Siberia…should I tell him the story or just make up a lie; should I expose myself like this? It is something that no one knows I hide it from the rest of the world.
"Natasha, are you okay? Please tell me what happened in Siberia."
"Ca-Can I tell you tomorrow?" I knew I didn't have the right words to use right then and there. I was just hoping he would not get mad that I didn't want to tell him.
"Of course just want to make sure you're okay." And of course he has to be the nice op making me the mean person, how wonderful.
Then he makes me feel even worse when he pulls me close to his body making sure I feel safe. Then on top of that he has to say sweet things and kiss me over and over again which I have to say I enjoy way too much. When did I become such a sap its super annoying…ugh!
Every time I stare into his eyes is almost like I want to be a better person or a better version of me. The saddest part is I have only known him for a little while now it's not like we even know each other that well. Maybe at least we should start learning things about each other so that it doesn't feel like we are complete strangers. Because I only know what his files said about him and vice versa and I know for a fact that most of mine is blacked out. My whole life has just been top secret, especially when you grow up in a place like the red room. How can you tell people the truth…that I am a monster, that anyone that meets me should just kill me to save themselves? But he is my soulmate; he and I were made to be perfect for each other.
"Steve…please don't hate me when I tell you the kind of person I am."
"Nat, I could never hate you, why would you even think I would?"
"I'm not a good person; I have done some unthinkable things in my past."
"Shh, I will never hate you, or judge the kind of person you were. How about we talk more about this tomorrow? After we both get some more sleep?"
I nodded my head and he gently kissed me, in the sweetest and softest way possible. He then held me in his arms; I felt safe for the first time in who knows how long. The weirdest part of all is how much I like it- no I love this feeling of being safe. I haven't felt this way sense I was around 5 years old, before the red room.
Flashback
"Ahh!"
I had a nightmare, it was that we were being attacked…it felt so real.
Next thing I know the door is being thrown open and my dad is standing there with a gun in his hands. "What's wrong Talia, are you okay, and is someone here?"
I shook my head as I sobbed, "Then what's wrong sweetheart?" he put the gun down as he came towards me.
"I-I h-had an n-nightmare it f-felt so r-real." I tried to get it out but it was hard to because I was crying so much.
He came and held me telling me everything was okay. "Darling what was the nightmare about?"
"W-we were being attacked a-and you were k-killed." At that point I completely broke down, I was sobbing and yelling.
"Shh, I'm still here Talia, everything I going to be okay. I will keep you safe and protect you from anything and everything."
"D-do you p-promise you will n-not leave m-me?"
"I will never leave you my child, this I promise."
That was when my mother came in; she is so beautiful.
"Is our little Natalia okay?" her face was scrunched up from worrying, the way only a mother could.
"She had a nightmare."
"She did, do you want mommy to tell you a lullaby?" I nodded my head waiting to hear her magical voice.
"Брат Иван! Эй!
Брат Иван! Эй!
Спишь ли ты?
Спишь ли ты?
Звонят в колокольчик,
Звонят в колокольчик,
Динь-динь-динь,
Динь-динь-динь."
(Brother Ivan! Hey!
Brother Ivan! Hey!
Are you asleep?
Are you asleep?
They ring the bell,
They ring the bell,
Ding-ding-ding,
Ding-ding-ding.)
Next thing I know I'm asleep not thinking of anything but my mother's heavenly voice.
Flashback ended
I rested my head on his chest as if it was a pillow. He was so warm it was like I had a thick blanket protecting me from the cold.
I woke up the next morning realizing that I hadn't woken up after he started holding me. It was some of the best sleep I have had since I was a child.
"Morning love." Leave it up to Steve to be up this early in the morning.
"Morning"
"How did you sleep, any more nightmares."
"Amazing once you started holding me." The smile that was on his face was so cute that next thing I know I'm kissing him.
He whispered into my lips, "I'm glad I could help; how about some breakfast?" My smile grew bigger as I pulled back slightly to rest my forehead on his.
"That sounds like a wonderful idea."
We walked into the kitchen to start cooking. I have a secret about cooking, everyone thinks that all I can do is seduce people and then kill them. But I can do a lot of things that a housewife can do like, cook, clean, take care of people ect.
