Did you miss me?IPOV:
Madame Pumphrey and Carlisle wanted me to say in the hospital wing for a wing but me being my stubborn self wouldn't have it. Harry, Ron, and Hermione have visited me every day, and Malfoy hasn't been checked in so I guess the boys have kept to their promise. I mean I know I want him to pay but their just being overprotective and it going to get them expelled.
The boys and Hermione are apparently in a fight because Harry's Firebolt was confiscated by McGonagall. Hermione was the one who told but can you blame her there was no note or anything. Ron was furious with Hermione. As far as he was concerned, the stripping-down of a brand- new Firebolt was nothing less than criminal damage
And you know my boyfriend and brother being the ass they are decided not to speak with her. She spends a lot of the time with Hagrid helping him with Buckbeak's case. Malfoy got away with hurting me to because there was "no eye witnesses" but everyone believed it was him. McGonagall was pissed about this whole ordeal and found away to give him detention for a month over nothing. Am not complaining.
I was allowed out finally, I hadn't missed any class due to the fact we were still on Christmas break. Classes started again the next day. The last thing anyone felt like doing was spending two hours on the grounds on a raw January morning, but Hagrid had provided a bonfire full of salamanders for our enjoyment, and we spent an unusually good lesson collecting dry wood and leaves to keep the fire blazing while the flame-loving lizards scampered up and down the crumbling, white-hot logs. The first Divination lesson of the new term was much less fun; Professor Trelawney was now teaching us palmistry, and she lost no time in informing Harry and myself that we had the shortest life line she had ever seen.
It was Defense Against the Dark Arts that we was been happy to get to; we wanted to get started on our anti-dementor lessons as soon as possible.
"Ah yes," said Lupin, when Harry reminded him of his promise at the end of class. "Let me see... how about eight o'clock on Thursday evening? The History of Magic classroom should be large enough... I'll have to think carefully about how we're going to do this... We can't bring a real dementor into the castle to practice on..."
"Still looks ill, doesn't he?" said Ron as we walked down the corridor, heading to dinner. "What d'you reckon's the matter with him?"
There was a loud and impatient "tuh" from behind us. It was Hermione, who had been sitting at the feet of a suit of armor, repacking her bag, which was so full of books it wouldn't close.
"And what are you tutting at us for?" said Ron irritably.
"Nothing," said Hermione in a lofty voice, heaving her bag back over her shoulder.
"Yes, you were," said Ron. "I said I wonder what's wrong with Lupin, and you -"
"Well, isn't it obvious?" said Hermione, with a look of maddening superiority.
"If you don't want to tell us, don't," snapped Ron.
"Fine," said Hermione haughtily, and she marched off.
"She doesn't know," said Ron, staring resentfully after Hermione. "She's just trying to get us to talk to her again."
I gave him a nice punch for that. "She was just doing the right thing Ronald. You would rather Harry die while he was on the broom?" I said while walking off to go meet up with her.
"They can be such asses." I said when I met up with her. She didn't say anything just nodded her head, she looked like she was on the verge of crying.
"Come on mione don't let him get to you." I said giving her a hug.
In no time at all in was eight o'clock on Thursday evening, we left Gryffindor Tower for the History of Magic classroom. It was dark and empty when we got there , but I lit the lamps with my wand and had waited only five minutes when Professor Lupin turned up, carrying a large packing case, which he heaved onto Professor Binn's desk.
"What's that?" said Harry.
"Another boggart," said Lupin, stripping off his cloak. "I've been combing the castle ever since Tuesday, and very luckily, I found this one lurking inside Mr. Filch's filing cabinet. It's the nearest we'll get to a real dementor. The boggart will turn into a dementor when he sees you, so we'll be able to practice on him. I can store him in my office when we're not using him; there's a cupboard under my desk he'll like."
"Okay," I said, trying to sound as though I wasn't apprehensive at all and merely glad that Lupin had found such a good substitute for a real dementor.
"So..." Professor Lupin had taken out his own wand, and indicated that we should do the same. "The spell I am going to try and teach you two is highly advanced magic, - well beyond ordinary Wizarding Level. It is called the Patronus Charm."
"How does it work?" said Harry nervously.
"Well, when it works correctly, It conjures up a Patronus," said Lupin, "which is a kind of anti- dementor - a guardian that acts as a shield between you and the dementor."
