BEING ME

Casey pulled her car up to the front of the Kappa Tau house just as Cappie was walking out with his bag.

"I told Spitter where we were going," said Cappie putting his bag in the trunk. "He wishes us good luck."

"Yeah I texted Ashleigh," Casey replied. "She told me the same thing."

Cappie then opened up the driver's side door.

"Other side," he said sternly.

"Cap, this is my car," said Casey.

"Yes but you are pregnant," Cappie replied. "You don't need to be driving if you don't have to. Now get out."

Casey rolled her eyes at him as she took off her seatbelt and went to the other side of the car to get in. Cappie started the car back up and headed off towards the highway.

"I figured since it's around eight now we'll drive for two or three hours before stopping to find a place to sleep," he said.

"That sounds good to me," Casey replied.

"So," said Cappie as he merged onto the highway. "What should we talk about?"

Casey didn't reply.

"Something is on your mind," Cappie continued. "You know you can tell me anything Casey. Let's just talk."

"I'm kind of worried Cap," Casey admitted. "I know the decision we made to keep the baby is the best decision. I just have this empty vision of the future. You know me, I always have to have some sort of plan. I wish we had a plan."

"Well," said Cappie. "Graduation is just a little over a month away. What do you think we should do after graduation? Where do you want to go?"

"I always pictured going wherever my new job takes me," Casey replied with a sigh.

"Do you want to move back to Chicago?" asked Cappie. "I wouldn't mind living in Chicago."

"I don't want you to feel like you have to go wherever I want to go though," Casey replied.

"I go wherever my child goes," Cappie stated. "Besides, my parents are constantly moving around the country. It's not like I have anywhere to really call home to go to."

Casey felt bad for Cappie. He has never really had much of a relationship with his parents with them traveling all of the time. It's no wonder why he's so supportive to her and the baby. He wants to make sure the baby has the relationship with his or her parents that he never had.

"OK, so we'll both look for jobs in Chicago then," said Casey.

"Are you going to move in with your parents?" Cappie asked.

"Depends on how they take the news tomorrow," Casey replied. "But I also wouldn't mind getting an apartment or house with you. If you want to that is."

"I would like that a lot better than you living with your parents," said Cappie. "But I would deal with whatever I have to deal with to be near you and our child."

"I guess I would have to switch doctors if we move to Chicago," Casey said. "Man, one of us is going to have to find a job with health insurance quickly. There is no way we can pay for the hospital bill to have the baby."

"Case, it's probably going to have to be you to get health insurance," Cappie stated. "I don't think you could be on mine unless we're married."

The car became silent with Cappie's last comment.

"Cap, do you think we'll get married?" Casey asked.

"Case, I have something to tell you," said Cappie softly.

Casey turned to look at Cappie. His eyes remained locked on the road.

"What?" asked Casey nervously.

"No, it's nothing bad," Cappie reassured her. "I didn't tell you earlier because I didn't want us to make our decision to keep the baby based on it."

He saw Casey staring at him out of the corner of his eye.

"Casey, I have money," Cappie finally admitted.

"What do you mean?" Casey asked becoming confused.

Cappie took a deep breath.

"My dad was the only child of my grandparents. Grandma and grandpa were very wealthy I guess you could say. My grandmother passed away several years ago from cancer. When my grandfather started to get sick a few years ago he tried to pass his money down to my father. But my parents, being the free hippies that they are, refused the money. So my grandfather left all of his money to me, his only grandson."

He could tell Casey was giving him a somewhat confused look out of the corner of his eye again.

"Basically," he continued. "I didn't want to be an Evan Chambers. No one knows about the money. The only thing I use it for right now is school and my dues for Kappa Tau. It's not millions of dollars or anything so we're certainly not set for life. But I just want you to know that finances when it comes to our baby are not an issue. I can support us."

Casey sat there completely in shock.

"Cappie, I had no idea," she said.

"Case, no one did," Cappie replied. "And I would prefer to just keep that piece of information between us if you don't mind."

"No problem," Casey replied. "Thank you."

"No need to thank me," said Cappie. "Thank my grandparents."

"Well thank you grandma and grandpa Cappie," Casey said with a smile.

"OK, I don't know about you but I've had enough of deep planning conversation for now," said Cappie. "Let's talk about something non-baby related for a bit."

"OK," Casey replied.

So for the next hour and a half Cappie and Casey mostly made small talk in the car. They discussed music, movies and overall Greek life. The baby was mentioned a few times but mostly by Cappie who expressed what music and movies his child would and would not watch in life. Cappie saw Casey yawn around eleven and decided it was time to pull off the highway and find a hotel. They pulled into a Hampton Inn just over the state line into Indiana and checked into a room with two double beds.

"I'm going to go change into my pajamas," said Casey as she took her bag into the bathroom and shut the door.

Cappie took this opportunity to change into a pair of shorts and a t-shirt. He turned on the television and climbed into the bed on the right. A few minutes later Casey came out of the bathroom in shorts and a tank top.

"Can you really tell I'm showing?" she asked Cappie as she stood in a side profile at the foot of his bed.

"Not really," Cappie replied. "You may have a little bump but if it's any conciliation I think it's kind of cute."

"Thanks Cap," said Casey as she climbed into the other bed.

Casey relaxed in the bed as Cappie flipped through the television stations. He came across a rerun episode of House and stopped on that channel.

"Remember freshman year when cuddled in bed every Monday night and watched House?" Casey finally asked when the first commercial break came on.

"Of course," Cappie replied with a smile. "But you can't forget it was also blueberry pie night."

"Mmmmm, that sounds so good right now," said Casey rubbing her stomach underneath the covers.