"Babe I'll cook the fruit salad and drinks if you make the pancakes."
"Wonderful idea darling."
STEVES POV
I watched as she started chopping the fruits with ease, she was so graceful as she moved across the kitchen. The smile on her face was priceless; I wanted to draw it so that I could just see her smile like that forever.
When she smiled she got dimples on her cheeks. It made her look young and free, and all her features light up.
"You're so beautiful when you smile."
She blushed instantly when I said that and looked at me through her lashes.
"What?"
"You said my smile was beautiful."
"Of course it is, everything about you is beautiful." There it was again; the smile that would always melt my heart.
"Not everything Steve."
"That reminds me, you still have to tell me about what happened in Siberia." Her face looked like a teenager that had just been busted.
"Oh...you remembered." I just made a straight line with my lips and nodded. I didn't want to be pushy and make her feel like she had to do this or had to do that. But in reality I was worried about her; if something bad happened I want to know.
"Natasha, I just want to know something's about you."
She stared at me with a blank face making me think she wasn't going to share anything with me. Then she leaned into me and rested her head on my shoulder. I reached my arms around her waist and pulling her closer to me. I felt how cold she was, as cold as a winter morning.
"My real name is Natalia Alianovna Romanova. I love was born on November 22, 1934, and I am 81 years old. I was born in the former Stalingrad of Russia. My parents were killed when I was 5 years old on one winter night. That was the same night my twin brother and I were kidnaped, along with some of my best friends. Well they didn't actually get us that night. We all ran; as far as we could get from our burning houses, our burning parents."
She was shaking at this point, I couldn't figure out why maybe from the pain of remarrying things that took everything from her.
"You don't have to keep going if you don't want to." I kissed the top of her head as I held her against my chest. "I will tell you about Siberia, and then we should go. I was in Siberia when I was 13; I had been left there to die. I would have if I hadn't been in the red room for 8 years by that point. I survived on what I had learned in the red room. When the wolves tried to eat me alive one night I used the rocks and my strength to survive. That was one of the nights I learned that the world didn't care about me and if I lived or if I died. Waking up to something like that changes you; it's something I remember after how long I have been out of the red room. I've been out of the red room now for about 10 years, and over these last 10 years I have started to remember the things that I did and the things that happened to me while I was in the red room." All I could do was look at her with shock. How she could survive all of that; how she is 81 years old and is just now remembering things from her childhood. I complain that everyone I knew and loved are dead, that I slept through it. But at least I remember them it has taken her 10 years to remember how she was almost eaten by wolves.
"How about we eat our breakfast?" She asked taking me out of my thinking process. "Of course." I pulled out her chair as I set the food down so we could eat.
We sat there in silence as we are neither of us knowing what to say.
"Do you need to see some more movies to catch you up with the modern world?"
"What do you have in mind?"
"I was thinking we could watch the hunger games sequel. I'll explain it to you before we watch it so that you kind of know what's going on in this movie."
"Sounds great I'll clean up the kitchen if you work with the devil machines." I heard her snicker when I said that. But in my mind they are devil machines that only make my life more miserable.
"I was thinking we would go check on the team first then we could come back and watch the movie. Maybe go on a walk explore some. You've probably never had a Russian show you the real Russia."
"What does that mean?"
"You haven't ever seen the Russia that I have."
I smiled at her knowing not to argue about what we were going to do. So we both just got dressed and went to the team room.
"Hey y'all look who finally decided to join us." It came from tony just being his usual rude self. But what came next brought a smile to my face and absolute pride to my soulmate.
"Really Stark, cause as I remember you don't usually get up till noon with some random girl leaving your room." when Natasha said that his smirk left his face. "T-That has been a while."
"You mean sense you finally grew a pair and asked out pepper."
"I'm not liking this sass from you lil red!"
"Mm. Whatever, Steve and I are going to explore the city." And with that she grabbed my hand and pulled me into this black car. It was a lot smaller than the SUVs. When she started the engine it came to life.
"What kind of car is this?"
"A classic mustang."
"Who makes it?" I had ever heard of a mustang.
"It's American made, the other car I own is a corvette, also America made." I couldn't stop the big smile that came to my face, this is definitely my soulmate.