I had a sudden vision of myself crouching behind a Hagrid sized figure holding a large club. Professor Lupin continued, "The Patronus is a kind of positive force, a projection of the very things that the dementor feeds upon - hope, happiness, the desire to survive - but it cannot feel despair, as real humans can, so the dementors can't hurt it. But I must warn you, that the charm might be too advanced for you. Many qualified wizards have difficulty with it."
"What does a Patronus look like?" I asked curiously.
"Each one is unique to the wizard who conjures it."
"And how do you conjure it?"
"With an incantation, which will work only if you are concentrating, with all your might, on a single, very happy memory."
I thought about any happy memories I had. Certainly, nothing that had happened to me during my stay at Forks was going to do. Finally, I settled on the moment when I got home from Washington and hugged my mum.
"Got it," I said. I could see harry was having a hard time trying to find a memory or moment but he finally found one when he said "Right."
"The incantation is this -" Lupin cleared his throat. "Expecto patronum!"
"Expecto patronum. " Harry repeated under his breath
"Expecto patronum." I said
"Concentrating hard on your happy memory?"
"Oh - yeah -" said Harry, quickly forcing his thoughts back to his memory while I tried to do the same
"Expecto patrono - no, patronum - sorry – expecto patronum, expecto patronum" I could help but giggle a little bit. He shot me death glares which made me laugh even more. He finally cracked a smile and laughed to when something whooshed suddenly out of the end of his wand; it looked like a
wisp of silvery gas.
"Did you see that?" said Harry excitedly. "Something happened!"
"Very good," said Lupin, smiling. "Right, then - ready to try it on a dementor?"
"Yes," Harry said, gripping his wand very tightly, and moving into the middle of the deserted classroom. I tried to keep my mind on the hug, but something else kept intruding... Any second now, I might hear Harry's mother again...
Lupin grasped the lid of the packing case and pulled. A dementor rose slowly from the box, its hooded face turned toward Harry, who was going first one glistening, scabbed hand gripping its cloak. The lamps around the classroom flickered and went out. The dementor stepped from the box and started to sweep silently toward Harry, drawing a deep, rattling breath. A wave of piercing cold broke over him -
"Expecto patronum!" Harry yelled. "Expecto patronum! Expecto -"
Suddenly Harry fell to the ground me and Lupin rushed over trying to get him to come to.
"Harry!"
Harry jerked back to life. He was lying flat on his back on the floor.
The classroom lamps were alight again. He didn't have to ask what had happened.
"Sorry," he muttered, sitting up and feeling cold sweat trickling down behind his glasses.
"Are you all right?" I asked.
"Yes..." Harry pulled himself up on one of the desks and leaned against it.
"Here -" Lupin handed him a Chocolate Frog. "Eat this before Izzy try again. I didn't expect you to do it your first time; in fact, I would have been astounded if you had."
"It's getting worse," Harry muttered, biting off the Frog's head. "I could hear her louder that time - and him – Voldemort"
Lupin looked paler than usual.
"Harry, if you don't want to continue, I will more than understand -"
"I do!" said Harry fiercely, stuffing the rest of the Chocolate Frog into his mouth.
"I've got to! What if the dementors turn up at our match against Ravenclaw? I can't afford to fall off again. If we lose this game we've lost the Quidditch Cup!"
"All right then..." said Lupin."You might want to select 'other memory, a happy memory, I mean, to concentrate on... That one doesn't seem to have been strong enough..."
"Izzy why don' you give it a go? Ready?" said Lupin, gripping the box lid.
"Ready," I said; trying hard to fill my head with happy thoughts about my mum.
"Go!" said Lupin, pulling off the lid. The room went icily cold and dark once more. The dementor glided forward, drawing its breath; one rotting hand was extending toward me -
"Expecto patronum!" I yelled. "Expecto patronum! Expecto Pat -"
White fog obscured his senses... big, blurred shapes were moving around
him... then came a new voice, a man's voice, shouting, panicking -
"Lily, take them and go! It's him! Go! Run! I'll hold him off -"
The sounds of someone stumbling from a room - a door bursting open - a
cackle of high- pitched laughter –
Then it took another turn I heard another man "tell him to avenge you" it was James in the studio and suddenly I felt like I was being burned alive.
"Izzy..." Harry was rubbing my head gently when I opened my eyes.
