I woke around ten to see a text from Edward.

Edward: Come over whenever

A bit of my excitement from last night became worry, ridiculous worry.

What if he was a murderer? Impossible he wouldn't be here.

What if he assisted in a murder? Edward wouldn't do either.

See? Ridiculous worry that really had nothing to do with anything Alice told me yesterday.

All I knew was that no matter what Edward did I would always love him. Yes, you read that correctly, love. I love Edward. Whether he felt the same or not I was going to tell him…sooner or later.

I ate my breakfast, took a shower, got dressed, and then headed over to Edwards. When I pulled up I didn't see any evidence they were home. They always had at least one car out front. The lights in the house were on. Maybe I should have told him I was coming…

I pulled out my phone and dialed Edward's number.

"Hello?" his velvet voice picked up.

"Are you home?" I asked, still looking for any sign that he could be.

"Yeah. Actually I'm home alone."

"Where did everyone else go?"

"Esme and Carlisle went on a brunch date and Alice dragged Rose, Jasper, and Emmett to the mall."

"Oh, your house looks like no one is there. All the lights are off."

"Trying to save the planet." He chuckled.

"Couldn't you have left one light on so I knew you were home?"

"If I had done that I would've been denied this wonderful phone call." I could hear the smile in his voice.

"Whatever you say." I mumbled, he chuckled.

"So when do I get to see you in person?" He asked.

"Never, I moved to Germany, I wanted to try out a long distance relationship." I teased.

"Oh really? How's that working for you?"

"Not too good."

"Oh, why?"

"Because I can't see your handsome face," he laughed lightly at me, "I can't kiss you, or run my hands through your hair, and I can't look into your beautiful green eyes." I told him, basically saying all the physical things I liked about him.

"Those are the only reason?" He asked as if he knew I had more.

"Well duh."

"So you don't care about my wonderful sense of humor? Or my brains? My fantastic personality?"

"Don't get cocky, those are just icing on the cake."

"Isn't it usually the other way around? Good looking is the icing on the cake?" he chuckled.

"Usually."

"Bella, come inside. This is weird, talking to you on the phone when you are just in my drive way."

"Fine. I'll be in, in a sec." He hung up and I got out and walked to the door in the drizzling rain. I stepped into the darkness and walked up the stairs to his room, the only lit room in the house. He was just sitting on his bed, looking at the door, smiling at me as I walked to sit next to him. He put his arm around me and I leaned into him, filling my nose with his delicious scent, and kissed the top of my head before he spoke.

"Why do you want to know?" I could feel his chin moving on the top of my head as he spoke.

"I want to know what makes you so mad about…Tanya coming with her family to visit." I told him honestly.

He stared off into the distance for a bit before he spoke.

"Our families have been friends since…well…since forever. We did everything together and Tanya and I grew close, closer than any of the other kids did. I guess it started when we were around 15 that we actually started liking each other. Everyone told us they knew that we would be together, that we were bound to be together. We were very serious about each other, or so it seemed." He ran a hand through hi hair and shook his head, taking a very deep breath.

"We did everything together and when my parents told me that our family was moving…it hurt to think of leaving her behind, to have a long distance relationship."

They seemed to have a great relationship, of course what do I know? I have little to no relationship experience.

"My parents could see the hurt and we made a deal. As long as I called and talked to them I could stay and live with my grandparents, simple. It seemed perfect. Though Alice was mad and wouldn't talk to me or recognize my existence. She thought it was unfair that she had to leave everything and I got to stay 'cause of my girlfriend."

That might be why I was never told about Edward….

"Everything seemed perfect. At the time, the prefect girlfriend, until last year. We were just in her room, kissing ,and then it got taken too far," he pinched the bridge of his nose, taking in deep breaths through clenched teeth, "I don't know why my grandparents didn't call or something when I didn't come home that night. For the rest of the relationship Tanya seemed only interested in a physical relationship, which I wouldn't give her. She seemed…fine I guess you could say, that is until I caught her sleeping with another guys. She told me that since I wouldn't give her what she wanted, she wanted a guy who would."

"Caught?" I asked, "As in, you saw them…?"

He chuckled darkly, giving me a disgusted face.

"Ew." I muttered. "But how did you catch them?"

"We had made plans a few weeks prior because that day was our three year anniversary. I went up to her room and…well…there they were…"

"Oh…I'm sorry." I whispered giving him a kiss on his cheek.

"Don't worry about it, she wasn't any good anyway.

"A couple of weeks after the incident she came to me begging me to take her back, that she needed me. I asked her why she would think that I would ever go back to her and she said…she, she said that she was…pregnant and then told me crap about how she knew that the baby was definitely mine…" he trailed off. He was staring at the wall; I could see his eyes watering at the memory.

"Edward…" I definitely wasn't expecting this to be the reason.

He got up from the bed and started pacing in circles, running his hands through his hair.

"Bella can you believe that I had actually believed the crap she told me? That I though that…tramp could be telling the truth? I have to admit, I was a little excited. I mean who wouldn't be, even though it was bad for her to be having it in high school? I…I can't believe it… I'm so stupid…" he took a book off the shelf and hit it against his forehead, a childish move. I walked over to him and took the book before he could do it again.

"Hitting yourself with a book wont do anything." I told him as I set the book back.

"Bella, I had been willing to throw my whole life away! Tanya seemed to enjoy it; we went back to how we were before, for a couple weeks, before I got my brain back. I wanted to make sure she was actually having a baby and not just lying to me. She told me she had already gone to the doctors, but I wanted to make sure. The doctor said something along the lines of 'just like the last test Ms. Tanya, this one is negative. You're not pregnant.' Ha ha Tanya wasn't expecting the doctor to say exactly that, she looked like she was a deer caught in headlights. She knew she was in for it, but I was too sick of her to even really care about or talk to her. I dropped her off at her house, told her we were through and I didn't want anything to do with her, and then drove off.

"I called my parents and told them Tanya and I had broken up, decided that we were better off just being friends. My mom suggested coming down to Forks incase the break-up was or got worse, whatever that meant. I knew she wanted me here and apparently the break-up gave her and excuse to get me. I told her I could stick it out until next summer and I could, until all the girls I dated started wanting one thing from me and everyone gave m apologetic-slash-disgusted looks. I couldn't stand it, Tanya had blabbed her mouth and apparently the whole town knew the story, or at least the story Tanya told them.

"I called my parents and told them that I wanted to see them and they welcomed me with open arms, along with my siblings and their friends." He took my hand, bringing it up to his lips and kissed it softly, smiling his crooked smile. "Some a little more welcoming than others." I laughed quietly, moving to wrap my arms around him; he did likewise, kissing the top of my head.

"Edward…I hope you don't think I'm anything like Tanya 'cause-"

"I know you're nothing like her. Why else do you think I asked you out after only knowing you for two weeks?" he cut me off.

I looked up into his eyes, burning with…love. I knew he loved me, even though he never said it. I knew it because he trusted this with me, when he couldn't even tell his parents.

He bent down and kissed me, gently, as if he thought I might disappear now that I knew about his past with Tanya. How absurd. The kiss was sweet, but ended too quickly. When he pulled away I knew I had to say it.

"Edward…I…I love you." I told him as confidently as I could, considering how nervous I was.

He kissed me again and then stared at me.

"Bella, I'm sorry."

And my heart stopped.

A/N:

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