{Chapter 13}

Trust me

The end is close, but the begin isn't far away
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With you… forever

(WARNING: Some character is going to die. )

"Sora…" The blonde girl in the small room whispered.
The brown-haired boy looked around. "What?"
"Kairi…"
His blue eyes remained cold. "What's wrong with her?"
"She… remembered"
A growl of hate and anger filled the little house at the edge of the city.
-

She stood there, her head bowed, her hands balled to fists. Sora stood before her, anger radiating off him in waves that crashed against the girl who took my heart and breath away. However I didn't have heart, actually, and like Sora always used as excuse why my girl would love him instead of me.
Kairi.
My brave, sweet, powerful Kairi.
I was a part of the shadows, while Sora stood in the spotlights. That should be normal, but there was one link which made it all go wrong… or good. Kairi was the link between him and me. The link made me crave for the spotlights and Sora to the shadows, wherever the link was.
I sighed as Sora yelled at her. I tried not to hear it, pretend it wasn't there. I only looked at Kairi.
Too bad I could still hear it.
"Kairi, you must be out of your mind!" Sora growled at her. A hiss slid between my clenched teeth. If I was in there, I would've hit him this very instance.
"I'm not" Her voice was soft, but there was a harsh edge in it. Kairi knew Sora broke her trust and Sora knew there was no chance of ever getting her back.
"Okay, okay, cards on the table! What does he have what I don't have?" His voice raised, while Kairi's softened.
"He is everything you're not"
I sighed again. Yeah, I was everything he was not. I was the bad side of Sora. The bad side Sora wasn't. But we had some same bad things. We were both jealous and we were both possessive.
But Sora shared. I was the only one he wouldn't like sharing with.
I shared with no one.
And especially not Kairi.
"You know how… how… FREAKING DANGEROUS that is?"
"I don't care"
I closed my eyes. And pretended I didn't hear them. Maybe it would've been better if I never showed up. If Sora came back then, Kairi would've been happy. Sora would've been happy. Kairi wouldn't know that Sora didn't care that much about her.
But he acted like he did now. Because he needed her if he wanted to be the new king. But all he wanted was to escape from the islands.
I waited for Sora to yell at Kairi again, but nothing came.
"Sora, I think you are out of your mind. If you need a girl to be the new king and- Oh, don't look so shocked I know that" She added irritated in the middle of her sentence. "Because it's not that hard to find out. But, what I tried to say, if you need a girl to be the new king, you can always take Naminé. She listens to you at least" She scoffed.
I tried to bit back my smile. Kairi was absolutely stunning when she's angry.
Always surprising… always different.
She sounded in control now… but one of the last times when she was angry…

