Hi guys I know it's been a considerate time, but I didn't intend to take that long to update it and I hope not to take longer as well. Thank you for been reading it and I will finish it! Well not much to talk and I hope you enjoy this chapter and I apologize for any inconvenient.

It's never easy to let go… But sometimes we just have to. There are times that not even a great memory can make you balance and keep you on the line. We have to know when to know when a cycle has come to its end.

The minute seemed like an eternity for Jill and Chris. She just had arrived from her meeting with Leon and there Chris was waiting for her arrival. Chris had finally got his final decision, the last drop had already filled up the cup. He waited for her to relax a little bit and during that he asked about how she was feeling and also about the baby…

In the other hand Jill knew him quite well to know what may have come and the all she could do was to prepare her emotions. Talking to Leon had given her more strength to finally speak the truth. Actually she was still considering the baby part tonight, but before that she had to solve "their" matter, their relationship which she felt was done for a very long time.

"We have to talk" he went straight to the line

"I know" she had no doubt

"I don't want you to get me wrong and also don't want us to fight. We can talk, but it doesn't have the need to be in an aggressive way… I took a long time reflecting on that and pondering if it was a temporary state or sensation, but I can see its not…" he started the talk

"I agree" she was direct

"Take a sit…" he asked her gently

"No thanks, I'm fine… I feel better standing" she replied gently as well

"Ok then…" he nodded

Once again none knew how to restart it. Jill was standing next to the counter and had a glass of water in her hand and she took a sip of it and sighed

"God, this is never easy!"

"Yeah…" he agreed

"I have so much to say, but no words come out… It's so confusing and hard for me to say what I have to say… But I have to!" She couldn't look into his eyes

"Yeah, same here… But let me do the talk first…" he replied

"Alright" she agreed displeased since she had planned differently, however it would be an opportunity for her to choose better the words hearing his version first

"Like I said previously I thought this was a temporary sensation, but its taking more time than I expected and… And things are very changed… You changed, I'm changed… And there's also your current condition which I don't want to blame, but makes it harder to do things… I mean… whatever we do will reflect on its future and I get worried about it, about you, but… I don't think this is working anymore and we both know that things haven't been that great even before it, but it's complicated… The only certain I have is that we're not alright, we're not happy… I feel like we're two strangers sharing the same room…" he said in frustration

Jill listened carefully and it wasn't the most beautiful words she heard, but she completely agreed with that, however it's never easy to face it in reality, to confirm it and especially coming from the other part. The all she could do was to comply.

"Sometimes I think we can work it out if we make changes, but sometimes I'm hopeless and I don't know what to think. I love you more than I've ever loved anyone before, but I don't want change you to keep loving you. I feel horrible at thinking that I might lose you, but I don't know what else to do… I miss you, I miss me, I miss us… But I need to know what you feel and think so I can move on…" he stared her in the eyes and there was sorrow and hope in his request and at the same time he observed her response

Jill couldn't help her tears as she read his hope in his look, it just made things much more complicated. However questions came to her mind and so did the doubts. She loved Chris as well, but with her truth she had to be more careful, since she didn't feel worth enough to fight for him. There were two men in her mind and she had to be sure which one she'd choose.

Chris was the man whom has been with her for a very long time. Of course he wasn't the most perfect person, he'd made many mistakes before and every time she forgave him. However every time she forgave, he committed it again and she couldn't bear with it anymore. In the other hand if she chose him, how would he react when he learned the truth and the changes he referred to, acquired that honesty from her side.

Leon however was taking pieces of her heart and putting it together in a way that she didn't notice it. She felt alive again, she felt like a true woman, a woman she thought he died with the broken pieces. However was he the right person? At least he could understand better the truth than herself with the truth of her pregnancy, but how much did he care for her? He was still a mystery for her, definitely she was too much attracted to try it once, but if she really did that she'd have to let go of Chris… Her long time partner and friend.

Whatever the options both men had their qualities and defects, however one she knew and what about the other? His fame wasn't one of the best for sure, would he be capable of commitment? She couldn't know so far. Whatever the decision, something would be lost. That's the game, you win and you lose. Life's not that perfect where everyone is happily ever after. Someone was going to be hurt.

Which one to chose: the hope or the life? And to know that she'd have to throw the dices and let go of her insecurities and open the game once and for all.

"I'm sorry…" she sighed and tears came out instantaneously and her guard was totally down, "I am truly sorry and I can't hold it anymore… this is killing me from the inside, but the all I can say is that I AM SORRY! I know it won't be easy to you, but it's not been easy for me either. I'm so embarrassed and feeling the worst person in the universe, but…" She cried more

Chris's heart broke seen that she was going to end it and not give one more chance. He could see that she was on her limit, but feeling her grief made him come closer to her and comfort her. It was natural between them. And so he embraced her. She placed her head on his chest and hid her face with her hands after a little hesitation as shame crossed her mind at feeling his skin on hers. As she felt that she didn't deserve it as far as she hasn't told everything and she feared the cold she'd feel when he heard it. However it felt so good to be embraced by that warm and caring man. Once again making her feel horrible.

