Lindsey and I pulled away from Sara's house, driving down the rising sun street. Lindsey sat in the drivers seat, glancing over at me continuously before checking the road again. I leaned my back up against the car door, facing her in my chair. I just kept starring at her..it's like I couldn't look away. For some reason I was so drawn to Lindsey again. I don't even know why, just something about her showing up and fighting for me like that just...I don't know. It changed something about me.
Wet skin, soft touch, hands graze against my breast...oh why is this going so quickly?
The memory fazed in and out quickly. I didn't react to my thoughts, but I didn't even know what it was. I kept starring at Lindsey as she reached over and turned on the radio, playing a soft rock channel.
Her hair was draped over her eyes with her mouth wide open, breathing quickly over me. Was the gasping coming from me or her?
I bit my lip quietly, shifting uncertainly in my seat. "Oh god.." I thought to myself. I didn't want to have sexual thoughts about Lindsey right now, this wasn't an okay time to be horny. I tried to pull my mind away from those images but now they flooded into my eyes in depth, coming with the feelings and tingles that it originally gave.
Te...Tegan..." she breathed out. Her hips grinded against mine as her hand separated us. I threw my head back on the bed, squeezing my eyes shut, but my body couldn't hold in my contemption much longer and my lungs erupted with a moan, forcing my eyes open and my back to arch out...but that only made things worse. She leaned over me, pressing her hips against mine, gliding her tongue around on my chest, tracing my erect nipples. The tingle against my chest made me grit my teeth, holding onto the bed from the odd mixture of pain and pleasure.
"Are you alright Tegan..?" Lindsey asked as she turned a corner. I blinked at the air, and shook my head as I came too again.
"Uh..yeah, I'm fine. Just trying to stay awake.." I smiled a bit and looked around the car. Lindsey smiled at me and looked back at the road. As I sat there, I realized that my hands were holding onto the edge of my pants, and as I shifted in my seat, I felt my face flush at the feeling of my slippery thighs.
She moved up, sliding her hands around my bare, sweaty skin. She wrapped her lips around my neck, kissing it and nibbling with precession. A chocking feeling filled my throat as my legs trembled in temptation as I just laid there on the bed with her hovering over me. She moved away from my neck, hanging her face right above mine, and my memory started to fade away again when I saw the face of the girl was Sara's.
My eyes opened wide, and my hands let go of my pants. Wha-what? That was Sara the whole time?
"T-Tegan.." She breathed out. Her voice was so hushed and crackly as her fingers found warmth.
That memory repeated itself, and now I realized the voice. It was Sara's. And as I thought about it, in the memory, I did actually notice one of Sara's tattoos.
"Oh god.." I thought again, but this time it wasn't because of the thoughts themselves, it was because they were about Sara. I didn't want to recall those things, not now...and not ever. I needed to leave those things in the past. I did something stupid in her house just a while ago. I shouldn't have let myself get close to her...fuck, I shouldn't have even gone to her house! But what else was I supposed to do? After everything that happened with-
My eyes looked up at Lindsey, who was completely oblivious to my discomfort. I don't even think she had looking over at me at all recently. She just...drove. Like everything was fine. Like everything that just happened wasn't a big deal. But...it was a big deal.
It was a big deal to me.
"Sara...Sara...Sara slow down...Sa-SARA!" I screamed her name on the bed, watching her smile grow bigger and bigger as I grew weaker and weaker. She loved being in control over my body, and right now I think she loved it too much.
I didn't try to shake the thoughts this time, because as I watched Lindsey, my hopes for keeping her with me started to become as much of a reality as these memories were.
"Relax Tegan...I'm not even close to done with you.." Her words echoed through the silence, and before I could start to wonder why it was so quiet, a small 'buzz' came through the darkness, and soon the loud vibration slide it's way around the curve of my inner thighs - causing me to choke on my breath.
I felt a sweat bead fall down the side of my forehead. I couldn't help it now, these escalations were getting intense, and I wanted to remember how it ended.
I wanted to know so badly now. My fingers slide under my thighs in my seat, trying desperately to cease the thumping want between my thighs. It took more effort than I expected to hold my own hand back.
We laid in silence on each other's chests, flat against the bed; just listening to each other's soft breathing.
I guess the memory skipped. God damnit, I wanted to remember...how it ended. Oh well..
"Tegan?" Sara asked quietly.
"Yeah?" I responded, turning my head to look at her. Sara's eyes looked dejected, but it was hard to really see through the dark room. She didn't say anything as she moved her head on my chest a little bit.
"What is it Sara?" I asked. She looked up at me now, smiling a little bit.
"I love you Tegan..."
I reached up and held Sara's face in my hand, watching her wet eyes as I felt mine do the same.
"I love you too Sara."