"Are you okay? What happened?"
"Nothing am fine" I said stubbornly. What happened to me they didn't need to know.
Harry suddenly realized that there were tears on my face mingling with
the sweat. He bent his face as low as possible, wiping them off on his robe.
"You heard James?" said Lupin in a strange voice. How could he have known?
"what...?" Face dry, Harry looked up. "Why - you didn't know my dad, did you?" he asked Lupin.
Harry's dad? The other man! He was Harry's father who was named James as well.
"I - I did, as a matter of fact," said Lupin. "We were friends at Hogwarts. Listen, Izzy - perhaps we should leave it here for tonight. This charm is ridiculously advanced... I shouldn't have suggested putting you through this..."
"No!" I said and got up. "I'll have one more go! I'm not thinking of happy enough things, that's what it is... Hang on..."
I racked my brains. A really, really happy memory... one that he could turn into a good, strong Patronus...
"Why don't you and Harry try it together?" Lupin asked and we both nodded.
A really happy memory, when I looked at Harry I knew my moment that I was truly in bliss.
"Ready?" said Lupin. "Concentrating hard? All right - go!"
He pulled off the lid of the case for the third time, and the dementor rose out of it; the room fell cold and dark
'EXPECTO PATRONUM!" We bellowed. "EXPECTO PATRONUM!
EXPECTO PATRONUM!"
The screaming inside my head had started again - except this time,
it sounded as though it were coming from a badly tuned radio - softer
and louder and softer again – I could barely feel the burning it was just dull-and I could still see the dementor – it had halted - and then a huge, silver shadow came bursting out of the
End of our wands, to hover between us and the dementor, and though my legs felt like jello, I was still on his feet - though for how much longer, I wasn't sure -
"Riddikulus!" roared Lupin, springing forward.
There was a loud crack, and Harry's and my cloudy Patronus vanished along with the dementor; Harry sank into a chair and I sat on his lap, I was feeling as exhausted as if I'd just run a mile, and felt Harry's legs shaking under me. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Professor Lupin forcing the boggart back into the packing case with his wand; it had turned into a silvery orb again.
"Excellent!" Lupin said, striding over to where Harry sat. "Excellent,
You too! That was definitely a start!"
"Can we have another go? Just one more go?"
"Not now," said Lupin firmly. "You've had enough for one night. Here -"
He handed us a large bar of Honeydukes' best chocolate.
"Eat the lot, or Madam Pomfrey will be after my blood. Same time next week?"
"Okay," said Harry. He took a bite of the chocolate and watched Lupin extinguishing the lamps that had rekindled with the disappearance of the dementor..
"Professor Lupin?" he said. "If you knew my dad, you must've known
Sirius Black as well."
Lupin turned very quickly. And I almost chocked on my chocolate
"What gives you that idea?" he said sharply.
"Nothing - I mean, I just knew they were friends at Hogwarts too..."
Lupin's face relaxed.
"Yes, I knew him," he said shortly. "Or I thought I did. You'd better be off, it's getting late."
We left the classroom, walking along the corridor and around a corner, then took a detour behind a suit of armor and sank down on its plinth to finish my chocolate. Harry was right behind me, I felt exhausted but this chocolate was delicious.
"So you wanna talk about what happened back there when it was your turn?" he asked as he sat down.
"About?"
"Izzy" he said shaking his head. "You know what I mean, come on when you heard my dad? But that's not it is it?"
"You're very perceptive, why do you think we hear your parents anyway?" I questioned.
"Lupin mentioned something about the dementors making you relive your worst memories. What does this have to do with what happened?" Harry asked
"Well let's just say that the night we were almost killed wasn't my only worst memory. Can we just drop for now? Let's go to bed." I said and kissed his cheek.
Things we're never simple in my life though, just as we were getting up to leave who happened to have come out of McGonagall's office from detention. None other than Malfoy.
"How's the back?" He asked with cocky smile on his face.
I didn't even have time to make a comment when Harry attempted to grab him. But I was faster thank god, and pulled him back.
"Harry let it go." I said in a stern voice. He began to calm down when Malfoy interrupted.
"Can you say whipped."
This time I couldn't grab him.
Am soo sorry lovie!
It's been like 3 months and I know you probably hate me but my schools done in 11 days then regents but then am all yours for the summer
Xoxoxo
LIFESUXTHNUDIE