AN: My computer decided to die a few days ago which had chapter 12 already completed (not proofed or anything but fully written) so I had to rewrite it the best I could. So all of those who got previews, this will not be exactly the same as I don't really remember all the chapter word for word as I started chapter 13. Sorry in advanced for mistakes, I rushed it so I could get it out for you all. I was very happy with the chapter I had before and I have not been able to get this one as good as I got the other one. I also don't get emails (my email was a computer email rather than an email that you can log onto online) but I will still respond to the reviews, I'll just PM you my response. Also this chapter is EARLY thanks to the wonderful reviewers of this story!!!

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or any of the characters, they belong to Stephenie Meyer.

Chapter 12

Bella's POV

Today Alice stopped by to talk about Michael and just have "girl time". I thought this was the perfect opportunity to talk to her about my past and find out exactly what happened between Edward and I to make him think that I would leave him. Alice would be the perfect person to ask, she was my best friend and always wanted the 'dirty details' on everything plus she was Edward's sister so she would know if something was up on that end as well. Times like these made me appreciate Alice's nosey ways as she would have all the information.

I was beginning to get impatient with my memory. I mean I have not remembered anything of the past ten years and I have been out of the hospital for about a month. Shouldn't I be getting some of my memory back? Just a little glimmer of something to say that it wasn't all lost forever? I was beginning to doubt that I would ever get my memory back.

"…And that is why you always have to leave the house looking amazing!" She stated with an air of importance. It was probably another fashion rampage that Alice was going on. I didn't mean to zone out while she was talking about it but there was just so much on my mind that I wasn't able to stay focused. I decided to try pretending to know what she was talking about since I didn't want to hurt her feelings.

"That's good to know Alice!!! I'll definitely keep that in mind." I smiled over to her hoping she would believe my overly enthusiastic response.

"BELLA!!! You zoned out again for the ten millionth time today! You don't have a clue what we were talking about do you? You're a terrible liar by the way; I can totally read you like a book. It's too bad you can't go to the mall because you pay more attention to girl time when we are there. So tell me what is going on? Did my idiot brother do something?" She smirked thinking something was up.

"Sorry Alice, I have just had a lot on my mind for the past little while now. Your brother has done nothing wrong, he has been perfect. What I have been thinking about is how my memory has not improved and I have been out of the hospital for a while now. I see on TV shows that people get some sort of memory back even if it isn't that big but I have not had anything like that yet. I just worry that I will never get my memory back." Alice flew over the coffee table and was hugging me at light speed. It was as if she had super human speed and energy. I wondered how many red bulls she drank already today.

"Hunny, of course you're going to get your memory back. It isn't going to happen right away you know. You have been out of the hospital for a month and have had your mind on so much, especially with the baby coming that you don't really have time to focus on remembering. Trust me Bella, I know you will remember one way or another, I can feel it. Plus if you don't ever get it back you still have a family who loves and supports you. You have my brother, who would do anything for you, and Michael will be here soon and he will need a lot of attention. You have a life here regardless as to what you remember, and if you ever are curious about anything you can always ask one of us. Or you could ask me and we could have a shopping day or a girl talk day!!!" Only Alice Cullen could make permanent memory loss sound all right. This seemed like the perfect time to ask her about my past with Edward.

"Hey Alice, on the topic of you being able to help me with my past I was wondering what happened between Edward and I? He has been saying things lately that confuse me. I originally thought that we just were together all that time but he mentioned that I could hate him if I ever get my memory back or leave him and I don't understand why. We conceived Michael so that means that I would have had to forgiven him before so what makes him think that I wouldn't forgive him now? Or did something happen after we conceived Michael? Is that why Edward wasn't in the vehicle when I was in the accident because we separated?" Alice was not expecting that question. We sat for a few minutes in complete silence; Alice's face looked like she was trying quite hard to find the right words to explain the situation. Oh boy this can't be good.

Alice's POV

I didn't know what I was going to say. I knew after this I would be calling up my imbecile brother to let him know that I wasn't impressed that he opened his big mouth and let Bella know that something wasn't right. I couldn't come right out and say "Well Bella you and Edward broke up before college, you found comfort in Mike Newton, became a couple which eventually led to marriage, now you're carrying his child and wait it gets better, he is dead! We have all been lying to you so you wouldn't miscarry your baby, sorry you didn't get the miracle with Edward." That would sure go over well. She would probably go into labor right then and there. I had to think fast as Bella started looking skeptical and I didn't want to over stress her.

