A.N: please, please review. I could do with the criticism. I own nothing of Charmed, Doctor Who or Buffy and some speech has been used from the Charmed episode My Three Witches

A few days later I was at P3, working on inventory. Chris was in his/store room working on some sort of potion or something. I was just finishing up when I felt a magical presence so turned my head around to see what it was, just in time to see an energy ball hurtle towards me. I tried to move out of the way but I got hit in on the shoulder making me fall off the stall I was sitting on at the bar and onto the floor. My head banged painfully on the floor but I started to get up just as another energy ball came towards me. I rolled out of the way and it hit the floor. I jumped up and was about to attack but the demon suddenly went up in flames. Chris was standing in its place.

"You okay?" he asked looking me up and down for injuries, settling on my shoulder which was bleeding slightly but I could feel my slayer healing kicking in.

"I'll live," I replied looking at it.

"Right, you look it," he retorted. "Let's get that cleaned up." He walked to me and gently led me to his room, if you could call it that, and set me down on the makeshift bed. He took a small box off one of the shelves and sat down next to me. He looked at me nervously for a moment. I stared back confused then followed where he was looking, at my shoulder. I looked between my shoulder and Chris mystified when it clicked. He couldn't clean it up because my black shirt was in the way.

"Errm…Thi…this is going to b….be awkward," I stuttered. "Cou…Could you just turn around for a sec." he did as I asked. I undid the buttons of the shirt and peeled it off, it was a bit stuck to the skin where the blood was but it came off easily enough. I noticed there was a hole where the energy ball had hit me but I put what remained of it in front of my body to protect my modesty and told him he could turn back around. When he saw me he swallowed hard and sat back down. He took a wipe from the box and slowly started cleaning the small wound. Chris tried to keep his eyes mostly on it but every now and then he would look up and, seeing me looking back at him, would quickly duck his head back down. When he was done my hair fell down in front of my eyes. I went to move it but Chris beat me to it. He lifted his hand and slowly moved the hair behind my ear, his fingertips gently touching my cheek. Our eyes met and I got lost in his. His hand went to the back of my head and he slowly leaned forward. He's going to kiss me, I thought in amazement. How am I going to give him up when he has to go back to the future? Our lips were just about to touch when that thought crossed my mind and I quickly put a hand on his chest to stop him from going further.

"What's wrong?" he queried. I could see the hurt and rejection in his eyes and mentally kicked myself for being the cause of it.

"I can't," I told him softly, trying to make him forgive me with my eyes. "I can't be with you when I know that you are going to have to leave. I just can't." Understanding flooded him and he opened his mouth to say something but quickly shut it and looked up.

"Damn it," he cursed. He looked at me for a second then orbed out. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding and let my shoulders sag. I needed to get out of here and do something. I quickly got changed into a top I kept at P3 and locked up the club. I walked to one of the parks and started running. I needed time to think and running was the perfect time for that. Things with Chris were going to fast for me. I had only just accepted what had happened with Angel. And how could I be with Chris knowing that he would eventually leave? I wouldn't be able to let myself fall in love with him because it would hurt too much when he left. But could I live with myself always wondering what it would be like? I thought about everything we had talked about, how I felt when I was around him and tried to compare him to Angel. With Angel I never really talked except about the supernatural, he knew I like ice skating and that was just about it and I knew barely anything about him. Angel always treated me like a child and actually thought I was as dumb as I acted most of the time. Chris, on the hand, was always talking to me. He treated me like an equal; he included me both magically and personally. I actually knew him to an extent and I felt that if I really needed him he would actually be there unlike with Angel where I just had to hope he showed up when I was in trouble.

I think I had gone around the park nearly three times before I began to tire so I started making my way to my worn out apartment. It was then that I felt excruciating pain flood through me. It felt like when I was shot on Messaline but in my abdomen. I clutched stomach my in pain and fell back onto a tree.

"Chris," I gasped out. He was the first thing that crossed my mind through the pain. I vaguely saw blue lights and a figure stand before me but I was too focused on the pain. More blue lights appeared and I was aware that I was in a different place. I don't know how long I sat like that but to me it felt like hours. I could hear someone speaking but I just couldn't make out the words. I tried to fight through the pain. It took a while but I finally was able to hear.

"Buffy, I need you to tell me what's wrong," It was a distinctly male voice and I eventually figured out it was Leo. He kept saying things to make me say what was wrong but I was still having problems dealing with the pain.

"Shot," I finally gasped out. I didn't know if that was it but that what it felt like.

"There's no blood," he told me worriedly. I didn't understand it; it felt so much like I was shot but then again my mind was still muddled. I tried to look deep within myself to find the source of the pain. I found the thread and followed it as best as I could, it led to....

"Chris...It's Chris' pain," I finally choked out. I focused on Leo again and saw him staring into space.

"Piper's calling, think you can come?" he asked after a second. I nodded slowly and we orbed out. I don't know where we orbed to, all I know is it was dark, but I was too focused on the bleeding figure on the floor.

"Chris!!" I shouted and kneeled beside him. He was losing a lot of blood. I checked his pulse and was relived to feel a heartbeat even if it was incredibly faint. I looked up to see Leo healing Wyatt.

"Hurry up and heal Chris," I all but begged. Once he was done with Wyatt he quickly started healing Chris. I watched as the blood receded back to his wound and it slowly close up. Once it was gone Chris gasped and quickly sat up. I felt relief flow through me and immediately hugged him to me to make sure he was real.

A while later we were all back at the manor. I walked past Piper's room and seeing Chris in it I stopped. He hadn't spoken to me since we got back to the manor and I really needed to talk to him. He and Leo had their backs to me but Piper was watching them and smiled at me when she saw me which I returned. I saw Leo hold out a Valkyrie pendent.

"I don't understand," Chris said. He wasn't the only one. Why would Leo give Chris a Valkyrie pendent?

"Neither do I. Just take it before I change my mind," Leo offered in way of an explanation. Change his mind about what? Leo gave him the pendant then turned and went into the nursery, giving me a nod when he saw me. From Chris' body language I could see he was smiling. I almost wanted him to turn around so I could see it. It was so rare to see him smile.

"Thanks for trying to warn us about the demon. We should have listened to you in the first place," Piper thanked out of nowhere. I would have to find out what I missed earlier.

"Well, as long as you learn something at the end of the day. That's all that matters, right?" Chris replied. There was something slightly suspicious in the way he said it that made me wonder even more about what happened today without me.

"Right," Piper agreed. "Well, I'll leave you two alone." She said then walked passes me out the room.

"Two...?" Chris asked turning around with her. He saw me and stopped. "Hi."

"Hey," I said back. We stood there awkwardly for a moment. "Can we talk?"

He held out his hand for me to take and I walked over to him to take it. We orbed to the top of Golden Gate Bridge. We had another awkward moment where we just stood there, saying nothing, looking into each others eyes.

"Buff..." Chris started but I stopped him by going on to my tiptoes and kissing him. He was hesitant for all of a second then started kissing me back. It felt amazing. It felt like coming home. It was passionate but gentle and we only stopped because Chris was running out of air.

"I thought you said you couldn't be with me," he reminded me when he got his breathe back.

"I changed my mind," I told him playfully but he gave me a look that said that she had to give a better answer than that. "I felt when that arrow went through you. I was out running when I felt it. Then when I saw you bleeding to death I was so scared. I thought that I would never see you again.... I'm not going to live my life with what ifs, wondering what it could have been like to be with you because I was too scared to try.'
"So what does that mean for us," he asked and I could see the hope blooming in his eyes. I answered as truthfully as I could.

"I don't really know."