Hey guys, um, I'm not sure if you are aware of this but you are ABSOFREAKINGLUTELY awesome, so I wanted to post this chapter as soon as I could and I really hope you guys like it.
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Hiding in plain sight
All characters belong to Cassandra Clare and I'm getting really tired of saying that
Chapter 13.
Alec's point of view
The Bane estate –yes Alec would call it an estate- was huge. It was this big brick building rising suddenly from the fair landscape. The flowery meadows surrounding Alec's house were nowhere to be seen here. The grass was cut perfectly, it seemed as if someone had actually measured every straw of grass and made sure it was just fine. The driveway led Izzy, Simon and Alec to the front door. The three of them had left the Lightwood house just mere moments ago but already Alec was getting tired of listening to Izzy sound pretentious and overly eager to please Simon, especially when Simon didn't even seem to believe the act. Still Izzy kept smiling and Simon kept talking to her about things Alec was pretty sure she didn't even understand about.
He had his own worries to take care of, he had been perfectly fine with the idea of him and Magnus being alone together but right now standing on the front steps of Magnus' house, he was getting sweaty palms again. He tried so hard to keep his calm but the infernal laughter of Izzy was ringing in his ears. Earlier today, after school Iz had decided to dress Alec up for his "date" with Magnus.
"Oh stop whining Alec!" Iz had told him many times over and over again during the afternoon "You know, honestly if you weren't my brother…" She had left the sentence hanging in the air.
Eventually Alec had agreed to let her pick whatever she wanted to and just got on with the whole thing, he had figured that would be the fastest way to get out of the situation. Iz had picked out that nice dark green dress shirt and a pair of new black jeans for him to wear. He didn't exactly feel at home with his new attire but he couldn't complain –He had to admit that he did look quite nice…
"Come on Simon" Iz said as she tugged on his T-shirt and pulled him towards the door. She knocked in a firm and determined manor. She was still wearing that Yellowish/colorful beaded top, but now she had a turquoise skirt to match it.
"Oh Alec aren't you just so excited?" She whispered to him and grinned like a maniac slightly worrying Alec.
"Yeah" He mumbled "Really excited… I'm gonna die Iz" He said trying to keep Simon from hearing him. Izzy leaned in and locked eyes with Alec "Don't worry Alec, everything is gonna be okay, anything you do, Magnus will think it's super cute so actually there's no way you can screw up" She said offering a helpful smile.
"I guess that makes sense" Alec took a deep breath just in time. The big door opened and Magnus stepped out all smiles. "Hello lovelies!" He quickly greeted Simon and Alec in a very formal handshake for some reason but then gave Izzy a tight hug "I'm so glad you guys could make it"
"No problem at all" Izzy chimed "I just know this is gonna be so much fun" She squealed whilst grabbing Simon's hand and dragging him inside.
Magnus gave the two of them an odd look and smiled at Alec "What the hell is up with her, is she sick or something"
"Nope" Alec said trying to hold back a smile; he was looking at Magnus whom was smiling at him, he had this perfect smile that could make your head spin like never before. He was wearing the same clothes as earlier making Alec feel a bit overdressed but he tried to ignore that "She's just trying to be genuinely nice to Simon; I suppose it doesn't come naturally to her"
Magnus chuckled and shook his head as if to say "Oh that Izzy of ours", but gestured towards the open door "Are you going to come in or were you planning on staying outside for the rest of the night?"
"Um yeah… Yeah I'll come inside" Alec managed to blurt out, he had to admit he wasn't too good with words even though he loved to read, the words never seemed to stick to him, he couldn't place them in the right order to make out what he wanted to say, so usually he just ended up babbling.
"Well come on then" Magnus said and held the door open for him.
As Alec stepped inside he couldn't help but wonder at everything around him, the hallway was so grand and seemed to say "Yeah, we got that money and we aint afraid to spend it"
"Your house is really nice" Alec said.
"Thank you, although I'm not the one to decorate it, if it was up to me, we'd have much more color"
Magnus rushed Alec up the stairs interrupting his admiring. Alec was careful not to stumble or smash into something. He saw a lot of no doubt expensive stuff as they walked to Magnus' room and tried not to break anything. They soon arrived to the end of a darkish corridor and Magnus swiftly opened the door which in front of they were standing.
