AN OMFG! I cant apoligize more for not updating Thursday. Trust me I had every intention to, I had this finished and ready to be posted, and then it was Friday and other shit was happening...idk im so sorry but here it is! the long awaited chapter 13! :)

*Chapter 13, BPOV*

I follow Edward into his parents RV and awkwardly take a seat on the couch; I don't exactly know what to do.

"Bella what the fuck was that?" Edwards expected harsh voice comes and I cringe as I watch him pace in the small hallway of the RV.

"Edward, you have to understand. My dad knows your…reputation, true or not, and he-…" He cut me off.

"True or not? By now I'd hope you know they were mostly lies Bella! I've never miss treated a girl like all those rumors say, and I though you understood that" He said his voice becoming more hurt then angry at the end.

I sigh as I close my eyes to fight tears at being yelled at, it pissed me off and hurt me at the same time coming from Edward.

"I know they aren't true Edward, deep down, but 15 years of insecurities about you isn't just going to go away, the fact that you want me at all is a shock, not having some sort of doubt would be unhealthy! My dad knows the rumors and I guess believes them, I'm his baby girl and will be no matter what, him being ok with this isn't going to just happen overnight." I spoke sternly in defending myself, I told him the truth and I hope he could understand.

He was quiet for a minute or so and the silence was tense, I rubbed my hands over my face with a sigh.

"Bella…how could you think I don't want you?" he whispered after the terse silence. I looked at him with raised eyebrows; did he really just ask that?

"Sure Edward in the past couple days, you've wanted me, but before then…at least after 6th grade it was like I didn't exist. We swapped numbers after 7th grade but you never texted me back, you got caught up in other girls and high school and for a while I gave up. But with Rose and Alice fawning over Em and Jasper, I let myself hope again, despite there protests. I honestly didn't expect you to…" I trailed off not knowing what to say, he said he'd fallen for me, but was it just another line? Had I been stupid? It wouldn't be the 1st time.

"Fall for you?" He spoke my thoughts out loud and I gasped as my eyes connected with his, just hearing him say it again made my heart flutter. How could I know he meant it?

"Bella, I fell for you back when I was 13, I told you that already. But I was 13 I didn't know what was going on, just that you and I were friends, and I started wanting to kiss you." He said, the desperation obvious in his voice. There was no way my heart couldn't believe his words, but my brain fought it, trying to protect said heart.

"Ok, but you never showed it. I had no way of knowing you had feelings for me. All I heard was the bad stuff because I had nothing else to believe. You never defended yourself; instead you paraded around with other girls in front of me." I said with an angry gesture to outside, where I had witnessed him and Carmen making out last summer. He couldn't deny it.

"Carmen…God Bella no, I never…Carmen and I never had sex. I let her know the 2nd day that I wasn't available, for keeps. She said she was OK with that…We made out a couple times… some minor groping. But after camping I never heard from her again. I don't know what I was thinking…maybe that I couldn't have you…couldn't taint you? You thought I didn't want you…God Bella I'm sorry" He said as he moved next to me to take my face in his hands. "I want you, so much it scares the shit out of me." He finished as he stared into my eyes. "I meant when I said it was our turn…forever."

*MTYT*

AN Ok, chapter 13 gets into some deep shit, i didnt intend that, but now i know what authors mean when they say a charactor takes you over! Edward needed to say what he said. Tell me what you think!

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