"That's my girl." That beautiful smile of hers only made me happier. It made her look younger and more relaxed. Everything about her was perfect, and the more time I spent with her the happier I was.
"So where to first?"
"A old Russian bakery, one that my parents used to take me to when I was a child."
"Sounds nice, so how exactly did your cars get to Russia if you live in America?"
"I had them flown over for my mission, but then it went south and here we are."
"Okay, so what is your favorite thing to get there?"
"Oh so many, I have a sweet tooth. So we can try a little of everything." I chuckled at that, not many people I know would do that.
"I know I can eat that much food but I don't know if you can Nat."
"Ah, you under estimate me Steven."
"Mmh, is that true. Then I guess it's a challenge."
"Oh yes baby it is." This girl was amazing, and confident with a side of cocky.
"I guess we will see darling." She had this smirk on her face that that was saying she could handle anything.
We arrived there after a little bit of trash talking coming from both sides.
We literally ordered everything, and took it back to the car in a lot of boxes. We probably had a least 12 of them; I ended up carting most of them because of how small she was. She took us to this secluded park that was absolutely beautiful. We sat at one of the many benches; we both put down the boxes and begin eating. After about 15 minutes of eating everything was gone.
"Wow Nat you weren't joking when you said you could eat a lot."
"I'm not one for joking Steven."
"Really? I find that hard to believe."
"Whatever Steve, we still have lots of things to do." So off she was heading back to the car, I hoped up jogging to catch up to her. When I did I thought I would mess with her a little more. So I came up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist from behind them picked her up off her feet. She squealed in surprise.
"Steve! Put me down!"
"Not a chance!" She wiggled trying to get free from my grip. She was a lot stinger than she looked but I still held tight to her.
After a lot of sight-seeing she finally pulled up to a lake that looked amazing especially with the sun setting like this.
"This place looks amazing Nat."
"I know." She pulled up and then got out of the car walking near the edge where this swing was. I sat on it and then she sat on my lap, and kissed my jaw. I didn't know what to do so I stiffened. That was when she just kissed me hard on the lips. After a little devouring of each other's lips and lips fighting we both pulled away to breathe.
We sat there just enjoying each other and the amazing view. After a little while longer the sun was gone and it was too cold to stay so we headed back to the car and left.
"So what now?"
"We watch a movie."
"Yeah what movie?"
"The sequel to that movie I showed you last night."
"Can you tell me about that one too?"
"Sure. After winning the 74th Hunger Games, Katniss Everdeen and Peeta Mellark return home to District 12 where Katniss begins to suffer from PTSD. President Snow visits Katniss at her home. The two make an agreement to not lie to one another, and Snow explains that her actions in the Games have inspired rebellions across the districts. He orders her to use the upcoming victory tour to convince everyone her actions were out of genuine love for Peeta, not defiance against the Capitol. As the tour begins, Haymitch Abernathy, mentor to Katniss and Peeta, warns them that the "show" of their relationship must continue for the rest of their lives. Katniss suggests a public engagement between herself and Peeta, which is carried out and congratulated by Snow at his mansion in the Capitol. Returning home, Katniss warns her friend Gale Hawthorne of Snow's threat to kill both their families. Peacekeepers crack down on District 12 and Gale is publicly whipped after attacking new Head Peacekeeper Romulus Thread. Snow announces that the upcoming 75th Hunger Games, the Third Quarter Quell, will feature tributes selected from previous victors. Katniss immediately devotes herself to ensuring Peeta survives, recruiting Haymitch's help to do so. At the reaping, Effie Trinket draws Katniss and Haymitch's names, but Peeta immediately volunteers to take Haymitch's place. As they prepare, Haymitch reveals that all the tributes are angry at being returned to the Games and advises a reluctant Katniss to make allies. In the pre-Games interviews, Katniss wears her wedding dress, as ordered by President Snow, but her stylist Cinna rigs it to transform into a representation of a mockingjay. Peeta announces that they are expecting a baby which causes outrage and the audience of Capitol citizens to begin shouting for the Games to be stopped, to no avail. Just before Katniss enters the arena, Cinna is severely beaten by Peacekeepers as punishment for the dress and dragged away as Katniss watches helplessly. In the Games, Katniss allies with Finnick Odair and the elderly Mags, from District 4. The arena's outer forcefield shocks