Guardian Angel
Chapter 13

The car ride home was silent. The only thing shared between them was an occasional glance. Each time they met eye-to-eye Haruka smiled, causing his younger friend to blush and turn away.

"So tell me what's bothering you." Haruka finally asked when they pulled into his garage. "You haven't said a word to me since we left Goro's office."

"I'm fine, I swear I'm fine." She quickly lied before going inside. She took a deep breath as she allowed her body to relax against the closed door of her room. How could she tell her friend of feelings she had almost eight years ago?"

"Hey Michiru. Can I ask you something?" The violinist pulled her bow away from the strings to look at her blonde friend.

"Sure, you know you can ask me anything."

"Would you like to go out and have dinner with me some night?"

Michiru blushed and diverted her eyes. She wanted nothing more than to tell her yes. The only thing she could think about at that time was her career. "You asked me that before Haruka…" She hesitated. She knew that they would easily pass as a straight couple. Yet, what if people found out though? Her career would be ruined. "I'm flattered, I truly am, but I can't accept that invitation."

'Had I only told him yes. We'd be together now and happy. I have to tell him…' She allowed herself to sigh before standing up and leaving her room. Her hands shook as she made her way to the garage to find Haruka. "Can I talk to you?"

"Yea, of course. What's on your mind?" he stepped closer to her.

"Remember when you asked me to dinner?"

He tilted his head. "Vaguely. It was a long time ago." His eyes met with hers, as if he were trying to read into her heart to figure out where she was going with her question.

"Are those feelings still there?"

He diverted his eyes to hide the blush on his cheeks. "I'm not sure…"

"I need to know." Her voice was barely above a whisper before she snaked her arms around the blonde's neck and pulled him close enough to kiss him. All of her nervousness was washed away as she allowed herself to lean against the larger man.

Haruka felt a chill go down his spine, quickly relaxing in the kiss. He than thought twice about what he was doing and pulled himself away from Michiru. "Michi, you're still technically married to him. I can't do this. Not while you've still got that ring on your finger."

"I'm sorry Ruka, I just needed to know what I was feeling. Please don't be made at me." She allowed her arms to remain around Haruka's neck.

"No, I'm not mad at you. How could I be mad at you for doing what I've wanted to do since I first saw you? It just doesn't feel right, not now anyway…"

"I was thinking about that too." She rested her head on his shoulder. "I'm filing for a divorce. I know that I won't have any problems getting it. After its final…" She hesitated while looking into Haruka's eyes. "…I mean, if the offer still stands. I'd love to go to dinner with you."

"Of course the offer still stands." He looked down at the tiled floor as if searching for his next words. "I'm not entirely male…Not yet anyway…When I'm able to get the money together I'll be able to fly to Canada to meet with a doctor…"

"Well, at least you don't have to go alone anymore. I'll gladly go with you. I want to learn more about you Haruka. More about the actual you. I know you from before, but…" She sighed. "I don't know anything about the real you."

Haruka could only smile. He had never met anybody so willing to learn about him. The moment was ruined; however, when Haruka's cell phone alarm started ringing. He jumped and quickly brought an end to the noise. "Come with me."

"What's that alarm for?"

"It's time for my medicine." He laced his fingers with Michiru's as they made their way to the bathroom. When they entered the room he released his grip and pulled a fresh needle from his box. The entire time Michiru's eyes never left him. "This is my testosterone." He said after he pulled a small vial from the medicine cabinet. "I have to take it once every two weeks…sit down." She did as she was requested, intently watching Haruka as he filled the syringe with the thick, gel-like liquid. "Would you like to do it?" He chuckled when she quickly shook her head. "I promise it's not that hard." He unbuckled his belt and allowed his pants to fall to his knees. After taking Michiru's hand, he placed it on his thigh. "Do you feel the muscle?"

She nodded. "Yes, it's right here." She gave it a little squeeze.

"Well that's where the needle goes. Watch." He pressed the needle into his skin. It had gotten to the point where he didn't feel it anymore. Michiru, on the other hand, flinched and looked away. "You're never going to learn if you don't watch Michi." He smiled at her blush.

"But doesn't that hurt you?" she forced herself to look back at him.

"No, I've been doing this so long that I don't feel it anymore. Now…after you've got the needle in you need to draw back on the plunger."

"Why?" She spoke, now suddenly intrigued.

"You have to check for blood. If there's blood you have to pull it out and start again. It means you hit a vein if you draw in blood. If it goes into my bloodstream, it could kill me." He smiled before pressing the plunger to finish the injection. "See, no blood." He pulled the needle from his leg and disposed of it in his medical sharps container, then pulled his pants up.

"Are you sure that didn't hurt you Haruka?"

He chuckled. "Yes, I'm sure it doesn't hurt. The first few shots did, but not anymore thought. My body's used to it." He offered his hand to her. "Let's go eat, I'm hungry."

Don't yell at me if the facts about the Testosterone injects aren't 100% true...they're close enough for my liking...Please review *cries* I feel like a horrid writer when nobody reviews :'(