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Bella POV

I finally held him in my arms. After all these long months here he was. With me. But for how long? How long would his guilt hold him here? "I could never hate you. Never." I whispered as I held him as tightly as I could.

"Bella. Please. Let, go." He said and my heart broke as I tried to find the strength to pull away. I turned from him and walked a short distance away, looking out at the trees instead of at him. If I could have cried I think the tears would have been rolling so fast there would be a flash flood. As it was I could barely contain the dry sobs that were welling up in my body.

"Bella please don't be upset. You misunderstood me." He said with a sigh as he was suddenly behind me and pulled me to his chest. His head rested on mine as we both looked out at the view before us. "Your stronger then I am right now. I just don't want to be crushed." He laughed as if this was the best joke in the world. His one arm was across my chest and I slowly brought my hands up to clasp them on his arm. "I'll let you hold me as long as you don't squeeze too hard. I've missed you Bella. So very much."

His voice was soft, not even a whisper, when he spoke. I reveled in the warmth of his body against mine. I had thought that I would never feel like this again.

We stood like that for a moment longer then I turned to face him and ask the questions that had been haunting me. "Why did you come back? I thought I was just a… distraction."

"For you." He said as he cupped my face in his hands. "It's always been for you. I breathe for you. I live for you. I left for you. To save you. And now I'm back. For you. Always it comes down to you."

I lay my head on his chest and sighed. Not quite believing it was the truth, but wanting to. "Why did you leave in the first place?" I asked quietly, not looking up at him.

"I left so you wouldn't be exposed to this life. I didn't want to take the chance of causing you to lose your soul. A creature as good as you should be allowed into heaven. Not damned to hell. You were always too good for me. The light to my darkness." He whispered into my hair as he held me tighter. "I couldn't do that to you."

"When you left my life was hell. Every last second." I looked up at him and stared into his warm butterscotch eyes. "I have been living in hell since the day you left. Even Jacob and The Pack couldn't take away the pain."

He stared down at me until he realized what I had said and he started to frown. "The Pack?"

"Well you remember how Jacob sort of helped me figure out what you are? Apparently the wolves are back. Sam Uley leads them." I was quiet as he continued to stare at me.

"You really are a magnet for danger aren't you? I couldn't even leave you for a few months could I?" he smiled my crocked little smile as he swept a small piece of my hair behind my ear.

"Actually they thought that they came back because you were back in the area. Thankfully they were there, Laurent came back and almost killed me. If they hadn't been there and gotten to him then I probably wouldn't be here." He stared into my eyes as I spoke and I watch as the emotions flashed across his face.

"Why didn't Alice see it?" he whispered after the shock took hold of him. "Why? We could have lost you. We almost did. Twice now."

I held him tighter as he started to tremble and I couldn't help but wonder that I was the cause of his tremors. I held him tighter as the trembling got worse. "I'm here now Edward and more resilient then ever. Laurent and Victoria are gone. Dead, and never coming back."

"Bella, too tight." He whispered once the tremors ceased. I looked back up into his eyes and his head slowly lowered to mine. As our lips met I felt a shock run through me. I once again felt like I was on fire, burning from the inside out. It was almost as bad as when Victoria's venom was coursing through my blood stream. He pulled me closer and deepened the kiss. He had been holding back on me, all the times was had kissed before.

I pressed myself closer to him and my hands reached around to his back. He pulled back for a moment and as our lips came apart I started feeling bereft. Only to have him place gentle little kisses over my face. "Edward." I whispered.

"We have to stop for now Bella, my Bella. The others are probably wondering where we are." He stated as he stopped the kisses and looked me in the eye.

"They'll get over it." I smiled.

"Are you so sure? What about your friend Blake? He seemed a bit, attached, to you." Edward couldn't seem to be able to keep from touching me. As we talked his hands swept over my face and then sat on my shoulders. "I wouldn't want you to worry but he does consider you 'his Bella'."

I stood back from him a moment and really looked at him. After a few seconds he dropped his eyes from mine and looked away, confirming my thoughts. "Edward Cullen, are you jealous?" I couldn't help but laugh. "There is only you. Blake and I understand each other. We each lost someone who was our whole world. That is a pain that creates bonds between the survivors. I was sorry for what I did but that girl with them, Kyra, is his sister. I guess it's better that I had to turn him otherwise he would still think she was dead. And he'd be spiraling down in the darkness like I was."

Edward looked crushed at my words and I realized that I had said too much. My pain caused him pain and I vowed that I would never speak of it again. I laid my head back down on his chest. "I guess we should make sure their not bugging Alice too much. Besides, I'm not really sure about Kyra. I only know that she is related to Blake."

Edward stepped back slowly and placed a small kiss on my lips before taking my hand. "It will take me a while but I think I could get used to your new 'friend'."

The trees passed slower now as we walked leisurely back to the clearing. I took a moment to wonder at the fact that I ran that far without tripping or falling. I imagine I was probably the clumsiest vampire out there but at least I wasn't as accident prone. No sooner did I have that thought and I stumbled. Edward simply laughed but quieted when I looked up at him. "Think that's funny do you?" I ask with a touch of venom in my voice.

"Not really, no. It just proves that your still my Bella." I huffed a little then acted like I was going to walk away from him. "Don't be mad." He whispered and I turned around. He could tell all was forgiven by the smile on my face. His answering smirk lit my heart up but I frowned as he sank down in to a crouching position. "Edward?"

"You think you can tease me do you?" he asked, his eyes shining in anticipation. "You better run."

I laughed as I turned and raced away. I remembered the race away from him and I made certain to weave through the woods to give myself a little bit more time before he caught me. The race over the forest floor seemed lighter then it had a few minutes ago. I felt as if I could take wing and fly I was so elated. I was close enough now to the clearing that I could see Alice. Alice, my best friend in the world. How I had missed her. I never could figure out why she had listened to Edward and not come to see me. She never really listened to him any other time.

Suddenly I felt Edward closing the gap and I tried to put on another burst of speed but managed to catch a tree branch with my foot and I started to tumble. Edward chose that moment to rush forward to try to catch me but we were both moving too fast and with us each preoccupied we didn't quite stop right. We burst through the trees into the clearing in one twig covered heap.