*Flashback*

Kairi looked down, she was completely silent. The fact her keyblade was trembling betrayed that peaceful picture. She was trying to control some emotion. I hoped… no, I wished that it was not something what made her go back to Sora. I would lose all I ever cared about…
"Kairi?"Sora's voice interrupted the silence rudely.
I growled at him, to warn him it was better to stay where he was, but stepped back into the shadows. Always Kairi's choice.
Kairi didn't let her keyblade disappear, but turned at Sora, to look him in his eyes. I wondered what she found there… not much, I guessed.
Kairi was shaking. She still tried to control whatever was flowing through her body.
Her face was ice-cold. I never saw her this way. And I was grateful she wasn't looking at me that way. I would die immediately.
Sora didn't, of course.
She walked toward Sora, slowly. Maybe she was still in love with him… maybe. A smile crept up on his face. He knew it too. Bastard.
But Kairi surprised us both by hitting him in his face.
I gasped from shock. I finally knew which emotion she was trying to control.
Anger.
Sora touched his cheek with his hand. Heh, that's what you get when you leave Kairi. The spot where Kairi hit him was red and you could recognize her slim hand in it.
She stepped back and still looked at Sora, with a deadly cold expression. Riku stared at her like she had set fire on ice. Which was, actually. I couldn't stop myself and I chuckled. But I also realized Sora wasn't going to let her get away with me. He would do anything to keep her. And I wasn't going to let her go without me.
I walked over to where she stood and stood in front of her.
"Blame yourself" I said.
Sora raised his brow, rubbed his cheek some more and turned at Riku. "Just go. I'll handle this myself"
He turned back to me. "You know, I forgive people very quickly. But I'll never forgive you"
Am I glad. Sheesh, brilliant reply, Sora.
I shrugged it off. "Well, never wanted to be forgiven by you, really"
Sora growled. "You think you are something, but you're not, just to clear that up"
I know. But maybe you're not something yourself either way.
He turned to Kairi. "Kairi? I want to speak to you. Now" His voice was demanding.
Always Kairi's choice.
She stepped before me and crossed her arms. "Why, hello there, Sora"
Ouch, that must hurt.
But Sora appeared to be shocked. His jaw dropped and he blinked twice before saying something. "What did he do with you?"
I nearly growled. I only repaired the damage you did to her.
"Correction: What did YOU do with me?" It could've been the wind, but it was clearly Kairi's voice. She was going to talk to him. Her choice, always her choice.
I stepped back and closed my eyes, waiting for whatever was coming.
"Kairi, I'm sorry-" Sora started.
"YOU THINK THAT WOULD BE ENOUGH?" Kairi was mad. Incredibly mad. I never heard her raising her voice, but she was lethal now.
"I-"
"NO! YOU'RE FIVE YEARS TOO LATE, SORA! FIVE!"
"I know, but I'm sorry-" Tsh. Be original. Be the one she wants. Your only chance to stay alive. Don't take it. She's mine already. I kept my eyes closed. There was no need in distracting Sora.
"YOU ARE SORRY BECAUSE YOU LIKE YOUR LAME FRIENDS MORE THAN YOU EVER LIKED ME?"
"No! No, Kairi! Listen up, you're getting it all wrong! I-"
"DON'T 'KAIRI' ME! I WAITED FOR YOU TO KEEP YOUR PROMISE! FIVE YEARS! AND WHAT WAS I WAITING FOR?"
"Um… me?" I rolled with my eyes. No, for your mother. Come on! Are you really that dumb, Sora?
"REJECTION, YOU JACKASS!" I opened my eyes, trying not to smile at her anger. I never thought Kairi could ever be this fired up. She yelled at the top of her lungs and Sora was nervous now. Guess he never saw her this angry before.
"Kairi, listen, please-"
"NO, YOU LISTEN! THANKS TO YOU I LOST ALL MY FRIENDS! THANKS TO YOU, I LOST MYSELF, MY MIND AND MY WHOLE BEING! YOU BROKE MY HEART EVERYDAY YOU DIDN'T SHOW UP!" I looked at Kairi, curiously. So that was why she was crying nearly every second of the day? I thought because she was afraid he had another. Well, I could've known that. Kairi wasn't like that.
He staggered back. "Please, Kairi, please"