"I'm sorry, but… I have to do this…" she spoke in sobs

"Why? Let's give it a try…" he was upset

"Because I have to… If you really want to try, there's got to have honesty between us… So I have to do this and tell you the truth" She let go of him and step to the side and took a deep breath

"I agree there's got to have changes, so let's make it!" he stepped closer

"I have to tell you the truth!" She closed her eyes

"What truth?" he asked confused

"Leon" she whispered

Hearing his name was damn hard as the worst came to his mind and he put two and two together and he stepped back unconsciously

"Did you?..." he didn't have to complete the sentence

She nodded

"Ha! I don't know why I'm not that surprised… Actually I knew something was going on between you two and it crossed my mind…" he said trying to keep his cool

"It's not like that!" she faced him

"So what is it? You just said it!" his tone got louder

"It's not what you're thinking… we're not together… It's something else…" she had difficulty to tell as he interrupted her

"Do you love him?" he was defiant

"I don't know, but that's not the point!" She was getting to her edge with his accusations

"You don't know? You sleep with the guy, cheat on me and you don't know if you love him? Come 'on, admit it! It's not a surprise at all, every woman loves him and you're just a woman… I didn't expect that from you, I thought you were different…" he said annoyed and disappointed

"SHUT UP! Let me finish it!" She hit the counter

"I don't want to listen… I won't play to fool. You cheated on me, I won't forgive it, no matter what your reasons are… You CHEATED!" he stepped away and passed his hand on his hair

"Now you'll listen to me!" She yelled and followed him and turned him by his arm and they faced each other

"What do you have to say? That you're sorry? Yeah, I've heard it! But here's the thing, I don't forgive it! You're wrong!..." he was sarcastic

"No forgiveness? And what about me? All those times I forgave your mistakes! That doesn't count? You're worst than you think are! And if I came to this, it's your fault! You and your negligence…" she was defiant and he took a pause

"That was different, I was young… We weren't together!" he replied

"Different? You cheated on me while been with me with that "colleague" of yours and I forgave you!"

"I was young…"

"Bullshit! You're no different either… And to be honest… We're not in the same situation since I didn't CHEAT on you… we weren't together."

"Who buys it? You see the guy everyday and its almost all the time talking to him, you think I haven't noticed it?"

"How can you say its everyday and all the time as you're not home to see? Cut the crap! And you want to play it? And what about you and your precious Sarah? You do the shit and you blame on me. You have no proof of what you're accusing me!"

"At least she never slept with another ordinary guy while been with me… And you know what? I don't have to prove you anything, the best proof is that you admitted that you slept with him! Don't blame on me, I never asked you to"

"But you led me to"

"Alright… negligence… right, right, right! Come' on, you did because you wanted and I can see you liked it. So go ahead and be happy with him, you two deserve each other!"

"You always forget or at least ignore your part on things…" she placed her hand on her head as she felt dizzy and caressed her belly. She tried to calm her down as she headed to the couch

Chris watched and mixed feelings came to him, but he decided to put it aside as the child didn't have fault of any of it. So he went to check on her.

"Are you in pain?" he asked worried

"Yeah" She lied on the couch and took the phone to call Leon as they had an agreement that when she needed him, she'd call him, but she couldn't speak on it and be sure if he had picked up as she fainted

Chris is desperation called for her and she didn't respond and he searched for his car keys and took her in his arms and took her to the hospital.

Leon arrived at his place, but he was restless as he couldn't stop thinking of Jill and her decision to face Chris alone. He couldn't deal with it and especially as Chris was hot tempered and might not react very well to the news. He checked the clock all the time and saw the time passing and no call.

He took his cell phone once again to see if she had called, but to his misfortune, who had called him was Emily. He didn't feel like answering her, so he decided to take a shower first and then talk to her. If it was work related their superior would call him when learned that she couldn't reach him.

He took the cell phone to the bathroom and put it on a dry place and near where he could in case it rang and so it did as he was passing the shampoo on his hair and it felt on his eyes, so he answered it without seen the screen and sighed when he heard Emily's voice.

"What do you want?" he asked annoyed

"I want to talk to you."

"Work?"

"No"

"So we have nothing to talk about, not tonight and maybe never"

"Please… Let's work it out. It affects the work"

"Not my work, I'm very professional indeed."

"But it's affecting mine"

"Sorry to hear that"

"Please, just listen to me"

Leon took a deep breath and was very annoyed, but he knew that the longer he prolonged it, the more persistent she'd become.

"I told you, tonight I can't!" he said but she hung up on his face

He thought it weird, but he didn't mind actually until he heard the doorbell. He quickly removed the shampoo and soap off his body and put on the towel and went to check on it.

Looking at the peephole he sighed deeply as he saw Emily standing on the other side. And he thought of pretending that he wasn't there, but the lights were on and to make it worse she called him and she heard the tone

"I know you're there" She said looking at the door

"How did you get in?" he asked surprised as he opened the door

"I said I was your girlfriend…"

"You what?"

