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Chapter 13
I look over at the back of Spock as he storms off towards the turbo lift while Bones pushes me in the other direction towards a different turbo lift. I bit my bottom lip, wishing I could run after him before I let him go all day thinking about this, but knowing Bones wasn't going to let me leave till I got a physical, I was stuck having fake hope that things wouldn't get worse. But like Scotty said, with my luck, the worst hasn't even started yet and since it was still early in the day, anything can and will happen before I could talk to Spock.
I know deep down he wasn't angry at me, but angry at his counterpart for grabbing my hand even though he knows what it means in their culture. I would react the same way if someone grabbed his hand even if they didn't know what it meant. When Bones and I arrive to the medical bay, he shoves me over to a bed and forces me to sit down by putting his hands on my shoulders then walks over to the other side of the room to the wall of torture medical items. "When was the last time you got an actual physical with real tests?" He asks me as I watch him gather a group of tools making me cringe in my seat before I look over at the door to see if I could make a run for it.
"When was the last time you got laid?" I mumble under my breath as he walks back over to me with a metal tray of fun things. "What was that? Stick a whole bunch of pointy things in you? Well if that's what you want." Bones says while holding up a very large needle making my eyes go wide as my entire face turns completely white in fear. "I didn't say that." I say quietly as I lean my body back away from the needle as he smirks in victory before placing the needle back on the tray. "So, can we have an actual conversation between two family members without insulting each other?" He finally asks me as I calm down from the needle and then takes off my red ensign shirt before I toss it on the floor. I raise my eye brow and make a suspicious look on my face as he starts to take blood from my left arm.
"Why the Hell would we do that? What are we queer?" I say making him glare up at me from my arm as he places a cotton ball on my vein while placing my vial of blood in a metal rack. "I'm serious, I know I'm going to regret saying this, but you, Jim and I just aren't as close as we use to be." He says making me chuckle then shakes me head at his question. "You should regret saying that, since when do we talk about our feelings? And it's not like we are all on different ships, we just have crazy shifts that never seem to match up." I say while placing my fingers on the cotton ball to put pressure on my arm.
"I know but still, when was the last time we all sat around, just the three of us and talked." Bones says while taking my blood pressure and other internal things as I just shrug my shoulders at him. "I'm sure we've done it, it's just not as much as back in the academy. It's not like we're replaced you or anything, there's only room in a group for one grump, pissed off doctor who secretly drinks himself under a table with Scotty." I say with a smile as I spill his little secret making him glare up at me again before slamming one of his tools on the tray.
Officers aren't really allowed to drink on the job, but sometimes Bones would sneak down to the engineer room with Scotty and drink some of his special drinks he's created. "Nobody is ever going to replace you; I wish you wouldn't think about that stuff." I say with a sad look on my face as I grab his hand before he could reach other item to get him to look me in the eye. "I promise…" I say making him shift in his spot before he takes his hand back and pushes me onto the bed.
"Lie still and try not to nag." he says while muttering under his breath, making me giggle slightly on the bed while still staring at him. "Told'a you were gonna regret talking about feelings.'' I say as I look up at the colorful graphs above my head before the computer starts to scan my entire body. Bone's walks over to my side with my chart in his hand and starts to write down the results on it, like there was anything wrong with me. I look up at him with a frown on my face, I want to talk to him about my problems with Spock, but I know f I told him he would freak the fuck out and probably kill him.
As I got dressed from all my scans, I waited for Bones to leave the room before walking over to the computer on the wall and pressed the speaker button. "Computer, locate Commander Spock." I say while looking over my shoulder to make sure no one was around to hear me, even though it would have just sounded like I was looking for the First Officer of a Starship, but I'm too stupid to think of that. "Commander Spock, Science Lab - level 5 - room 101." The computer says back to me, making me roll my eyes as I walk out of the medical bay towards the turbo lift at the end of the hall. Should have guessed that where he would be hiding, everyone else on the ship knows not to bother him when he is working on something about science and Jim is too distracted by Spock Prime to go looking for him.
I walk into the lift as the doors open up and hold the level 5 button while leaning to the side to make sure the doors didn't open on another level on the way there. I hate riding with other people or technically being around other people so I figured being shot in space wouldn't be that bad as it would staying on a planet full of people. Expect in space, I have no place to run off to unless I steal one of the shuttles, but that doesn't go very far and the limit on oxygen and power is limited on purpose.