"Sora, you're… you're… heartless" I froze up. Wait a sec… Sora has a heart, but she calls him heartless? I don't have a heart, but she never called me a Nobody or a heartless…?
Oh. She calls him that because of the fact he did that to her.
He cringed, but didn't say a word, afraid she was going to yell again. You would deserve it.
Kairi let out a breath and looked down. "That's all I wanted to say"
Suddendly Sora pressed her up against the wall and pinned her hands above her head while pressing his lips roughly on hers.
No. Fucking. Way.
I summoned my keyblade and swung him out of the way.
He landed at the other side of the room while my keyblade disappeared. His eyes flamed.
So you think you're angry? Well, guess what? I'm angry too!
"YOU FUCKING BASTARD!" I yelled at him.
I hissed between my gritted teeth and tried really hard not to kill him.
Sora got up and let his keyblade disappear. "You stole my girlfriend" He said in a cold tone.
"YOU KISSED HER!" I wanted to kill him. I wanted to crunch him. CONTROL YOURSELF, ROXAS. Easy now. Look at Kairi, look at Kairi. Kairi…
She looked stunned. Her finger touched her lips. Her stunned expression made place for a frown. She took a deep breath and walked over to Sora. "Sora" Her voice was warm, full of hidden emotions. We both froze. I felt my face fall. Maybe that kiss changed her mind. I lost to Sora.
And Sora's face lit up. He won.
"Sora. It's over" I nearly laughed from relief.
Sora narrowed his eyes. "And what makes you say that?" Did you listen to her at all?
The room was suddendly ten degrees colder, like Kairi's face. Her beautiful violet eyes were empty. "Didn't you listen to everything I yelled at you?"
"I did" He said calmly. "But I wanted to know if it's because that thing there" He pointed at me. Oh, so now we're gonna play it like that, huh? I growled at him again.
Kairi's eyes were full again. Shock. She stuttered. "T-thing?"
Oh, Kairi… I love you. I can't feel, but I love you so much.
Sora kept his calm face. "Yeah. The definition of a thing is when it hasn't got a heart, right?"
"Roxas has a heart" She replied immediately. Her voice was calm, her eyes weren't empty, but full of passion. They stood way too close to each other.
She thought I had a heart and she thought Sora was heartless? Maybe Kairi didn't see things the way we saw them?
"No, he hasn't, Kairi, you know that just as good as me. If you feel something for it, you'll be heartbroken. He'll never feel one piece of your love for you too" I do. I'm full of it. I'm drowning in the love for her. Did you ever feel the same?
"And you do?" She named my thoughts.
"Kairi-"
"You don't" She knew. She knew it perfectly. Poor Kairi…
He took her hands, making my anger flame up again, but she tried to jerk them back. "Let go!"
"No. I want to explain something"
"You don't have to hold my hands to tell me something, do you?" Smart, Kairi, smart. I smiled.
Sora sighed, but let go. "Kairi… when I was done saving the worlds and stuff… I had a lot of friends…"
"I know" Her voice was like ice. Sora shivered and shook his head.
"Kairi, I had no idea what I was doing" You had. " I slowly forgot about you… in the end, I couldn't even bring up your face anymore"
She growled. She could. When she saw me for the first time, she thought I was you. She was disappointed. She couldn't see my face, but she already knew it wasn't you, however she could tell you wouldn't look the same anymore.
"Kairi, no, I meant that we were separated too long… but when I saw you here… everything came back!"
Don't say anything! Don't say anything. But I snorted. "U-huh, and you decided to just kiss her?"
Sora ignored me but stared intensely in her eyes. "Kairi, I missed you more than I realized those five years… I'm serious" Sure, Sora, sure.
Her eyes narrowed. "And I'm serious too, Sora. It's over. I've chosen for love"
She stunned us both. I looked down in confusion and Sora frowned in the same confusing.
"That means I love Roxas now… you're just five years too late" My non-existing heart jumped up at that. She loved me. She loved me. She loved me.
Sora's frown deepened. "Kairi…"
She stepped back from him. "It was nice speaking to you" She said with a hollow, angry voice.