"Welcome to my kingdom" He heard Magnus whisper softly as he guided Alec inside. The atmosphere was completely different in Magnus' room, compared to the rest of the house (at least the parts that Alec had seen) it was full of color and surprising details. There was no code to which he seemed to decorate, there were interesting patterns and shades of different vibrant colors everywhere. Alec looked around to see a huge make-up table covered with different products and bottles of who knew what. The main focus in the room seemed to be the huge bed with high posts and many decorative pillows; it was made of dark wood and had different color comforters and duvets all around it. In the middle of the bed Alec spotted a tiny white ball of fur staring at him and Magnus.
"Say hi to the chairman" Magnus said whilst picking up the cat and petting its head.
"Er… Hi Chairman" Alec said sounding confused.
"Say hello to Alec Chairman" Magnus said "Hello Alec, it's a pleasure to meet you" Magnus was pretending to speak for Chairman Meow, he used this tiny high pitched voice to mouth out the sentence and waved the poor cat's paw.
Alec started to laugh; Magnus looked too cute to be true. Alec really hoped he was real; the moment seemed real enough though the slightly disturbing factor of a talking cat could throw that assumption out of the window.
"Alrighty, since the introductions have been made I suggest that we join your sister and Simon before they kill each other"
Alec nodded and waved goodbye to Chairman who was left sleeping on a huge red comforter.
Magnus led the way to the rear corner of his room, Alec was curious to see what was there. He walked closer as Magnus seemed to disappear in to the wall, as Alec got closer he saw that in reality he had lowered himself into a staircase that seemed to appear out of nowhere. It was dimly light and steeped downwards heavily, it was dark wood with engravings in it, and it was a quite beautiful work of art even if it was just a staircase. "Come on" Magnus beckoned Alec to join him.
"You have a movie theatre basement?" Alec astonished.
"Well if you wanna call it that then sure" Magnus said cheerfully as he made his way all the way down Alec closely behind him.
"Well what do you call it then?"
"I call it my entertainment room" Magnus said having this quirky look in his eyes "You know, where I entertain my guests"
"Oh" Alec said and blushed a bit not knowing what exactly Magnus meant.
Magnus waved his hand at Alec and took determined steps towards the huge but very somehow intimate space. Alec followed him silently and spotted Izzy sitting on one of the many different colored sofas and comfy looking seats. He wondered how Izzy knew how to navigate herself down here without Magnus to help her; surely she hadn't been here before?
Alec really liked the way the room was decorated; it had kind of a cool hidden look to it with its dark red walls and warm colored lamps casting shadows around it. There were big thin pieces of fabric hung from the ceiling making it look like a sky of rainbows. The huge movie screen on the right side wall was still able to fit in.
As Alec and Magnus approached Iz and Simon, he noticed that the two seemed to be engaged in an actual conversation.
"So why does Miss. Turner not like you?" He heard Izzy's questioning voice.
"I guess it's coz I'm half her age and she has a boyfriend" Simon answered.
"I don't think that's why" Izzy said actually sounding sure of her case "I think she just has a problem, honestly I think that if a middle aged woman has a high school student interested in her she should just go with it coz I mean she couldn't do too much better than that now could she"
Simon let out a laugh and it sounded genuine "She doesn't look middle aged though"
"Oh I've seen her and let me tell you Simon that "I'm an innocent blond who happens to be smart" thing is a total act". Iz shrugged her shoulders "I think she's an idiot for not liking you"
Alec looked at Magnus who was also staring at Izzy with a questioning look.
"Do you think she's saying that for real?" Magnus whispered to Alec who just shrugged his shoulders "I honestly can't tell, it's scary isn't it?"
Magnus nodded "Poor Simon" Alec joined him "Indeed".
They decided to make their presence known so Alec cleared his throat and could visibly see Izzy jump further away from Simon "Oh, hey guys, what took you so long?"
"Oh Alec was just interacting with Chairman" Magnus said and took a seat on the couch opposite of Izzy and Simon. It was dark green, almost blue and looked like it was vintage. Magnus leaned back and set his feet on the table in front of him.