I reach level 5 and walk past people towards the Science Office where I was guessing it would only be Spock in there since he was having trouble controlling his angry face, unless I'm the only one who notices his faces and what each of them mean. I stand outside the glass doors staring at his back debating if I should go in there and make things worse or just wait for him to come to me to talk like an adult. I shake my head at my stupid thoughts and walk into the office, him….talk like an adult about feelings, who the hell was I kidding. I stand in the doorway entrance as he stops typing for a second on the computer as he lifts his head then looks back down and starts typing again.
The silent treatment, boy was I about to ruin our relationship, I wasn't in the mood to play chicken with him to see which one could ignore the other longest. It usually ended with Jim making us talk without realizing we were fighting in the first place. There was a few ways I could play this, I could be the adult about this, I could get angry and make a scene, or play the guilt trip and make him ashamed for acting like this. Since he was still giving me the silent treatment, I'm going to go with option three cause that usually ends with option two anyway.
"You know I had a chance to be with him in the beginning, but I chose to wait for you to come around instead." I say with my arms crossed over my chest as I walk over to a computer to just stare at it as he turns and looks over at me. "He gave me the option to live on New Vulcan with him, they needed an engineer at the time and for some reason he always fancied me. I don't know why he did, but I thought about it his offer and even had my bags packed ready to go." I say running my finger over the screen of the computer as I hear him stand up from his computer and start to walk towards me. "I was having one last meal on the ship when you sat down across from me and ate with me, I don't know why but I thought maybe you were trying to get along with me. Then we sat there and actually had a conversation that didn't include insults and ego's."
I bite my lip now regretting going the emotion route and should have stuck with the angry route. "How could you even think for one second that I would be interested in him?" I say finally before turning around to face him as he visibly shifts in his spot with a small guilty look on his face. "I know it's logically not possible, but you guys really are two different people. Physically yes, DNA yes, but emotions, thoughts feelings, those are all completely different." I say to him while throwing my hands up in defeat before rubbing my eyes on the back of my hand.
"Look I get it, if I saw you holding some girls hand I would be pissed, I would slam that bitches face into the wall and smack that smirk off your face. But you have to trust me to not go after someone else, especially you from the future." Spock drops his gaze from my eyes to the ground as he shifts again while dropping his shields completely to me. "I get it, we both have trust issues and will always have them, but I'm only asking for a little bit." I say walking up to him before placing my hands on his chest while trying to get him to look at me.
I feel him tense up for a second as he straightens himself up again to put his shields back up. "I apologize, it was illogical of me to have those feelings of jealousy." he says to me, making me give a deadly glare to him before smacking him in the mouth, not hard enough to leave a mark but to make the point across. "You know how I feel about those 2 words in a sentence, illogical and feelings, especially pointed at me." I say taking my hands off his chest and giving him a light shove away from me as he rubs his left cheek then looks up at me.
"I told you I was an emotion human and that you didn't have to be with me if you couldn't handle." I say now entering option two, the anger option of the argument. "That is not what this is about." He says moving towards me while putting his hands out to grab mine; I pull out of his reach again while folding my hands behind my back. I don't play the game of sharing feelings through telepath, if he wants to show he does care, he does it without his mind.
"Then what is this about if not my illogical emotions to be hurt by your stupidity?" I say looking in a different direction as he drops his hands to his sides in a defeat then lets out a quiet sigh. "My counterpart should know the ways of the Vulcans." Spock says making me give him a sarcastic look, "No shit, him being Vulcan in all." I say getting more irritated by the minute making him now return my glare and irritation. "That is not what I meant; he should know the matter of touching ones….." He starts to say then stops mid sentence which catches my attention as I look back at him, waiting for him to finish.
"Significant Other." He says quietly while glancing around the room to make sure I was the only one to hear him. I drop my hands to my lap as my face changes from anger to confusion then starts to change a little to guilt. "Oh baby, come on, you know he didn't mean anything by that. He thinks me and Jim don't know a damn thing about your culture, that's why he tries things like this." I say walking up to him before wrapping my arms around his neck. "That's the most romantic thing you've ever said to me." I say in a stupid way as he raises his both eyebrows before slowly wrapping his arms around my waist.
"We seem to fight a lot, don't we?" I ask finally after a few minutes of silence before pulling back to look at him as his nods his head. "That would be correct." he says making me pout slightly with my bottom lip sticking out as his cheeks start to turn green while glancing around the room again. He looks back at my face then leans down and lightly kisses my lips before pulling away making my cheeks light up red while the tip of his ears start to green. I glance over at his ears then smiles at him before letting a slight giggle at his embarrassment.