie, mother. And I found it. Actually, I found them both," I said waving the will in the air and pointing at the little girl.
"Daddy?"
Whoa! The baby can talk! Looks like my daughter is a weirdo just like me, I thought with dry amusement. I guess it's genetic.
"So it seems," I said wryly.
My mother then did the worst thing any person could ever do: she moved to drop the baby.
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Before you guys call me a baby killer, I'm not that bad!! I promise! I just needed a cliffy and this seemed like a really good place to put one. But nothing too bad is gonna happen…and I really wanna finish the next chapter because of that cliffy so maybe this is actually better for you guys! So…gimme 18 reviews or more? Please!!!!!! Mika-chan will love you guys for it ;)