Even When You Didn't

Chapter Thirteen: Faith

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter.

-l-Remus-l-

I whipped around, when I heard a shout.

James had been standing up so that he could take the second potion when suddenly he went limp, slumping to the ground and lay on the floor turning deadly pale. If that wasn't enough he started screaming, a pained, anguished scream that rose and then fell.

Sirius and Lily went to their knees, trying to help James, Lily was shaking him, calling his name. Next to her, Sirius was trying to sit his friend up.

I tried to leap up and help them, but I was still weak and my legs gave out, and suddenly my own vision spun and went black.

-l-Lily-l-

"Remus!" I shouted, running to catch him before he hit his head on the floor.

Sirius turned around, and I saw for the first time; fear that actually burned in his gray eyes. And I understood. This was his family, this was who he was.

I heard James give another cry, this one shook me to my core. I motioned to Sirius, and together we put Remus back into his bed. I heard a girly scream, and Sirius turned to me, but I shook my head, and turned around.

"Madame Pomfrey! Do something!" I shouted.

She stood, where she had been measuring a dose of the white liquid, her eyes wide with shock. At my voice, she snapped out of it and started to levitate James back.

I ran over to where she kept the potions. I looked through the shelves of blue, looking for the clear, bright shining blue potion. I found it and grabbed it, uncorking it I grabbed her spoon.

Pouring out the thick mixture I went over to Remus first, handing Sirius the spoon. "Make him take it."

I took another spoon, measuring out a rounded spoonful, I went over to James, and looked to see if Sirius was able to make Remus take his medicine.

I rolled my eyes, he was watching to see if I knew. I opened James's mouth, and force fed him the potion. I looked to see if Sirius had gotten it.

He looked confused, trying to get the spoon in Remus's mouth.

I sighed, and laughed.

"You do it!" he whined.

I did the same to Remus as I had to James.

Then I bit my lip. "Sirius do you know if-if ancromantula venom reacts badly with-unicorn horn and gillyweed?" I asked tentatively.

He shrugged, " Lily, you're the potions master!"

I chewed my lip. " Madame Pomfrey would have done the same. Given them a health strengthening potion. But- I think venom goes badly with gillyweed. Unicorn horn and gillyweed, well the gillywater in it erm calms the poisonous effects of unicorn and hellbore. I think if the venom mixes with the hellbore and unicorn, James could die faster than if he was just bitten with ancromantula venom."

" WHAT?" Sirius shouted.

I turned away, not wanting to face him. " I can mix an antidote," I replied finally, conjuring up my cauldron and potions ingredients.

I sat down, calmly setting the cauldron up.

I pulled out parchment, writing down unicorn and hellbore? Then I wrote down the other ingredients in a Health Potion.

I studied it for a while, and then started to examine my potions book.

I looked up to see Sirius watching me, not speaking or talking at all. Peter had fallen silent after his screaming.

Stewed Mandrake, that would help to revive them.

Mint Sprigs, that would probably add a touch of flavor, and it would also help with the mixed syrup of hellbore and unicorn horn.

I picked up a bottle of Honeywater and began to unscrew it.

"Wait! What is that?" Sirius asked gesturing to the honeywater.

"Honeywater, when mixed with Stewed Mandrake, it should help cure James."

I poured in some honeywater. Then I began to stir it, adding some chopped shrivelfig.

"It's shrivelfig," I answered before Sirius could ask.

I added the mint sprigs, and some ginger root.

"Almost done," I said.

"Can you get me some of the extracted venom?" I asked.

Peter jumped up to get it.

Sirius narrowed his eyes. "What do you need it for? A test?"

I shook my head. "No." I didn't say what it was for.

Sirius relaxed, that is until I added it to the potion.

"You can't give James that!" he said.

I rolled my eyes. "And why can't I?"

" You just put that venom in it!" he said pointing to the potion that I was now pouring into a cup.

I sighed. "I had to. It will reverse the effects of the shivelfig and ginger root. If I didn't add it, then James could also get worse. It doesn't kill to drink the venom in a potion. Ancromantula venom is actually used to help people with illnesses Sirius, just trust me," I said walking over to where James was and pulling out a spoon.

Sirius grabbed his wand, holding it threateningly at me.

"If you give him one drop of that concoction I will curse you," he said.

Peter stood up too, holding out his wand.

I held my ground. "If I don't give it to him he will die."

"I will curse you if you give him that," Sirius repeated.

I walked over, tilting James's head back and pouring it down his throat.

I turned to face the last two Marauders. "Go ahead, curse me. Do what you want. I won't do anything to stop you, but I just saved his life," I said, grabbing my potions bag, and conjuring the rest of my stuff to levitate after me. I saw a blazing white flash hit the railing, and it exploded. I turned to see Sirius, wand drawn.

"I saved his life!" I shouted at him angrily.

He looked fully ready to curse me to death. "Why should't I?"

"Because you aren't Regulus. You aren't Snape. You aren't like Mulcibier, Dovloh, Bellatrix, Lucius, you aren't like any of them Sirius. You have an honest heart, not like them. I just saved your family, your true family. I don't believe that family has to be blood, it can be what you make it. I know that you aren't them. I have never heard you call anyone a Mudblood, I haven't even heard you pride yourself in being a Pureblood. So don't change now," I said, turning and walking away.