"Just kidding… But I said you were waiting for me… I guess the doorman is used to your social life" She smirked

Leon turned his face

"May I?" She asked as she was still on the corridor

They heard a door opening and a lady coming out who greeted them and smiled overwhelmed at the image of Leon only on his towel by his waist.

At that Leon didn't have a choice and allowed Emily to come in. In the other hand, Emily didn't like at all that the lady could've a picture of Leon post shower, however she didn't let it show and entered his condo.

"Whatever you have to say just say it quickly I'm busy!" Leon spoke with his back to Emily

"Company?"

"What do you want?" Leon turned to her and stared serious at her

"Talk…"

"Like I said, be quickly, I'm busy" he said as he sat on the couch

"I can't talk like that… I need you to pay attention… talk back"

"I've got nothing to "talk back" to you for a long time, your day is gone"

"Why can't you forget it? It's been a long time, I changed and I'm truly sorry for what happened and that's why I want to talk to you, this situation is killing me and I can't stand it anymore, I want peace between of us and make this work" she trembled and got closer to him taking his hand, but tears fell from her eyes when he didn't allow her to touch him and stood up from the couch and step back from her

"You should've had thought of it before killing us, I don't care how much sorry and changed you are because you didn't think of me back then, so deal with it!" he stared at her with his icy blue eyes and that look froze her spine at seeing that he was unshakable, however she understood it and she wouldn't give up that easy

"You're the one who should deal with it since it's been many years and you're stuck at that! You don't listen, you don't care or you think you don't because if you really didn't care it wouldn't hurt so much in you! I'm dealing with it and I'm here being a grown up and trying to repair it… I love you and we used to be so in love and I won't give up just like that… we can still make this work" she cried

"If you're such a grown up, you should know your limits and accept when it's gone! There's no "we" anymore…" Leon's cell phone rang interrupting their conversation and making her mad at it

"JILL? JILL! ARE YOU THERE? JILL!" He panicked and ran to his bedroom to put his clothes on leaving Emily behind

Emily watching the scene felt mad and hurt and she wasn't the type to stay submissive put aside so she followed him to his bedroom

"Who is that? Where are you going?" she took Leon by the arm

"Get out of my house!" he yelled at her

"Who is Jill? You owe me an explanation!"

"Owe you? Are you out of your mind? I don't owe you anything, you do owe me peace and the only way to have it is when you'll be out of my life! You don't control me anymore Emily, you're nothing to me so pick the least of dignity you have and leave my life forever! I don't want to see your face anymore and I'll never forget what you've done to me, I'm not that moron you met before!"

"I said I'm sorry!" She kneeled to him in tears

"I said GET OUT! I don't have time for your crap!"

"What do I have to do to have your forgiveness?" she stood up and held him with her hands on his arms

Leon saw the pain in her eyes and deep inside it hurt him to treat her like that, in fact he could be available for a chat if she'd come in another occasion, but her insistence hit his nerves that were already taken by his worries for Jill. And her call just made it worse. He didn't intend to hurt Emily like that, but he needed space to set everything in place in his head.

"Look, I told you I'm busy tonight…" he took a breath to compose himself and talk properly to her

"With Jill, I got that!" she smirked

"Yeah, with Jill… But if you still willing for your redemption we can talk some other time, not tonight, I have to go now"

"Who is she?" She took a deep breath and noticed his confusion

"Do you love her?" she prepared for his answer

"I can't talk right now, I have to see how she is" he took the keys and called the elevator

"Why don't you answer me? I'm not talking, just asking"

"She's a friend" there was a hasp in his voice

"Do you love her?" she asked again as they entered in the elevator

"Yes" he finally answered after a pause, simple but fulfilled with all of his honesty

"Alright then" she felt it like a stab in her heart

They remained in silence and arrived at the lobby

"I hope she's worth it!" She said as she left the cabin not looking back

Leon watched her walk as the doors closed. He reclined on the cabin wall as Emily's last words echoed in his soul. But there wasn't time for reflection, he took his cell phone and called Jill, but she didn't answer it and so he looked at the number calling him at the same time.

"Claire"

Chris was restless in the hospital's corridor walking around. Claire was sitting on the chair trying to keep calm as much possible.

"Dammit, they're taking too long and no one to tell anything!" Chris passed his hand on his hair

"You walk around won't make it faster either, sit a bit as I'll take some water"

"I don't want to sit! I prefer walk around otherwise I'll punch those walls"

"Calm down, no need for overreaction"

"You don't get it!..." Chris paused as he and Claire saw Leon arriving. Claire stood up as she read Leon's furious face and she felt she had to stop something bad to happen

"What the hell are you doing here?" Chris face Leon with anger

"What fuck did you do to them?" Leon walked fast towards Chris as Claire was in between those two furious gods.

Well guys that's all for now, hope you liked it. Until next time =)