Peeta, stopping his heartbeat until Finnick revives him. The group flees a poisonous fog, and Mags sacrifices herself so as to avoid slowing them down. When vicious mandrills attack, Peeta is saved by the unexpected sacrifice of a tribute from District 6. The group escapes to a beach and meets District 3's Wiress and Beetee, and District 7's Johanna Mason. Wiress discovers the arena is designed like a clock with regular hazards each hour, but is killed soon after in a battle, while Katniss and Johanna kill Cashmere and Gloss, the brother and sister tributes from District 1. Beetee suggests using one of the hazards, a tree that is struck by lightning every 12 hours, and a coil of wire to electrocute the other remaining tributes. The group separates to prepare the trap, but once alone Johanna suddenly hits Katniss over the head, stunning her, and discreetly cuts the tracker from her arm. Katniss returns to the tree and finds an unconscious Beetee with the wire from the tree attached to a makeshift spear. Unable to find Peeta, Katniss almost attacks Finnick, but Finnick reminds her to remember "who the real enemy is", as Haymitch had advised her prior to the Games. Katniss attaches the remaining wire to an arrow and shoots it into the arena forcefield as the lightning hits, causing a power failure that takes down the dome's forcefield as well as the Capitol's surveillance. Katniss awakens in an aircraft to find Haymitch, Beetee, Finnick, and Plutarch Heavensbee, the head Gamemaker, who is revealed to be a rebel against Snow. He tells her they are bound for District 13, headquarters of the new rebellion, and that half the tributes were aware of the plan to escape with Katniss, as a symbol for the growing rebellion. They were unable to rescue Peeta and Johanna, who were taken by the Capitol. A distraught Katniss is sedated after attacking Haymitch. She later awakens to find Gale by her side, who reassures that her family is safe but also tells her that District 12 has been destroyed by the Capitol."
"That sounds like it will be another good movie. But who plays Katniss?"
"Jennifer Lawrence. She is a 24 year old actress from Kentucky."
"She sounds young to be an actress."
"Well not really, most people want to start their careers at younger ages these days. Because you don't want to keep hoping from job to job, you want to find a solid career that can last for a really long time. You have to remember times have changed a lot sense you were around."
"Okay, so what is this thing I keep hearing about, the internet?" for a moment I forget that he is so out of time, I may or may not have looked at him like he lost his mind.
"Oh sorry I forgot for a second how old you were, grandpa."
"Oh don't even start cause I may have to call you grandma, don't forget that your 81 years old. Or is your memory just that bad with your old age?"
"You know it's not gentlemanly like to talk about a women's age?"
"No, guess my memory is just bad sense I'm a grandpa."
"Whatever, old man! Anyway the internet is a way we look things up, like how I have been using it to give you accurate information on the movies we are watching."
"That seems pretty simple."
"Yeah like here is the plot for the last movie of the hunger games series. Katniss, her sister Prim, and her friends Finnick and Gale all reluctantly adjust to a highly structured life in the underground District 13, which has been spearheading the rebellion in Panem. Feeling manipulated, Katniss eventually agrees to act as "the Mockingjay"—a poster child for the rebellion—but only on the condition that District 13's President Alma Coin vows to grant immunity to all of the past Hunger Games tributes, including Katniss's friend Peeta Mellark and Finnick's lover Annie Cresta, and to reserve for Katniss the right to personally kill Panem's President Snow once he is captured. Katniss and the rebels learn that Peeta is alive and is being tortured at the Capitol in an attempt to demoralize and control Katniss. When a rescue team succeeds in extracting him, they discover that Peeta has been "hijacked"—a brutal form of brainwashing involving the use of Tracker Jacker venom that induces extreme fear. Peeta has been programmed to hate and fear Katniss. After he attempts to kill her, he is kept restrained under heavy guard at all times as the rebel medics seek a way to restore him to sanity. A controversial strategy proposed by Gale wins a decisive victory at District 2, readying the rebels to launch a final campaign against the Capitol itself. Katniss and her propo team (a film crew recording her squad for rebel propaganda) are deployed on a trivial assignment to the Capitol. President Coin has sent Peeta along on the mission even though he is still dangerous and unpredictable. Katniss believes Coin wants her dead because she is difficult to control. While filming in a purportedly safe Capitol neighborhood, the team's commander, Boggs, is killed. Subsequently, during intense urban warfare that involves Hunger Games-like monsters, most