"Should we get started?" Magnus asked holding up the DVD case. Alec was still standing awkwardly directly in front of the screen.
"Not now!" Izzy exclaimed "Don't you see Simon is having a hard time?" Izzy spread her arms dramatically "He's just been dumped and I don't think watching the Grinch will make him feel any better"
"Actual-" Simon started but Izzy cut him off by shushing.
"I think we should go and get ice cream" She said with a cheery voice "Who's with me?"
Magnus let out a yawn "If you wish to ponder on Simon's relationship problems you may leave because I want to watch a movie" He said staring Izzy down. Alec wasn't quite sure on what she was doing but he guessed it was part of her exit strategy.
"Simon?" Izzy said looking at him "Would you like to go get some ice cream with me?" She said it with such devotion that Alec had a hard time holding back a smirk.
"Yeah" Simon said looking mesmerized "Definitely"
Izzy got up and so did Simon and suddenly Alec felt a surge of adrenaline rush through his body. "This is really it, they are leaving now. Shit. I need to do something, I gotta get out of here, and this space is too closed off. God I'm gonna die" Was basically the type of thoughts running through his head. He was gonna pass out and who knew what. He felt his breathing become heavier. "Calm down, what the hell do you think will happen to you anyway, this isn't even officially a date, you're just gonna watch a movie, that's it!" He told himself but it didn't do that much good. He was full on panicking now as he saw first Simon disappear into the staircase and right behind him went Iz who gave him a supporting smirk and the vanished upstairs.
"Well now that that's settled would you please put the disc in?" He heard Magnus' voice but didn't react.
"Alec?" He heard Magnus say again and this time he shook himself out of the panicky stage "Yeah?"
"I asked if you would put the movie on." Magnus said while handing Alec the DVD.
"Oh yeah, okay sure" He said and walked towards the DVD-player. He could feel Magnus eyeing him up and down from behind and soon became very self conscious. He placed the DVD in to the player and quickly got up and made his way to the couch Iz and Simon had been occupying.
"Where are you going?" Magnus asked in a very innocent tone.
"Eh, to the couch?" Alec mumbled.
"Oh but won't you sit with me" Magnus said smiling and patting the seat next to him "I might get scared of the Grinch" He said with a laugh escaping his lips.
Alec hesitated but as Magnus patted the seat again he complied and sat on the couch.
Magnus grabbed the remote control and pressed play.
The movie went on and on and the Grinch dressed his dog to look like a reindeer and all that jazz but Alec didn't care. He wasn't paying any attention to the movie and neither was Magnus. They were both painfully aware of each other; while one pretended to watch the screen the other stole a quick glance.
Alec was just sitting in the dark room and trying very hard not to breathe too heavily, he was afraid Magnus would notice and ask him why he was so nervous. Apparently he was doing a very bad job at that because Magnus turned to look at Alec and he could see his emerald green eyes staring at him through the darkness "Are you alright Alexander?"
Good god, if it hadn't been for the fact that once again Magnus called him Alexander, he might have been able to say "Yes, I'm fine" but now he was just stuck there feeling things that made him want to run away as fast as possible. He was even more confused than ever, if that was even possible. He could feel his pulse throbbing faster and faster, he felt his skin begin to burn under Magnus' curious eyes.
"I-I…" He didn't know what to say so before he could change his mind he decided to go with the truth "I… I know about your and Izzy's plan about making this a "double not date"
He looked at Magnus hoping for some desperate understanding. Magnus seemed to take the news as something positive "But that's good right? So you've told Izzy then?"
Alec was taken aback by Magnus' forwardness but was able to stammer an answer "Yeah, we talked yesterday and it was weird because I hadn't really admitted it to myself before we moved here" Alec felt the need to explain.
"Oh" Magnus breathed "That's interesting"
"How so?" Alec asked in a very silent voice.
"Well… Because I was so sure you were attracted to me the day we first met" Magnus smiled at him and actually took his hand "…And I just thought that it was too obvious for you to deny it from yourself" Magnus played with Alec's fingers making his breath hitch as he looked into Magnus' eyes. "Of course…" Magnus said with a suggestive smirk playing on his lips "… It could have just been my imagination" And then he let go of Alec's hand and let it drop limply on the couch.