*End Flashback*

I stared back at Kairi again. She closed her eyes and the edges of her lips turned upwards in a small smile.
Whoa, what did I miss? I frowned when I saw that Sora's expression had changed. His eyes were wide.
"W-w-w-wha-wha-what d-did you s-say?" He stuttered.
Kairi started to tremble. She started to tremble so hard that she was nearly shaking.
"That I know it, Sora" Her voice was hard as steel. Sora frowned confused. "Oh. And what do you know exactly?"
"I know that you don't like me. You once did, but only because I was the only girl around. I know that you crave to leave the islands again. I know that you're pissed because Riku's dead and that you have to do all your dirty jobs alone. I know you lied"
Her eyes were still closed, but the small smile was still there.
I suddendly had a feeling this wasn't Kairi, but something like her unconscious speaking.
Maybe Sora said something what shut her whole system down. I was curious. What knew her unconscious of me?
"K-Kairi… I'm sorry. I wish I could change it"
"Sora"
Sora staggered back. He was scared. I saw it in his eyes. I never saw Sora scared… today was a first.
"Make a real apologize. Mean it. It's the only thing what can save you"
Sora frowned and sighed. "Kairi… I liked you… but you changed… and I don't know where the feelings went"
"They went inside Roxas when he came looking for me. You lost them when you made your choices and Roxas gained them when he decided he wasn't going to hurt me and take it slowly instead of hurrying to finish his mission"
I was stunned. How did she find out? I had no idea. I knew what I felt when I saw her for the first time. Sora's old feelings. But when she told me her name, it were my own feelings. But how did she know?
Sora sighed. "I'm sorry I set you up with that idiot, really"
The next second she slammed him into the wall. "Ouch, Kairi, what was that for"
Kairi's eyes were open. And they weren't Kairi's, yet they were totally hers. Her eyes were dark blue, bright, but they were glowing in their rage. But they were still rounded by her thick, long eyelashes. They were still standing in the same beautiful face. Kairi's unconscious. And Sora made it mad.
"You know you've signed your own death, right?" Even her voice changed. It was higher, but the same pretty sound. It seemed impossible that I could fall more in love with her, but I could.
Both my hands landed on the glass as I tried to get myself as close to her as possible. She was hypnotizing me.
"Who are you?" Sora sounded truly frightened while I couldn't even bring myself to feel fear.
The girl in front of him smiled gently down at him. "I'm Kairi and I'm not her, like you could see perfectly"
"Then what are you?" Sora yelled at her.
"Kairi…" I begged her. Come back and stay with me. Don't make the distance longer. Turn around and stand beside me. Don't step any further toward him. Turn and come back.
Kairi froze and turned to me. The rage disappeared and it wasn't hard to read the emotions in her eyes. She loved me. Kairi and this girl. Both the same yet completely different.
"Kairi…" My hands pressed harder against the glass, hoping it would disappear under my touch.
She smiled at me and turned to Sora again, rage back in her eyes. "Hm… that's interesting, though I don't have the time to think about that"
Sora frowned, fear disappeared. "Fine then. What do you mean with 'you know you've signed your own death, right?'?"
The girl folded her arms. "Like I said, your only chance was to be… truly… sorry. And Kairi may be forgivable and stuff, but I'm not" She smiled again. "Kairi may be not violent at all, but… I am"
Sora snorted. "I won't say anything… but I bet you know what I'm thinking"
Ouch… I needed her. Stupid glass.
The girl smiled again. "Girls don't fight? You're right. I don't fight"
Suddendly there was a change. Everything went dark, except her eyes. They glowed in the dark.
Sora raised his brow and stared at the girl.
But I knew this was dangerous. The feelings inside me, the girl in front of Sora and Sora.
The feelings inside me were meant to make me crave Kairi so much that I wouldn't see what her unconscious could do. The girl in front of Sora was going to set things right for her conscious. The link was meant for one, not for two. The girl in front of Sora was going to set things right for her conscious, to remove the one which was unnecessary.
And Sora. Sora lost this battle. His stupid, selfish behavior made him end up here.
Dangerous.
When I realized all of this, my craving for Kairi became so worse I almost missed the scene in front of me.
The girl's hand raised to her chest and a ball of pure light appeared in her hand. Of course… the Princesses of Heart have pure hearts. Pure light. Dangerous.
"I don't fight," The girl repeated. "I destroy"
See, I was right.
Sora knew it too. He scoffed at the girl. "Well, good for you, missy, but I'm not here to look at you while you try. I don't fight either. I will destroy you"
Oh, try. I would love to see you try. But if you put your hands on Kairi, you're… you're…
It hit me again. "Hrngh" I tried to stand on my legs, which I couldn't find at all.
The girl smiled at Sora. "Sora... it was nice to speak to you at least"
She closed her eyes and the ball of light became bigger and bigger until it lightened the whole room.
And then the ball exploded.
-