"Bella, you and Edward have been though a lot within the past ten years. There has been lots of stress and tension. Like the time when someone broke in and stole your laptop that had your first novel on it. Or when Edward was going through his residency and was always in the hospital and there wasn't much alone time for the two of you." These aspects were true, which made me feel somewhat better that I wasn't telling a whole page of lies to my best friend. She was devastated when her laptop was stolen and everyone was upset that they weren't able to see much of Edward through his residency. Continue to tell that to yourself Alice. You know Bella is going to feel betrayed by you too when she gets her memory back. These half truths aren't going to make her hate you any less. You are her best friend and she trusts you to tell her the truth. I had to stop listening to my conscience and figure out something else to say.

"Alice none of those things would make me hate or leave Edward, it has to be huge! Stop feeding me all this, I'm a big girl I can handle what you have to say to me." She was getting frustrated.

"Bella as you know Edward is unable to have children. This caused a lot of stress in your relationship. He always thought that you should be with someone who can give you children and so he wanted to break up with you a few times but you would have none of it. Then this experimental procedure came about and you and Edward decided to try it as you knew you would be together always and you were both in a good place in your lives. Edward had his job at the hospital and was able to get reduced hours if needed and you were finished writing your first novel so you figured it would be fine to do things out of order (baby then marriage). Needless to say that there were a few times when you were sure you were pregnant when you weren't and Edward was getting doubtful. He saw how badly you wanted a baby and so he decided to give you an option. He told you that you could have your child by going to the sperm bank and using donated sperm to make a baby since he was not capable of that." Bella cut me off right there.

"Alice I would have never agreed to that, would have I? I always thought that I would only want a child if it was Edwards. It would have hurt him so badly if we did that. He always wanted children and to see a little one running around that he was not able to produce would be torture. Are you telling me that this child was not the miracle I thought it was?" She was now tearing up and I was getting worried for Michael's safety.

"No Bella, the child you are carrying is Edwards." With that she beamed. I told one of the worst lies I could have to her but it worked in calming her down. I only hope that she will look at that when she gets her memory back. That Aunty Alice was looking out for her nephew.

"You and Edward fought a lot about this. He was so hung up on you having your own biological child that he wasn't paying attention to what you were saying. He even drove you two down to the bank and you completely flipped out. You actually came to live with Jasper and I for a little bit. You would not think about another father and you didn't want to keep on having that conversation and it hurt you that Edward would be OK with it. You were a tad bit irrational as usual and thought that maybe Edward was so keen on that idea because he didn't truly want to have a child with you so offered that so he wouldn't have to go through more tests and procedures. You two made up after putting your feelings on the line and the night you moved back in with Edward little Michael was conceived." Bella was now crying again but I could see a smile through her tears.

"I still don't see why Edward would say I would hate him but I totally see how we got into that big of a fight." I smiled she was buying it.

"He thought you would be resentful as if you would have gone to the sperm bank and just listened to him you would have never had his biological child."

Bella's POV

It all made perfect sense. I understood why Edward would think I would hate him, it wasn't logical but I could see Edward reacting that way. Like Alice said he probably thought that I would have been resentful about him wanting to look at alternative areas. I decided that there had been enough solemn conversation so I had one more thing to ask of Alice.

"Hey Alice, Edward and I were talking and we would both love for you to be Michael's god mother. Would you be up for something like that?" Alice started jumping up and down and I swear she was vibrating with excitement.

"OMG BELLA! I WOULD LOVE TO BE HIS GODMOTHER!!!!! Can I design his christening gown? He is going to be the most fashionable baby to get baptized! We should all match him! Wouldn't that look soooooooooo good? There is so much to do with so little time! I am so excited!!!" Only Alice would use text/msn talk in real life and not sound ditzy saying it.

I was glad that things could go from serious to light within two minutes with Alice. She was a true friend, she would tell me what I needed to know and then celebrate with me a second later. I realized that I was really lucky to get such a good friend who would always be there for me. For the first time since I woke up I felt that everything was going to be OK. There were still lots of preparations we still had before Michael came but I knew that with Edward by my side and my friends and family around everything will work out as planned.

AN: Ya this wasn't as good as the other chapter that I originally had but it will work; it has all the main points so that's all that matters. Review and let me know what you thought about Alice and Bella's day together. Do you think Alice did the right thing by coming up with something so Bella wouldn't stress? Do you think she should have come up with an excuse to get out of telling her the truth and a lie or do you think she should have come right out and told her the truth? Reviews=previews, 7 reviews=early update!