Alec instantly missed the warmth of Magnus' hand on his. He felt bare and exposed now that he wasn't caught in the moment anymore. He looked into the other boy's eyes and tried to grasp on something steady, like the glowing green staring at him.
"I don't think you could imagine something like that" Alec gasped.
"You have no idea how vivid my imagination can be" Magnus replied "So tell me is my imagination exceeding its limits?"
"No" Alec took a sharp breath as he plainly placed the words out there. He felt shaky and insecure. Magnus was looking at him nonstop and it was quite agonizing really, Alec felt as if anything he did would be carefully noted by Magnus. Honestly he was quite done with not knowing anything so he decided to ask the dumb question.
"Well what about now, what happens now?" He asked with anxiety visibly heard in his voice.
"Has anything really changed now?" Magnus asked playfully "I mean I knew you liked me, you had to know I liked you because hun I was being pretty forward"
Alec nodded "I did think you liked me but I didn't know for sure… I mean it's just so…" Alec was unable to finish the question.
"So what?" Magnus asked innocently sounding truly interested.
"…So impossible"
"Why would you say that, I'm quite obviously very clearly all the way out there, there is no doubt that I'm not gay so why did you think it was impossible for me to like you?"
Alec felt very small and insignificant right now, his voice came out shaky as he tried to explain "Because I'm just me and you, you're so different, you're good looking and confident and funny and smart and…-"
"Wow, wait a minute there" Magnus cut Alec off "First off all thank you for all those lovely compliments but Alec… You are nothing less than all those things you described me to be. You being just you is perfectly fine, because you just being you is amazing". Magnus brought his hand up to slightly caress Alec's cheek. At first Alec flinched, no one had ever really touched him like that. He felt Magnus' hand soft and warm on his cheek slightly moving and holding Alec's gaze up.
"E-even confident?" Alec asked not pushing Magnus' hand away. He was forced to look up but he enjoyed the touch far too much to let go.
"Yes definitely confident" Magnus said and moved up a little closer. "I think you are sweet with your awkwardness… but I think you step up whenever needed. It's sweet and admirable how you're so protective off Izzy…even though I think if anyone ever tried to hurt her she'd probably kick their ass… but that is not the point my dear Alexander, the point is that you are absolutely wonderful and I am very, very much attracted to you"
Alec felt relieved and scared at the same time; he had never ever been in a situation like this and had no idea what to do.
He tried out a smile and received one back from Magnus. They just sat there as the movie rolled on and studied each other. It seemed as if the slightest movement could ruin the moment.
Alec still felt Magnus' hand on his cheek, the soft texture of his skin felt amazing on Alec's skin. He began to wonder how it would feel everywhere, if Magnus' hand felt so good he begun to wonder how his lips would feel. It was sort of irrational for Alec to have these thoughts considering he'd never really kissed anyone but he felt as if he was ready to give it a try, he just didn't know what he was supposed to do. Should he ask for a kiss? Or should he just go for the kiss? What if he was a horrible kisser? What if Magnus didn't want to kiss him?
Whilst Alec was thinking he could feel Magnus tug him a bit closer. It snapped him out of his thoughts, Alec was very much aware of the fact that Magnus was leaning in and looking into Alec's baby blue eyes.
He felt Magnus' hand move a little lower and grab his chin. Alec was pretty much trembling by now. He had his eyes on Magnus' lips that were curved into a seductive smile. He could feel himself waking up slowly everywhere. This was going to be his first real kiss and he was nervous and anxious about it.
"May I kiss you please?" Magnus asked not breaking the spell of the moment.
Alec finally forced himself to look up into Magnus' eyes instead of those luscious lips he wanted to feel on his own so badly, "Yes".
So okay, don't hate me please... I know It's a cliff hanger but hey, don't you think a malec first kiss deserves it's own chapter? Yeah, that's what I thought :D
I really hope you liked it and I really hope you guys review because you know how much I like reviews ;D
Also I think you should know, that I've never actually written a kissing scene or a "lemon" as you call it, but I'm giving it my best shot so just wait and see :D
Love ALWAYS - Alexandra, who Is really hoping you won't mind the cliff hanger.