"Roxas! Oh, please, Roxas!" Kairi's voice rang in my head.
I opened my eyes and blinked.
Kairi's eyes were violet again and they were worried.
"Kairi…?" My voice was hoarse. I quickly cleared my throat.
"Roxas! Is everything okay?" Her voice was back to normal as well.
"I'm fine…" I looked back at her, eyeing her curiously. "What about you?"
She frowned. "I don't know… I think I lost myself when Sora said something about you… and when I woke up, Sora was gone and you were unconscious and-"
That desire should've been forbidden by someone. My finger slid under her chin and pulled her close to me. My lips finally touched hers for a second.
But I knew that if I kept kissing her, she would kiss me back… and I didn't want to hurt her with my… feelings. They were sure stronger than her fragile, slim body. However she could be lethal if you made her absolutely mad. Which I wasn't going to try. However I still wondered why that girl knew so much about me… more than even I knew.
Kairi's eyes were closed and her lips were parted a bit. Then her eyes opened and she smiled at me.
"I love you" I told her, absolutely and completely sure of my words.
She sighed with content and nestled in my arms. "I love you too"
-

Two years later

"Axel!" Kairi folded her arms and she sighed. "What makes you think you can run off like that?"
Axel laughed at her. "I only take Roxas' orders, sorry milady"
I chuckled while watching their usual conversations.
When Sora disappeared into thin air- I never told her she killed him- Kairi and I went to Twilight Town to live there. Axel and Luxord joined us a year ago.
Naminé had disappeared too, but I had no idea where she went. Probably somewhere far away, to avoid something I had no idea of.
Axel snorted. "Sheesh, Kai, since when do I need to obey you?"
Kairi laughed at his statement. "Come on, really, why would you obey me? Just clean the freaking kitchen!"
Axel made a face. "I do see that as orders"
Kairi slapped her forehead. "Oh man…" She looked up and raised her brow. "Then obey them, Master of Flames"
Axel grumbled while stomping to the kitchen. He did listen to Kairi, but not the first instance she said something.
I patted on the spot beside me on the couch and Kairi sat down beside me.
"You know you're doing an excellent job keeping Axel busy, right?"
She grimaced. "It's a fulltime job, but," She flashed me a smile. "I think it's nice he does something at least"
My arm wrapped around her shoulders while she rested her cheek against my chest.
"Roxas?"
I looked at her, smiling at the innocence on her face. She hadn't killed Sora. She couldn't remember, there was no evidence. And I was too busy controlling my feelings at that moment to really see what happened.
No witnesses, no evidence, no memories.
Sora was just gone.
"Yeah?"
"What happened to Sora?"
I shook my head. "I have no idea, really" This would be the only thing I would lie about. To save her innocence. I could see the girl who killed Sora smile at me. 'Thank you', she mouthed. I smiled automatically. This was how fate pushed us around.
She smiled back at me. "Heh, I can't remember anything at all from that night, except I was... unnaturally mad at him"
I shrugged. "I don't remember much either" Except those feelings.
Kairi frowned, but relaxed. "It's weird that no one knows what happened to him… well, at least everything's okay now"
See what I meant with 'Saving Kairi's Innocence'-idea? Why would I hurt her if I can protect her as well?
"Ah, well, I think Sora can find his way everywhere, don't you think?" I added lightly. Keep it light.
Kairi chuckled. "I'm pretty sure he can find his way around wherever he is"
I tucked her under chin. "Hm… what about the new house you were trying to buy?"
She pulled back to look at me, surprised. "How do you know I was going to try to buy a new house?"
I grinned. "Axel"
Who came in at the precise moment.
"AXEL!"
He winced. "What did I do this time?"
Kairi wrung herself from my grip and threw a pillow at his head. "I told you to shut up about my plans!"
"Heh, well, Roxas found the paper and asked me, I just replied and- freaking hell! Don't look at me like that!"
Kairi shot him another death glare and I swore I could see some dark blue sparkle in her eyes.
But hey, since Axel is my best friend, I figured I could save him once, right?
Hm, I was probably wrong, because when I blinked, the dark blue was gone.
I wrapped my arms around Kairi and pulled her back against me. "I think you could give him some rest until tomorrow… I would've find out anyway"
She cocked her head to the side. "I… think you're right" She chuckled again and leaned back against me. Like she always did. Like she always would. I sighed with content and hugged her a little tighter.
Like I always did. Like I always would. Forever.
-

Kairi's point of view

When I woke up that day, when Sora had disappeared and Roxas was unconscious, I was scared I had created that situation. That it was me who made Sora disappear and Roxas unconscious.
But when Roxas woke up and he always told me he had no idea why Sora was gone.
Not that it mattered that Sora was gone. But sometimes, I had the feeling Roxas was asking things to explain something to himself. Pretty weird.
Like a couple of weeks ago.
Roxas asked me suddendly about Sora. I had no idea where he was leading the conversation, but he seemed really curious. He asked me about how things were before he went to fight Heartless.
And then, when I said he cared more about me back then instead of now, he asked me if I knew where those feelings from his side went.
I remember being stunned when he asked me that. How was I supposed to know? Okay, okay, I had my theories, or, better said, I had a theory, but it sounded ridiculous.
But Roxas' eyes were… curious, caring, comforting. Why not telling it? He wouldn't laugh at me.
That's when I told him I thought they went inside him when Sora made his choices and I said I thought Roxas' made his own. It was like I confirmed his thoughts, so I think he had the same idea.
-

It was almost incredible that two years ago, I was waiting for someone to come, someone who was supposed to love me, and that I found Roxas instead.
We laid in our bed, my head rested on Roxas' chest and his arm rested on my waist.
Axel was asleep in his own room and God knows where Luxord was.
He always came home at three in the morning, so we should seen him at breakfast again.
I sighed and closed my eyes.
When Sora told me Roxas would end up killing me with his explosive feelings, I froze. And then… nothing. Yeah, waking up without that bastard and Roxas unconscious.
Well, we're better off without Sora. Really.
The reason why Sora is stuck in my head is not because I miss him. But I have a feeling I'm the reason why he's gone.
But still… Roxas said I had nothing to do with it… so, then I could let it go, right?
Sleep was going to wash over me soon.
Wait! What if I'm the reason why Sora is gone? What if I'm going to find out what really happened?
I stared at Roxas' face. His face was calm, peaceful. If I had killed Sora or something in that direction, Roxas would be disgusted, right? He would never be with me if I had done something that worse.
I smiled slightly. No. Sora was gone, but not because of me.
And, when I told Roxas about what Sora said about 'killing me with his explosive feelings', he was a bit upset. In the sad way. He murmured something along the lines of 'not if I can control myself'.
Roxas never hurt me, not in the 'nearly' three years I've known him. And not in the coming thousand and two.
Roxas murmured my name and stretched himself out. I smiled at him, however he was still sleeping.
Yeah. When Roxas asked me to come with him, I hadn't hesitated for a moment.
Roxas was my whole life, the base where I was standing on, living on.
And nothing else matters.
It may have been his job to make me trust him, but Roxas is still the only one I trust, however his job has been over long and long ago.
So, trust me, nothing and nobody in this whole universe can separate Roxas and me.
-

The End