of Katniss' team mates, including Finnick, are killed. Katniss presses on alone towards President Snow's mansion. As Katniss reaches the mansion, a hoverplane drops parachutes carrying bombs that explode among a group of trapped children. The rebel medics (including Katniss' sister Prim) rush in to help the injured children but in a deliberately inhumane strategy, a second wave of firebombs explodes, taking out the medics. Prim is killed and Katniss sustains severe burns, but the rebels succeed in taking the Capitol. During her recuperation, Katniss becomes deeply depressed over her sister's death and confronts prisoner Snow. Snow claims that Coin orchestrated the bombing that resulted in Prim's death, persuasively arguing that Coin made it appear to be Snow's work in order to turn his supporters against him. Katniss realizes in horror that the strategy used to kill the medics had been developed earlier by Gale. When Katniss confronts Gale about his possible involvement, he merely expresses uncertainty. Katniss becomes convinced that rather than establishing a republic governed by representatives from each of the districts, Coin intends to assume Snow's power and maintain the status quo. On the day Snow is to be executed, President Coin asks the remaining Hunger Games victors to vote on punishing the Capitol just as the Capitol punished the Districts: by holding a final Hunger Games that will target the children of the Capitol's leaders. Katniss silently reflects that this is exactly the same evil the Capitol committed when the last rebellion failed. Then, she votes "yes—for Prim." Haymitch is the only one who understands her hidden meaning. They proceed to the execution, where Katniss is to shoot Snow. As she readies her bow, Snow flashes her one last smile, reminding her of his promise to always be truthful to her. Katniss silently agrees and, making her decision, she raises her bow and shoots Coin instead, killing her. Katniss immediately attempts suicide, but Peeta stops her and she is arrested during the ensuing riot. After the riot, Snow is found dead. Katniss is ultimately acquitted of Coin's murder by reason of insanity, and she is relocated to the ruins of her home in District 12. Months later, Peeta and some other District 12 natives also return there. Peeta has gradually recovered the memories of his love for Katniss. Katniss embraces her love for Peeta, recognizing her need for his hope and strength. Together, they write a book in order to preserve the memory of those who died. Peeta still suffers flashbacks from his hijacking and Katniss still wakes up screaming from nightmares. By helping overthrow Snow and assassinating Coin, Katniss has preserved the possibility of Panem transitioning to a representative form of government, but at a tremendous personal cost. In the epilogue set 20 years later, Katniss and Peeta have two children. The Hunger Games are over for good, and the children represent hope that future generations will benefit from the sacrifices of their parents. Katniss dreads the day her children learn about their parents' involvement in both the Games and the war. When she feels distressed, Katniss plays a comforting but repetitive game: reminding herself of every good thing she has ever seen someone do. The series ends with Katniss' somber reflection that "There are much worse games to play."
"So who wrote these books anyways?" I was still shocked at how little he knew about this century, I actually feel bad. In a way it's almost like trying to teach a child. Net thing I know I'm going to be giving him the sex talk and other things.
"Suzanne Collins, she is an amazing writer."
"Sounds like it." I was about to ask him if we wanted to make popcorn for the movie but before I could say anything Steve was right in front of me. He then put his soft lips on mine and his hands on my waist. "I want to show you how grateful I am for you catching me up in this new world." Before I could say anything else I was being pushed down on to the couch. Who knew that captain America was into the whole making out with each other thing? Actually I do know that you mention it. We were both kissing each other as if our lives depended on it, and we had no other though in mind at that moment then the taste of each other's mouths.
Authors Note: I am so, so, so sorry at how long it took me to update! My life has been so crazy lately that I haven't been able to do anything I want to. Lucky I only have two more days of exams which means two more days of school! Yay, and if anyone else is finishing school y'all will understand. Hopefully with this school year almost over I will be able to update a lot more frequently.
Please, please, please write reviews! I read every single one of them and try to do my best to do what they say! I need these reviews so I can know what to do to make this story better! Also they will help me know what I should do with this story. Like what should I do to help catch Steve up in this modern world.