"I swear if it wasn't almost midnight and I knew where in the heck we were I would find you some of that pie right now," said Cappie.

"That's sweet," Casey replied. "But I'm OK. I was just mentioning how good it sounded."

"I did pack some snack cakes in my bag," said Cappie. "Are you hungry? Would you want one?"

"Sure," Casey replied.

Cappie tossed the box of snack cakes to her just as the show was coming back from the commercial break. She took two out and ate them rather quickly.

"Wow, you were hungry," said Cappie as she gave the box back to him.

"Hey, did you forget I'm eating for two now?" Casey snapped.

"How could I forget?" Cappie asked sarcastically.

The next commercial break came on and Casey turned to Cappie.

"I have to admit Cap," she said. "I'm kind of lost in this episode. I haven't watched House since freshman year."

"You didn't continue to watch it?" Cappie asked.

"No, I guess I was always busy doing something on Monday nights," Casey replied.

"I never missed an episode," Cappie stated softly. "Watching it always reminded me of you."

Casey looked over at him and each of them smiled weakly as they made eye contact.

"Well, let me give you a quick rundown," Cappie finally said breaking their stare. "Basically Cameron and Chase are engaged and working at the hospital but not under House anymore. I believe we are watching the most recent season finale. The two of them get married and House gets put into a psych hospital because he's seeing things."

"Wow, this show got pretty crazy these past couple of years," Casey replied.

The show came back on and the two were silent watching intently. The next commercial break came on and Casey was about to ask Cappie for another snack cake when he spoke first.

"I feel really awkward with you in that bed over there," he said. "I always pictured us cuddling and watching House again."

He took a deep breath.

"So I don't suppose you would like to come over here and cuddle?" he continued.

Casey didn't even have to think about it. She jumped right out of her bed and snuggled in right next to Cappie. He put his arm around her shoulders and held her tight. The very end of the episode showed the wedding between Cameron and Chase. Casey couldn't help but take the moment and approach Cappie with something that had been bothering her.

"Cap, can I ask you a question?" she asked as the show ended.

"Hm?" Cappie asked increasing the tightness of his grasp around her.

"Don't get me wrong, I really appreciate your honesty earlier tonight telling me about your money," said Casey. "But I can't help but think about how you used that to completely do a 360 with the question I had asked you before that."

"And what was that question?" asked Cappie even though he already knew the answer.

"I had asked you if you thought we would ever get married," Casey replied.

Casey could feel Cappie stiffen up and she could hear his heart beat a little faster as her head rested right on his chest.

"Case, I don't even know if I would consider us together even right now," Cappie replied. "Let alone start talking about marriage."

"I don't see why we can't be together," Casey replied. "You told me you loved me the night we had sex. I know you still have feelings for me."

"I've always had feelings for you Casey," said Cappie. "That has never changed."

"So then what's the problem?" Casey asked sitting up so she could look at Cappie.

Cappie took a deep breath. "Case, I really don't want to talk about this right now. We have been having such a good time. Let's not ruin it," he stated.

"Why? What's wrong?" Casey asked.

Cappie took another deep breath. He stared at Casey. She gave him the pouty eyes he hated to see. He was always a sucker for them.

"Alright fine," he said. "If you must know I'm hesitant."

"Hesitant about what?" Casey asked.

"About your real motives," Cappie replied. "It seems to me a lot of your talk about getting back together is based on the baby. And I'm sorry but I'm not going to get down on one knee and ask you to marry me just for the sake of the baby. I want you and I to truly find that love and passion we had freshman year before heading into anything."

"I don't understand your reasoning Cap," said Casey in a frustrated tone. "I poured my heart out to you at the End of the World party and you were the one who rejected me. I made my feelings known way before this baby came along."

"I'm just being honest Case," said Cappie. "I don't feel that spark. I'm sorry."

He looked at Casey. She lowered her head to look at the bed. He knew she was hurt. The last thing he wanted to do what hurt her. But she needed to know how he was really feeling.

"Hey, come here," he said pulling her back down next to him.

He kissed her forehead softly.

"Just because the spark's not here now doesn't mean that it never will be," he tried to reassure Casey. "I still deeply care about you Casey. We're going to be parents. There is no greater bond between two people. I promise you that."

Casey looked up at Cappie so she could stare into his eyes.

"I can understand your reservations when it comes to our relationship," she said. "But I just want to tell you one thing."

Cappie looked at her straight in the eyes, showing her he would take in and keep anything she was about to say to him.

"That night we made this baby," she continued putting her hand on her stomach. "I know you don't remember this or anything, but right after you told me you loved me I told you that I loved you too. The feeling I felt with those exchange of words that night was mind-blowing. I never felt so connected with you. I never felt so in love with you, not even freshman year. That night was far from a one night stand. It was something unbelievably special for me. I just hope that one day you can realize how special it was for you too. Because even though you were drunk, I know those words coming out of your mouth were truthful and from the heart. You know what they say, with alcohol comes honesty. "

With that Casey leaned in and kissed Cappie on the cheek.

"Goodnight Cap," she said as she climbed out of his bed and back into her own.

Cappie couldn't say a word. The only thing he recognized was the tingling feeling that overcame his body as she told him how special that night was for her. He hadn't felt this tingling feeling in years and of course it scared him at first. But as he turned on his side to try and fall asleep he couldn't help but wonder if the spark was coming back, if he was truly in love with Casey Cartwright.

A/N: Hmmmm.....not much to say today.....haha. Just that I hope you guys liked the new chapters. Chapter 12 was pretty short so that's why I added 13 too. Keep up the great reviews, they give me motivation to write more and more!

And Hans153.....yes, Evan does find out.....and his reaction is anything but good.....but you'll have to wait until Chapter 21 to see what happens!